First of all I want to apologize for not updating, and I have a really good excuse! My Exams! Oh yeah, tough crap... But now they are finally over and I will try and update as much and as fast as possible! And thanks for the Reviews, I love them they are so inspiring! and also a huge thanks for all of you who favorited and all the story alerts!

But I want to say that this chapter was so hard to write, I don't know why. I actually don't like it that much, but I kept rewriting it and editing it, but this is just how it will be! and I hope you will enjoy it! It's basically all of Rosalies feelings and anger.. I think...

RosaliePOV

I had hoped the next day would've gone by quickly. Oh how wrong was I. Emmett wasn't there, and according to Bella he would be staying home until Monday. Emma had started screaming during the night, and her condition suddenly got worse so he wouldn't leave her side. He hadn't been sleeping at all, and when Renee asked to take over he had said no.

I knew he had to stay by Emma's side, and I fully respected that. He was a dad, and a great one in fact. But as selfish as it sounded I just wished he could be at school, so my day wasn't such a bore! So the classes dragged by so slowly, it was like time stood still. I wasn't aware on anything going on around me.

I wanted to see Emmett after school, but as I knocked on the door as the school finally ended, his mother answered.

"I'm so sorry Rosalie, but he's asleep and he didn't get any sleep last night." I just nodded understanding fully, but it just made my day that much worse, Especially watching Bella and Edward walking to his house, smiling and laughing and URGH! It didn't get any better as I went inside my house, because the first thing I saw was Jasper and Alice making out on the couch. It was like everything was taunting me!

"Get a room!" I snapped as I threw my jacket at them.

"I have one," Jasper snapped back kissing Alice again.

"Yeah? Well use it will ya'?"

Alice blushed and looked at me apologetic.

"Sorry" she mumbled.

I know it was rude, but I just ignored her going straight to my room. First of all, how could it be that the guy I'm so overly in love with has a child? It is so unfair! It makes everything so much more complicated. It's not that I don't like Emma, it's just that makes it so much harder for me to be with him. To get him out of the house spontaneously, going on a date or anything because he has to know, that someone can take care of Emma and just… Everything!

I sighed throwing myself on the bed, just doing absolutely nothing.

The rest of the days dragged by, not making me any happier. I snapped at everyone I hadn't talked to Emmett since the night I flipped out at that child nurse, and I hadn't been doing anything but sit in my room alone. Alice was concerned and knew it had something to do with Emmett, because being my best friend after all she knew I liked him. I think everybody knows, even him. But every time she wanted to talk, I locked the door or declined her calls. At one point her and Jasper was banging on the door, threatening to kick it in. I just ignored them and they stopped after a while, giving up.

Suddenly Friday afternoon came along, so of course, did Mikes party and I still hadn't heard from Emmett. I was just looking through my dresses, when Alice came in. I hadn't locked the door, because I thought she and Jasper was at her house. She just lingered at the entrance to my closet for a while, before she spoke.

"So, you are going to the party?" Her voice was barely audible, but extremely soft.

"Yeah, I am. I need to do something different than sitting in my room I guess." I didn't look at her, I just kept walking around trying to find something to wear.

"Will you please look at me Rosalie?" She sounded stern all of a sudden. I just sighed and turned around.

"What?" I said, looking her straight in the eyes.

"That's all you have to say, what? You have been acting weird lately, and I know it has something to do with Emmett, because I can see it in your eyes. You like him and maybe you're in love with him, but it's not just that. Even before he came, you have been kind of avoiding me, especially when Jasper was around and I'm supposed to be your best friend! So will you please freaking talk to me or something!" She looked completely angered, her small fists clenched so tight her knuckles went white.

"How can you even say that? So yeah maybe I acted like a jerk because I haven't seen Emmett for three stupid days, and he isn't even my boyfriend! But you of all people should understand me! When I worried about you, when you started liking Jasper you completely blocked me out! You didn't want to do anything, you ignored me and wouldn't tell me what was wrong and now you judge me? But no it's not just the fact that I'm in love with Emmett, but the fact that I'm losing my best friend! We don't hang out anymore, because you are always with Jasper! And it's not fun hanging out with both of you, because he's my brother and you are on lip-lock constantly! Have you even noticed that we never hang out anymore? That we used to talk on the phone for hours every night, and now I'm lucky if I can even hang out with you alone for an hour, a week?"

I did hold something back, but if I had let it all out I would've been screaming and I didn't want to lose Alice forever. She however had tears streaming down her face, and was walking towards me.

"Rose I'm so sorry." Her voice was shaky, and had changed completely since the last thing she said, but I couldn't take it right now.

"Just go. I'll see you at the party later." My voice was cold, and I didn't move at all.

"Actually Bella and I are getting ready together. Do you want to join?" She was sniffing, drying the tears away, with the back of her hand.

"No, I'll see you at the party." I said again, in a dead voice. Alice just nodded, and left without another word. I fell to the floor immediately, crying my heart out. Why was I so weak all of a sudden! Crying wasn't at all like me! But the tears just kept coming and I just sat there on the floor letting them for god knows how long. I was losing my best friend and I fall in love with this stupid perfect guy! Who happens to have a baby! How did life get so confusing? Why do we grow up and get into all these stupid problems! Why can't it be as simple as kindergarten, when you didn't worry about a thing and you didn't fall in love! Stupid, Stupid, Stupid! Even more stupid was the fact that I was crying, but I guess we just all have those days, where we cry because we keep our feelings to ourselves for too long.

When my tears dried, and I stopped sobbing I looked at my reflection in the mirror. I looked horrible. My eyes were red and puffy. My makeup was everywhere, my hair was a mess and I just looked awful. Maybe I should just not go to the party? Stay home and be miserable, watch some sad movies, eat some ice cream? Ben and Jerry my two best friends… No! I will just take a shower and get ready. I had to get out and have some fun! There was an hour till the party started, I was just going to show up a little later.

I hurried to shower, washing of all my makeup off so I didn't look like some raccoon. I blow dried my hair so it fell over my shoulders in wavy curls. It actually looked pretty good. I didn't feel like smearing my face with too much makeup , so I just put on some mascara and took on a black dress. You can never go wrong in a black dress! I just threw on my black heels and I was out in my car. Since this is Forks, Mikes house was an 18 minutes drive away. An annoying trip, that somehow made me think of Emmett. I think it was just everything that made me think of him.

As I parked the car, Edwards Volvo was visible an close to the house, so they were all defiantly there.

Almost everybody from the school was there, and it was clearly that they had all been drinking. The music was so loud, that I felt like my ears would explode… So yeah it was a party, and I was never going to find the others. I should've never come… Emmett wasn't even here, and I really didn't feel like talking to Mike.

"ROSALIE!" I turned around, and luckily spotted Edward. I was somehow relieved that it wasn't Alice, but at the same time I guessed I had kind of missed Edward. He understood me better than the rest at the moment I guess.

"EDWARD! THANK GOD!" I said with a goofy grin. Weird how someone can turn a frown upside down?

"WHAT?" He smiled back looking confused.

"MAYBE WE SHOULD GO OUTSIDE?" He still didn't seem to understand me, so I tried to make a weird gesture to go outside. And luckily he got it.

No one was outside, and it was quite nice actually. Mikes garden was really huge and had a small swing set at the end of it.

"It's so stupid, I lost Bella in this mess and now I cannot find anyone!" Edward said as he sat down on one of the swings.

"What about the others? " I asked as I sat down on the other swing.

"we ditched them right as we arrived. Alice said something about dancing, so me and Bella made a run for it!" He answered with a laugh.

"Smart move, or else Bella's feet would be sore tomorrow." I had danced with Alice to many timec, to know running was a smart idea.

"Maybe I should go look for her again?" He glanced at the door that swung open. Someone came out, but they went to the other site and I couldn't recognize the person.

"And leave me out here alone?" I tried to act mad, but if Emmett was here, I wouldn't be sitting with Edward…

"I'll be right back, and your strong, you can take care of yourself." He got up and I couldn't help but smile.

"True, just don't be too long…" I said as I looked at the figure that suddenly seemed to be starring our way.

"Sure!" Edward hurried away, and almost as soon as he was through the door the figure started moving towards me. I didn't move, figuring it was just someone who was tire of the music too. I just kept my gaze at the sky, when suddenly someone sat on the swing next to me.

"How do you do Rosie?" It was Mike… And clearly a hammered Mike. He smelled awful, of beer and puke. He had probably had a little too much.

"I'm fine Mike, but don't you think you should go inside and keep an eye out? It is your party after all." Not that he would be able to remember anything in the morning.

"No I would rather sit here with you." And suddenly I realized how close he was. His breath was hitting me in the face and it smelled utterly disgusting! He was starting to somehow maneuver towards me, in a very weird way.

"Mike go away, I don't like you." I don't know why, but my voice was shaky. It had never happened before, but he was just so close and suddenly he was holding me tight on my arms. His face was inches from mine and as I tried to pull away his grip tightened.

"Mike I'm serious let go! Your hurting me!" His nails dug into my skin and I suddenly felt like screaming.

"I don't think so pumpkin" He just pushed me backward and his lips were on mine. I couldn't scream and his grip was so tight. He pulled away for just a second, but got even more aggressive. And my struggling, seemed to him apparently as acceptance. His mouth tasted so disgusting and his lips were raw and uncomfortable, but he kept pressing against me, and suddenly his hand weren't on my arms. I tried pushing away, but then he grabbed my arms again. I didn't know what to do, I wished Edward had stayed or that he would come back!

Suddenly Mike was pulled away and as I opened my eyes, Mike was on the ground. I thought it was Edward, but as I looked up, I met a pair of blue eyes and I realized I was crying…

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