Keep your heart broken
Chapter 10: Vague Realizations
And he caught her lips with his.
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It felt like time stood still and all she could think about was them and their sweet kiss. It felt completely satisfying but then a guilty feeling tugged at her heart. She was taken. She was taken, she remembered. And with the little consciousness left she gently pushed the other away.
She stared at those confused ruby eyes at her.
She stared back as intently, but suddenly all the control in her legs seemed to have vanished.
She slowly lost all balance and braced for the impact which never came. She suddenly felt two strong arms around her waist.
And she lost all thought and allowed the tears to fall. She didn't care that she was crying in his chest because it didn't matter.
With the largest amount of capable energy she could muster she had to ask.
And the clouds grew blacker and rhe rain fell and in a whisper she asked.
'Why?'
My
love will grow black if your heart get's stolen
Just promise to
keep your heart…
One day I'll come back if the door´s
still open
Just promise to keep your heart broken
The blonde boy watched as the raven haired beauty stared at the raining picturesque outside. He couldn't help but smile at the girl. He slowly lifted his hand on to the table positioning his elbow upon it's surface and rested his chin on his palm.
There was silence in the room except the dripping drops of rain outside the window.
He quickly noticed that the girl had suddenly lost interest at the view and turned her head to face him.
She irked an eye brow and with an amused tone asked. "Why are you staring…Ruka?"
The young man was both shocked an embarrassed. How did she know? Was he really that noticeable? But put those questions aside he quickly turned his head and focused his attention at the picturesque view outside, a deep red blush still evident.
Then the wall clock struck eleven just in time with her barely audible laugh.
His eyes went wide as his ears perked due to the unfamiliar sound and the blush seemingly forgotten. He stared at the laughing girl and couldn't help but whisper.
"I finally found my reason for staring."
The laughing stopped at that but the small smile could not be taken away.
He didn't know why he said that but it didn't matter. It was a fact. He finally found the reason for everything that night. He knew his reason.
Her.
Days pass by like the wind and this life is too short
It makes no sense to give in to release your from my thoughts..
"I didn't know how it started, But I guess I just really didn't have a choice did I Misaki?" He asked with a sad smile.
"I say that's the wine talking Tsubasa." She stated with a forced giggle.
"I'm not drunk! I can hold my liquor!" He boasted as he desperately tried to stand up with no success at all.
"You are so drunk Tsubasa! So don't pity yourself." She encouraged with a smile and gently tapped the other on the shoulder.
"I'm not the one who pities himself Misaki." He stated staring her straight in the eye.
Misaki stared back refusing to back down. "Then who?"
With a small sigh, Tsubasa didn't reply. He already knew she understood.
"Remember the day I confessed to Mikan?" He asked with a small smile. The other merely nodded. Failing to get her to answer Tsubasa just decided to change topic.
"You know, sometimes you just have to say what you have to say and not hide it all in." He stated knowing how much it would hurt the girl. He knew it was insensitive but he had to do it.
Misaki only kept quiet. Tsubasa just continued to drink the night away ignoring the pain. And as the rain drops started falling, none of the two even budged.
"We had it Misaki...but you didn't have the commitment…"He whispered drunk as ever.
"I love you...but you weren't willing to wait…" She answered standing up and walking away.
"It was because you never gave me a reason to do so!" He screamed back at her but she just continued to walk away.
He stood up staring at her direction. He couldn't control it anymore and kicked the table on to the floor and left the scene.
"I'm so stupid!" They whispered to themselves.
My heart will grow black if your heart gets stolen
Just promise to keep your heart broken…
The rain surrounded them. The cold drops soaked them but it didn't matter. One of them had to say what he had to say.
He wrapped her arms around her, trying his best to keep her warm in the rain.
"I'm sorry Mikan. I had no choice."
The girl upon hearing his answer angrily pushed him away. Her brown eyes glared at him.
"What?! You didn't have a choice?! You had a choice Natsume but—"She couldn't take it anymore. It was happening all over again. It was like the day he left.
She just had to run. She just had to forget him all over again. And with one last sigh she turned and tried to run away but he was too fast.
"I had a choice but I chose the one that would keep you safe. That would keep you away from all the evil in this bloody academy. I chose the one where you would be happy for my sake! I had to take that choice for your own good…" He explained. His tone sounded so desperate and Mikan had to look back and see his face. She wasn't sure if the tears were because of the rain but it didn't matter.
"It doesn't matter..." He whispered letting her go. "None of it mattered…the pain, the torture...I just love you Mikan..." He finished and broke down.
She quickly ran to him, wrapping her arms around him like he was just a kid again.
"I'm sorry.."
Enfolding your love in my heart
By the dawn I'll be gone…
The clouds and rain drops were their witness. It was their time to make a choice. And at that time, the count for the happy ending still looked vague…
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13rok3nn: Please forgive me for not posting any new chapters. I'm really sorry. I've just been too busy and was unable to cure my writer's block. And so I tried to make a great chapter for all of your.
Sorry if Tsubasa and Misaki\s part is a bit confusing I will try to explain that in the next chapter.
So I hope this is enough to quench your thirst. And also I consider this as an advance birthday gift for myself since it near July 12. So consider this as your gift as well. That's all review and t.C.!..
Thanks again to the wonderful reviewers!