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By the 46th day, Miku had enough. She was tired of Len being so mean to her. She was tired of being ignored. She was tired of Lily hanging around her all the time. They were running out of time! There were only three more days before…before…
For the past ten days, she had felt like crying. Screaming. Anything to return to the peaceful and happy days she and Len had once shared. But enough was enough. She would clear things up between the two of them if it was the last thing she'd do…
Later that day, under their favorite oak tree, Miku confronted Len.
With a trembling voice, she asked him the question that bothered her the most: "Len…do…do you hate me?"
Ever since Lily had started to bother them, Len had found it harder and harder to look into Miku's eyes. He knew he was hurting her. He knew that every word that came out his mouth only brought her pain. That was why he stopped talking to her entirely. He figured that if he stopped talking to her, the ways he could hurt her would reduce. But yet, like the adorable being she was, she still tried to initiate conversation with him. Despite how mean he'd unintentionally been to her, she still wanted to be near him. It all made him so happy and so sad at the same time.
Len should have hated Miku. There were so many things he wanted to tell her, ask her. But instead, in her presence, he said things that he didn't mean to say. Next to Miku, every thing became unclear. His feelings, his emotions were a complete mess. He could have blamed Lily. But he knew that in the end, it all came down to Miku.
He should have hated her. But the thing was, he couldn't make himself conjure such murderous feelings towards the girl, no matter how hard he tried.
So when the girl confronted him under the blue sky, a knife pierced his heart. To see his darling girl tremble and shake with the force of her words caused him physical pain. For once in his life, he wished Lily would magically appear out of nowhere like she usually did. Only then would he be able to avoid the moment…
Miku stared back at his blank eyes. They looked…empty. A sky devoid of light. It was as if they didn't care. Did they not? Was she no longer important? It was too much to handle. Surely, surely, Len still cared about her, didn't he?
"Len….Len…LEN! Answer me. Answer me, Goddammit! Stop ignoring me! Please. Please. PLEASE! Stop ignoring me! Didn't you already apologize for ignoring me? So why are you doing it again? I can't stand it! I just can't stand it! First, you're horrible! An absolute, egotistical jerk and an exhibitionist! Then you're so horribly sweet...and kind and...wonderful. Then you're terrible and...scary, constantly...glaring and saying mean...things. You hate Lily. But...what did Lily even do to...you? I know she's annoying...but so is your...stupid posse! Len! I don't...I don't understand! I can't...keep up! I'm so confused!"
By this point, Miku was crying. Absolutely bawling. Huge tears were running down her face and huge sobs broke up every sentence. Choking on her own tears, she continued.
"Len, I hate you! I hate you so much! Everything's so messed up inside! Nothing is clear anymore! Things weren't...things weren't supposed to end this way! I...I wasn't supposed to end up feeling this way. Why did you have to ruin everything? Why can't I hate you? Why am I so sad? Why I am so hurt? Tell me Len! Tell me…"
Len could no longer ignore the crying girl in front of him. There was no longer a purpose in doing so. He was breaking. She was breaking. Everything was collapsing around them, shattering into a tiny million pieces.
He…he…he loved her. He could no longer deny it. To deny it would be denying himself and there were too little days to keep up that façade. But he had to wonder. What he was feeling. What she was feeling. Was it really love?
Was love really something that burned down everything in its path? Was love something that could be locked and kept away from anybody else? Was love something that was so full of pain, hurt and hate? But…it must have been. Because what else could explain what was happening? So the question was: was he going to watch it fade away?
Len looked at the crying girl in front of him. She was still crying but the strength of her emotions had caused her legs to collapse from under her. Just how many times was he going to hurt her?
In the 17 years of his life, he had broken many hearts. Once upon a time, he had been proud of that feat. But at that very moment, he realized that he never bothered to fix a heart. How shameful. But no matter. He would change that. For him, one girl was enough…He would not let his love fade away.
Slowly, gently, he approached Miku and gathered the sobbing girl in his arms. Upon contact, the girl flinched. She visibly flinched. The sight was a punch to the gut. But he deserved it. After a moment though, she started to fight his embrace, like she did 27 days ago. And like he did then, he held on tight. He refused to let his love go.
Miku started to yell at the top of her lungs. "Get away! Get away from me! Get away! GetawayGetawayGetawayGetaway!"
Once again, Len was glad that only the dead and almost dead could hear her. If not, he would have been definitely arrested by then…
"Let me go! Idiot! Stupid! Jerk! Ass! Man-whore! Egotistical bastard! Exhibitionist!" Miku continued to scream at him, hurling every insult she could think of. She continued for what seemed like hours on end. And during that, Len held on to her, taking in every insult and accepting the punishment he knew he deserved. But after some time, Miku's strength gave out.
A heavy silence passed.
Then, in the quietest and weakest of voices, she asked, "Len Kagamine, why won't you just let me go? Why won't you release me from this misery?"
With a gentle and loving smile, he replied, "I wish I could but unfortunately for the both of us, it's actually impossible, ya know?"
At this, Miku hesitated before giving out a weak smile of her own. "Yeah. Maybe it was impossible right from the very beginning…"
Slowly, Len bent down and kissed the tears on her cheeks. Quietly, he whispered, "Everything will be okay."
At that, Miku laughed. "You're such a liar. Everything will not be okay and you know it."
Len looked to the sky. It was no longer a pure blue. Red, orange and yellow had mixed in. It was like the sunset was crying too. He sighed. "Yeah…I guess I am, aren't I? But you know what, I want to keep lying just like this….can I?"
Slowly, Miku nodded her head. "Yes. Please do. Pat my head and lie to me just like this. Then maybe, for a short time, I can delude myself and be happy."
So the two stayed like that from the longest time, watching the sunset and welcoming the night.
Unbeknownst to them, a hidden blonde had been watching the entire time…
Hello everyone! I'm so happy! I've been stalking this site pretty much all day trying to log into my account. I finally did did! SUCCESS!
*Ahem* Well...Moving on...So we're moving towards the end. I would love to thank all of my readers for their support, especially awesome dt and zhane17 for writing such lovely reviews^^
By the way, Nano's version of Gumi's Mozaik Role inspired me a little bit in this chapter. Did anyone see it? No? Well, I suggest you all go and listen to the song. It's a really good english dub and we all know how hard it is to find those ;p
I'll update again soon~~~
With lots of love, Sunset