Okay, so I'm in a sort of good mood so probably a happy ending.
Chapter 10
"I love you," he said again when he ended the kiss. "So much. Pleases, let's go home" he whispered into her neck.
"I love you, too," she said with a smile on her lips. But then other factors came to light. "But I can't go back there, not now," she finished, and watched as he pushed back and his face fell.
"What do you mean, you can't go back?" he demanded, anger rising in him again.
"I mean I can't. I have nothing there anymore!" she shot back, tears springing to her eyes again.
"Nothing? You have nothing?!" He could not believe her. She was being outrageous right now. "Penelope, you have everything in Virginia, at Quantico." He reasoned with her.
"No, I don't. I gave that all up the moment I decided to leave and come here, I gave that all up. I have no right to march back in." she told him honestly. She felt like she wasn't worthy to walk back in to her friends lives like nothing went wrong, like she didn't just leave them hanging. She talked to them, yes, but it was always strained and awkward. She couldn't live like that.
"Penelope, everyone is a mess with out you. They all miss you. I miss you. I need you! And I will certainly have you and my baby with me." He whispered, ashamed to admit that he needed something.
"They will all hate me, I mean I just abandoned them. I can't expect them to just forgive me." she was crying now.
"No, no they won't hate you, they could never hate you. They will understand once we explain certain things to them." he told her, certainty in his voice. He went to wrap her in his arms, and wipe away her tears. The tears had gotten him to soften his approach.
"Hotch, we can't just march in, tell them we slept together and now I'm knocked up. It's too much." she pleaded, although she knew she was losing. "Plus, I don't even have anywhere to live, a job. That's all here now."
"That's easy, you'll live with me and Jack. And I'm sure we could talk Strauss in to giving you your job back" he told her with a smirk on his face. He would love to have her and his child that close, and he knew Strauss would hire her back in a heart beat; all the other techs were incompetent compared to Penelope.
"No, I can't do that to you, and Strauss would most definitely not do that for me." She could not believe this. She would give anything for this to have happened months ago. For Aaron Hotchner to tell her he loved her and asking her to move in, but after the turn of events, she felt like a burden, un-welcomed.
"Penelope, I can assure you that you are, and never will be a burden to me or the team, we love you, miss you, and need you back. As for Strauss, she would give her left leg to get you back. You are invariably the goddess of all things technical, and no one at Quantico can ever compare to you. They are not willing to go where you go to get the bad guys." he told her truthfully. All he wanted now was for her to be with him, to be able to wake up and she would be there, to see her smile every morning, and to watch her fall asleep every night.
"Aaron..." she almost whined, she knew she had lost.
"Penelope, it's decided, you will move in with me. Don't worry about this place, I will get everything settled. " he explained to her both softly and sternly. "When do you want to head back?" he asked.
"Well,it's pretty late, how about I pack tonight, and we head back in the morning?" She asked, feeling to tired for a road trip.
"Okay, that sounds fine. Are you hungry? I could make you something?" he asked her.
"Actually, I am, but how about I make you something. This is my house" She asked him, a coy smile on her face.
"No, I think it is the least I could do. How about you go and pack a small bad for about a week or two?" he told her, smiling back truly for the first time in months.
"Okay, just haller if you need me," she said, walking upstairs to pack.
She had finished packing, and they had sat down to eat, and talk. They sat there for hours talking about nothing really. They didn't notice how late it was until she yawned, barely able to keep her eyes open.
"I think you should go up to bed, I'll clean up down here, and I'm sure I can find the extra pillows and blankets later." he told her, wanting her to go and get some rest. It had been a very strenuous night, and a lot of emotions have been run through from both sides.
"Okay, that sounds like a plan," she smiled and went to get ready for bed.
Hotch was just settling for bed when he heard whines and then crying coming from upstairs. He went running only to find her thrashing around in her bed, crying out "wait, don't please." He didn't think twice. He climbed in, and wrapped his arms around her, causing an immediate relaxation in her movements as she woke up.
"Wha- What happened?" she choked out.
"You were having a nightmare...Do you want to talk about it?" he asked soothingly, while tightening his grip on her waist.
"No not really..." she whispered, not wanting to go through it again, but realizing she would have to tell him eventually or it would eat her alive, "I dreamt that you left, that you didn't want me or the baby," she admitted, hormones getting the better of her, starting a new round of waterworks. She felt his grip tighten, and this made her relax in to his embrace even more.
"That will never happen," he confirmed, "I will never not want you or our child, you are all I want now, you, Jack, and our baby will make the best little family" he told her truthfully, speaking from his heart with complete sincerity. She rolled over to look him in the eyes, and started crying harder, but this time due to the truth and love in his eyes.
"Can you just stay here tonight and hold me?" she asked, not wanting to let go of him yet.
"Whatever you want, my love, anything" he assured her.
They lay in each others arms for the rest of the night with smiles on their faces. It was the best either of them had felt for a long time, and tomorrow would come too soon.
