Réincarnation

To Innocent Uke Or NOT: I wasn't sure at first about Xion's part last chapter, but I realized that Roxas needed to say goodbye and let go of her. Thank goodness it wasn't bad. About Sora's feelings… this chapter says it all, really. I met my deadline! You can't hurt me now! *takes cover*

To Anna Shiki: Glad to know you still read this! It's not all Roxas' fault; Sora just lost it thanks to confusion. The torture isn't over just yet, (for either of them) but Sora will work it out. He's Sora, after all!

To chrisal: Well, Sora believes his confusion is because of Xion. But let's see what happens. Thank you :3

Thanks to StickeyriceZ for putting this story in favorites

Title is French. We don't own Kingdom Hearts.

10: Realization

The sun shone brightly that morning. Sora stretched to remain awake. He looked at the door to see his mother looking at him funny.

"What is it?" He asked a bit irked. Raine just giggled.

"When you sleep you look as cute as the day you were born." She smiled at her son, who was covering himself in embarrassment. "Did you forget that Ellone comes back from college today?" Sora's eyes widened. He had completely forgotten.

He couldn't be blamed, though. Since Roxas went away almost a month ago, he hardly noticed anything outside of his now defined (some would say too defined) routine. Wake up, get ready, go to school, talk for about ten minutes with his friends, look at Axel's expression to see if he had met Roxas and go home. It had become so bad he had forgotten Kairi's birthday, Tidus's 'big game' and now Ellone being home.

Before, his older sister coming home was something he and Squall always looked forward to. He specially enjoyed seeing his usually aloof older brother becoming a bundle of smiles and childishness (which he always teased), but now, it seemed like he couldn't really feel happy about anything.

Roxas was the center of everything. He didn't feel ready to see him again, but his heart was practically brawling with his sense of reason to make him ready. He really wanted to see him, but Xion's emotions were still there, and he knew meeting the blond would just intensify those feelings. Routine helped ease all that, monotony tended to dull everything else.

"We won't be home until late. Her flight arrives at 8:00." His mother continued, pulling him out of his daze. "So go out with your friends, have fun. You're becoming a shut-in at such a young age!" she put her hands on her hips and gave a dramatic sigh.

"I'm fine, mom." He argued. "I'm just… melancholic, I guess." He said simply and entered the bathroom as quickly as he could. He loved his mother dearly, but her questioning methods were way too effective when she wanted.

He got ready and went to school, his mind drifting to that familiar blond hair and smile. He really couldn't help it. Thinking about Roxas was the only reason he was still (somewhat) sane. He still paid attention to class, of course, but he just couldn't bring his mind to focus 100% in it.

When he took notice of his surroundings once more, he was walking towards Chemistry. Vexen was not that bad, but on classes that didn't include labs his voice quickly turned into white noise. You were lucky if by the end of the class you were completely awake. Sora didn't even last fifteen minutes before falling sleep.

An empty room, except for two mirrors: One wooden and the other silver. Even though the silver mirror looked newer and cleaner, the wooden one was well kept, exotic, and beautiful. They both had a figure on top, an otter on the wooden, and a dolphin above the silver.

Sora stayed completely still, somewhat afraid of them. It wasn't the first time he saw this dream, and even though he could move, the only thing there were the mirrors, which he had no interest in seeing. He felt those mirrors were dangerous, and so this dream was always the same: He sitting down about six feet away from them, waiting for the moment to wake up.

"I guess that's all." Sora lifted his head when the bell rang. Vexen looked really disappointed at his missed chance to talk even more. "Tomorrow, we'll be experimenting with acids, so bring your lab equipment." Sora left the classroom and headed towards lunch, mulling over the dream.

At first it was no biggie, just a weird dream he had. But lately, he couldn't sleep without seeing it, and he always remembered when he had it.

Riku and Kairi sat down beside him and began their usual routine of 'cheering him up'. He didn't get it. He wasn't as cheery as usual, that's all… for a complete month… Yeah, he could see where this was going. He decided to avoid all this by talking about his dream to them. The looked genuinely interested in it, but maybe they were amazed that he could still talk like he cared about something.

"Maybe your dream is trying to tell you something, but you haven't seen it. It's still trying to get to you." Kairi suggested. Riku nodded.

"So stop being a lazy ass and move in that dream." Riku said. "I'm sure it's just trying to tell you that you look horrible." He teased, but Sora didn't respond.

"I'm scared. I don't know why, but I think I won't like whatever I see in there." He murmured. Kairi smiled at him in understanding.

"Whatever it is, you must confront it. After all, you're never alone." The redhead smiled. Sora couldn't help but to smile back.

"Thank you."

The mirrors appeared once again. Sora sighed, ready to look at them. He had fallen asleep in Xaldin's class, and he'd be in trouble if he was caught. Luckily, Kairi said she would do everything to stop the teacher from seeing him. He took three steps towards the two mirrors before cowering a bit.

He breathed heavily and practically jumped the remaining distance. Neither mirror had a crystal on it. He looked curiously at the metallic one, touching the surface. He was surprised when a crystal began forming under his touch, and he saw himself appearing hastily on the reflection. He blinked slowly and realized he was looking at himself from within the mirror, not the other way around.

'Sora' smiled sweetly at him before turning back and touching the wooden surface of the other mirror. The crystal appeared quickly while 'Sora' disappeared. The reflection, however, wasn't the brunet, but a short, black haired girl with sapphire eyes.

"I really wanted to meet you." The girl smiled. "What's your name?"

"…Sora." He said, confused. The girl's eyes twinkled with happiness and he felt like an idiot for not noticing earlier. "You're Xion, aren't you?" The girl just giggled and nodded.

"I've been trying to contact you since that night." Sora tilted his head in confusion. What night was she talking about? Xion smiled and recited in an eerily accurate imitation of his voice. "Xion… would you be mad if I were to be with him?" The brunet gaped when he realized what the girl was talking about. He stumbled upon his own words before blabbering.

"I… I didn't mean it! I didn't know you'd take that question seriously! I'm really not—" He stopped talking when Xion laughed softly.

"You're cute. That must be why Roxas likes you so much." Sora blushed in embarrassment. "You know, I always thought we were just friends until I was thirteen. After I saw him protect me, I couldn't think of him as that anymore. Without noticing, I had fallen in love with my childhood friend. I felt so confused." She seemed to be talking to herself, but her gaze was on Sora.

"Why are you telling me this?" he asked, completely lost.

"Because I need you to know. Confusion is part of love as much as affection. I must ask you: Do you love Roxas? Do you feel like I did all those years ago?" She asked, completely serious. Sora scratched the back of his head.

"I don't know. I like him, but it could be you unconsciously messing with my head or something like that." Xion looked at him with wide eyes, before bursting out laughing. "What is so funny?" He crossed his arms.

"You… You thought I was controlling your feelings?" She asked between laughs. Sora nodded dumbfounded. "I can't do such a thing, Sora! I'm only a memory. I let you remember my life. I have no power over your feelings." She calmed down, breathing slowly.

"B-but! That makes no sense! Then why would I have such conflicting emotions? Why do I want Roxas away and as close as possible at the same time?" He demanded from the girl. She just looked at him.

"That is not me… It's all you." She said, and everything made sense.

He loved Roxas. But he couldn't bring himself to be with him once he knew of Xion. Roxas reciprocated her love, so Sora didn't think he had a chance. To avoid the pain, he blamed all his feelings on Xion, and wanted him away so he couldn't realize anything. But if his heart couldn't bear rejection, it despaired without the blond. This confused feelings, were all because of love.

"I love him. I love him so much it hurts." He said more to himself than to the girl as he clutched his chest. Xion smiled.

"Then it's okay, for you to be with him." Sora looked up, to see a sincere smile on her lips. "I can't be with him anymore. If there's anyone that will make him happy, I'll pray for his feelings to reach that person. He loves you Sora, and if you love him back, I'll be happy if you're with him."

Sora wanted to say something, but nothing came out of his mouth. A ringing sound was heard. Just when it began, the mirrors began to melt, as if the crystal was made of ice.

"Time's over. I need to go back to sleep." She smiled as her eyes began falling, almost drowsily.

"Thank you. For everything." Sora managed to say, Xion smiled once again.

"Anytime… Sora."

He heard a ringing noise in his ears before waking up. Class was over. He looked over to Kairi and smiled at her. The brunet held an apologetic look on his face as he got up and ran away. He had to see Roxas, no matter what.

Luck seemed to be on his side, as he bumped with Axel in his mad dash. The redhead looked at him quizzically, but just shrugged.

"Do you know where Roxas' new school is?" He asked between long breaths. Axel smirked, but shook his head. Sora felt the whole world slowly disintegrate.

"Sorry. But don't worry. He still lives in the same place. If you run, you might be able to catch him before he arrives." Axel winked. The brunet smiled like he hadn't in weeks, thanked him and was off as soon as the redhead moved away. "Be safe!" He chuckled at the boy's seemingly recovered cheerfulness.

Sora ran like never before, focused solely on reaching the blond's house. It didn't matter if Xion was telling the truth or not about Roxas' feelings, he needed to be with him. Even if it was just as friends, having him around was the best thing ever.

He arrived at his destiny in less than fifteen minutes. He looked around and saw no sign of Roxas. He sighed and sat on the side of the road. As time passed by he became increasingly more nervous. What would he say? How would Roxas respond? Without noticing, he had moved so he was hiding in the alley besides his house. He couldn't help but feel like a stalker waiting for his target, and maybe he was.

Minutes looked like hours as anxiety grew; the fluttering feeling in his chest and stomach. This wasn't good. He was becoming a mess already! He seriously hoped for everything to go naturally once Roxas arrived. He looked at the opposite side of the road and after fourteen minutes and thirty-seven seconds (not that he counted) he could finally tell apart some blond spikes. His heartbeat rose. From nervousness or love, he couldn't tell. He was about to stand up and go over to him when he saw it.

A black haired boy with a mischievous look on his face appeared from nowhere and hugged Roxas' neck from behind.

Cliffhanger! The last one, I promise (just because the next one is the last chapter XP). If you love, hate, find some inconsistencies or just want to give a critique please review or tell me in a PM. I'm so excited about my first (almost) completed project!

Next time: Roxas POV for that last scene, and the ending. It will be up during the next weekend. See you soon!