A/N; Haylo everyone...thank you so much for the reviews! Here's the next chapter...which involves Athrun's realizations of a lot of things...!
"KIRA!"
Athrun felt tears sting his eyes. No…this isn't happening. No…It was just a nightmare…this was just a dream…an illusion…Please…Please don't let this be real!
He took a step back from the TV, which showed the rescue-workers once more, but this time he caught a glimpse of Kira's face. Tear-stained, pained, yet peaceful…and…beautiful. He had never thought a bout Kira like this…but…it was true, cursing him for thinking like that, and at a time like this. Then again, his mind wasn't exactly 'stable' to say the least. His heart raced as he looked to Tenshi, who looked just as shocked, or less, then he was.
Silently they nodded, as Tenshi ran down the hall to her room to change, while he dashed down the stairs to the door, slipping on his sneakers, he stammered forward, his vision currently blurred by tears. "Kira…Kira…" he murmured pushing open the door, and hurrying to his car.
Upon coming to it, he opened the door quickly and slammed it shut. Athrun starred blankly at the garage in front of him. Visions of his childhood with Kira slowly came back to him…
Flashback
"Your so slow!" A brunette cried out, laughing merrily. Athrun laughed as well, chasing the older male through the beach.
That was a while ago…when they were both five years old. Their mothers had taken them for a relaxing day at the beach, and currently, both were playing tag. "…Nuhhuh!" he called back, stumbling slightly, as he reached out, within moments, had pushed Kira down with him, so that the older boy would break his fall…
Kira had landed on his stomach upon the hot sand, "…Acccck! Athy!" Kira cried out, struggling to get up from under him, but to no prevail. "Athhhy…" he whimpered, but Athrun still wouldn't budge. There was only enough room for him to turn onto his back. As he did so, he found the said male grinning for ear to ear.
"Your it!"
End Of Flashback
Athrun shivered at that, they always had so much fun at the beach…Maybe one day he'd be able to bring back Kira to see the sunset once more…He always seemed to love it…but…that would be if he even lived through this. Athrun slammed her fist into the dashboard, growling loudly, as another flashback of the past returned…
Flashback 2
"Yes Kira…Roller coaster, for the fifteenth time…! Must I spell it out for you?" he asked with a sweat-drop. "-But Athrun! I don't…" "You can hold onto me if you get THAT scared, 'Kay?" the younger one said with a genuine smile.
"Roller coaster!" 9-year-old Kira asked baffled. His innocent wide eyes were wider then usual as he starred at Athrun in stunned silence.
This took place a few years before. Lenore Zala, Athrun's mother, had invited Kira and Cagalli (but she had turned it down to spend the night at a friends) to the amusement park, and Kira had eagerly agreed. But…to his misfortune, Athrun was finally allowed to go on the roller coaster, and had been asking for the last fifteen minutes.
The brunette look up at him silently, before turning on his heels slightly to look up at the large black and white 'coaster he was being forced to go on, for he knew he couldn't beat Athrun…most of the time. And today was one of those days. He gawked at it, with obvious distaste to the metal ride. "…Athrun…" he sighed but nodded slowly. "Okay…Let's get in line." Athrun broke into a fit of giggles as he took hold of his hand and hurried towards the line with a huge smile… The result to this wasn't what either of them had planned. Kira had gotten sick as soon as he stepped off the ride, and had to be carried on Athrun's back to the nearest bathroom (Which wasn't far at all) where he continued that routine. He ended up crying softly, which caused him to gag even more. During this time, Athrun had held him and tried to comfort him, which worked wonders for the teary-eyed male. In the end, Kira had gotten better after a half, or so, hour, and ended up not doing to many rides after this, and even though that had happened, Kira put it behind him…He was happy that he had made Athrun happy, and that it did turn out alright in the end, and he knew he'd never have to go on a roller coaster much anymore…but the other wasn't mad. He was just happy… Happy that his Kira was happy…
End Of Flashback
Athrun shook his head to bring himself back to reality. During the flashbacks, tears had formed in his eyes. "Dammit!" he yelled, punching the dashboard and putting his head against the steering wheel. How he was going to drive in his current situation was beyond his knowledge. By now, he was sobbing softly into the leather wheel. He couldn't help it anymore; he couldn't keep it inside anymore. Everything he had been hiding the last few days exited him suddenly.
But, before he could think anything more, Tenshi arrived on the front step, shutting and locking the door behind her, before rushing towards the car. Upon reaching it, she slid into the passenger seat. Silently she looked towards him, "…Athrun…" Tenshi murmured softly.
"Why? Why does it have to be him?" loosing the last bit of control, "Why Kira! What did he ever do to deserve this? I failed him…he did this because of me…! I failed him as a best friend…it's my fault!" Athrun thrashed in his seat, as if trying to escape the grasp of a invisible foe.
Tenshi reached out, taking a hold of his hand. "Athrun!" she said softly, yet sternly. Her facial features held a grave look. "Calm down! You've got too!" he looked at her helplessly. "I don't…I can't! What am I going to do if he dies Tenshi? What am I going to do!"
"We can't do anything if you don't get a hold of yourself…Athrun do you want to just sit here, as time, and his life slowly slip away and out of sight!" he shook his head. "Then calm down…do you want me to drive?" he shook his head once more.
He seemed to understand, for within seconds he had started up the car and took off. "Tenshi…I'm sorry…" Athrun mumbled his emerald eyes were starring out the front window. His mind was in another world, as he subconsciously sped down the street, passing random stop signs as he made his way towards the park.
"For what?" "Getting you into this…getting you into everything, so suddenly." he mumbled as the park came into view, all the ambulances, and cop cars sent tears into his eyes once more, blinding his senses. He didn't hear Tenshi's response, but he saw her lips moving, and instead of saying anything, he just nodded.
Exiting the car, he wiped his eyes before he began to run.
Kira…
It's not your time to die…
He ran quickly and efficiently, thanking god for his coordinator abilities, which caused him to be able to run faster. And hell he needed it right now…
Kira…
Don't leave me now…
Making his way through the crowd that seemed endless, he cried audibly. He didn't care who heard him all that mattered was that he reached Kira in time…
Kira…
I failed you…
He knew he had failed, and that hurt him the most…he failed all the silent promises he had made. To protect Kira always, to hold him when he needed comfort, to kiss away the tears…to just be there…
Kira…
I'm so sorry…
Sorry couldn't make up for anything, Athrun concluded as he pushed his way on. His friends were coming into view, surrounded by police officers.
He knew now, there was not much he could do…but he had to try, he had to try and make up for all he had wronged…he now knew one thing…one thing that stuck out the most…
Kira…
I love you!
Athrun skidded to a stop as some of his friends who were presently there turned around slowly. "…Athrun!" Cagalli cried out, which got the attention of Nicol and Yzak. As Yzak turned, Athrun found it hard to believe the sight he saw.
Tear stained, scarred face, his blue eyes were fogged over, and he could tell he was breaking down inside, just as he was. Athrun hadn't expected this, but he had more important things to accomplish. He had to get down there…
"Athrun! You bastard, this is your fault! Your fault!" he cried out suddenly. The said male turned his attention back to Yzak, who had moved closer while his barriers had fallen. The platinum blonde had clenched fists as his bottled anger disappeared from him. "You…you did this to him! Do you know how much pain you put him in, how could you let him do this to himself! Athrun! Answer me that! He loved you!" Yzak burst out, taking a step back and ended with a punch on Athrun's face. Immediately the angered male came back for more, pushing him to the ground. The look in his blue eyes was enough to pierce Athrun's skin as the azure-haired male fell backwards.
"Yzak! I know it's my fault!" he cried back, each in equal pain as they starred at one another. "…Kira doesn't deserve this…if anyone is to die it should be me!" he cried, the pained look on his face stunned Yzak, who was brought back to tears. "…I sinned him…I gave everything away…Yzak…I deserve to be beaten to a pulp and I know that…but now…now's not the time! I've got to get down there…!"
Yzak didn't respond, holding a glare, inwardly scowling at him. "…You can't get in there…" the fight they had previously went through caught a lot of watchers attention who now were starring at him. "…Why did you even show up! Kira doesn't want to see you…!"
"I don't care…I don't care…I'm going to get him out of there…I'm going to save him…because I…I love him!" and with that Athrun dashed through the crowd that had surrounded them, pushing down any and all who got in his way. "Kira…" he mouthed as the officers came into view.
It was obvious he wasn't going to be able to get in there. At least…without a fight. He grimaced at this, he was putting himself in much more trouble then he had bargained for, but this was Kira…and nothing would hold him back now.
Without sudden hesitation, Athrun gripped his fists tightly, before looking at the guards whom had now looked towards him, both raised a brow. Before any more was said, the first officer looked stunned. "Kid! What do you think your doing! Get back here!" but it was to late, Athrun had already jumped the caution signs and began down the cliff, seeing the struggling rescue workers, as they made an attempt to move him, the paramedics were busy trying to stabilize his body. Athrun growled at this. They were wasting his time, and at his point, he had one intention.
To save his dying Kira…
A/N 2; I should update soon once more...but it's going to be a lot harder to write...and I want to know what the readers think are going to happen next...! So if/when you review, please also add what you think might happen, 'cause I need some help!