Chapter 10. I have a dream by Westlife.

Why the grown up can't notices the little changes in life?

Why they can't see when the weather is shifting? Or when the smiles are gone? When the worried frowns took away the fun?

They establish their life so complicated, so much, and later, they look above the sky and asks, How God can make them that?

Straight off, they live in a saddest time, when all the material things are important, luxury cars, advanced gadgets, fancy parties... and they forget the important things, things like talk face to face, share food, read in a high voice to the others, things like friendship, fun, respect, acceptance and love.

Agents.

It's amazing how the Agents are blind to the others, how they can't detect the sadness in the girl who spends her time in the gym? The hurtful punches, trying to mask the fear with her rage, or the hours she spends crying alone in there, the silent screams for the nightmares every time she can sleep, how tired she looks, how lonely she was? She spends virtually the entire night looking the small screen in her hands, watching him, alone in the dark, missing her too.

Or the other, the Kala's boy. Always was alone, looking to the empty bunk, or the lonely place in the dinner table, her abscence in the lab. Even if he smiles more, the sadness is deep in his core. He talks, but most of the times, he was speaking with her ghost chasing his fingers, waiting for her answers. Speaking to the dog, and he doesn't know how much she desires to answer him, but she can't, and when she can, it's him the one who doesn't notice. Kala is special too, Alicia use to say, she can noticed the people's feelings, when they're sad, Kala goes and sit next to them, placing her head on their lap. Or if they're angry, she passes on to them her baby doll, to make them smile. If they don't want to play, the dog tackles them to the floor and sits over them until they begin to tickle her while she licked their faces.

Dad will be proud of Alicia's work with her, who can know how that lonely and hurt girl, can be a trainer as well. But, hey! she learn everything from Dad, so, she has to be amazing like him. I remember that time, just dad and myself, until he bring her home with us, Alicia was so fragile those days, she can't talk or walk for months. Dad sing to her every night :

*I had a dream, a song to sing,to help me cope, with everything.

If you see the magic of a fairy tale, you can take the future even if you fail...

I believe in angels, something good in everything I see... I believe in angels*

The day she sing with him for the first time, he knows. No matter what went on in her later life, she always will be strong. And then, he passes, and she forgets the rest of the song, but I know, one day, she will be ready for it...

*When I know the time is right for me, I'll cross the stream... I have a dream*

In Ali's case, is worst, she has to be the one, who keep them all together, and they doesn't know her personal hell. No one can see how much she cries every night, how desperate she was because she can't discover, that cure they need. The bags under her eyes are going bigger after every exam she does to them, merely most of May. The agent was sick and Ali can't know why!

The doctor doesn't sleep much too, every time she wakes up, unconsciously she searches for Hameed's body next to her's, his brown eyes, his warm smile, his strong hands caressing her body with delicate touches. I've missed her voice so much.

Why can nobody see that? They were all in the same place. How they can't noticed the clothes she wears, the shoes she has, that little swing every time whe walks. Yesterday we heard the song she used to sing... I know she lost her dreams, but I don't, not yet.

Or my boy Ward, standing in the dark, struggling against the memories of his past, the loneliness he has to leave, stuck with a family who treat him like an outsider, who beats him because he wasn't "one of them", the horrible time inside the Juvie until Garret took him out. And afterwards, his savior turns in another executor letting him alone in the woods, without food or clothes. Grant want to died, but a girl gives him hope, she was small and young, but she talks like an adult, she promised never forget him. With the days come, she gives him food and shows him the way to the small town, so, when the girl can't give him her help, he can steal clothes and things to survive there. One month after a brown dog comes to him, he named him Buddy, that dog was the second one who Grant truly loves; but before sending him to the S.H.I.E.L.D. Academy, Garret decide he has to kill the pet. That suposse to be his first murder, but Ward can't do it; love was his weakness, and always will.

Ward never stops to think on the girl; He told me; he track her through the years, her life was horrible, just like his, finally he find her inside a girls's Juvie. Garret goes for her, taking her in. Once they're together, they hold their secret. With that man you can't have friends, family or love, in the end, that's not a life.

And today, because of Garret he was here, alone, because of him, he was a prisoner, because of him, Grant didn't want to live.

They don't think we noticed, but we did, this week was living hell, screams and fights everywhere, the leader blamed us again for the missing food, if he was smart he can smell the vanilla scent in his woman partner, only he wasn't. If he can pay attention to the residual of his team he will see how much tired they are, how pale Alicia and May are, how skinny Ward was or how quiet Skye is now, but poor man, he was so busy hiding to the people, all the crazy drawings in every basement wall, the cuts on his hands, and the saddest reports. How he can told them, since months ago, their beloved Agent is in the missing people report... How can he broke his family's heart?

Yesterday the girl and Ward had another fight.

We're playing and later, he was attempting to find my ball, and she panicked because he was on the rooftop. She calls his name and he comes down in a hurry, only to find her crying and screaming, she strikes him in the face once he was close, she kicks him in the leg, and ends punching him in the chest again. He hugs her hard, against her will, and she fights trying to be free again, but he can't let her go, she was so tired and he was frightened off, he holds her against his chest and they fall to the floor, minutes later he was scared and amazed, Skye was fast asleep on him.

Wretched girl, she looks like Alicia when dad has never come back home.

When the girl wakes up, several hours later, she can't remember where she was, or why she wakes up on the sofa, but she was happy, and ends her day playing with the flying disc and Kala.

The next two days go on in the same direction, until Saturday, we didn't know how or why, but the Leader gives the order: everyone has to be outside by two o'clock. My boy Ward has another crisis before Ali put us in the Van. Skye was nervous for being in the same place with him in the back seat. In the front, Kala's boy, was so excited, babbling about the things he wishes to buy in some stores. The two adults just look for the young ones in silence, maybe wondering if this was a right idea. Kala and I ... well, we are just waiting to be outside of those sad walls!

By the end of the day, the trip at the park was the best idea. The fresh air relaxed everyone, the ice cream makes them happy, for some hours, all of them are just free people, playing in the grass, just a family spending time together. Yeah, this is my dream... moments like this, seeing Alicia's face glowing, Kala being foolish with her boy rolling through the grass, and the adults kissing each other when no one can see them.

After a lot of threats, Grant finally came out of the Van. He sits alone under a large tree, and lazily throws the ball to me. A few minutes later, Skye was playing too, they don't look each other in the eyes, but, they stay tight without any incident.

They didn't know, but close to our Van, there was someone watching us, but, why?