"Oh, my God. Ciel, I'm so sorry." William said, shocked by the sudden tragedy. He quickly wrapped his arms around Ciel and hugged him tightly, unsure of how to comfort him.
Sebastian stepped into the room and froze in his tracks when he saw the two hugging and smelled the salty human tears. William wasn't crying, so that had to mean Ciel was. "What the Hell happened? Ciel, what is it?" Sebastian asked worriedly, walking over to the two. Ciel was usually a very strong person, Sebastian could never remember seeing him cry before. That meant something terrible must've just happened to him.
Ciel felt more tears fall as he returned the hug. He only looked up when he heard Sebastian's voice. "A-aunt Ann…..sh-she…." The teen buried his face into William's chest as a fresh wave of tears escaped him. "She's d-dead….." he hiccuped softly, "Sh-she was atta-acked…in the next town o-over…"
Will rubbed Ciel's back gently, never wanting to let go of him. He wanted nothing more than to make Ciel feel better. But, looking up at Sebastian, William knew he wouldn't be able to do it.
Sebastian's eyes dulled with gloom as he stepped closer, a bit surprised when William stepped away from Ciel so he could get to him more easily. The demon threw a grateful glance in William's direction before taking Ciel up in his arms. He picked the younger boy up and put him on the couch. Will sat next to the two as Sebastian held Ciel close and petted his head softly. "I'm so sorry, Love. I don't think there's anything we can do to make this better." He kissed the top of Ciel's head lightly. "But we're here for you, Will and I both."
"Right," Will agreed. He looked at the demon, and the demon looked back at him. For a second, they both had a mutual understanding. Everything had changed. They weren't playing against each other for Ciel's affections, they were now simply two people trying to make the younger teen feel better. For now, the boys' battle of jealousy and dislike was over.
Ciel nodded and gave a small sniff "th-thank you" he mumbled as he wrapped his arms tightly around the demon. "They say that the only clue they had to her killer was a strange looking man and woman walking from near the sight…"
Sebastian stiffened. My parents. That was his immediate thought, but he couldn't possibly believe they'd kill a young human woman on purpose. Since they had come to Earth, Sebastian's parents were on a strict 'homeless and elderly' diet. But, Could they have killed her by accident somehow? There's no one else in this town that could be described as strange looking besides them and myself…Oh, God…What if it's true? How could I possibly tell Ciel? Would he ever forgive me? Would he never want to see me again? The demon could feel a panic attack coming on, and took a deep breath. He tried his best to remain calm and not freak out. This wasn't about him, it was about Ciel. "Don't worry, I'm sure they'll be caught soon…" he said in a velvety, comforting tone.
The small teen looked up at Sebastian with a tear filled eye, "Y-you really think so?" he hugged Sebastian tightly as he started to calm down. After a bit the bluenette was calm and continuing to press close to Sebastian. "I truly don't know what I would do without you….."
The demon gulped softly. "You're tough, Ciel. I know you have the strength to get through anything, with or without me." He brought his hand up and gently wiped away Ciel's tears with his thumb before caressing the younger's face softly and giving him a soft kiss on the lips. Sebastian had almost forgotten about William being there, all he cared about was making Ciel feel better. Will sat there awkwardly, unsure of what to do with himself. He turned away from the couple and thought to himself about how he'd comfort Ciel if he had the chance. Oddly, it wasn't far from what Sebastian was doing. Holding Ciel and kissing him softly, telling him everything was alright. That was all anyone could do when someone died.
Ciel merely rolled his eyes and pressed closer to his boyfriend, unaware of a certain demon and redhead watching from a distance.
"I don't see how killing off the brats aunt got us anywhere!" Grell pouted towards the demon. Claude sighed and ran his hand through his hair "All good things to those who wait" he said calmly "There is no need to worry, soon Ciel Phantomhive shall be no more"
William was pulled from his thoughts as he looked out the window at the white storm outside. He could've sworn he saw something move. William took off his glasses and cleaned the lenses with his shirt, looking back at a blurred Ciel worriedly.
Sebastian held him close and continued to pet and smooth down Ciel's slightly tousled hair. His thoughts were troubled. Mom…Dad…Are you the ones who just destroyed Ciel's life? he asked in his head, wishing he could go to his parents and ask them himself. He could go, if he wanted. But that meant leaving Ciel in his time of need with someone he didn't exactly trust. And there was no way he'd make two humans go out into the deadly storm just so he could find out what happened. "Ciel?" he asked softly, in a velvety tone of concern and comfort. "Are you hungry? Would you like more hot chocolate?"
"I could make some for you. Since I watched before, I pretty much know what to do." William offered softly as he replaced his glasses on his nose.
Ciel shook his head softly, his usual cold gaze returning quickly. "No, i'll be fine…." he answered softly before slowly getting up and taking a small breath. "I'm sorry for my small break down, but i'm better now" The teen ran his fingers through his beautiful blue hair before letting it drop to his side then looked up at William. "It looks as if you shall be staying here for tonight, if you'll excuse me I'll go and get you a blanket and some pillows for tonight" With that the bluenette turned and quickly walked past the two teens and up the stairs.
Sebastian was surprised at the sudden emptiness in his grasp. He sighed, watching Ciel go up the stairs. "He's always like this when he's upset. Always trying to hide it behind his pride. Sometimes I'm happy that he has such strength, but sometimes I wish there was something I could do to take his pain away." Sebastian admitted.
William frowned. "I wish there was something I could do too, Sebastian. I've never been good at the whole 'feelings' thing, though." Will's eyes went to the floor, he wished he could use his logic and reasoning to figure something out. He wanted to just rewind everything to the beginning, before Sebastian butted in. Before Ciel's aunt died. Before anyone else cared for him, so that William could be the only one. He could've made Ciel happy, if he was only given the chance.
Ciel silently went down the hall, not looking once at his aunt's room. He calmly entered his room and retrieved the extra blanket and pillows he had before turning to the door. He only stopped once when he felt a strange chill then continued towards the stairs. Soft words caused Ciel to stop walking again. Curiously, Ciel kept out of sight yet still close so he could hear the voices better.
Sebastian gave a half smile. "You're probably not going to believe me, but I completely understand what you mean. Before I met Ciel, I was always locked up in my own mind, detached from everyone else."
"What about the girls you dated, though?"
"Well, of course I cared about them," he lied. "But to be honest, they never mattered, not really. How could I love someone if all they want from me is popularity and a good looking face? Since I've been with Ciel, I finally know what it feels like to care about someone with your entire heart. He's shown me that. He loves me for who I am, even though I'm undeserving and shameful. Being with Ciel brings out the best in me, that's true, but it also has made me realize how truly terrible I am. In the beginning, I tried to make things better for him. I'm still trying. But it seems that death follows me everywhere I go. Most of my girlfriends have died, and now Ciel's Aunt. And I can't help but feel like it's my fault." The demon frowned, wondering why he had just admitted all this to the human next to him. But it was comforting to talk to someone on the outside. Someone who cared about Ciel as much as he did.
William listened to Sebastian carefully and was surprised that he actually admitted that he wasn't a good guy. But still, he couldn't help but feel pity for Sebastian. "There's no way it could be your fault. It's theoretically impossible, unless you did it on the way over here." Will said softly, his voice logical and unemotional.
Sebastian furrowed his brow. "Of course I didn't. But still. I'll be the first to admit that lots of people get hurt when I'm near them. I don't try to hurt them, it just…It seems like everything I touch ends up bursting into flames. I think the worst part is that I know for a fact that you would be better for Ciel. But I…I just don't want to let him go. I want to be with him for as long as I live, but I know, I know that all I'm doing is hurting him. Whether he sees it or not." the demon could feel the guilt begin to wash over him as Will gave a true look of shock. Perhaps he shouldn't have been so honest. But he had to tell someone. He had to let someone know what he was really feeling. "And now I can't do anything to fix what's happened to him." Sebastian added softly, dropping his face in his upraised hands.
Ciel had slowly inched his way from behing the wall and was now looking in shock and sadness at the back of the demon's head.
Is that what he really thinks? Dammit he's even dumber than I thought….
He pressed the palm of his hand against the wall and listened as Sebastian continued. The teen shook his head gently and gave a soft smile as he finished.
I truly don't deserve him….he really is perfect
William frowned. "Well, that doesn't mean you should wallow in self pity. Try to be strong, like Ciel. Don't act all mopey just because you feel bad about being selfish. It's not like it will change anything."
Sebastian sighed and lifted his head, looking over at William. "I guess you're right, Willie. This is about Ciel, not me."
The glasses wearing teen growled, suddenly thrown into a bad mood. "Don't call me Willie…Ian." It was the best he could come up with for the moment, which actually surprised Sebastian.
"Ian? Really?…Well, it's better than Sebby or Bassy." the demon shrugged. "Thanks for the new nickname, Willie." Sebastian said with a smile, making Will clench his fists.
"Shut up! I said never to call me that!"
"Oh, I'm sorry. Am I upsetting you? Maybe I'll just call you Britney instead. Yeah, that has a nice ring to it. Britney Spears."
"Wow, Ian. I've never heard that one before. You must think you're soo clever."
"I am. It's one of my best qualities. What's your best quality? Being captain of the math club?"
"I'm not even in the math club, stupid."
"Oh, ouch. That insult hurts me so much, I almost care."
"Shut up, Michaelis!"
"Oh, what's wrong? Is my voice too alluring for you to handle?"
"More like it's too irritating."
The blue haired teen quickly held a hand to his mouth to hold back his laughter from hearing the two teens bickering.
Honestly, it's like they have the bodies of 18 year olds but the minds of 6 year olds
He smirked at his thought as he continued to watch the boys go at each other from the top of the stairs
"At least Ciel's my boyfriend." Sebastian said smugly.
"Not for long!" Will retorted.
Sebastian rolled his eyes and crossed his arms. "He says I'm a better kisser than you."
"It makes sense, given that you're a kissing whore. You've kissed everyone in the whole freaking school."
"Hah, I think you're confusing me with Grell. Besides, why don't you just go after him? You two seemed to have fun in the closet on Halloween."
"I was just practicing for Ciel."
"You take that back!"
"Never!"
"Well at least I get the real thing. And more~"
"Shut up, Ian!"
"No! You know what, Willie? I found another story to tell you. One time, Ciel and I were at my house. In my bedroom, to be specific…" He couldn't help but chuckle a bit as he thought of what he should reveal to William.
Ciel continued to listen to the argue and quickly began to blush when they started to discuss him.
These two are completely hopeless
He sighed and continued to listen. His blush grew darker as Sebastian began telling a story about them.
"Ew! Stoppit!" Will pleaded.
"Nope. You crossed the line, so now you're gonna face the consequences. Anyways, we were sitting in my room, some clothes were on, some were off. Kissing and snuggling like usual- he can be very cuddly sometimes, it's absolutely adorable- When suddenly, Ciel stopped and said, 'Sebastian, let's try something new.' He had a particular look in his eye and I knew something devilishly dirty was on his mind."
William was in a stunned silence, listening to Sebastian go on. But what he didn't realize is that Sebastian was making up most of it just to piss him off.
"Of course, I'm willing to do anything for Ciel, so I was totally compliant when he tied me up." Sebastian lied smoothly, on the verge of bursting with laughter and ruining the whole shtick.
William gulped. "C- Ciel tied you up?!"
The demon smiled and tilted his head. "Yes. Yes he did. I'll save you the mental image of what happened next, but I'll tell you what. I thought my hands were skilled enough for him, but Ciel's…Damn. I don't think I ever moaned that loud before in my life." Sebastian couldn't care less if he was embarrassing himself, seeing William's legitimate shock and fear were totally worth it. Sebastian had to shut up for a moment because his body was beginning to shake with silent laughter. "And then…his tongue…" he couldn't even finish the rest of the story because he was starting to laugh so hard. It was just too damn funny for him to handle and he was glad Ciel wasn't in the room. He would've definitely called Sebastian out on his bullshit.
Ciel's visible eye twitched as he heard the story 'That asshole is just spilling out lies now! Why if that really happened he would never live it do-' a soft smirk appeared on his lips as he slowly got up, 'heh he thinks he can do that without having any consequence? As if! Might as well tell my side of the story as well'
"Go on Sebastian, what was it you were going to say about my tongue?" He asked as he walked down the stairs and towards the teens. He smirked as he walked over to his boyfriend and took his chin in his hand. "By the way, you forgot to mention how you started whining and begging me for more like my own personal bitch~" he smiled almost evilly, "really, who would have expected that you were so soft when you bottom"
Sebastian immediately stopped laughing, his eyes going wide. The demon's cheeks flushed when Ciel went along with the story, but turned it into pure embarrassment for Sebastian. He laughed nervously and William snorted. "I, uh…I think your memory is a bit fogged from the mind blowing pleasure I gave you the other day. I didn't beg, I demanded." He gave Ciel a look that said 'Please don't kill me for saying this.' "You're very good at following orders~" The demon held back his laughter, mouthing 'I am so sorry' to his boyfriend.
William leaned back a bit. He got the feeling that he was about to see something hilarious. But Sebastian begging, though…I can't even imagine it, but I think it'd be amusing to see, he thought, cracking a smile.
Ciel smirk never faulted as he leaned closer "no my memory is perfectly fine, I distinctly remember you underneath me, begging me to 'give you mercy'" he put a hand gently to the demon's cheek. "By the way, you look absolutely adorable when you're panting underneath me"
Sebastian stared at Ciel for a very long time, trying to think of something to say. His face was completely flushed and he was doing nothing but drawing blanks. "I…I….I wanna play with the tarot cards, now." He tried to seem casual as he changed the subject, but William tsked.
"Oh, that sucks. I was just getting interested in the story, too." he said with a smirk, knowing he'd piss Sebastian off.
The demon glared at him. "Shut up, Willie."
"You shut up, Ian."
Ciel smiled and kissed his boyfriend before walking over to the couch and sitting down.
"What's the matter Sebastian? You seemed so eager to tell the story earlier"
Again, Sebastian's eyes widened at Ciel's words. "E-Exactly how long were you listening to me?" he asked nervously. William just smirked. He was right. It was hilarious.
The teen gave a softer smile, "long enough, " he leaned close and gave Sebastian a loving kiss before pulling away slightly. "No matter what happens, I'm not going to leave." He smiled softly, "you're stuck with me so you had best get used to it"
Sebastian leaned eagerly into their kiss, feeling a soft swelling in his heart when he heard what Ciel said. He smiled softly. "I gladly will," Sebastian replied sincerely. After a moment, he turned his focus on the cards spread out on the table, flipping a few of them over intricately.
The Lovers, Wheel of Fortune, The Sun, Death, and The Devil were shown. "This is your life in the present and your recent future." Sebastian explained, pointing to each of the cards as he listed from memory what they meant. He first gestured to the Lovers. "This one means there's been a meeting between two kindred souls, and a choice must be made. You must trust in your own intuition." Moving his hand over to the Wheel of Fortune, he said "This represents luck, success, pleasant surprises, and positive results with decisions…The Sun is the second luckiest card in the deck. It means you'll get well-deserved rewards, a long-lasting romantic relationship, good health, glory, and happiness." He smiled over at Ciel proudly, happy that something good was in his future. But upon seeing the Death card, his smile fell. "This represents freedom from your past. A new life, changed perspective, grief and mourning." Quickly moving on to the last card, Sebastian said, "The Devil card means you have a strong soul, power, and magnetism. Many are attracted to you. You're in a passionate and explosive relationship, and surrounding you are money and hidden power." Turning over the rest of the cards, Sebastian saw the two, four, and six of swords, three, four, and five of wands, and the one, two, and seven of cups. "These cards represent that the general aspects of your life will be positive, harmonious, and joyful." Again, he was smiling, hoping that Ciel would feel happy about his future.
Ciel and William watched with interest as Sebastian carefully explained the cards. The teen seemed to be smiling throughout the entire explination.
"It sounds as if I should truly look forward to living" he said softly while holding onto Sebastian's hand. He looked up at the clock and widened his visible eye when he saw it said midnight. "Hey we had better go on to bed….." His smile seemed to faulter slightly, "I need to go see a family friend in the morning"
Sebastian nodded solemnly. "I'll go with you." He stood from the couch, only letting go of Ciel's hand to put the cards he used back into the deck and the deck back in the box. William took the pillow and blanket Ciel brought down and made up a spot for himself on the couch. "Is there anywhere particular you'd like me to sleep?" Sebastian asked.
"No not really," the teen shrugged and gave his love a soft kiss before he walked towards the stairs, "Just sleep wherever you wish to, goodnight!" he smiled before walking up the stairs and to his room.
"Goodnight!" The two eighteen year olds called to him in unison. When Ciel was out of sight, William looked at Sebastian and said, "You're going to go up there with him, aren't you?"
Sebastian smiled. "Yes, in a moment." He sat on the arm of the couch as Will settled down with the blanket over him. He didn't take off his glasses, though. He wanted to remain in perfect sight until he didn't have anyone to look at. Sebastian's thoughts went back to something- someone- he hadn't thought of in days. "I'd like to ask you something, Will."
"Ask away."
Sebastian looked over at him, no trace of amusement or lightheartedness in his features whatsoever. "If something happens to me…If I can't be around to care for and protect Ciel anymore…Will you take my place?"
Will was silent for a moment, disturbed by the question. "Wait, you didn't really kill Ciel's aunt, did you? This isn't about you going to prison or anything, right?" he asked bluntly.
Sebastian sighed. "No, William. It isn't even about that. I'm saying if something happens to me- I mean, happens happens, I need you to be there for Ciel and make sure he still has at least one person that won't leave him. The last thing I need is for Ciel to do something stupid just because I-" he stopped himself short from saying died. Shaking away the thought, Sebastian looked at Will again. "Can I count on you?" He was silent again. Finally, after a moment of careful thought, William nodded. "Good. Don't forget your promise to me." Sebastian said a bit coldly before he turned and made his way up the stairs. Gently, Sebastian knocked on his boyfriend's bedroom door. "Ciel?"
The door soon creaked open and a small blue head popped out. "Why am I not surprised that you would choose here?" he smirked as he pulled the demon into his room. The teen walked over to the dirty clothes hamper in his room and quickly peeled off his shirt before turning to Sebastian, "Do pardon the mess, I didn't expect anyone would be staying here tonight." he said as he went to on of the drawers and got out an old shirt to sleep in.
"It's alright, Ciel. You know I don't care about that sort of thing." Sebastian replied, taking off his paint splattered jeans so he could be more comfortable while he slept. His boxers were black with red cat paw prints all over them. He used to be embarrassed to sleep in his underwear around Ciel, but over the weeks of their blossoming relationship, all of his cat related boxers became nothing but a little comic relief for the two. And God knows they needed some comic relief with all the stress in their lives. As Sebastian folded up his pants, he realized how truly tired he felt. Ever since he started dating Ciel, Sebastian cut back on the number of souls he was eating. It went from two souls a week to one soul every two weeks. Though the demon tried to write it off as nothing to his parents, he could feel that he was getting slower. Weaker. If the odds of winning against Claude were slim before, Sebastian would surely lose now. But he couldn't just eat all the souls he wanted like he used to, he wanted to spend all his time with Ciel and at least pretend he was human for him. And it also didn't help that every soul he ate tasted dull in comparison to Ciel's blood, something he hadn't consumed since the night before Halloween. Sighing deeply, Sebastian plopped down on Ciel's bed, a look of fatigue covering his face and dulling his usually vibrant red eyes.
Ciel turned and could easily see the dullness in the demon's features.
He's getting weaker…there has to be someway I could he-
The teen suddenly remembered how energized Sebastian was after having a small taste of his blood. He smiled as he decided what he had to do and looked at his love. "Hey Sebastian i'm going to get us a drink, i'll bring you your usual" he called before running out. He quietly crept past the sleeping Will and went to the kitchen. He walked to the fridge and took out the jug of blood Sebastian gave him for when he was over and two cups then carefully placed them down. He then took out a knife from one of the drawers and made a cut on his arm, only cringing for a moment. The teen then held his arm over Sebastian's glass and allowed his blood to drip into the drink.
I hope this works He allowed it to drip for a moment longer then cleaned up his arm and grabbed his hoodie from the nearby table, knowing Sebastian would be mad if he found out. He grabbed the two drinks and quickly went up the stairs and back into his room. "Here you go" he smiled and handed the demon his drink
Sebastian sat on the bed silently as Ciel left. Though he was tired, he could still easily hear the younger teen's footsteps in the silent house and smell human blood from the kitchen. He craved it right at that moment more than anything. Seeing the bluenette re enter his room wearing his hoodie, Sebastian raised an eyebrow. But the demon's thought quickly focused on the blood in the glass. "Thanks," he said with a smile as he brought the beverage to his lips. He gulped down half the glass greedily before he stopped abruptly, his eyes going wide and glowing bright as his mouth filled with more blood from the cup. He knew that taste. He felt the tingles on his tongue and the power of Ciel's life fluid on his lips. With a sudden feeling of sickness surging through him, Sebastian put the glass down and ran out of Ciel's bedroom, luckily making it to the bathroom before he puked his guts out in the toilet. The demon's body quaked as he threw up all the blood he had just consumed. No. No no no. That wasn't his blood. I did not just drink Ciel's blood again. Please, God, tell me he didn't do what I think he did. The raven haired teen panted harshly over the toilet, his mouth and the ends of his long hair dripping with blood. "C- Ciel…" he called breathlessly, lifting his head and turning his fuchsia eyes to the doorway of the bathroom.
The teen smiled as he saw the color return to his boyfriends face,however within seconds his smile left as he watched Sebastian run out of the room and towards the bathroom. He slowly poked his head out his door when he heard vomiting from the room and the second he heard his name he sprinted to the door to see the love of his life hunched over the toilet and staring at him with bright fuchsia eyes. "Y-yeah?" He asked nervously
He stared at Ciel for a long minute, fighting the urge to lick his lips and taste the blood again. He just couldn't stop shaking at the horrible feeling of an empty stomach. Though his eyes were hungry, Sebastian gave a look of concern for the person he loved so dearly. "Are…are you hurt?" the demon asked, holding back the feeling of needing to barf again. Looking at Ciel's face, Sebastian's chest felt tight. There was a lump in his throat that he simply couldn't throw up. But Sebastian wouldn't dare let any tears come to his eyes. Ciel looked so innocent, standing there in his hoodie. Sebastian wondered how many cuts were hidden beneath it. He struggled to swallow at the horrifying thought.
"I.." The teen gulped for a moment. To him it was just another cut among the others -hence why he usually kept his arms hidden by long sleeves- he walked over to Sebastian and pushed back his loves hair "Sebastian what's wrong?"
"I need to know you're alright, Ciel. Please." Sebastian answered, taking a hold of Ciel's wrist and pulling the younger's hand away from his hair. He pushed back the sleeve of the hoodie and let a sharp gasp escape him when he saw Ciel's arm. His chest felt even tighter. He couldn't breathe. Instead of glowing bright from hunger, The demon's eyes glowed as an overwhelming feeling of alarm and sadness washed over him. "Ciel…" he murmured, staring down at the cuts. Sebastian could feel his cheeks get hot and his eyes well up. He was glad he had his head tilted downward. He didn't want his boyfriend to see the look on his face, much less the tears in his eyes. "How long have you been doing this?" he asked quietly, blinking away the wetness. One tear that managed to escape his eye dropped with a light splat on one of Ciel's near faded scars. The guilt Sebastian was feeling was thick in the air around the two boys. Had Ciel put his blood in Sebastian's drinks before? Was he depressed? Was Sebastian doing something wrong that would drive Ciel to do this to himself? The questions raced through the demon's mind like wildfire.
"Sebastian wa-" he looked away as he felt the sleeve being pushed up. He couldn't bear to see the look of pure disgust on his loves face. "…..a little over 4 years…" He muttered, a new darkness overtaking his voice "and you don't have to tell me how stupid and disgusting it is because I already know….." He gritted his teeth as he spoke, doing his best not to break down again.
The teenage demon lightly ran his fingertips over the scars on Ciel's skin. "No, Ciel…I'd never say anything like that to you…" Sebastian said in a gentle voice, his tears betraying him once more as a few more fell down his cheeks. "Ciel…I don't want you to be in pain any more…All this time, I thought I was protecting you…" Sebastian gulped softly. The tears were flowing more rapidly now, though it was hard to tell with how steady the raven haired teen's voice was. His eyes traveled to the freshest cut. "I can't bring myself to drink your blood again. I don't want to risk my self control. If I drink from you again, I'll only want more and more…But you're hurting so much already…I've put you through this pain…I'm so sorry." The demon leaned forward more until his forehead rested on Ciel's shoulder. He took his hands away from Ciel's arm and wrapped them around the bluenette's waist. "I'm sorry, Ciel…I'm so sorry…for everything…I wish I were human. I wish I could take away your scars. I wish that for once I didn't fuck up, that I could actually make you happy."
Ciel rested his head on Sebastian's and gave a soft smile, "Sebastian…you have no idea how much you saved me..." He hesitated slightly before slowly pushing out the words,
"The day I met you….was the day I had planned to take my life..." he gulped as he continued "I was completely alone in the world and I was told everyday how useless I am and I should just be dead...so I was planning to do it….but then I accidentally bumped into some idiot casanova….." He smiled down at Sebastian. "Ever since I met you, I haven't cut once…"
A small tear ran down his eye, "You didn't fuck up Sebastian…you saved my life" The teen kissed the top of the demon's head, "and I have never been happier"
"But you did cut," Sebastian argued. "You did it so I could drink your blood. How can I ever forgive myself for letting you get that idea into your head?" A shuddery breath escaped Sebastian's lips. "You just don't understand, Ciel. I'm starving myself. I thought I should be more like a human being around you, try to be good and not murder people anymore. But it's killing me. Everything I taste has no flavor…How can I forgive myself for only wanting to drink the blood of the one person I care about most?…Because of all this, I'm not ready for when Claude wants to strike. I won't be able to protect you from him for much longer…" The demon hugged his boyfriend tighter. "Even you simply being with me depletes your chances of going to Heaven considerably," he murmured. "Not only have I ruined your life, I've ruined your afterlife as well. How can I forgive myself, Ciel?…How can you forgive me?"
"Because I love you" he said softly, "Besides, my chances of getting into heaven were basically gone anyway." He then looked up at his love with strong eyes. "However the one thing I won't forgive is starving yourself. Sebastian you need to eat, I can't stand to see you have to suffer because of me." The bluenette clenched his fists. "Please Sebastian….I don't care about what you eat, your diet doesn't bother me so please….please go and eat someone's soul" He gritted his teeth as he spoke "It's killing me to see the only person i've ever truly loved in such a state"
Sebastian smiled softly down at Ciel, reaching up and brushing the younger teen's bangs out of his face. His eyes were finally dry, he could finally look at Ciel without feeling completely guilty about what he was. "Alright…" he whispered, "I promise, after we go to see your family friend, I'll eat." The demon's eyes slowly started to dim as he began to calm down. He rubbed the human's cheek with his thumb lovingly, leaning in close. But then, to his embarrassment, Sebastian remembered his mouth and chin were still soaked. "Well, I would kiss you, but I don't want to get you all bloody." Sebastian said with a small trace of laughter in his voice.
Ciel smiled and nodded "good". he smirked then gave the demon a cute smile as he grabbed a bathroom rag and slowly wiped away the blood without any look of discomfort. After the blood was gone he pulled Sebastian close so their lips were almost touching "there" he purred, "now we can continue" With that he pulled his boyfriend into a heated kiss.
Tightening his hold on Ciel's waist, Sebastian pulled him closer, into his lap. He kissed Ciel deeply, his lips silently showing all of his wants and needs. "I love you so much," the demon mumbled, his hands gripping the back of Ciel's hoodie possessively. Oh, Ciel…I really don't deserve you. You're flawless, he said in his head, letting a soft noise of happiness escape him.
"M-mhnn I love you too" he said between kisses. He tugged at Sebastian's shirt teasingly as their kisses grew longer and more intense.
The demon pushed his tongue gently between Ciel's lips, his breathing becoming ragged. Though he was tired and hungry before, Sebastian always seemed to get short bursts of energy when things began to heat up between him and Ciel. He slipped his hands under Ciel's hoodie and shirt, dragging his fingertips along the younger teen's spine, his pale and smooth skin feeling hot under the demon's touch.
A soft moan escaped the teen as he felt his loves hands on his skin. He pressed closer and tangled his fingers through Sebastian's hair. "Se-bastian…I-i think I'm ready…" He said with a soft blush before giving his boyfriend another quick kiss
Sebastian gulped, looking at Ciel as his face became redder and redder. As perverted as he was, Sebastian couldn't help but be nervous about actually having sex. "Are you…completely sure?" he asked softly. Ciel had just lost his aunt. William was downstairs sleeping on the couch. Personally, Sebastian would've preferred their first time to be under more romantic- and private- circumstances, but maybe Ciel didn't care about all that. If he really was ready, there was no reason for Sebastian to deny him what he wanted.
Ciel looked up and nodded, "but I-if you'd like we could wait till tomorrow when you have your energy." He suggested, knowing he was probably exhausted
The demon smiled softly. "That'd be better, if you don't mind," he murmured with laughter in his voice. He looked down at Ciel with love in his fatigued eyes. "Let's just sleep for now."
Ciel smiled and nodded before hugging him gently. "tomorrow it is then" he smiled up at his love.
Sebastian Couldn't help but laugh softly. "I can't believe we're actually setting a date for this," he said with a smile. "Not that I'm complaining." With a small grunt, Sebastian stood from the floor and flushed the toilet, all the blood disappearing from sight. His legs were a little shaky, but he still smiled, leaning on the sink. "It'll be a good birthday present." the demon said with a bit of a dirty grin.
The teen smirked and pulled the demon close then purred in his ear. "I can't wait to unwrap it" he gently kissed his ear then pulled away. He turned and walked to the door. "I'll be in my room" he said over his shoulder before turning the corner and disappearing from sight.
Sebastian blushed and nodded, turning to the mirror when Ciel left. He saw little spots of blood in his hair and on his face and turned on the faucet, cleaning himself up. When absolutely every trace of blood was gone, Sebastian sighed in relief. He looked in the mirror and gave a handsome half smile. So…Ciel really wants to do it…I wonder why, he thought to himself. Sebastian took a deep breath and shuddered. I can do it. I just need to be confident, he thought with a nod, looking determined. He shut off the light and exited the room, taking off his shirt before he made it into Ciel's room. Stepping in the doorway, Sebastian saw the unfinished glass of blood sitting on the nightstand where he left it before. Taking a deep breath, he walked over to the nightstand and downed the whole thing, figuring he'd just get it over with. A breath of relief expelled from him as he put the cup down again, he accepted the wonderful taste this time instead of rejecting it completely, and it was good. The demon threw his shirt on the floor next to his pants and sat down on the edge of the bed. He could already feel the energy surging through him. "So, is there any reason you've suddenly become so eager?" he asked Ciel, a sly smile on his face.
Ciel was currently laying down on his bed and looked up to see his boyfriend finishing the glass. A smile instantly formed on his face as more color returned to him. He gave a small shrug when Sebastian asked him about his decision. "I dunno, I just feel like I can trust you enough to give you one of the last things I have yet to lose" he turned his head away as a light blush painted his cheeks.
Sebastian laid back and got under the covers, rolling over on his side toward Ciel. He chuckled. "That's sweet. I'm glad to know that you trust me that way." The raven haired teen wrapped his arms around his boyfriend's waist and pulled him close. "I'm glad that I'll give mine to you too," he murmured, nuzzling Ciel's neck lovingly.
Ciel looked up at Sebastian in surprise"wait what?!" He asked with a tilt of his head. "But….with all the girls you've dated….I would've thought…" He looked away, not wanting to say the rest.
First with an expression of surprise at the bluenette's shock, Sebastian stared at Ciel, his face gradually morphing into a playful look of 'are you serious?' "Ciel…have you seen my underwear? I don't think I would've exposed anyone to that sight before you came along." He laughed again. "To be honest, I thought you knew I was a virgin. It's the only pure thing about me."
The teen blushed slightly before returning the smirk, "I suppose I should have known….it's rather obvious that it would take a lot of work to get you laid," he teased while pressing closer for warmth. "And you're right, one glimpse at your underwear would most likely send anyone running."
"I don't think my underwear is that bad…It's just a little bit embarrassing," he defended. Sebastian thought of the rather cute paw print boxers he was wearing, and how much it'd kill him if anyone besides Ciel saw them. Or any of his other cat related underpants, for that matter. "And what do you mean 'it'd take a lot of work'?" he asked, acting offended jokingly.
Ciel giggled as he started making designs on the demon's chest with his fingernail, "Well when it comes to telling your true feelings you arent exactly the most suave" he said innocently while continuing to tease his love's chest while they spoke
Sebastian cracked a smile. "Pfft. I can be suave if I want to be." he said, dragging his fingertips along Ciel's spine again. "In fact, I'm so suave that I could tell you everything I feel about you in French. The language of love~" The demon winked cutely at Ciel before continuing, "It's just that you already know that I love you more than anything, so I see no reason for me to show off all my wicked moves…unless you want me to."
Ciel smirked and leaned into the touch before running his fingers through Sebastian's hair. "I actually dabble in French, so I would actually like to here you say it" he smiled. He pressed closer to Sebastian so their lips were brushing against each other then slowly trailed up to his love's ear "Allez-y, dites ce que votre cœur désire ~"
The demon shivered, a slow grin spreading across his face. "Très bien, mon amour ~" he purred, gently nuzzling Ciel's neck again. "Vous êtes celui qui allume le feu dans mes yeux et enflamme la passion dans mon âme." Feeling his heart begin to race at the admittance of his feelings once again, the raven haired teen continued. "Quand je suis près de vous, même maintenant, mon cœur palpite comme les ailes d'un colibri." Sebastian began kissing the underside of Ciel's jaw as he said his final words, "Je tuerais pour vous, et je mourrais pour toi. Je suis en amour avec vous. Pour toute l'éternité. Tu es à moi, et je suis à toi. Je veux que vous et vous seul~"
A deep blush had appeared on the teen's cheeks as his boyfriend spoke and teased him. He slowly brought a hand up to cup Sebastian's cheek and smiled as he let their foreheads touch. "Mon seul et unique amour," He spoke softly yet sounded as if he had been speaking fluently his whole life."Vous avez vraiment aucune idée de ce que tu représentes pour moi, tu es devenu mon existence. Je ne suis vraiment heureux quand je suis près de vous, vous avez ramené beaucoup de choses que je pensais que j'avais perdu depuis si longtemps" He took a deep breath and smiled before continuing, "Vous m'avez sauvé de bien des façons, tu m'as sauvé de la fureur de ma tante, de la tourmente et la douleur de l'école ….." The teen looked at the ground for a moment, »et vous avez même m'a sauvé de moi-même … Vous êtes devenu tout pour moi. Et je ne pourrai jamais cesser d'aimer chaque moment avec vous" He looked up into Sebastian's beautiful eyes and smiled. Je t'aime tellement, mon amour, ma vie, He pressed a soft kiss on the demon's lips. mon Sebastian
"Oh, Ciel…" Sebastian murmured against the younger teen's lips. Again, he could feel his eyes welling up a bit, but he blinked the wetness away before more tears could betray him. Why am I showing so much emotion tonight? he wondered. First, I cry tears of sadness and guilt, now I'm about to cry tears of happiness. Sebastian slowly broke the kiss and smiled at Ciel. "vous faire ressortir tant d'émotions en moi, Ciel …vous êtes la seule chose qui me rend heureux dans ce monde de merde." he chuckled. "Tu es mon propre petit coin de paradis, et je serai toujours là pour vous sauver…I could never live without you, Ciel." The demon whispered the last part in English, showing emphasis to the words. He leaned over and kissed Ciel's lips once more before moving his own to the bluenette's cheek, then his jaw, down to his neck, leaving behind small kisses and love bites on his smooth skin.
Ciel smiled softly, "Nor could I…." He whispered as they broke the kiss and let out a small sound as Sebastian started trailing the kisses down his neck, "Se-bastian what are you- ah~" he let out a soft gasp when he felt teeth on his skin. "nth…" he shivered as he felt the demon make more bites. "Th-there…" he said softly while gripping Sebastian's hair
Sebastian continued to bite his love's neck softly, running his tongue over the small marks his teeth made. The young demon began gently rubbing Ciel's back again in a soft, soothing way. When he glanced over and saw that Ciel's alarm clock read 12:47 AM, Sebastian resorted only to soft kisses on the other's neck to lessen the bit of intensity in that moment. "We should…probably…sleep soon," Sebastian murmured between kisses.
Ciel groaned in slight annoyance at the time. "Not tired…" he mumbled softly before smirking as an idea popped into his head. "Hey Sebastian…" he purred in the demon's ear "You want to mess with William?" he chuckled softly as he asked
Confused, Sebastian furrowed his brow. He leaned back up and looked at Ciel. "Well, sure…but what are you thinking of doing?" he asked, more than willing to mess with Will, but unsure of what exactly the smirking bluenette had in mind. Especially after a moment when things were getting romantic between them.
The teen smiled and leaned closer "You keep saying that you want to prove to him that i'm comepletely yours, let's give him something that shall make him remember for all eternity~" He smirked and pulled Sebastian up and out of his room before there could be any argument,.
"W-Wait! What if he sees my underwear?!" Sebastian asked in a frantic tone as he was pulled out of the room, but trying to keep his voice quiet so William wouldn't wake up. What the Hell was Ciel planning? Sebastian was more confused than anything and could do nothing more but follow Ciel, holding on to his hand tightly.
Ciel rolled his eyes then let go of the demon's hand and ran back to his room. He came back not a moment later with Sebastian's pants and threw them at the demon, "Here you wimp, now follow me" He smirked before dragging Sebastian through the hall and down the stairs .
"Thanks, love you too." he replied with a playful roll of his crimson eyes before hopping into his pants, which was a bit difficult since Ciel was moving so quickly at the moment. Once his jeans were secure and he could walk more naturally, the demon made his steps quieter as they neared the sleeping William. He looked at Ciel, wondering what exactly was going through his mind.
William lay peacefully on the couch, his glasses sitting on the table nearby. His breathing was soft an even, unsuspecting of what would happen to him.
Ciel quickly took Sebastian and turned on the lights, "Ok, I need you to run over there and quickly wake him up then get back here as fast as you can." he whispered softly. "Whatever happens after that, just go with it and act like he can't hear." he smiled up at his boyfriend, "I can assure you that after this he will back off."
Upon hearing Ciel's words, though he was still unsure of what exactly was going on, Sebastian smiled. He really hated the idea of William going after Ciel, and wanted it to end as soon as possible. With a nod, Sebastian did as he was told. He walked over to William and quickly shook him awake, but by the time the teen's eyes shot open, Sebastian was already standing in front of Ciel again.
Without wasting a second, Ciel pulled Sebastian into a heated kiss and led them back so his back slammed against the wall. "Sebastian~" he gasped when they finally broke for air. He leaned close so only Sebastian could hear him. "Go ahead, do or say whatever you've always wanted to~" he purred before leaning towards the door "Sebas-tian I-I need to finish making my f-foo-ah~!" he gave a very realistic moan toward the room where William was.
Sebastian was shocked by the sudden intense physical contact, but snorted when he realized what Ciel was doing. He couldn't help but laugh softly before lowering a hand to bring Ciel's leg up and hook onto his hip and entangling the other in Ciel's hair. "You're so clever," he purred softly. Sebastian kissed the younger teen deeply, then turned his head toward the door and moaned, "Oh, God, Ciel~!" he couldn't stop the wicked smile from coming to his face.
William was shocked at the sudden awakening. He reached over to pick up his glasses, but then stopped abruptly when he heard loud moans from what sounded like the kitchen. Immediately, the senior's jaw dropped. He was frozen there, completely blind, but able to clearly hear the pleasures of the couple in the other room. His entire face became bright red. What the actual fuck?!
Ciel gave a smug look before lookig at the door "C-come on Sebastian~" he moaned, "Our d-drinks will -ah~!- get cold!" He smirked before quickly leaning in and nipping one of the sensitive places he had found on Sebastian.
The demon let out a true involuntary moan as he felt Ciel's teeth on his sensitive skin. Upon regaining control of his vocal chords, Sebastian said. "Let them! I want you right now, Ciel! Ngh~! Yeah, right there!" He was surprised at how well he could control his laughter at that point. Just imagining how horrified William must've been was enough to make a wide smile take over Sebastian's face, even when he leaned closer to Ciel and ran his tongue along the outer shell of his ear provocatively as he allowed their hips to press closer together.
Sitting there, mortified, William wanted desperately to yell at the two so they would stop doing…whatever it was they were doing. But all that escaped the now traumatized teen was a squeak. Hearing the small noise of distress, Sebastian snickered.
The teen shivered and instinctively rubbed their hips together as he felt the tongue on his ear. "I-idiot we might wake up Willia-ah~!" he let out and irresitible moan that would make anyone hard. "D-dammit" he groaned before smirking and attacking the same spot even harder than he had before.
Sebastian gulped as he began to feel a tightness in his pants. "Ci-el," he murmured breathlessly, "You're really making me- ahn~!" he moaned even louder as Ciel bit at the same sensitive area, as if he were doing it on purpose. Sebastian's breathing became slightly uneven, he couldn't fight the urge to press Ciel against the wall even more and grind against his crotch, the demon's hand gripping his thigh.
More little squeaks of terror escaped Will. He didn't dare look over to attempt to witness what was happening in the other room, he was already trying to block out the images from what he was simply hearing. What if they went into the living room afterwards and saw that he was awake? What could he do? What could he say? The poor guy was getting completely grossed out. The thought of Sebastian and Ciel making those sort of noises… Will quickly shook his head, regaining his senses. But when he attempted to say something, again there was only a terrified squeak.
Ciel smirked and started rubbing even harder against Sebastian. He nipped the spot even more before giving another moan that probably made both the teens grow hard "Ah! n-not there ah~!" He led the demon towards the door the teen could be the only one seen. Might as well give him some mercy for a moment and not have to see who's making me moan
He tilted his head back and gave another arousing moan. "Ah G-god! So g-good~~"
William slowly shook his head. He knew what was going to happen, but he desperately wished it wouldn't. No no no no. This is not going to happen. Jesus H. Christ. No. But, as expected, Will began feeling a tightness in his own jeans. His face turned a deeper shade of red and he covered himself even more with the blanket in his lap. Glancing over to the door, William caught a glimpse of a blue head and quickly looked away and shook his head even more. Nope, nope, nope. Un- uh. Not happening. I can never look at Ciel the same way again after this! He was mortified.
Sebastian was having a difficult time controlling himself with all the noise Ciel was making. He began feeling a familiar warm feeling in his abdomen. "Ngh, Ciel…I- ah~…I'm close," he panted, desperate to finally reach the climax of his pleasure. "C- Ciel~"
The teen looked over and saw Will fidgeting and quickly put a finger to his lips, telling Sebastian to not speak. He tilted his head so he was speaking through the crack in the door and it sounded as if he was right next to Will. "A-ah~! Your hand feels so good~!" he moaned seductively, not knowing what an affect it had on the two teens. "Ngh~ Oh God i-i'm so c-close~!"
By that time, Sebastian couldn't hold back anymore. Gritting his teeth, the demon tilted his head back and came right then and there, his cheeks a little pink from embarrassment at the small noise of pleasure that escaped him.
William's complexion was similar to that of a stop sign. He was more freaked out than anything. D-Didn't Sebastian say something about his hands being skilled?…Eugh! I'm not gonna think about it, not gonna think about it, not gonna think about it. Hearing Ciel's last words made William cringe. I hate Sebastian Michaelis. I just fucking hate him, he thought.
Sebastian released Ciel from his hold and leaned his forehead against the wall, panting hard. He was completely exhausted and drained, even more so than before he drank Ciel's blood. He tried to avoid putting any of his weight on Ciel as he lowered his forehead tiredly to the bluenette's shoulder. "Ciel…" he murmured softly. "…I can barely move…"
Ciel blushed as he felt the warmth in Sebastian's crotch and his own before gently kissing his forehead. "Me either…" he admitted softly before once again turning to the demon "Se….Sebastian" he panted loud enough for will to hear "w-we need to at least go back t-to my room so we don't wake W-william" he whimpered innocently.
The demon nodded. "Y- you're right…let's go," Sebastian said, his voice a bit dark with fatigue. He took Ciel's hand and laced their fingers before tiredly pulling the younger along. William, still mentally flipping his shit, laid down on his side before they could see him, pretending he was still asleep.
Ciel smiled and followed Sebastian out the door. He suddenly pulled Sebastian closer and hugged him tightly. "I love you Sebastian," he said softly, "more than anything"
A small, happy sigh escaped Sebastian's lips. he leaned into Ciel's hold and smiled softly. "I love you too, Ciel. You are my everything." He placed a soft kiss on Ciel's lips before he continued moving forward, forcing his legs to lift themselves up each step of the stairs. Sebastian was completely pooped out, but happy. Ciel accepted him and all his insecurities. William was probably crying into his pillow. Sebastian was finally going to feast properly when they woke up again. The demon could feel it, even in the wee hours of that morning, that it was going to be a good day. When the couple made it back to Ciel's room, Sebastian simply let himself fall back on the mattress and just lay there. He was too tired to take his pants off again or get under the blankets. Suddenly, with a small laugh, the demon looked up at his boyfriend and said, "By the way, happy birthday."
Ciel smiled softly at the demon currently sprawled out on his bed and started to turn to grab his favorite book when the velvet voice broke the silence. He smirked and looked over at Sebastian, "Thank you, love" he said with a wink then turned to grab his book before walking back to the bed and laying down next to his boyfriend
He smiled softly at Ciel and closed his eyes, letting a sigh escape him. He was already on the edge of sleep, his handsome features becoming more neutral as he began to drift off. In his groggy state, Sebastian moved his hand across the bed and placed it atop Ciel's leg gently. It was a bit of a subconscious thing, Sebastian could never sleep somewhere with Ciel unless they were touching somehow. It helped to keep the demon calm, knowing that the love of his life was near him. Finally, being completely relaxed, the raven haired teen let the darkness consume him, a kind and warm place now that Ciel was around. When Sebastian was near Ciel, his dreams were nice. Everything was nice with Ciel in the picture.
The younger teen couldn't help but smile as he watched Sebastian doze off into a peaceful sleep. Before I met him I never had a pleasant night's sleep…..he truly has turned my life around completely
He sccooted closer so he could rest his head on the demon's chest. The teen looked up at the sleeping figure with fatigued eyes. "Thank you Sebastian….." he whispered as he started to doze off. "For every thing…."