I AM SO SORRY GUYS! With all of my classes and test coming up i haven't had time to write. Also this few days i have been feeling really sad lately, and i'm sorry this chapter doesn't have much energy but i promise you tomorrow possibly ill be writing more and it will be so much better i swear! I have been going through a rough time and the only reason i wrote this today was because i felt guilty of not writing anything.

SO SO SO SORRY! I WILL MAKE IT UP TO YOU GUYS!

After a few moments Dimitri pushed back staring at me with lust eyes which made me melt inside as i lunged one of my hands to grab his shoulders. He grabbed my hand a kissed it softly, he stared into my eyes and squeezed my hand tightly before he let it fall to the floor.

"We cant" he said, staring at the ground, i stared at him, he still had me pinned down, but he had expanded the space between us. I caressed his hair softly as i started to protest.

"Why not?" i demanded like a little child. He stared into my brown eyes, his gaze hypnotizing mine.

"Its not right." he said, i could see how hard it was for him to let go of me, but with all the energy and strength left in him, he let go of me. I stared at him sadly, even though i refused to let him see how much it had hurt me.

"Well then." i said, "I must go." i said as i walked away, brushing my shoulder with his. He turned around to say something as he extended his arm to try and reach out for me but stopped and let his arm dropped to his side, and without any word he just stood there as he stared at me. I walked away hurriedly trying to escape from the tears that were threatening to escape. I ran up to my doormroom and sat in my bed as i cried myself to sleep.

I was woken up next day by a knocking in my door. It was Lissa, i could feel her emotions calling me, waking me up with its normal easness like a mother calls her child.

"Hey Liss" i said opening the door. She entered the door and stared around the room.

"Why havent you packed?" she said. I rubbed my eyes as i stared clearly at her.

"Packed?" i asked.

"Yes." she said. as she stared more clearly at me.

"I imagined you forgot." Lissa said with a dissapointed smile.

"Forgot what?" i asked once again.

"Ski trip." she said with a stump of her foot.

"Oh shit." i yelled.

Lissa pouted once more as she complained about how i always forgot this sort of things now.

"Liss, Stop pouting and help me pack." i said complaining, ransacked my whole bedroom looking for my backpacks and book bags anything that could help me put clothe in it. Lissa packed my clothes as i ran into the showers. The only thing in my mind right now was packing and getting out of this hell hole i was in, get away from Dimitri, Tasha and everyone else, i just wanted to leave. But my dreams came shattering down as i remembered that Dimitri as my mentor was in charge of me and because of that he had to accompany us, not just because of me but because he was a guardian, possibly the best one.

I ran back into my dorm room as a saw a sparkly Lissa, who sang and danced by herself as she packed my clothes.

"Cant you hurry?" i asked as i continued to dress up.

"Im sorr-" lissa was cut off as she stared directly at my face. "Rose?" she asked worriedly.

"What?" i said staring at her.

"Have you been crying?" she asked.

"What? No." i answered as i gave my back to her, and stared at the wall.

"Are you sure?" she said. "I just got this feeling that you have." she couldn't continue, she couldn't find the words to explain what she was

feeling.

"I see." i answered her. "This must be stupid question day" i said. Lissa's worried mood shifted as she threw a pair of jeans at my face.

"You are so rude." she said smiling gladly at me.

I sighed, as i stared at my best friend. I wished i could tell her, to make her know all of my worries and fears but i couldn't, i had to be strong and if that meant suffering in silence then i would. Lissa was my whole reason of existing and i owed it to her to be able to keep her safe and keep myself sane.