.
"See, you had your faith needed no proof
'til you saw him standing on the roof,
and "Goodbye, John", they were his last words to you.
And the second he stepped off you knew,
he took your heart, broke it in two,
and from your lips, he drew the hallelujah.
Hallelujah, hallelujah.
Hallelujah, hallelujah."
The point is...
The point.
What is the point?
Living, breathing, eating, striving, surviving? Sherlock barely did any of that and he had been the one all-encompassing thing in John's life.
But John has to live and breathe and eat and strive and survive because... why?
But he has done this before. He does have that going for him. And that's something, because he doesn't have much going for him right now.
He doesn't have a life. Sherlock was his life.
He barely has friends. He didn't talk to anyone now.
It hurts. It all hurts.
It had hurt before, yes, but his 'cure' had been Sherlock and John was pretty sure that he wasn't going to find another semi-suicidal, reckless, idiotic genius of a consulting detective for a flatmate. John is positive. There is no one else like Sherlock.
So... Where does it leave him? John wonders.
He has no cure, no way to find one. He had gone back to Ella, but that hasn't done any good so far. The things he needs to say, he can't, and the things he wants to say, he shouldn't. It's a never-ending pit of bottled-up emotions and what happens when he explodes?
This sucks.
John thought that he had gone through his own personal hell in Afghanistan... and it had been. It had been. But this... this was worse.
It wasn't his shoulder aching.
It was his heart.
"And John, you know you're been here before,
but therapy can't help anymore.
You think that you can't live alone
but you do.
There's a yellow face upon the wall,
but it's not a smile, no, not at all.
It's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah."
Song: Hallelujah by ? (Original by Leonard Cohen).
Disclaimer: I do not own the song or the re-written lyrics, or Sherlock.
Guys, I don't know who wrote this. I heard it on Youtube and the information there didn't say where they got it, except that it was just a cover. If you're the person who wrote this, let me know. I will credit you. If you know who wrote this song, please, let me know. They are amazing, whoever it is. Again, I DO NOT own this song and I DID NOT write it; I am quoting an, at this point, unknown genius.
Note: Keep in mind that this is John's POV really soon after the Fall. So it's not pretty. And it won't be. But as the chapters move on, so will John.
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