Title: That's What You Get

Word Count: 1,009

Characters: 12th Doctor with appearances of Clara Oswald and Danny Pink

Summary: The 12th Doctor thinks about his relationship with Clara and he wonders about her and Danny Pink's relationship ((between The Caretaker and Time Heist))

Rating: K+

Song Lyrics: 'That's What You Get', by Paramore

No sir, well I don't wanna be the blame, not anymore.
It's your turn, so take a seat we're settling the final score.
And why do we like to hurt so much?

I can't decide
You have made it harder just to go on
And why, all the possibilities, well I was wrong

He never really ever realizes until it's too late. As he's watching Clara and Danny laughing down the hallways, he feels a bitter pain in his chest. He brushes it off as something unimportant, because it isn't important, at least not anymore it isn't. It could be him making her laugh like that; it could be him making her happy.

He could've, should've, would've – he's ruined all his chances of ever having her love him again. Maybe if he didn't push her away. Maybe if he didn't act so cold towards her she wouldn't hate him as much as she seemed to. Maybe, if he wasn't so selfish when he trick her o Trenzalore, but then, he knows that she would most definitely be dead and that would most definitely break his hearts even more than the fact that Clara and PE are now snogging the faces off each other in his little Care-takers office.

Maybe he still wants Clara to feel the way he's feeling, but he could never do that to her – make her feel all the pain and sadness that he's going through in this moment, because she has sacrificed almost everything just to make sure that he lived.

He cherishes her so much; he loves her and that's why it hurts – that's why it will always hurt because she's leaving him and he doesn't remember what traveling the Universe was like without her. He still wants to hold onto her as if he is never letting go. He still wants to call her his Impossible Girl, but he doesn't because he knows all the pain those words will bring to her. It will hurt to bring back all the memories of love filled yesterdays and never happening tomorrows.

It's hard for him to let her go. He's held onto her for so long, almost all his exceptionally long life (and he hadn't realized she's been there through all of it until recently) he doesn't understand why it's so damn hard for him to look at her anymore without getting a feeling of jealously (and that's surreally starting to irritate him).

He hates himself for getting so attached to some silly little human girl. But she's Clara; she's done so much for him out of kindness and he wishes he could have stayed as the childish old man for her. He wishes that he could have done so many more 'boyfriend-y' things with her. He wishes her were in Danny Pink's place.

He still wants to be the one she confides in at the end of the day when she's feeling down. He wants to be the one she hugs after a long day at work with incredibly pesky children. He wants to be hers more than anything. He wants his spot in her heart back – the place that Mr. Pink took from him.

He knows that he won't be able to reclaim it as he had been able to do in the past, and maybe that would be for the best because when the time comes for him to leave (which it will, there is no doubting it) it won't hurt her nearly as much, if she wasn't already wounded by him beyond repair.

But no matter how much she hates him ore despises him, he will do anything in his power to make sure that she is happy and safe. There is nothing that she could possibly do to him that could make him hate her. He loves her too much and he has never been so in love. Deep down, in the depths of his hearts, he knows that he will always love her and nothing will ever come between his loves for her.

He's turning away from the kissing couple, not wanting to wound himself any more than he already has. He's walking back towards his TARDIS where he can sit in a comfortable silence – just him and his not so pleasant thoughts.

As he's sitting in the library contemplating where he went wrong with Clara, he begins to think that maybe Mr. Pink is good for her; maybe she needs something mundane in her life, a normal aspect. Maybe (though he wishes this to not be true) Danny Pink is just what Clara needs to start acting like herself again.

She used to look at him with such admiration and affection and that's how she looks at Danny Pink now, and though he wishes it was still him, he's glad that she's found someone else that can make her as happy as he once made her. It breaks his hearts, but he loves her (far too much than he would care to admit) and if PE makes her happy, that is all that matters.

He smiles to himself, because he thinks of Clara and Danny's future together. Maybe they'll get married and have children. Just the thought makes him laugh – little Claras running around. Maybe they would travel with him sometimes, or maybe they would just leave him alone to travel the universe without the burdens of their highly domestic life.

Clara would never do that, he soon realizes. Clara needs to be moving and god knows she wouldn't be able to handle pregnancy. The thought makes him spit because he's laughing so hard. He's laughing so hard on the couch that he doesn't hear her enter the library until she shouts at him and asks him what is so funny.

He's not going to tell her, so he makes up some joke about time lord stuff that she definitely won't understand and sits up giving her a pat on the shoulder before he strolls into the console room. She appears there not soon after and tells him to take her somewhere relaxing, because the children were straight from hell today. He smiles a coy smile but doesn't say anything back as he hit the wibbly lever.

He'd do anything she told him to do, because she's his impossible girl and he loves her far too much for words to express.

That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating.
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.

Hola friends! Two updates I two days! I know right?! Well I hope you like this, (I made the ending really cute I think idk. Pregnant Clara makes me laugh a lot.

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