A/N: ...Hey, guys. So...I've had this written for like two months, but I was really self-conscious about it, because I thought it was stupid. But then, I read it again today and realized...I'm fucking hilarious. So, I'm sorry if it's not good, but I laughed, so I think it's funny. Also, this will conclude Affinity. Thanks to all of you who stuck around to the end. This is actually the first serial I've finished on my own. I know it took a long time, but I'm glad so many of you liked it so much. You guys are great.
Special thanks to my lovely reviewers, who are special and excellent in every way: iflip4dolphins (Thank you so much for sticking around, no matter how long it took me to update. I always loved your reviews especially and I really hope you like the ending.), S. McIntosh (O.O I was kinda really afraid when I got your review. I thought you were going to kill me because you're a stranger from the internet, but then I didn't die, so I figured all was well. Anyway, thanks for your enthusiasm and I hope you enjoy the conclusion of Affinity.)
Disclaimer: I do not own Ouran High School Host Club. But you already knew that.
London, England
It was about six in the evening when she arrived in the London airport. She had only gone to Japan for two days in response to her eldest brother's frantic phone call. The only thing she remembered doing next was packing a few clothes and rushing to catch the next possible flight to Tokyo. She was met by the family's sleek, black limo once she disembarked the plane and was rushed to Ohtori Tokyo Hospital.
She burst into the hospital room, finding Kichiro and his wife smiling down at the little bundle in his arms. Her typically-distant brother greeted her with affection and handed her the little bundle, cooing to the baby, "Here, my little Emiko. Meet your Aunt Arisu." The baby girl looked up at her aunt with big, brown eyes and a gummy smile. Only a few hours old, and she was already so content with the world. Arisu smiled and reached for the little hand of her niece with her index finger. The little girl wrapped her little fingers around it and gurgled. Arisu couldn't help but grin.
Arisu held that picture close to her chest: the first photo of her and her niece, taken by a proud Kichiro. She sighed as she made her way up the two flights of stairs to reach her dorm room. Knowing the door would be unlocked, she pushed the door open unceremoniously with her elbow, not even bothering to look around the room. She immediately set her bags down and began unpacking. She hated to not be settled in. "Elena! I'm an aunt! I have a niece!" she exclaimed, not looking at her roommate. She continued to blabber on as she unpacked. "Her name is Emiko. She's so small. But she has the biggest smile I've ever seen on a baby. She's just the cutest—"
She turned and her grin faded as her dark eyes met green-gold ones. She stared with her mouth hanging open and a blush on her cheeks. She didn't know what to do. She was completely and utterly torn. The Arisu who left Japan to get away from her problems wanted to run out the door and never look back. But, the Arisu who liked Kaoru, who kissed Kaoru, who slept with Kaoru, she wanted to run sobbing into his arms, saying how sorry she was for everything and how much she missed him. So she just stood there, mouth open slightly, blush obvious and waited for him to do something, anything.
He watched her. Maybe going there wasn't such a good idea. She looked upset—terrified, even. What was he supposed to say? What was he supposed to do? He was nervous. She was the only girl that had ever made him nervous. He didn't know what to do. He didn't put much thought into what he would say once they actually met again. He had just wanted, no, needed to see her. And in light of what he and Elena had been talking about before Arisu burst in, it seemed as though she needed him right then as well. He tried a smile, but it felt forced and awkward. "Hey." His voice sounded gruff and quiet.
"Hey," she replied in barely a whisper.
Elena's eyes darted between the two of them. She slowly rose up from her position on her bed and made a grab for her purse and jacket. "Well, that's my cue to leave." Arisu shot her a pleading look, begging her not to go, Kaoru didn't even pretend to know what she was saying. "Kurt's expecting me at the pub. And being the lovely brother he is, he's buying." She forced a smile, something Elena had very little trouble doing. "Bye." And with that, she was out the door.
Arisu went back to staring at the floor. She couldn't even count on Elena to help her out of this. It was Kaoru who broke the silence. He sat on the edge of Arisu's bed, his hands clasped in front of him, elbows on his knees, eyes downcast. "Why didn't you tell me, Ari?" Her head shot up at the nickname that had become unfamiliar over the months. Their eyes met for a brief moment, hers filled with confusion, his filled with pain. "Why didn't you tell me? I would have come sooner."
She stole another glance and whispered, "What are you talking about, Kaoru?"
He exhaled sharply and replied hoarsely, gazing at her with those beautiful eyes of his, "Why didn't you tell me you're pregnant?" She stared at him for a long moment. How did he know about that? She hadn't told anyone of her suspicions…but she did get drunk that one night with Elena. It must have slipped out. She was going to say something in protest, but he continued, "You should have told me. Even if you hate me, I still have a right to know that I'm going to be a father." He looked away from her for a moment before returning to her gaze. "I'm sorry about everything, Ari. I understand if you hate me. I understand that you probably came here to get away from me. But, I miss you, Ari. I miss you every day. I never realized how much I came to like you until after that night. I was afraid. I was afraid of liking someone in that way. You're the first girl that I didn't want to share with Hikaru. So, maybe, if you don't hate me, we can do this the right way. For our child. For us." He gave a forced smirk before standing and walking over to her. "I always thought I'd be older when I would finally do this." He got down on one knee and took her hand, opening his mouth to speak.
Arisu released herself from his grasp and put her hands up in surprise. "Kaoru, you're making a huge mistake!" she exclaimed. She helped him to his feet, though he was reluctant to do so, and clutched his hands in hers, looking up into his eyes. "Kaoru, there is no baby."
His face distorted into shock. "What? But Elena-san said…"
"Elena's full of shit. Well, at one point, I really did think I was pregnant. But I went to the doctor a few weeks ago and it was just stress and depression giving off weird signals. Anyway, though I'm flattered by the offer, you don't want to marry me. We're young, and you have your adoring fangirls. I think being married would put a damper on club activities. I don't need to give Kyoya-kun any more reasons to hate me. Besides, you deserve an extraordinary, beautiful girl. You don't want to be stuck with me; baby or no."
She smiled sadly through misty eyes and sat down on her bed. "Why don't you go home now? I'm sure your brother misses you terribly."
He sat down next to her with hesitation. "I could say the same thing to you, too." They sat in silence. He was reminded of the awkward limo ride to her house after their night together. "You're wrong, you know," he said quietly.
"About what?" she sniffed. It was harder than she thought, facing her demons.
"A lot of things. Hikaru doesn't miss me. Kyoya would love for you to come back. My fangirls mean nothing to me. And I'm not so sure that I deserve any girl at all after what I did." There was only silence in response, and he continued, "But you were most wrong in saying that I don't want to be with you." She gave him a quick glance, not believing him. "I meant everything I said, Ari. I really did. I would have come here sooner if I hadn't been such a coward."
"Why would you be a coward? I travelled thousands of miles away just to escape my fears. I was afraid I'd never be good enough for you. I really like you, Kaoru. You're perfect. I just didn't want to wait for you to get bored with me, so I left before I could get hurt. And that night…it shouldn't have happened."
He gave a small smile and tentatively put his hand over hers. "I wouldn't take back that night for all the world. It was the most sincere experience of my life. I'd never felt so connected to someone before. And for once, I was Kaoru; just Kaoru, without a side of Hikaru. I felt like I was finally my own person, not just part of a matching set. And it felt amazing…until the only person I could be singular with, left. Then, I just felt empty. I had no one to fall back on. Hikaru was annoyed with me and I didn't trust anyone else. I guess, what I'm really trying to say is, Ari, will you be my girlfriend?"
She gave him a surprised look. "Kaoru, you're crazy."
"Why?"
"We can't. It's too much distance. And besides, I don't think many would approve…"
"I don't care about that. We can make it work. I'll visit you whenever I'm on break and you can come back to Japan whenever you have a break."
"And what about in-between breaks?"
"We'll write letters, email, video chat, call; I'll do anything and everything to make this work. If you want to be with me, that is." He gave one of his gentle, sideways smiles, making her heart, and her resolve, melt.
She spoke slowly, careful to say exactly what she meant. "If we were to do this, you can't let anyone in the Host Club know. It'll be bad for business and Kyoya will kill us. Also, I'd like to take it slower. We kind of skipped all the important parts the first time around. I hardly know anything about you, besides your sweets preference and that you're a lightweight."
The two shared a shy smile and Kaoru retaliated, "You're more of a lightweight than I am, if I remember correctly." She gave him a mock scowl before it quickly faded into his chuckle. "I agree to your terms, but now you need to agree to mine." She nodded, signaling for him to continue. "I only have two, really, and if you agree to the first, I'll tell you the second. All I really want is to be able to hold you sometimes. I haven't gotten a good night's sleep since you left. I kept reaching out for you in my sleep, only to find an angry Hikaru in my arms the next morning. It wasn't a pretty sight.
She mulled it over for a moment and nodded. "I think that'll be alright. What's the second condition?"
He smiled devilishly and leaned in close, pressing his lips against hers in a sweet, tender kiss before whispering in her ear, "Please don't ever leave me alone with Elena-san ever again. She's so much like Milord, it's scary." Arisu couldn't help but giggle. She knew she couldn't be the only one who saw the resemblance.
A few hours later, Elena returned to her dark dorm room, expecting the worse. She used her cell phone to light the way to her desk lamp, which she turned on. A yellow glow spread through the room, illuminating Arisu's bed. There, Elena found her Japanese friend enveloped in the arms of a red-haired boy. Both slept peacefully, hands entwined together as if it were the most natural thing in the world. Elena couldn't help but smile.
What she was seeing wasn't love, not yet; and it went beyond a simple crush. She gazed at the couple, smiling in their blissful slumber, trying to think of the perfect word for this complicated mix of emotions. She stood and turned out the light before crawling into her own bed. Just as she was about to drift off to sleep, she thought of the perfect word to describe this strange couple and their strange story.
It was nothing more and nothing less than Affinity.
"I still believe it's you and me 'til the end of time. When we collide, we come together. If we don't, we'll always be apart." –Many of Horror—Biffy Clyro
