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Not. Prepared. For. Season. 5. Episode. 3. Title. Forever Finn.

9. Water and Fire, or is That Blood?

July 13th.

The gang was taking a bus to Disneyland for the day. While there they planned to get a dinner at one of the restaurants nearby.

Once there and everyone went off in pairs; Marley found herself at a water ride with Ryder in hand. Though today she was wearing the purple one piece she had originally brought along, she still felt gross.

Why though? She's forced herself to skip meals when possible, puke at least a half hour after eating and she's bought and taken a lot of laxatives. Why should she still feel like this? And she's taken enough breath mints to make sure that nobody suspected a thing about her puking. So why does she still feel like this?

Not to feel any worse, since she already felt like she was going to faint at any second because she was pale and frail and weak, but she's done her bathroom action everyday. She couldn't stop, it was the best feeling she had when she did it but then afterwards she felt like miserable…well…shit.

She hid her weight gain prescription medicine in the kitchen in the back of a unused cabinet. She lied about taking it every morning.

She waited in the long line with Ryder, trying to keep focus. She held onto his hand. She attempted to ignore everything and everyone around her, but she couldn't. She cuddled closer to Ryder as she almost had her head on his side and leaning against him.

She spotted two teenage girls around her age walking from the water line they were just on. She looked at them from behind her sunglasses, seeing their appearance.

Both the girls were thin. Thinner than Marley herself, almost no skin because they showed more bones than Marley. They could definitely be diagnosed with anorexia in one doctors visit. The two of the girls, though, didn't seem to care. They were just laughing and having fun as if they didn't care how thin and unhealthy they were because to them; they were thin and beautiful and loving life.

They stopped in front of Marley and Ryder to finish up a conversation they had started. Five minute later they left laughing at a joke one made to the other and began walking again. Marley lifted her sunglasses up and watched the two of them leave, almost feeling guilty. She wanted to be thin, but never that thin. Just enough to fit into fun clothes and to be healthy.

Ryder could sense the emotion in her, after seeing those two girls walk passed them. He gripped her hand tightly and pulled her closer to him. "Hey…" he said softly. "You okay?"

Marley nodded into his shoulder as the two of them moved up in the line. A few minutes later Marley looked up to him. "Ryder, am I skinny?"

"Yes. And beautiful." He kissed the top of her head.

"No I mean," She got a little quiet and avoided eye contact. "Like those two girls. Am I that skinny?" She forced herself to look into his eyes.

Ryder's deep brown eyes looked into Marley's eyes, almost searching for something. He rested his forehead against hers and kissed the tip of her nose.

"No, you're not that skinny. But your not big either. You're beautiful, okay?" He smiled.

"I'm just worried that I'll end up being too fat or too skinny—"

"Worrying is stupid, it's like walking around with an umbrella waiting for it to rain." Ryder said as he held her hand. "I promise that as long as I'm live, I'll always love you and even after I'm gone I'll always love you—no matter how you look in shape and size. Just promise me that you'll do things to stay healthy; eat right, no bathroom activity and no laxative pills. Comprise?

Marley looked him deep in the eyes, a worried expression was written inside of her eyes but she forced herself to nod and agree to it. "Promise."

She hated to break a promise. Promise was such a huge thing to her, and she hated them.

Later that night, around midnight, after another round of force vomiting Marley sat back and took in some breathe. Then she looked into the toilet and saw something that's never happened before.

Blood.

She stood up and looked into the mirror and saw the corner of her mouth drawing some blood down. She wiped some of it off with her finger, then looked back into the mirror with Bambi sized eyes. Startled. Blood's never come out of her mouth before after a vomit activity.

Marley drank water, took some breath mints and left her home, in her short sleeve, knee cap length cotton white nightgown with her socks and black shoes on.

She went down to the home Ryder and Jake stayed, tapped on the window near Ryder's bed; loud enough to wake him up. She waved at him when he woke up and turned the light on. He opened the window and she climbed in. "Can I stay here, for the night? I'm just kind of lonely."

"Sure." Ryder said.

Marley began taking her socks and shoes off as Ryder closed the window and got back into bed. "Thank you."

"Everything okay?"

"Yes. Just lonely." She muttered as she crawled into the bed with Ryder. Marley laid in the bed with him, just gazing into his eyes as the moonlight hit his handsome face; lighting it show his deep and trustworthy eyes.

It hurt her heat. It made her sad that she had broken a promise to him.

"Goodnight." She kissed the tip of his nose.

Ryder kissed her forehead. "Goodnight Marley."