HEY!!!! thanks for all the reviews :) there's only a couple chapters left :( i'm sad... but on the bright side i think most of them are long so yay! :) except for this one.....yeah but that's the only short one so its all good :D
and you know whats really bugging me? is that jasper's dad doesnt have a name!!!!!!!! so it will be um.......dave? yeah that works!
i dont own anything...stephanie m. does :)
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"it's a masterful melody when she calls out my name to me
as the world spins around her she laughs, rolls her eyes
and i feel like i'm falling but it's no surprise
coz i love her with all that i am
and my voice shakes along with my hands"
-Stephen Speaks
Jasper layed on his back while staring at the ceiling. He couldn't believe that Alice was Cinderella. She had lied to him and for it to only blow up in her face. He felt bad for her. That's where her bright blue eyes trigged his memory - it was the same girl the whole time.
Jasper sat up and stared at his hands. He was trying to figure out wether he should call her, email her, or maybe he could walk to her house and talk to her in person. Jasper stood up and sat down at his computer deciding that emailing seemed to be the best decision right now. Jasper started typing what he felt inside:
Alice, first I want to ask: Why didn't you tell me? I wouldn't of been disapointed or mad to know that you were... no, you are my Cinderella. I really liked you when I knew you as Cinderella. We shared our feelings and told each other personal things. I trusted you and you trusted me. And after I meet you I think that I started to really like you and I mean REALLY like you. That was with out knowing that you're Cinderella. As bad as it sounds, I couldn't figure out if I liked you or Cinderella more. But the amazing thing about this situation is that you're both girls that I... that I Love. That's right, I Love You Alice Cullen! I don't want, what Maria did, to ruin what's between us so far. I hated what she did at the pep-rally expecially that it was in front of everyone, but I want there to be something more... just please talk to me. I need to know what you're feeling and thinking right now. I want to help you and be there for you, let me in. I Love you.
Love, Jasper Whictlock
Jasper read over the email a couple more times. When he finally thought that it was good enough he was ready to send it, but he just couldn't bring himself to click the send button. Jasper sighed, disapointed and sadly clicked on the top and highlighted it all and hit the backspace button. He erased the email that admitted his love for Alice and that explained how he felt. Well it explained how he felt in the best that you could get in words because his feelings and emotions were a bit-
"Hey Jasper, let's go throw some footballs." Dave said opening his door then walking away. Jaspe sighed then followed his dad to their backyard.
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"I HATE MARIA!" Bella yelled to Edward.
Edward rubbed her back, a new gesture he was trying to calm her. "I know you do Bells, but you at least gave her a black eye. Doesn't that make you feel any better?" Edward asked with a smirk.
"Yeah, I can't wait for school tomorrow to see if she got any bruises on her Not so pretty pretty perfect face." Bella said giggling. Edward rolled his eyes and kissed her on her temple.
"Yeah, I just hope Ali will be alright. I definately can understand if she didn't want to face the school." Edward said imagining himself in her shoes.
"Yeah, me too."
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After Alice had left, she was gone for about two hours. Her mom heard her come in and go up to her room and she had been up ever since. Esme finally decided to go up and talk to her. Her mom knocked on the door then came in to see her daughter sobbing on the bed, which broke her hear to see her that way.
Esme walked up to Alice and sat down on the bed next to her. She lifted Alice's head and sat it on her lap and started to stroke her short black hair. "Honey, what's wrong?" Esme asked softly.
"Today w-was the worst d-day ever!" Alice said looking up at her mom with a tear streaked face and blood shot eyes. She felt like shit, 1) she had a, more then crappy day 2) her head was throbbing from the massive headache she was getting from crying so much 3) her eyes burned from, again, crying so much and 4) she had to face the whole school tommorow and worse - 'the whole school' included Maria and Jasper Whitlock.
"Oh sweetie, I'm so sorry... I wish I could make it better for you, but I can't." Esme said sadly. Alice sniffled, trying to calm herself.
"I know, but even if you tried you wouldn't be able to erase or make better of what happened." Alice said sitting up and whipping her eyes. She wasn't crying nearly as hard as she was before, but there were tears that still slowly rolled down her flushed cheeks.
Esme gave her a sad smile. She stood and kissed Alice on the forehead, "I've got to start supper." Then walked out the door and shut it behind her leaving Alice to sit in the silence by herself.
Alice just sat there and starred into space.
A ping noise pulled her out of her thoughts. She looked around trying to figure out what it was then heard it again. This time she noticed it was coming from the window. Alice got up and walked over to her window. Another stone hit her window as she looked out. Her breath caught when she looked out the window. Down there standing was Jasper. He motioned for her to open her door. Alice opened it and stepped onto the balcony.
"What do you want Jasper?" Alice yelled so he could hear her.
"I want to talk." He yelled back.
"I don't want to talk to you!"
"What?" Jasper asked. He couldn't hear her. Alice sighed, annoyed and put her finger up to tell him to hold on, then shut the window. She went downstairs and walked towards the front door.
"Ali honey, where are you going?" Her mom asked stepping out of the kitchen.
"I'm going to step outside for a few minutes." Alice said walking outside and shutting the door behind her. She walked to the side of the house where Jasper was. He trying to figure out where she went.
"Jasper what are you doing here?" Alice asked causing him to jump because he didn't hear her come up behind him. Thunder rumbled in the sky and gray clouds were moving in fast.
"I wanted to talk to you and check to see if you were okay."
"I'm fine." Alice said bluntly.
Jasper studied her face and noticed her bloodshot eyes and that her make up was messed up. "You don't look like you're fine."
"Well I am. Jasper, what do you want?" She asked as lightening cut through the sky.
"I just want to talk to you." Jasper said locking eyes with her ocean blue eyes that he adored so much.
Alice looked away. "I don't want to talk to you right now."
Jasper sighed. "Ali, please?" Alice stayed quiet, so Jasper went on. "Why didn't you tell me?"
"I said I didn't want to talk about it!"
"Alice, just tell me why." Jasper pressed.
"Jasper... before we started to spend time togther, would you have wanted me to be your Cinderella? No." Alice answered for him. "I'm not good enough for you. Maria's right, she's better then me and you deserve somone like..." Tears started to fill her eyes. "Like h-her."
Jasper gave her a hurt look. "Alice that's not true." A crack of thunder roared through the sky as it started to rain pretty hard.
"Jasper, don't... just go...please." She whispered the last part. Jasper looked at her and could tell she was crying, even with the rain falling on her face. He knew she wanted him to go, but he didn't want to. She was hurting and he wanted to be there for her, but Alice made it clear that she didn't want to see him right now. He would give it another try at school tomorrow.
Jasper turned around and walked to his car which was parked on the side of the road. Alice walked behind him and stopped in the font yard and watched him get in. Jasper looked at her one last time before starting the car and driving off. Alice stood there in the rain by herself as she watched Jasper's car dissapear into the distance.
She was so mad at herself for not talking to Jasper and telling him how she felt and that she loved him. She wanted to tell him so bad, but there was a part of her that was scared and did believe that Maria was better then her. Maria deserved Jasper more than her. That part of her also didn't want to let Jasper in whether she liked him or not.
Alice's mom stepped outside. "Alice please come inside, you're going to catch a cold." Alice stood there for a few more minutes before she slowly turned on her heel and walked inside the house. It was offical, today had been nothing, but a bad day and Alice didn't expect tomorrow to be full of gummy bears and sugary lolly pops either.
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yum! i luv gummy bears :) ha ha
so what'd you think???
yeah, they don't kiss in this one :( but they will! trust me :) hopefully in the next one*hint, hint*
GUESS WHAT?! i just finished the next one and i'm so excited to get it up!!!! so if i get enough reviews i can have it up :) yay