I don't own the Divergent world or characters
TOBIAS' POV
A couple of weeks have passed and everything is great, Tris is amazing and now I'm so happy with her I couldn't ask for anything better because she is all I need, the only person who always manages to put a smile on my face, the only person who is always there for me(of course I also have my family but it's different ), the only one who makes my days and makes me feel a new person because yeah she always inspires me and when I'm around her I am different and I try to be a better person for her because she deserves the best and I'm trying to work hard to give it to her, I don't want to lose her, I can't lose her so I have to do my best for Tris and for me too.
Everything is perfect between us: we go on dates quite often and we talk or text everyday to make sure everything is fine and sometimes just because I miss her and her voice so much I can't stop myself from calling, I have never been like that with anyone else…she makes things to me I can't even describe with words because my feelings are just too strong and everything is so new and scary I am totally clueless and I really don't want to mess things, hell no everything is so damn perfect it sounds like a dream.
I am always thinking at her, every hour of everyday and just her thought makes me smile because she has this incredible and unique power like my sister called that the first time I told her about my date with Tris at Dauntless Burger.
Talking about my sister she kept asking me to introduce Tris but I wasn't very sure because I thought it was too early and I didn't want to scare Tris or make her feel uncomfortable because yes we have talked about our families- she knows both my sister and my mom Evelyn live here and that I hate my "father" and I haven't talked to him in years and years because thank God he lives very far away and I know her parents Natalie and Andrew live in a small and quiet town near Chicago and that her brother Caleb lives near Portland so they don't meet all together very often- but we haven't spoken about meeting eachother's families so I didn't want to go too fast.
But a couple days ago Tris and I were walking hand in hand towards a little restaurant for one of our dates and suddenly someone called me and guess who was… yeah she was Lauren and so Tris and her met and they were very nice and friendly to each other and not only because of me, I think they could really be friends one day and Lauren also ate with us because even if I tried to convince her not to because I didn't want to make Tris uncomfortable or something she assured me it was fine so yeah we had dinner all together and I have to confess it wasn't weird or embarrassing, it was quite nice and I was happy Tris liked my sister so much because her opinion is the only one I care about.
So yeah at the end Tris has met Lauren and now they are already planning to go out together again, one of these days but yeah maybe it's better if they hang out just the two of them or maybe with the other girls even if I am a bit scared Lauren could say embarrassing things about me, I really hope she won't.
At the moment I'm getting ready to go at Tris and Chris' place because we are having dinner there all together and then we are going clubbing and I hate it with all my heart and also Tris doesn't look forward to it but all the others do and they are dragging us there, I really can't understand what they see in clubs… I mean I am a quiet person and I absolutely hate when a lot of people are around and goddamn at clubs there are hundreds and hundreds of people that dance pressed together following too loud music and they are often drunk… Is it funny? I really can't understand why people like it!
I arrive at Tris' place and she opens the door smiling and hugs me tight as soon as she sees it's me, I hug her back of course because I love it, I love the feeling of her body pressed against mine, her arms wrapped around my back and her head on my chest; I kiss her hair and savour her amazing scent…I swear it's a kind of drug because I really can't get enough of her touch and perfume.
We go inside and shortly after we are all together so we decide to order take away pizza and play some games before going to the club, we are sit on the floor in a circle and we chat and laugh together until the 'games time'.
"So I suggest to play some Truth or Dare and being I the most attractive, funny and sexy here I start" Uriah says "Zeke Truth or Dare?"
"Dare"
"Okay, I dare you to go outside, stop the first person you meet and try to seduce him or her" everybody laughs when Zeke has to seduce an old and fat woman that could be his grandmother.
"Ahahah very funny. Chris truth or-"
"Dare dare!" Christina says.
"Okay you can't do your make up for a whole week" of course Chris takes her t-shirt off, she can't live without shopping, dresses and make up.
"Tris, you know the question" she says with a malicious smile.
"Emmm truth…" she says unsurely.
"You know Four's real name?" Oh my God what the hell is wrong with them? They ask this question every single time we play this game…they don't give up dammit.!
As soon as she nods Chris asks "Tell us then" but Tris refuses and tells"I am sorry but I have already answered one question and this is not my business!" I kiss her on the cheek to thank her, I really appreciate.
"Lynn truth or dare?"
"Dare"
"Drink something Uriah makes" Oh no Uriah always prepares disgusting things, I can't believe Lynn is drinking it.
"Shauna truth or dare?"
"Truth"
"Okay so tell us what you and Zeke exactly did on your first night as a married couple" Shauna just shakes her head no and takes off her cardigan.
"Marlene truth or dare"
"Dare"
"Okay call Hana and tell her you are pregnant"
She really does it and Hana at first is worried and shouts at Uriah telling him he is irresponsible but then she understands it's a joke and laughs with us, it was hilarious hearing Hana calling his son with his full name: Uriah Aaron Benjamin Pedrad, it was unforgettable.
"Okay Zeke it's up to you"Marlene says.
"Am I a pansy cake? No, so dare!"
"Okay I dare you to show us some lap dance using a broom"she says and hey man this is good and it's so funny and ridiculous seeing Zeke dance that by the end of his performance everyone is laughing hard with tears in his eyes.
"Okay...Four I dare you to dance with Nita tonight"he asks.
"What the hell? I haven't even chosen dare and I have an amazing girlfriend so I'm not dancing with that slut tonight!" Is he insane? What the hell?
"Oh you two are so cute and I love it when you call Tris your girlfriend" Marlene and Shauna giggle.
"Wait whois Nita?" Tris asks and I really hate Zeke right now.
"She's a girl who totally has a crush on Four and she tries to dance with him every single time she meets him"Uriah explains.
"She is a slut."I say with anger, I really don't want to talk about that, I hate Nita because she always tries to jump in my pants and the only thing she cares about is my body and she is a damn bitch, always trying to hit on me... she is the most annoying person I know, she thinks she is sexy and hot so she wears only slutty dresses and always shows her boobs(I think they are fake) off in front of me.
I. Hate. Her.
"Oh" is the only thing Tris says and when I look at her she has a confused and a bit sad face, she can't think I prefer Nita right?
No way I am letting her think that so I stare right into her eyes and say"Hey there is nothing between me and Nita, she is a slut but I don't care about her and I promise I won't dance with her, I have never and you don't have to worry about anything because I am 0% interested in her,I want you Tris and plus you are a hundred times funnier and kinder and sweeter and more gorgeous than that slut."I try to reassure Tris but I can tell she isn't completely sure.
"Yeah don't worry Tris, Four never speaks to her or he tells her to stop her avance, he doesn't even look at her"Zeke adds and even if I still want to kill him I'm glad he has said it.
"Okay Tris, you have nothing to worry about even because I chose your dress and I am making your hair and makeup so you are going to look super hot"Chris smirks and look at me with a knowing smile, Tris groans and blushes hard, I know she is not as comfortable as Chris is with dresses and make up and I know as a fact she is and will be embarrassed as hell.
She is super modest and self-conscious and I hate it with all my heart but she is very unsure about herself, I mean she doesn't believe me when I tell her she is beautiful and how much she is perfect and this kind of things, I hate she doesn't see how gorgeous and amazing she is, I don't understand why even if I think I could have an idea but I don't want to think about it...Tris being hurt by someone is the most painful thought...I can't be right.
"Well girls,time to get ready for the club!!"Chris screams excited and Tris begs me to save her, I chuckle against her soft head and the other girls drag her with them.
The girls go upstairs to get ready leaving me here with Zeke, Uriah and Will and they have the terrible idea to have a man talk like at the barbecue some time ago and the discussion is about Tris and me, again! But are we so interesting? I mean can't we talk about something or someone else?
"So man, how are you two doing?" Zeke asks and I think that maybe if I say something then we could change the subject so I try to give him a short but complete answer and make him drop this conversation.
"Everything is good, perfect I'd say. I really couldn't ask for anything better than Tris, she gives me every single thing I need, she is everything I need and she really means the world to me. She is my happiness and I am crazy thankful I met her because now I really understand what being happy means and I know as a fact she is special and she is not a simple girl, she is the girl...She really is perfect and things between us are great" I say and wow...I didn't mean to say all that, I didn't plan it but it seems like it escaped from my mouth even if my brain didn't process it.
"God you are damn serious"Will says and I just bite my lower lip a bit embarrassed and trying to lighten the atmosphere I add"Yeah I have to be unless Chris will kill me" we all chuckle but I know Zeke and Uriah are not done with questions...God help me.
"So is she good?"Uriah smirks but I look at him confused...what does he mean?
"C'mon Four don't act like you haven't understood. You have already done your... business , right? How was it?"Zeke says with a knowing smile.
What the hell is wrong with them: first of all how can they think Tris and I have already made it and second of all why are they interesting in it???
I mean I know guys always talks about sex and that stuff but I don't and they know it plus why do they care about my personal business??
What is wrong with them?
"Are you kidding right? We have been together for three weeks and you are already asking if we have done it? Are you fucking crazy? Tris is not just a simple girl to have fun with, I have told you just a few seconds ago and I think it should be obvious and evident, she is important and not just a slut to fuck with. What is wrong with you? Don't you understand she is so much more I don't want to mess things and I want to enjoy every single touch, every single kiss, every single word, every single thing and every single bit of our relationship? Of course we haven't done it yet,we are going slow and I could not be happier, I don't need sex to be happy because she makes me happy just by looking at me... Don't you understand? We haven't even talk about it yet because I guess we both know we have something special and we want to take things step by step and enjoy every single bit of it so now please just drop it and stop talking about it because it is not your business, this is ours. Okay?" I say and I think I haven't even breathe once all my speech long.
I am not mad at them, I am just a bit pissed off because damn it this is our relationship and I don't want them to mess things or something, but just by looking at their reaction I know they won't ask me that anytime soon, I think I was clear enough because we change the subject and we end up talking about completely different things and laugh together until we hear Chris shouting the girls are ready and they are coming downstairs.
I really look forward to seeing Tris and how Chris has dressed her, I have to admit I am a bit impatient because I know she will look amazing and I really want to keep telling her how gorgeous and wonderful and beautiful she looks all the night long, I want to make her feel special and important because I really want her to know how I feel about her, how perfect she is and how much she means to me.
First one comes Chris followed by Marlene, Shauna, Lynn and at the end Tris; as soon as I see her my jaw immediately falls open and my mouth is completely slack.
Oh sweet Jesus.
She is the hottest and sexiest person I have ever seen, I swear my dick hardens and I have an hell of time trying to keep it down, God tonight is going to be a very very very hard night for me, I am 100% sure I won't be able to keep my hands out of her perfect and stunning body...Fuck she is absolutely gorgeous and hot as hell.
I meet her eyes and as soon as she notices the way I am looking at her she blushes hard and looks at her feet.
God Tobias try to behave yourself for God's sake!
I am totally freezed here, I swear I can't move so when she walks towards me and faces me the only thing I manage to do is looking at her for a very very long time: she is wearing a black and very short dress and I know as a fact she feels uncomfortable because she keeps trying to pull the hem down her thighs, she is wearing damn high heels that make her legs look sexy as hell so I can't complain even if maybe I prefer her natural and petite high because I think she is adorable, her gold soft her are in waves and she is wearing make up but I am glad it isn't too much because I really love her face and she doesn't need to try to be more beautiful by using make up because she is naturally gorgeous!
I think I have been staring her her for a bit too long because she starts to say something and to apologize telling me that she knows she is ridiculous in this dress and she looks like a twelve years old and that stuff so to make her stop babbling I kiss her right on the lips, it's not an hungry or appassionate kiss but I pour in it as much emotions and feelings as I manage to, I want her to stop thinking that awful things about her because they are false, she is not ridiculous and stupid, she is the most amazing woman I have ever met.
Our kiss doesn't last long because I know she doesn't really like to do it in public so when I pull away I'm glad to see nobody is looking at us, they are too concentrate in their girlfriend or boyfriend.
"Stop Tris, please." I say staring into her gorgeous eyes" You are the most beautiful and wonderful woman I know and you are not ridiculous, you are hot! Very hot! You look gorgeous tonight as always and it breaks my heart when I hear you saying horrible things about yourself or when you don't believe me when I say you are stunning and amazing and gorgeous and the most beautiful girl ever, it hurts me because you don't see what I see in you, you don't see how special you are and it hurts! Please believe me Tris!"
She is looking at me with tears in her eyes and a small smile, I peck her on her lips softly and kindly and add to lighten the atmosphere"Please baby don't cry because if you ruin your make up Chris will kill us"
"Don't worry, it's waterproof"she chuckles and pecks my lips back.
"Well is everyone ready? Let's go and have fun" Chris screams, she seems super thrilled like always and I really can't believe someone can be that excited about almost everything, I know she loves Tris very much and takes care of her and I know Tris does the same with her but I really can't think at something similar between them, they are totally different and I really don't know how they ended up being best friend, it's an interesting mix!
I wrap my arm around Tris' waist and hold her close to me in Will's car, he and Christina are in the front and Tris and I in the back sit and she is cuddling in my chest...I love it.
"You know baby, I'll have to stand very very close to you at the club and punch everybody who will try to flirt with you, dance with you or just look at you. I am sorry but you are all mine"I whisper in her ear and kiss her head that is resting on my shoulder.
She laughs softly and looks at me " Okay but I'll punch every single girl who will try to hit on you or flirt because God you look like a super hot model tonight in this very tight white shirt and black jeans...yeah super hot!" she says but as soon as she realizes she said the last part aloud she flushes"Oh my God, have I just said all that loud?"
"I think so"I say smirking, of course she has and I am very very glad and honoured she thinks so, she just blushes harder and hides her face against my shoulder.
"Hey don't worry honey, you look super damn hot too and I think that the punching thing sounds like a plan" she just nods and kisses my neck, where her lips are so I kiss her back on her hair that I absolutely love because of their colour but also because they are the softest ever!
When we reach the club the music is so loud you can hear it from outside and there are a lot of people waiting to go in but thank to Uriah who has friends that work in we manage to skip the row.
Of course I hold Tris very close to me because I know inside there will be hundreds of people and I don't want to lose her, I'll stand by her all the night long even because here there are also bad guys and I won't let anyone hurt or have fun with her, I have to protect my girlfriend and if it will be necessary I swear I'll punch someone, I don't care if it is very rude or cavern-man of me she is more important than everyone in here for me!!
The fact she is looking so damn fucking hot and sexy doesn't help because it distracts me a lot and at the same time other guys are going to notice her and make eyes at her and I won't accept it.
Zeke suggests to drink something and of course everyone agrees, I really don't want to get drunk tonight, I don't want to get drunk in general...I really hate drunk people because they become crazy and always mess things plus my 'father' used to drink a lot and he couldn't stand alcohol so he was always dead-drunk so it brings back bad memories and this is the main reason that makes me hate being drunk and then I know Tris doesn't like drinking a lot so I know we two will be sober at the end of the night, maybe just a little bit happier... who knows.
We have a table reserved for us so we all sit there talking and joking, there aren't enough chairs so Tris is sitting on me, with his back on my chest and men I am not complaining, oh no it feels amazing and I also have my left arm wrapped around her waist and my hand rests on her hip and my head on her shoulder so I often reach her cheek and kiss it and sometimes she leans in and plants soft kisses on my jaw... I swear it feel like heaven and I'd like to stay like that all the night long, having Tris this close it's the best thing I could ever ask for.
We end up alone at this table because everybody's dancing on the dance floor but I'm fine here just cuddling with Tris and kissing her cheeks and head softly, she is shaking her head following the music and I think it's very very cute.
"Want to dance?" she asks me turning around so now she is facing me.
"Oh no baby, I really can't dance" I say with a chuckle.
"Please please please" she says and kisses me everywhere on my face but my lips and pouts at me,I shake my head no.
"Please do you want me to dance all alone there with all that people?"
"Oh no way Tris,I won't let anyone dance with you and I'm sure if you go and dance there you won't be alone for a long time"I say but I am serious now I really don't want anyone else dancing with her.
"So dance with me"she says looking at me with her wonderful eyes.
"Deal" I say chuckling and she kisses me right on the lips this time and I swear this kiss isn't innocent or shy at all and I love every bit of it, oh yeah so I think that maybe she is already a little happier and relaxed than usual after a single drink but maybe I do too.
She drags me on the dance floor and we start to dance a few inches apart, she moves her head, her arms and her hips a little and I follow her; it's not like she is dancing like a pornostar because she is doing nothing to be sexy but hell she is, I think I have never seen a dance so sensual and at my eyes she is freaking amazing and hot right now.
I notice a lot of guys are looking intensely at my girlfriend and I swear I'd like to kill them all.
"Everybody is looking at you Tris, please try not be so damn sexy" I say begging her and holding her closer to me, our bodies are pressed together now with no space between us: she has her arms around my neck and I am holding her close to me with my hands on her lower back, very very close to her perfect ass and I am staring right into her eyes...I want everyone to understand Tris is my girlfriend so they have no right to look at her the way they are doing, like she is not an hot chick to try to flirt with.
She is here, with me.
"Oh shush nobody's looking at me" she tries to say but I look at her with an eyebrow raised and she adds "C'mon you are really jealous? Nobody is looking at me and you don't need to worry 'cause I have eyes only for you babe."
I am not jealous, am I? I don't think so I just want her all for myself and I want nobody to look at her or flirt with my girlfriend... Does it make me a jealous?
I don't know and I want to replay but I am suddenly stopped by her mouth pressed against mine in the most passionate kiss we have ever shared: her hands are in my hair and she is scraping my scalp with her nails, our tongues are dancing together and then I try to be brave and my hands reach her wonderful butt, she sucks in a breath but then she smiles in the kiss and I do the same, now it's not like I'm grabbing her ass my hands just rest there and I have to say it feels damn good!
This is the furthest we have gone so far but fuck I love it, I know we are in a club full of people but it's almost total dark in here so I guess this is the reason why we are both this confident and brave, I mean I think nobody can see us so we are in our little bubble and I am also happy to show Tris is my girlfriend to make sure the idiots that were looking at her before understand Tris is my girlfriend and that if they don't want to mess with me it's better if they won't even try to glance at her once again in their lives.
We dance like that for quite a long time, our bodies pressed together and our lips often connected until we are interrupted by Zeke"See man, Nita isn't even here tonight"
"Thank God" I replay caressing Tris' back and kissing her head that know is buried in my chest, I think she is embarrassed because Zeke caught us kissing... My babe is cute!!
"Okay,have fun little lovebirds! Shauna and I are heading home,see ya" Zeke says/shuots and waves at us.
Tris looks at me with sad eyes " Is Nita all that beautiful?"
I see real sadness in her eyes and I can tell she is nervous and very unsure about herself, she always is and it breaks my heart "She is not, she is just a stupid slut who has nothing beautiful and the only thing she is able to do is showing off her slutty body. Tris babe please don't look at me like that and don't you dare to think I could ever like her, you are gorgeous and the best and most special person I know, you are so much better that her and you are a hundred times more beautiful and amazing. Please don't you think otherwise, ok? Tris I want you,I don't want or like anyone else. Only you."I almost tell her I love her but I manage to stop just in time, it's too early for that, way to early!
She holds my cheeks between her soft and gentle hands drawing my mouth to her and our lips meet in a loveful and long kiss, God I love kissing her and I swear I could keep doing it for my whole life because it feels so amazing and special and magical it's like a miracle.
God I am so thankful and grateful I met her, she is the one for me and I want her and only her,I am totally in love with this amazing girl and even if I haven't told her yet I know as a fact I won't be able to hold it in a lot, I love her and I want her to know but at the same time what if it's too early? I really have no idea 'because I have never said that to anyone, Tris is just special and I really crave to tell her!
We dance for a while and I have to say I really have a great time, maybe it's just because Tris is fully pressed against my body and we kiss a lot but the point is that I really enjoy myself and have fun.
I look at my watch and oh my god it's very very late, Shauna and Zeke left a while ago, Christina and Will greeted us just a few minutes ago and Chris gave me a warning look, I don't know where Uriah Marlene and Lynn are but I think we two should really head home!
"Tris baby it's very late, do you want to head home? I'll call a taxi for us if you want" I ask her,we have no ride because Chris and Will left and we came here with them.
"Okay, sounds nice even because I have classes tomorrow...I wanna die"
"Oh no, I am sorry you could have told me so" I am really sorry for her because she's getting up early tomorrow morning and yes I feel a little guilty.
"Shush it doesn't matter. I had a lot of fun tonight"she says kissing me.
"Me too but it's only thank to you, my princess. I'll go and pay the bill and call the taxi, wait me at the bar" I tell her, I really don't want to leave her alone because I don't want to lose her, there are hundreds of people in here so I pay and call the taxi as soon as possible.
When I don't see her I start to panic, fuck fuck fuck where is she??
Finally I see her, she is in the corner of the room but she is not looking at me because I am behind her, I see she is facing an horrible and rude man and she seems pissed, the guy is flirting with her it's obvious and God I swear I want to kill him right now.
How he dares to even just talk to my girlfriend?
I walk towards them and wrap my arms around Tris' stomach from behind, at first she shivers but then she looks up at me and smile, a big and relief smile.
"What is your problem?"I ask staring at the fucking guy with a mortal gaze.
"Hey man calm down I was just talking with this adorable and lovely girl here"he says and smirks, God he is disgusting.
"She is my girlfriend so just give up and leave. Now." I tell him seriously and grab Tris' hand to drag her out, our taxi is waiting for us; I open her car door to help her and tell the driver to go at her house, then I'll go back to my place but she comes first.
As soon as the taxi leaves the club I look at Tris that is sitting next to me our sides touching, we have been silent since my 'argument' with that bastard but now I feel a little bad, I mean I don't feel bad because of what I said to him but I am scared that maybe I was to rough and now Tris could be mad at me.
"Tris I... You... I didn't mean to..." I really don't know what to say, I just hope I didn't scare her too much." He was totally flirting with you and I just lost control, I am sorry but yes I think I'm jealous of my girlfriend because you mean so much to me and I lost control. Sorry if it was very rude of me, I am sorry."I say and I look at her a bit unsure.
"Hey Tobias don't worry, it's okay and I am not mad"she says sweetly, caressing my cheek and my lips."I am glad you did that because he was really bothering me, telling me how much fun I could had have with him and asking me to dance together. I am really grateful you arrived so please don't worry"
I love you.
Stop stop stop you can say it to her now, it's too soon!!
I try to hold it back and I kiss her firmly on her wonderful lips, this kiss is very intense yet sweet and it makes me forget all my anger because I won't let any guy ruining my relationship and my mood: I am with Tris and I am happy.
The taxi stops in front of her house, I walk her to the door and kiss her goodnight then I go home tired but happy... I am sure I'll dream on her tonight like I always do lately.
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