The Clash of the Bands: Remade
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"Never better, lets' go!"
And she started pulling him along the road.
'My brother is a fool. She probably saw them…' He thought. InuYasha and Kikyo were walking down the street and smiling at each other. He had managed to convince her that he loved her, and only her. He looked up and saw Kagome grabbing Sesshomaru's hand. He continued listening to Kikyo, and smiled at her. He wanted Kagome, so much. He was stupid to try to force himself on her when they were sixteen. He knew she was innocent, and he tried to take it away. He wanted her all to himself… but all he could have was Kikyo. 'I'm an idiot.' He thought, as he continued walking with her. He didn't expect to see Kagome and Sesshomaru together. Now; or ever. He had known Sesshomaru used to like Kagome but he knew that Sesshomaru didn't now. And he… he had stolen Kagome from him. He'd taken Kagome from Sesshomaru and almost raped her. He really was stupid. But he had made his choice, and he would stick to it. He knew he had to do what was right by Kikyo, and he smiled down at her, pulling her hand to his to kiss it. 'But she isn't Kagome.'
And he had to deal with it.
This Time:
Chapter Ten
Pretty Girl
Kagome pushed around the food on her plate while her eyes watched the sky outside. "Are you done eating Kagome?" Sesshomaru asked, watching her with an unreadable expression. She looked at him then at her plate.
"Oh, yeah. Are you?" She asked. She started to pull out her wallet when he shook his head.
"Kagome, I can pay for it. Lets' just say it's on me today?"
A smile lit her face after the frown disappeared. "If you want." She said. He smiled at her, but inside he was frowning. She always let others decide. She hadn't always been like that… had she? Sesshomaru and Kagome both looked up at the same time, seeing two figures stop at their table. Kagome put on a fake smile, even though all she wanted to do was run. "What's up Kikyo?"
"Nothing really… just finished eating." To be honest, Kikyo was quite surprised that Kagome had spoken to her. Kagome had declared the day after Kikyo and InuYasha…
Well, lets' have a flashback and explain Kikyo's side of the story…
Flashback—
InuYasha smiled as he felt Kikyo grab his hand. Kikyo smiled at him as they walked up the walkway to his house. He tugged her along. He hadn't been as close to Kagome as he had been a year ago. She refused to be in his room with him after that, except if Sango or someone else was there. He led Kikyo up the two flights of stairs, ignoring the glares from some of the maids. Most Kagome had befriended and they liked her. He opened his door and pulled Kikyo inside. He smiled as he let go of her hand as he watched her explore. "Oh wow. This is nice." She said, looking out the window. From the back, she looked like Kagome, except her hair was quite shorter. She turned back to InuYasha as she sat on the windowsill. She smiled and opened her arms. He knew that she wanted him from the glances she had given him all day. From the way she brushed her chest against his, faking falls. He was surprised Kagome hadn't noticed… or maybe she was too polite to say anything. Kikyo watched him walk over, a smile on his face; one playing on hers as well. She stood, and looked at him, her hands running over his shoulders. "You have really broad shoulders, has anyone ever told you that?" He laughed as she leaned closer, arms going around his waist. Somehow that reminded him of Kagome, and he smiled, laughing lightly as he wrapped his arms around her and tugged her closer to him.
"Once or twice." He murmured, looking down at her. Overnight, she had become such a beauty. He knew this was wrong, but he was desperate now. Kagome had denied him. Even if he was only seventeen, he felt older; somehow more mature then just seventeen. He leaned down, watching her eyes close as he kissed her. 'Wow.' Was his only thought as his hands trailed to her hips then to the bottom of her skirt. His hands went farther down as he pinned her against his wall, lifting her by her waist so she wasn't touching the ground. Still kissing her. Her wrapped her legs around his waist. He felt ashamed, but his lust was overpowering that. 'She's really good at kissing…' He thought to himself as he felt her hands tangle into his hair. "Jesus Kikyo, you're amazing." He whispered. "You've made a complete 180…" He murmured against her shoulder. He heard her laugh.
"I've been hearing that all day." She whispered to him. Suddenly, her back wasn't pressed against the wall anymore, but against InuYasha's sheets. He looked down at her. She smirked inside, and she knew this was wrong… but she couldn't help wanting him. He lifted one of her hands and pressed it to his lips. He kissed her palm softly. "InuYasha… if Kagome finds out…" She hesitated. "I don't want to cause trouble between you two." She heard him sigh and watched his eyes open.
"Kikyo, to be honest… I haven't been alone with Kagome for a year." He murmured. "I took her first kiss and I wanted more than that. And after I had undone her pants and pushed her down, I heard her sigh. I took that as encouragement, but she shoved me away. Her eyes, the panic there just… I don't know how to explain this… I guess I frightened her so bad, that she doesn't want to be alone with me ever again." He looked down at her, and smiled. "I really want you."
She felt her heart constrict as those words. She bit her lower lip. He'd just made it worse; the ache she had. How could she do this to Kagome? The girl who'd been so nice to her on her first day? She felt InuYasha press his lips against hers and she stopped thinking completely. Kagome would never know. She felt InuYasha trail his hand down her leg to her knee then back up to the end of her skirt. And as he pushed his hand under the edge of her skirt, then back to her knee, she knew. She wouldn't let Kagome have him ever again. She liked the way he touched her, how when he touched her, her heart sped up frantically. InuYasha's hand went to the hem of her shirt, and he kissed up her stomach slowly. He heard his door open and looked up. "Kagome." He whispered, his throat constricting. "Kagome, wait. I can explain." He shouted, as she stared at him. Kagome's lower lip was quivering, before she inhaled sharply and began.
"You can always explain, can't you InuYasha?" Her eyes shone with unshed tears. Kikyo looked over at Kagome, eyes widening when she realized he wasn't pulling a prank on her. She gasped, opening her mouth to speak, but was cut off by Kagome. "I'm tired of your explanations…" She heard Kagome whisper. "If you want me, why do you… do these things? To think I came here today… to…" She cut herself off again. "InuYasha… I really loved you. I wanted you more then you knew… and now… now what am I supposed to do? Turn the blind eye? Pretend I didn't see this?"
Kikyo watched the emotions play in Kagome's eyes before she looked above her to InuYasha, who was looking at Kagome, eyes wide, full of fear, confusion, and regret. "What did you come here to do Kagome?" He asked, his voice soft.
"I came over here to give myself to you! I was going to actually give you everything I have! I was going to let you have my virginity InuYasha! And now… I realize what an idiot I was…" Kagome coughed as tears began to flow from her eyes. "I can't… I can't be with you anymore InuYasha. I can't offer anything else that Kikyo can't…" She threw a file to the floor "Here Kikyo, that was the report I was supposed to give you today… You have to fill out everything then," Kagome inhaled, a shaky breath, "Return it to the teacher. But after this… I never am going to treat you the same. You'll drop out of existence in my mind for as far as I know. Kikyo, I hate you, but I have to thank you. InuYasha…" She winced slightly and more tears fell. "I never want to be within fifty feet of you again…" She inhaled shakily again, and bit her lip. "I'm tired of this."
"Kagome wait!" InuYasha shouted as Kagome ran from the doorway. Kikyo felt horrible, and watched as InuYasha turned back towards her, a smile bright on his face. "She'll be back." He whispered. "She'll accept my forgiveness. She always has, and she always will." He leaned down to kiss Kikyo again, and continue with what he was doing. She nodded and closed her eyes.
'I hope she forgives him… if not, then I just ruined everything.'
End Flashback—
Kikyo felt horrible that she had even finished what she an InuYasha had started, but somehow she knew that nothing could be done about what she was feeling.
"Kikyo?" Kagome asked, as she stood up, looking down towards Kikyo. Kagome had always been a few inches taller. She poked Kikyo in the forehead and then walked past her. "Well alright…" She murmured, and looked at Sesshomaru. "Lets' go pay for the bill, okay Sessho?" And with that, she walked past InuYasha and Kikyo, her eyes straightforward.
"Wait, Kagome… have you ever forgave me? Will you ever forgive me?" Kikyo asked, her eyes hopeful as she watched Kagome turn to look at her. Kikyo's hopeful look alarmed Kagome. Kagome had a slow smile, almost like she meant it, but the heartbroken look behind it gave Kikyo an answer before she even heard it.
"No Kikyo, and I never will. I don't like you, and nothing will change that." With that, Kagome walked to the front, and handed them a large bill. Sesshomaru walked out with her. Kagome didn't want the change, and refused it, telling the worker to keep it as she walked smoothly out of the room, looking much like a princess then anything.
"Are you going to be alright?" Sesshomaru asked as he caught up with her. "I was supposed to pay." She smiled a tight smile.
"Just peachy, and next time you can."
He blinked. 'Next time?' That was great. He was cheering on the inside, though on the outside he remained calm, the mask never slipping off his face. "Do you want to talk about it?" He asked, his hand reaching towards hers before he pretended to reach up and scratch his arm. He wouldn't push her to do anything, not even hold his hand. He wouldn't be like InuYasha in any way. Her company was enough for him… enough for now.
"Not right now." She whispered, looking at him with a sideways glance. "Maybe later… one thing you should know about me… I'm easy to push around, easy to persuade with a lot of things, but some thing's no one can force me into." Kagome whispered the last part, her voice tight. When they reached the school, Kagome smiled then turned to Sesshomaru. "Have a great day. I'll see you tomorrow." He grabbed her arm, taking a breath and releasing it before he smirked.
"Want to play hooky?" Kagome's smile was the answer, and they took off down the road. They ended up at a park, goofing off on the swings, seeing who could jump the furthest. Sesshomaru had won, but she blamed it on him having a longer body.
Kagome sighed, sitting back against the bench in the park as she watched Sesshomaru pull himself up onto the monkey bars and sit. He looked over at Kagome and raised an eyebrow. "Something wrong?" He inquired, pointing a finger in her direction. She looked at him for a moment before shaking her head no. He made a hook with his finger and then bent it in his direction. Kagome laughed and got up from the bench. Sesshomaru appraised her with his eyes. "Blue is a nice color on you." He commented, making her grin. "But you really look good in anything."
"Why thanks Sessho." She said, slightly flustered as she grabbed a monkey bar, pulling herself up between two monkey bars. She sighed softly again. "I haven't done that for a while." She murmured. Sesshomaru nodded, looking at the sky. "It's about three now." Kagome stated, as she looked at her watch. "Oh, yep, three. I hope Souta takes my car home."
"Did you leave the key for him?" Sesshomaru questioned. Kagome nodded. "Then he more than likely will." Kagome nodded again, lying on top of the monkey bars. She sighed again and looked over at the sun.
"Pretty." She mumbled, as she watched the colors around the horizon. The sun was still way in the sky, but from this distance, you could see reds and purples around the horizon.
"Indeed." Sesshomaru agreed, but he wasn't looking the same way Kagome was. He was staring directly at Kagome. She turned and met his gaze. She gasped slightly when she caught the emotions flashing in his eyes. Confusion, adoration, lust, anger and confusion at the lust, and an unidentified emotion that Kagome couldn't catch before he blinked and his eyes were clear. "Are you ready to go? School is over." He murmured.
Kagome nodded. Sesshomaru hopped down and held out his arms as he walked under her. She grabbed the bars with her hand and leaned backwards, her arms catching her before her feet touched the ground. She stumbled a bit and Sesshomaru helped steady her. She smiled brightly. "Thanks Sessho…" She mumbled. "You're a great friend."
He nodded and escorted her home. The 'friend' comment wasn't sitting very well in his stomach. He didn't want to just be friends. But he would wait. And he could wait as long as it took. At the steps he looked down at her face, his hand touching her. The back of his hand grazed her cheek before he turned and walked away. 'That was… strange.' She thought, as she opened the door and walked inside.
That night Kagome's dreams were different. "Sesshomaru." Kagome whispered, her eyebrows furrowing together. A moment later, she awoke with a jolt. "Crap…" She said, as she felt her heart thumping in her chest. "It was only a dream, a dream…" She told herself, repeatedly. But it felt so real. She looked at her blanket and sighed, plopping back onto the pillows. She hummed for a moment before Rin and Souta came in. "Hey."
"Hey, what are you doing lazy? Get up!" Souta shouted, as he ripped off her blankets. She grumbled and rolled over. Standing up, she walked to the bathroom. "Hurry Kagome, only thirty minutes until school starts."
"Yeah, yeah." Kagome mumbled, as she got in, got out in ten minutes, and dressed in a light blue silk dress shirt with a pair of black dress pants. She brushed out her hair, twisting it and putting it in a clip. She turned to Rin in the seat beside her and brushed a stray hair from Rin's eyes "Your hair is getting longer." Rin smiled and nodded. "Well see you both later. I'll meet you here."
"Alright." Rin smiled, and looked at Souta. "See you later Souta-kun."
"You too Rin, Kagome."
As Kagome walked to class, she hummed to herself. The beat getting stuck in her head, she sat at her desk, writing on a piece of paper. She heard someone reading her lyrics behind her. "Seems like just yesterday, you were a part of me? I used to stand so tall, I used to be so strong. Your arms around me tight, everything it felt so right. Unbreakable like nothing could go wrong…" She turned around to see InuYasha, his arms crossed over his chest. "What kind of crap is that?" He asked her, his voice cocky.
"This crap isn't any of your business." She stated, as she slammed the paper into a notebook.
"Whatever fatty." He muttered.
"Just because I am not anorexic doesn't mean I am fat." She replied. She stopped, "Actually, I have more muscle then fat."
"You're fat Kagome, no matter how you look at it." He stated, as he began to laugh. He went and sat beside Kikyo, watching Kagome from the corner of his eye. Soon class rolled to an end, and Sesshomaru smiled at Kagome. She smiled back which made InuYasha seethe inside. 'How can she smile at him? Doesn't she still love me at all? I know I did a lot of messed up things, but I still love her. I love her because even though I can't have her, I know she won't ever be happy without me.' He looked at Kikyo, who smiled prettily at him. 'And I have Kikyo…'
She whistled while she removed books from her locker, before it was rudely slammed in her face. "What's going on with you and Sesshomaru?"
"Why do you care?"
"Because, you're going to end up hurt."
"Like that hasn't happened before, or should I remind you about two years ago?" When he flinched, she continued. "After you almost forced me when I was sixteen…? It must not have meant anything if the next year you were going to Kikyo." She stated, opening her locker again. "Her second day here too. Tsk, tsk, tsk." Kagome shook a finger. "I don't care for your problems. Leave me alone. I thought I had made that clear two years ago." She slammed her locker shut again, and stormed off. In the band room, she sat at the piano, sighing, she started to touch keys. A moment later, she was playing the beat that was stuck in her head all day. "Take time, to realize… that your warmth is crashing down on me… Take time to realize, that I am on your side. Didn't I, didn't I, tell you? But I can't, spell it out for you. No it's never gonna be that simple…" She whispered, before standing and leaving. She sat at a table beside Rin and took her apple. Rin frowned and looked at Kagome, poking her with a spork. "Ow." Kagome said, laughing at Rin who was shaking the spork at her.
"So, are you going to sing today?" Souta asked, as he sat beside Sira, who handed Rin an apple with a smile. Rin smiled back. Sango was back in school, and sat beside Kagome. She had an arm cast on, and her chest was wrapped tightly in order to prevent her ribs from breaking anymore. Sango looked at Kagome, expectantly.
"Yeah. Sango, can you play with one arm?"
"Nope."
"Souta…?" Kagome asked, and he raised his eyebrows.
"Sira?" He asked. She had just taken a bite of her apple.
"If you want." She said as soon as she was done chewing. He smiled.
"I'm in." But he paused. "Where's Ayame?" He questioned. "I haven't seen her at all lately. Four or five days now." He touched his chin in thought. "She hasn't been to school or anything." Kagome sighed.
"She's probably sick. When she gets sick it lasts forever." Kagome sighed again. "I'll call after school, come on, lets' go play." Everyone but Sango and Sira stood. Sango lifted her corndog and took a bite from it.
"Ayame probably is sick." Sango commented. Sira nodded.
"I hope that's all it is. Colds can get very severe." Kagome walked to the microphone and smiled at the cafeteria.
"Ready for some music?" She asked. Some people watched, as Souta began to play. Kagome took a deep breath and a moment later, began. "Seems like just yesterday, you were a part of me. I used to stand so tall; I used to be so strong. Your arms around me tight, everything it felt so right. Unbreakable like nothing could go wrong… Now I can't breathe… No I can't sleep. I'm barely hanging on… Here I am! Once again! I'm torn into pieces; can't deny it, can't pretend! Just thought you were the one. Broken up, deep inside… But you won't get to see the tears I cry! Behind these hazel eyes…" Her voice was powerful, and some people clapped. "I told you everything; opened up and let you in. You made me feel all right, for once in my life… Now all that's left of me, is what I pretend to be. So together, but so broken up inside. 'Cause I can't breathe. No I can't sleep. I'm barely hanging on…" She placed her hand on her stomach and held it as she sang.
"Here I am! Once again! I'm torn into pieces; can't deny it, can't pretend! Just thought you were the one! Broken up, deep inside… But you won't get to see the tears I cry! Behind these hazel eyes…" Some people clapped as she held her stomach again. "Swallow me, then spit me out… For hating you, I blame myself! Just seeing you, it kills me now. No I don't cry on the outside… anymore!" This pitch was kind of high and loud. Many clapped. "Anymore…" She sang, her voice almost silent compared to the loud pitch of before.
"Here I am! Once again! I'm torn into pieces; can't deny it, can't pretend! Just thought you were the one! Broken up, deep inside. But you won't get to see the tears I cry! Behind these hazel eyes…" The way she was holding the microphone was interesting. She had it away from her face, like she wasn't really using it, but more or less just singing really loudly. "Here I am! Once again! I'm torn into pieces; can't deny it, can't pretend! Just thought you were the one! Broken up, deep inside! But you won't get to see the tears I cry! Behind these hazel eyes…" She finished, a smile on her face.
"What's so interesting?" Sesshomaru questioned Mr. Nato as he walked up behind him. The cafeteria was noisy today, wasn't it?
"Kagome Higurashi is singing right now. Did you hear about the competition that they are going to be in? It's two weeks away. I can't wait to attend. No more school for the summer. Woo." He pumped his fist in the air.
"I'm going as well. I'm going to be in the competition actually."
"Well, good for you Mr. Taisho. I hope you succeed in whatever it is you are going to do."
"I intend to." He said, as his eyes swept to Kagome. He wished he could tell her, just come out with it. But that would tip the precipice their relationship was balancing on. 'Just friends' seemed to be getting worse every day.
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