My infuriating shallow jerk
Disclaimer: I own nothing, except my OC characters and that's debatable
Pairing: James/Logan
Rating: M (I promise sexy times later)
Warnings: Smut language
Dedicated to BtrCutie for making me flail
A/N: No this not the last chapter! I am going with plan B after all. You see plan A did not have Kyle appearing in person, and things would have wrapped up right after their first morning jog! But life is complicated like that. It's your fault really, you keep favoring reviewing and putting me in Author Alert. That makes me want to take the long road with this. How long now will it be? Well let's just say there aren't many scenes left in my mind. The real problem is translating this to paper. I can't give an exact number of chapters yet. Sorry! Still aiming for fifteen! On another note I edited chapter nine it was full of mistakes and I added a line or two, I will eventually do this to all the chapters so try and bear with me. Thank you guys for everything!
James was coming up the small metal staircase that divided his makeshift bedroom from the living room. There were candles lighted brightly in each step beckoning him like he was a star of a romantic movie, and every time he climbed another one he kept smiling wider and wider. When he reached the second to last step though and actually saw his bed he wished he was the one on fire and not the candles.
Logan was fully naked and as beautiful as James had imagined he would be and his face was full of love, admiration and lust, James often imagined that too. What he never imagined though was that the person responsible for this was not himself but the previous owner of James's heart. Right behind Logan an also naked Kyle wrapped his arms around Logan's waist, nibbling at Logan's ear, finally kissing him passionately on the mouth, no lips just tongues.
No! No! God no, this isn't happening, please this isn't real…
James tried to move his legs, they didn't answer, he tried to call out for Logan but his mouth wouldn't open, his eyes even refused to cry so James could keep on seeing straight clearly.
Kyle threw Logan down in all fours and Logan lifted the lower part of his body up, face twisted in anticipation Kyle looked down on his pet, eyes filled in contempt and malice. He asked Logan to beg and Logan did just three words that hit James straight to the heart.
"Fuck me please..." Again and again and again Logan repeated. James prayed that he was dead, he cursed Kyle to Hell, and he wished that Logan loved him and only him. Kyle positioned himself right behind Logan's spot and before entering violently, he threw a victorious look right into James's eyes. James finally tumbled with fear, falling backwards over the staircase, he felt pain ran through his body, he felt that he had hit a surface of glass, like he was bursting out of a window from somewhere high, like a rooftop, or maybe it was an attic...
He woke up from his nightmare choking in his own scream, body drenched in sweat, heart pumping seconds away from exploding.
A dream...it was only a bad dream...thank you God...thank you...only a nightmare...
James got up shaking in the darkness found his cell phone to use as a light and went silently down and towards the kitchen to get a glass of water. He checked on the time it was around three he sighed and rested his head on the kitchen counter. He was too scared to go back to bed. He needed something to make sure that his visions wouldn't return. He tip toed silently into Logan's bedroom opening the door slowly, thanking his luck that Logan had left on the small night light right above a family picture on his nightstand. James couldn't see much but he saw enough to walk in closer undetected without making any noise and without bumping into something. He stood silent above Logan and took the sleeping prince's peaceful face to his heart.
I'll protect you, whatever happens Loggie, I swear. I'll love you for the rest of my life, just love me back. Please Logan don't ever leave me...
James couldn't fight the urge; he risked everything as he leaned down and kissed Logan gently on the forehead. Logan moved a little reacting to the kiss and James thought that he would die for real this time.
"James…" Logan mumbled but he didn't wake up, and James felt that this was also a dream but it was strong enough to trample any nightmare. He took another long loving look that really only lasted for a few seconds and went back to his bed but he couldn't sleep now not because of fear but because now he knew Logan dreamed about him too.
Logan woke up excited and grinning that morning, he had so much going on for him after all, school, great friends and a promise of a date with the person he loved. Occasionally of course because this is Logan after all some nerves and anxiety would creep in his mind, about Kyle or about screwing things with James but every time he started thinking those things he remembered that little strange dream that he saw last night, more of a fragment of a dream really, James looking down on him eyes full of love making silent promises of happiness with him. After almost four years Logan felt the urge to sing again.
The living room was empty and so was the kitchen, no breakfast prepared, Logan thought James was still out jogging but he heard an alarm clock from James's bedroom. He climbed the stairs giddily and found James still asleep, best part of all he slept shirtless. Logan bit his lower lip and went to sit on the edge of the bed as quietly and as slowly as he could and then he started gently nudging James on the shoulder.
"Mr. Diamond...wake up...you're late..." Logan felt mischievous, a thousand thoughts rushed through his mind from a simple kiss to splashing James with cold water, but he knew James better than that now, so like a child on Christmas Eve he waited for James to open his beautiful hazel eyes.
"What... time is...it?" James asked still in sleep mode, Logan couldn't help himself really; he leaned down and whispered in James's ear as evilly as he could muster.
"Almost seven..." Logan pulled out quickly; they didn't bump heads as James shot himself up, still James's piercing screech made his eardrums complain.
"I FUCKING OVERSLEPT!" James panicked and jumped out of his bed Logan fell back on the mattress laughing at the site of him.
"CRAP! NO JOGGING! I HAVE BREAKFAST TO PREPARE AND DRESS YOU UP! CRAP!" Logan shot his eyebrows surprised with the last part of James's declaration; he went after James who was entering one of the bathrooms slamming the door by accident behind him.
"You don't have to do that; I'll wear yesterday's clothes." James pulled the door open he actually looked angry, he locked his eyes into Logan's and spoke as determined as a war hero going into battle.
"Over my dead body you'll wear the same clothes twice!" Logan was ready to argue but James slammed the door again before Logan could open his mouth.
"HEY! CONSTRUCTION WORKERS PEOPLE ARE SLEEPING OVER HERE!" Derek bellowed from his room but Logan kept on smiling. He slouched to the kitchen and started wiping up a quick breakfast by himself or else he would lose James from a heart attack.
James was in his closet room picking up clothes for Logan fifteen minutes later, Logan was behind him holding a tray of food on his legs sitting in a large trunk that James had for whatever reason, probably his lucky pants Logan concluded, and every few minutes he would call James to him reminding him to eat, actually he had to feed him because James didn't want toast crumbs on his clothes or butter on his fingers.
"You really don't have to do this..." Logan didn't mean it, the scene of a still panicked James picking clothes like his life depended on it was so endearing he just felt that he had to say it like he was reading lines and was filmed by a camera.
"Shut up." Logan got up holding a slice of toast with bacon on top and carefully placed it on James's mouth he even made a face like the one when you try to feed a baby.
"Mmmmm, you should take over cooking duties." James said munchkin down.
"No. I have school don't get used to this." James made a pout, and turned holding a red t-shirt over at Logan's chest imagining how he would look in it. Logan immediately shook his head.
"No red." Logan said determined thinking that the devil with the sunglasses wore red yesterday.
"You would look amazing in red with your eyes." James argued leaving Logan no choice.
"HE wore red." James threw the t-shirt on the floor and stomped on it for good measure; he went back and tried to find something else.
"Well, we can scratch that from our shopping list." His voice came out solemn he was struggling with words.
"We have to wait until Saturday to do that." Logan was kind of sad too because Saturday was so far away.
"I know...Logan we are going to have a blast I promise." Logan's smile returned and he lifted himself once more in order to feed James again, it was just an excuse though he just wanted to be close.
"It's a date." Logan promised back, but James still had a worried look in his face.
"Loggie if Kyle comes up to you again..." Logan's face became flustered with anger.
"He's dead. I'll rip his head off." James fell silent because it was clear that Logan meant it with every fiber of his being.
"Don't do that, you'll go to jail and we'll miss our date." That won James a smile from Logan and another piece of toast. Eventually both of them were dressed up and looking stunning, of course they had a loud argument coming down the apartment stairs.
"You are not buying the new clothes for me!" Logan said frustrated as he opened the building's door.
"We'll see." James shrugged it off smiling smugly.
"No you are not! And you'll tell me where I can find a good dry cleaner too so I can return the ones you lent me the other night." Logan stopped and looked determined at James.
"Sure I will, which reminds me you can have your restaurant coat back too!" James couldn't help but laugh at Logan who flailed burning with anger.
"DATE'S CANCELED!" Logan screamed but James wasn't bothered.
"Ok, whatever you want Loggie, now go to school before I start kissing you six days earlier!" Logan made a choking gesture on James's pretty muscled little neck; he gave an angry grunt and got in his car calling him names.
"DATE'S STILL ON RIGHT?" James shouted actually scared when he saw Logan's car pulling out gaining distance, Logan shot a hand out the window and gave him the finger.
Yup date's still on!
James happily started walking towards his school.
James came up to the drama's school's entrance trying to focus his mind on actual theater exercises glad that he was succeeding too, Logan was the love of his life but he didn't want to neglect his second one after all, he turned to greet the small crowd of people he shared his passion with as they walked in front of him already going in, when a playful whistle came from behind freezing him solid with dread.
"There's my Jamezy..." Kyle's voice dripped of lust leaning over a tree looking like the angel that fell.
James turned to face him body pumped with adrenaline he ran furiously up to his face and grabbed Kyle by the collar of his leather jacket, desperately trying to ignore the fact that he bought it for him in the first place.
"WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT?" Any other person who faced the berserker James Diamond towering over him eyes full of hate would have immediately started to flounder like a fish out of water Kyle just kept on smiling like a snake.
"Came to see my aspiring little thespian...What? Bad idea?" James pushed him violently on the tree trunk but Kyle didn't even show any pain or discomfort.
"WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME ASSHOLE?" James felt his classmates staring shocked at his back but that didn't calm him or make him feel shame because if he couldn't make Kyle drop that sardonic killer smile soon absolutely nothing could restrain him from going violent.
"I felt remorse and I wanted to see you again...What do you think I want James seriously!" Kyle dropped the mocking tone and evil smile mid-sentence he also pushed James back releasing himself from his grip.
"Get out of here I'm over you, it's not happening." James turned the opposite way looking down, breath panting; some of his classmates Melody included started walking worried towards him Kyle smiled back at them enjoying the angry looks they gave him.
"There's a dinner down the corner, when you get a break meet me there." It wasn't a request but a command James shook his head frustrated.
"Don't hold your breath..." He let some of his friends' calm him down soothing him with their worried questions, Kyle started walking out relaxed and confident.
"I'll wait." James heard the loving tone and even though he knew it was fake he couldn't stop his mind from flooding with precious memories.
His friends helped him compose himself; he lied to them of course told them that Kyle was a really bad date that went horribly wrong. They all bought it some even joked that's what you get when you sleep around. He was in the backstage of his rehearsal's theater pretending to study lines waiting for his turn when Melody came up to him placing a hand over his shoulder.
"Just tell me that wasn't him..." She was worried that James would tell her to fuck off but she was more scared that James had fallen in love with evil personified, and that convinced her to ask the question anyway.
"No it isn't him." James didn't look at her because that would lead to more questions he didn't want to answer; Mel nodded and went back towards her own friends respecting his privacy. James though kept on fighting with himself.
What do I do? If I don't go he'll just show up in the apartment again, go after Logan because Logan's new and has innocent victim written all over his face. Maybe a restraining order? Oh yeah, that's smart I attacked him they'll give me one for sure. He has me cornered again! Damn him! I could call Derek or Brianna for backup I could even ask Mel, God bless her! Yeah set up more targets for him James. What the fuck am I so worried about anyways! It's not like he's a psycho with an axe. Maybe I could just talk to him, and if he starts any funny business I'll get up and leave! It's not like I'll give in to him! I have Logan now! Got to protect my Logan...
James wasn't lying to himself the thoughts of Logan and how opposite from Kyle he was really did kill any lingering attraction, so when James finally had a break from his classes he went to meet him head on. Kyle smiling though at the sight of him made it clear that this wasn't going to be easy. James refused to order he didn't want to stay for long and he wanted Kyle to know that, Kyle simply didn't care; he had prepared his attack plan before he even got into town. Their booth was in a corner right by the biggest window.
"Let's get this over with." James had his best poker face on but still he wished he could just grab Kyle's sunglasses and shove them up his ass because with them on Kyle didn't need one. That was the difference between an actor in training and a natural born liar.
"Stop bothering me." James said coldly.
"Why?" Kyle asked back, he even sounded kind off pissed.
"What? Why? What do you mean why? I don't want anything to do with you!" James shot back holding in his anger.
"Why is that James?" James's mouth gaped; he knew Kyle was anything but retarded.
"What part exactly don't you get, we're over!" James started to lose control slowly raising his voice.
"Emotionally we were never even on not from my part at least, physically though, come on James, I know you. There's slim chance you found someone better to fuck with. So why are you denying yourself the pleasure?" James hit his hands on the table; Kyle gave a small apologetic smile to the waitress just to drive him even more insane.
"Why I don't want sex with you! Well, you disgust me for once! You cheated on me! Hurt me! Lied! Used me..." The bottle of pent up feelings had opened and James went on and on listing the crimes Kyle had perpetrated.
"Blah, blah, blah and I told you Santa doesn't exist either! Grow up James it was two years ago! I'm not angry that we didn't fuck last time I saw you anymore am I?" James stopped cold, in what world exactly does Kyle think he lives in where it's alright to break someone's heart but if you denied glorious sex you had the right to be mad at the other person. James stood up to leave and Kyle gave out a sigh.
"Sit down James we're not done yet. At least appreciate the fact that I'm honest with you for once..." James ignored him and turned to leave but then Kyle took off his sunglasses quickly and looked deeply in James's eyes. He actually looked hurt.
"Tell me at least you're not saying no because of this Logan I saw yesterday?" James sat back, no fear no anger just pride and dedication.
"Yes. He's my life now and like Hell I am hurting him the same way you hurt me!" James didn't want to involve Logan, he wanted to keep him out of this, but Logan was his shield, his armor and he would use him to take the enemy down.
"He's a child James what sort of pleasure will he give you?" Kyle was frustrated, or at least he sounded that way.
"It's not about sex, he loves me, I love him you won't get that in your entire life." Kyle rolled his eyes, James didn't even care.
"If I wanted a mushy mushy love I would have tried harder with you. And a part of you knows that you don't want that commitment either, you know it won't last and you'll end up devastated again." James shook his head.
"It didn't work with you because you are a pitiful pathetic and alone monster. Logan's the best kindest most innocent man out there." The only thing James felt bad about in all of this was that Kyle was the recipient of his declaration and not Logan.
"Yeah Loggie's Jesus, I get that. Then where the fuck do you get the right to screw him over? You are just as dirty as I am James. You're a whore remember? At least that's what you begged me to call you from day one." James smiled; if this lame comment was Kyle's way of striking back he really had nothing to worry about in the first place.
"You're late for the guilt train; Logan already helped me get off. I told him you see? I told him everything and he still wants me, and he's not perfect he's just so damn close and I would be a fool to let my shortcomings and mistakes stop me from going after him. That's what you are Kyle a mistake and I'm fixing you for Logan's sake." Kyle laughed hard he couldn't keep it in anymore.
"Did you really tell him everything James? About the orgies and all the other perverted stuff we did? You expect me to buy that? Come on I thought you were smarter than this. You've fallen too much into acting that you think your life is some sort of grand romantic blockbuster! Bet you, you haven't even fucked the guy yet!" James gave out a sigh; this was a waste of time apparently. Yes Kyle spoke the truth, and yes James hadn't told Logan the hardcore details, but that was only because James didn't want to be Kyle, he wouldn't thrust Logan with images that would just hurt him. And if that was a mistake, well, only Logan had the right to judge him.
"Just don't come near us again. You owe me that at least." James stood up to leave for real this time but Kyle didn't budge.
"I'll be in town for a week, you wake up I'm staying at the hotel we hooked up the last time." James shook his head he left apologizing to the waitress for the shouting. He walked back to his school feeling reborn and powerful. Before going back to class he actually called his mother really not knowing why, maybe because it was the Logan thing to do he thought. She was her usual "charming" self it didn't bother him. He just told her that everything was alright and asked how things with her were. After he hanged up he texted Derek that he had something really important to tell him tonight and that maybe the Kyle thing was over. Derek texted back that they should celebrate but James didn't answer, there was a high chance he'd kill him with the champagne bottle when he'd find out about himself and Logan. So the new James Diamond went to his singing class dedicating every lyric to his love.
If Logan thought his first day of school was great then his second one was glorious. The classes were outstanding and the circle of people he had met yesterday thinned down to seven but that was actually a great thing because those seven were the ones that honestly respected and admired Logan and had no ill will against him. He even got asked out on dates. TWICE! One by the girl that eyed him the other day, he told her he was gay, minutes later she pushed a guy from the group to Logan encouraging her friend to ask him out. Logan told him he was unavailable, all three laughed holding no grudges. The only down side was the pile of homework the professors kept on assigning, that actually made Logan reconsider his date plans with James. Fate though had his mother give him a call.
"Hi! I know we haven't talked much! No. I'm between classes actually. College? No, I'm in Heaven mom not college. Yeah I know, I know, your son's a nerd. Well, apparently they appreciate that sort of thing here. I'm making friends mom. Really! And there something else...Sit down and brace yourself." Logan told her about James, not in details though he didn't want to scare her. She got mad with him and begged for him to take it slowly afraid that this fiend would break her little boys' heart. Logan fought back, when he told her that he was convinced it was like what she felt for his father the argument got heated. Finally Logan told her that whatever she did or say or whatever the world decided to throw at him, he and James would go on their damn date this Saturday even if they had to outrun the Four Horsemen of The Apocalypse! She gave him her blessing and promised to wire him some extra money so he could get a cub.
"Thanks mom, love you too. Got to go bye...NO I AM NOT SAYING IT MOM I'M IN PUBLIC GIVE ME A BREAK!" He hanged up and texted her instead, that her Loggie-bear was in love and happy. She answered don't forget the Horsemen.
Logan just couldn't stop smiling all day long; when he was driving home he blasted the radio on singing which was the last boundary really. Logan Mitchell made a constant effort not to sing. E-V-E-R. And both yesterday and today all because of school and James he absentmindedly forgot his promise.
Great he hears me sing that's it. He'll know I had professional training; then he'll tie me on his back and drag me to his acting school. Worst part I'll let him do it too. Who's to blame here me, him or you dad! You just had to give me your pipes didn't you?
Logan laughed with himself and his father's imaginary dirty joke, it wasn't until he was parking outside his home that any thought of Sleazy Kyle came to him. Serious, careful and combat ready he got out of the car and after checking for his mortal enemy and making sure he wasn't there Logan got in the building, not singing because he actually settled down on being a doctor.
The apartment was empty which surprised Logan a little, Derek didn't have that many afternoon classes he should be here by now, he walked in his bedroom and flipped the light switch on. At the sight of the surprise that awaited him Logan didn't know if he wanted to scream or cry.
There were clothes everywhere again only this time they were carefully placed on the bed or hanged on his closet door, they were in sets and had post it stickers on that had the days of the week written on them, all except one outfit that came with a cashmere coat Logan actually recognized. It had a paper note instead of a sticker pinned on.
"I didn't go to the gym today and thought of a way to make sure I won't run late again having to dress up your cute little ass. So now I can focus on our date this Saturday thinking about how to get you naked...And yes I'm still buying you clothes, and yes the shirt under the coat is red. I want to see your eyes sparkle. Anything else simply doesn't matter anymore.
P.S You'll have to eat by yourself tonight Loggie the big boys have to talk." There was something else James also wrote but he had erased it or at least tried to, but Logan could see the markings and even though only the "L" was legible and only when pressed against the florescent light bulb it still made Logan fall on the floor laughing and rolling around like a child.