This story is so depressing! It was meant to be light and romantic but a storyline came to me that was less than romantic! Hope you enjoy this chapter anyway!

Disclaimer: I'm not Meg Cabot. Therefore I don't own Jesse and Suze.

I left my letter on the table in his apartment, he gave me the keys a few months ago and now they were proving useful, Jesse was out and the place was silent.

I walked woefully around the living room and kitchen, thinking about all the hot make out sessions we had on the kitchen table and the living room sofa, I thought about all the times he said he loved me. All those times he made my heart feel like it would burst out of my chest.

I sighed as I opened his bedroom door, I saw his bed, there wasn't a crease on it! It was so typical of Jesse to keep his bedroom tidy. I looked around and I saw all the normal Jesse things, his clothes and his (excruciatingly boring) books.

I walked out of his bedroom, shut the door quietly and had a last look around his bathroom, it sounds like a strange place to go to reminisce as is it were but it really wasn't. We would both shower…together. Everything in his apartment held memories for me.

"Jesse!" I squealed, I had just found out I got a job as being a waitress in one of the top restaurants in the city. "Yes?" Jesse answered, he came out the bathroom with only a towel around his waist. His body and hair was still wet, I bit my lip with lust.

"Querida, don't look at me like that" was all he said, he came over to me and kissed me.

"Jesse, I finally got a job!" Jesse beamed at me, he was always happy for me about things like this.

"Oh Querida, that's brilliant news!"

"I know! Now let's get that towel off you shall we" I said in my most sexiest voice.

"Not now, we have to go and celebrate, I'll go and get dressed"

"Aw, do you have too? We can just stay here and celebrate…and you don't have to get dressed"

Jesse chuckled. "Querida, you know I love you, right?"

"Yep, and I love you too" I smiled.

How could Juliet say that wasn't love? What we had was…special. I know that sounded all mushy and cheesy but it's true. I mean, it was true. I sighed again as I looked at my letter on the table.

I headed for the door, opened it and looked back, I shut the door and started sobbing. I would never see Jesse again…

JESSE'S POV.

I whistled happily as I let myself into my apartment, I would have to call Susannah later, I miss her a lot.

I still can't believe that Susannah has fallen for me, I still can't believe I'm here. Actually here, in my own apartment with a beautiful girlfriend, and my past left behind me.

I threw my keys onto the kitchen table where I noticed something that wasn't there when I left, a letter from Susannah.

It was odd of her to leave me a letter, normally she would ring me or leave me a message on the answer phone but a letter?

I eagerly opened the letter, I missed Susannah desperately even if it has only been a day, I thought that it was probably a letter telling me to meet her at Coffee Clutch later on or something.

My smile left me as I read the first two words.

Dear my Jesse,

We're over. I don't want to see you again, I don't want to hear from you, I don't want anything to do with you.

I found out about Juliet, I know everything about you and her. Why didn't you tell me, Jesse? I wouldn't of minded that you had a girlfriend back when you were alive, I wouldn't of freaked out that you loved her because I know that was the past, I know that you love me now. Love just isn't enough for me and you now Jesse, I thought we trusted each other but you've pushed the boundaries.

I didn't want us to end like this. My baby. Our baby. I'll tell him/her about you. I know this is selfish, I'm heartbroken and I'm stopping our baby from knowing it's father. I don't think you can be in it's life though, it'll be too painful for me.

Jesse, I'm crying right now writing this, I love you with all my heart, I always will.

You treated me like no other guy did. You were different from everyone else. I'll never forget you.

Suze.

She found out. This wasn't meant to happen. She can't leave me, I just love her too much! How could I cause her so much pain? I've broken my Querida's heart.

I grabbed my phone and pressed number one. That is what she was on my speed dial list but she wasn't just number one on my speed dial, she was number one in my life. The one who was always there. The one who loved me, the one who made my heart skip every time she steps into a room. No, I can't let her go.

She didn't answer, it didn't even ring. It just said her phone was off, she was obviously avoiding me. I paced around the room quickly, what was I to do?

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