Chapter 10:
I tape the box shut and lift it up. I hug it to my body, feeling not only the weight of its contents, but also all that it represents in my arms. Christina comes in and tugs at the cardboard to take it from my hands. I let her and stare at my old dorm room. It is now completely empty. Christina offered to come back to Chicago too, but I refused, I wasn't going to let her ruin her future for me. No, I'm not going to make other people pay for my mistakes. She's moving in with Will and in some respects, I know she's happy that I'm leaving. They can love each other without me around now. Max, a Dauntless Housemaster, comes to see me and I give him my key. He sighs and I walk out, after Christina. It's crazy how much my life has changed since I cam here in the first place. Selfless Abnegation to Dauntless Mother. Kinda of a drastic change. I've come to like my life as it is. I have friends and I'll have some at the compound too. I'll raise this baby with more love than it could ever want. I told the baby's father I never wanted to see him again, and he would never be allowed to see his child. When the doctor asked, I told her I didn't know who the father was. Well, not exactly, but we'll get to that later. Will wraps an arm around my shoulders and we walk side by side to the car. I was scared I would have to take the train with all my boxes, but I was lucky enough. Anyway, almost all my clothes consist of Five Factions Boarding School uniforms. I won't miss them. Also, they don't fit me anymore with my fat stomach. I asked to not know the kid's gender, so I'll the crap out of it no matter what. Even if he/she decides to change factions. Al, Uriah and pretty much are old gang meets us and they all hug me. Even Emily comes to say goodbye. The February snow is falling on us and for some reason, I want to forgive her. Love is so much harder than hate, because there are always a thousand reasons to hate. Love takes one simple criteria: Tolerance of one another. From there grows conjugal love and mother-daughter love and deeper more meaningful friendships. I hold my hand and she frowns. I think she thought I would yell at her. I won't.
"You take care, okay?" Tears appear in her eyes and I don't quite understand them.
"You're not mad? You don't want to bash my face in?" I chuckle at this.
"Nah. I'll leave your face alone. Anyway, I have to people to take care of now. We all made mistakes and now you suffered for them. Curse not the ones who harm you, pray for God to forgive their ignorant souls." She nods and crushes me into a hug. "Uh, Emily... I need to breathe. Jamie does too."
"Jamie? Is that it's name?" I nod. "Nice, but I thought you didn't want to know if it was a girl or a boy."
"I don't. Jamie is gender-neutral name. That or Taylor. I still have time to chose." She nods and releases me for good.
"I'm sorry Tris. I really am." I smile, I don't need her apologies, I'm happier than she is.
"No need." I walk away and hug Uriah. He holds me tight. "You're the best friend a girl could have. And the best uncle a little baby could want. Oh yeah, and the best godfather. I hope Marlene will be the godmother." She comes over when she hears her name and Uriah tells her. She starts jumping up and down and nodding vigorously.
"Yay! I'm gonna be an auntie!" She stops bobbing and holds on to Uriah. I'm glad those two are dating now. "Hey, Lynn! You're gonna be an auntie too." Lynn groans, but smiles.
"I'd like that." I promised myself I wouldn't cry, but tears are threatening to make an appearance. I sniff them back and hope no one noticed. "Hey, where is your boyfriend? I thought he was leaving this hell hole with you." I look around and spot him in a corner talking to Emily. For a second, my stomach flips, but then, I remember that he's moving to the city with me, to help raise my baby. He notices me starring and jogs towards me. Our lips lock just for a second and I love it. "Oh, get a room" I stick out my tongue at her and she laughs. The driver of the car honks and I wave to everybody. Christina start walking away and so do I, but then she runs back and holds me so tight my eyes will pop out.
"I'll see you in a month during break and then all summer and then at Thanksgiving and then-" I hug back and she shuts up.
"Yeah. I'll send pictures and you tell me which new teacher replaces Tobias. I mean, no one can truly replace him, but, you know." He nudges me in the side and I grin. "Well, we better go." She nods, tears rolling down her face and now mine too. "I'll miss you."
"Yeah, I'll miss you too." She turns towards Tobias. "Not you, though." I laugh through sobs and so does he.
"Ha. Ha. I won't miss your scoldings." He pulls my hand and we get into the black car. I notice Uriah crying and Al too. I wave and wave, but no matter how much I wave, it doesn't change the fact that I'm leaving for good and they are not. Tobias holds my hand. I rest my head on his shoulder and my eyes close. I feel myself drifting off. After all, this is going to be a long journey.
I wake up to Tobias shaking me a bit. I open my eyes and see we've entered the city. The gate closes behind me and I feel claustrophobic. We drive on into the compound and finally we have to get out of the car. I have to pee like crazy and I'm so hungry, it's mental. Tobias and the driver bring our boxes to our apartment. I head directly to the cafeteria and am met by plates and plates of food. I fill my own plate and sit down, digging in. It feels empty without my friends here. Tobias comes in and sits down next to me, with a bowl of macaroni. We eat in silence and help with the dishes. Well, more accurately, he helps with the dishes and I get shooed away. What a hard life. I head back to the Pit and look at the Chasm. The roar of the water is calming and the familiar smell of humidity is reassuring. I feel a hand on my neck and know whose it is without looking. He walks over to be beside me and we look of into the dark water. My hand rests my stomach and I feel a kick. I grab his hand and stick on my tummy. He frowns until he feels it too and the surprised look on his face is priceless. I beam and we stroll to our apartment. A particular anecdote comes to mind. Right after Tobias proposed.

I didn't know what to say. Whilst I was thinking, Tobias' face fell. I didn't know what to do. I was utterly confused. I couldn't even form words, until I could.
"Whoa-What?" I knew it was a stupid question, but so was his. He had just proposed to Emily, days before. This did not make sense. Except for one making-out session in the third floor bathroom, we had never really been close.
"Tris, will you-" I interrupted him before he could ask again.
"I know what you said, but I don't know what you meant by it." His lips curled up.
"I meant that I would like to be linked by the powers that be to you through the rings of marriage. I thought that was kinda clear." Does he think he's being funny?
"Again, I got that, just... not... You know! You're already engaged and I'm already pregnant. Don't you think this is just slightly not the right moment?" He shook his head.
"I'm not engaged to Emily anymore, we broke up when I learned she pretended to be pregnant to be with me. I've loved you for a while now, but things kept us apart, but now, we can be together.
"No, no, no! There's literally a baby between us. You can't mean that, I think your one and only defence mechanism is proposing. Mine is sarcasm. Why don't we give mine a try." His smile leaves.
"But, I thought you loved me too." God, he sure knows how to jump to conclusions, doesn't he.
"Okay, I like you, a lot. But, marriage has to mean something more. Something bigger than like. I'll be your girlfriend, but not your wife." He smiles.
"Okay. That's good enough for me." He got up and then sat back down on the bed. "I'll move to Chicago with you."
"Then, you have to meet my friends." He nodded.
"Then I get to tell you I love you."
"Fine."
"Tris?"
"Yeah?"
"I love you."
"I like you too, Tobias." And that was it. End scene. Cut. Done. Fin.