Trigger warnings for this! Suicide mention, addiction, ect. If you are triggered by these, please just skip to the 1st of January entry.
2nd of July
I saw Hermione today before she went off to rebuild the school. She looked better then when I last saw her—happier. I smiled and told her how much I loved her, like any good boyfriend would do. But I wanted to scream and cry and plead for her not to go back.
She smiled and told me how good I was to her.
I smiled back, hoping she wouldn't see how absolutely miserable I was inside. I don't want her to go back there. It's destroyed too many lives.
20th of July
I know I haven't been writing.
But I have a perfectly good explanation. I've been sleeping. Do you know how great the dreamless sleep potion is for sleeping? It's amazing. I've taken three today alone and it's just nice to be able to sleep without having to worry about everything.
Hermione comes home in a week! I'm so excited. I've bought a ring. I know it's early, but she's my best friend. I've known her forever. And I want to marry her.
21st of July
Hermione just owled me. She said she won't be home until September. I can't wait that long.
22nd of July
This is agony.
23rd of July
I just want to numb the pain
24th of July
Sleeping helps me feel so much better.
17th of August
Hermione comes home soon! I'm excited. Although, she's coming back early. I'm not sure exactly why though. She said she was concerned about me, but I'm not really sure why.
19th of August
Hermione came back today. She's been talking with mum for the last hour and a half.
20th of August
They had an intervention for me yesterday. Mum says I'm addicted to the dreamless sleep potion. She says I need help. I don't need any help. It doesn't hurt me; it makes me feel better. It lets me sleep, lets me be who I was before the war. But they don't care any more. They don't…love me enough to care.
Maybe the world would be better without me.
21st of August
Hello, I know Ron doesn't want me to look at this, but I needed to. Now that I see, I understand.
Ron isn't doing well. He's at St. Mungo's, on a hold.
My dear son is absolutely gone. He left before the war, and came back a different man. I can't even recognize him anymore. His brother's death was hard on him. And he lost so many people he loved during the war.
Molly
13th of September
I'm not allowed to drink any potions anymore. They say I have a natural deposition for addiction to them. I'm not an addict. I'm perfectly normal. Hermione and mum shouldn't worry about me.
I'm sick of people worrying about me.
1st of January
Happy new year. I know I haven't written in a while. Mum enrolled me into something for the children of war, a camp of sorts. It actually helped a lot.
I'm happier now. I think I'll be able to get through this. I'm proposing to Hermione tomorrow.
Wish me luck
3rd of January
She said yes! I'm so happy that I have her in my life. She's bloody amazing and I can't imagine my world without her.
I decided to face my fear of Hogwarts, and go back there for one last adventure. I took her back in time, the most important places in our childhood (that we could get to). We finally ended up in the girl's bathroom, where we were attacked in first year by the troll. The first place we actually started to be friends.
I got down on one knee and told her I'd fight for her no matter how big the monster is. And I asked her to marry me. She cried and said yes.
I'm so happy she said yes.
10th of January
Hermione and I are planning our wedding. We're going to have it at a muggle church that her parents got married at. It's going to be absolutely beautiful. I'll do anything for her. She's the best thing that's ever happened to me.
23rd of February
I'm so happy to be busy again. I don't have any time for this journal anymore.
April 19th
We're going to have our wedding in September. Fall is Hermione's favorite season, and the leaves and colors will look beautiful against her skin.
Ooooh how I love writing Ron's diary...it's so freaking fun! This one's pretty happy. One more chapter of this then back to Draco. Enjoy the happiness while you can...it won't be around for very long :3