Umm, I've never said who the rapist was... Review(:

"(I'm Gonna) Run Away"- Joan Jett.

I can't take it
This is gettin' silly
Can't find me no tranquility
Anymore, I just can't get through to You

We're fakin' it, it's time to admit it
You make me feel like an idiot
All the time, there's nothin' left for me to do
No, so

I'm gonna run away
I'm never comin' back to you
Yeah yeah, I'm gonna run away
I'm never comin' back to you

We were friends but now you're the enemy
Don't need this when there's a remedy
It's the end
Play your trick on someone new

I'm gonna run away
I'm never comin' back to you
Yeah yeah, I'm gonna run away
I'm never comin' back to you

Ain't life strange, how people change
You were all I wanted once
Now you're just a pain, pain

I'm gonna run away
I'm never comin' back to you
Yeah yeah, I'm gonna run away
I'm never comin' back to you

I felt void, empty, sad, dirty, angry. Mostly angry with myself. How could I let this happen? All of this. Mason's death, Ivan's death, my rape...

I shoved the mac and cheese into my mouth, not bothering to really taste. i just wanted them to leave me alone. I wanted to think, I needed to think, by myself.

Their comfort only made it worse. It made me feel like I had no power over my life, as if I needed them at all times, by my sides, which I did, but still. I needed my independence now more than ever.

But I also wanted justice for what had done to me.

I needed to find myself all over again, something I couldn't do here with them. With him.

Oh, how my heart ached when he was around. He was so close yet so far away from my reach... My fingertips could reach out to him, but I couldn't really touch him. My lips were so close to his, but I couldn't reach out to meet his.

There was a barrier between us.

A barrier formed when he decided to walk away and I didn't fight for him. Had I fought for him, I know he would have stayed. There weren't many things he was able to deny me.

Funny how things changed.

"Who raped you?" my voice was trembling, but I needed to know. I'd heard her talking to Dimitri, and I had a fewwlin git was this.

She dropped the magazine on her lap and looked up at me. Her blue eyes were like flames, they stared at, with the same pain my eyes held.

"It was an old friend of Dimitri."

She picked her magazine up, but I wasn't done. "Did he say why he did it?" She sighed and dropped the magazine on her lap again.

"Yes."

"What did he say?"

She searched my eyes, "Is there a point to this?"

I rolled my eyes,"Of course, otherwise I wouldn't be asking."

"He said he did it to get back a Dimitri," she sighed looking at me.

"He was released recently though right?" I asked her, inching closer to her.

She bit her lip and nodded.

"Enough with the questions."

I jumped on my seat as Dimitri made his way to us. I narrowed my eyes at him, glaring at his intrusion.

"Why?" I asked him. He crossed his arms across his chest.

"It's none of your business Roza," he said, flatly. I took in one deep breath. I should have known better that maybe things could get better between us. It was times at this that he really was a pain. He felt like he could rule over my life, when he couldn't. There was no more making me feel insignificant of any sorts. I was done, it was time to truly take a step forward, and stand up for myself.

"It is if it's the same guy who raped me."

The room was completely silent. You could hear a pin drop even in the kitchen. Tasha and Dimitri sucked in a breath. They looked at each other than back at me.

"I see I'm right," I whispered, dropping my arms.

"What's his name?"

"Roza I don't-"

"Oh no Dimitri. Don't call me that and do not think for a moment you can tell what I can and can't do. Don't think you know better than, and don't hide this from me!" I saw him clench his jaw and Tasha shooed him away.

"His name is... Ambrose."

His eyes resembled the color of amber. The smell of mint was fresh and strong, his hands were cold, but I couldn't make any features. It was all so blurry... What had I taken before this? I tried remembering but it was all fuzzy...

I couldn't remember anything aside from leaving Ivan and Mason downstairs. I knew they'd come looking for me soon. Ugh, he was so heavy...

I looked to my left, the window was open, the breeze was coming in. i didn't understand any of this. I tried screaming out for Ivan... Ivan would always know what to do.

He was so smart, so kind, so gentle, and ever so caring. When that didn't work, I called out for Mason. Mason who was like my brother, my twin people would say due to our personalities.

"What are you doing," I mumbled. I groaned in pain at the roughness of what was going on.

"Hey what are you doing! Get off her!" I looked to my door and I could barely make out it was Ivan.

"Ivan," I moaned. Suddenly, I could breathe again, and I felt myself floating in the air. I giggled only it sounded as a gurgle. I was set down on something cold and raspy. Behind him I could see the flames consuming the house. Some sort of sound escaped from my mouth.

"I'm going to get Mason, kay?" he whispered, i could barely nod my head. I grabbed his shirt, a feeble attempt, I knew.

"Please don't leave," I whispered. I couldn't make out his face but i could smell his expensive cologne.

"I love you, I'll be back, I promise."

Only he hadn't.

The next morning I'd woken up on a hospital bed, safe, and of them had made it out...

Only me.

Yet nobody was sure how, they said I must have been sleeping when one of the buys had brought me outside, secured me, then gotten back.

I'd forgotten everything about that horrible night.

I woke, the scream dying in my throat before it came out. There were strands of hairs sticking to my forehead, and I was breathing fast. His eyes... They were the color of amber. I shook my head, clearing my mind. Lissa stirred next to me, and I smiled at her protectiveness.

I breathed in and out, calming myself down for my sake and the baby's. I laid back in my bed, making a very big decision.

Lissa out an arm around me, and I was content in the arms of my best friend.

I'm gonna run away; I'm never comin' back to you.

Ugh I didn't know Ambrose's full name... Review(: