Once I got Chad's letter, I was just happy that he sent one back, and that he was overly pissed at me. I stood up and walked over to my door, where my note laid, untouched, just waiting to be read. I bent down slowly savouring every moment until I read it, and cried or not cried. I didn't want to get back up, so I sat down where the note was and picked it up. Opening the folded piece of paper, just looking at his writing, not even looking at what the note said yet. But I have to tell ya I was scared to see what it said. I read the note, every single last word that it contained. I couldn't believe he wrote this. It was so, so, so beautiful! I started to cry reading it over and over and over again. He said he would always love me, that he loved me. He said that he would Forever and for Always. And I felt the exact same way about him. Sonny stop thinking about him like that! You have a boyfriend, a awesome boyfriend! And his name is Chad- wait what? His name is Jeremy, not Chad! What the hell was I thinking?
I didn't write back, even though I think I should have. What Chad confessing what he just confessed to me, (on paper) I should've at least write something back, one word even! But I didn't, I don't know why I didn't, but I didn't. Chad might have stayed in that room all day, thinking that I was probably just writing a really long note. But when I came into his room, he immediately snapped out of his thoughts.
"seriously, I am not writing back! I thought you would have gotten that by now, but apparently not!" I yelled, then walking back out slamming the door behind me. That defiantly woke him up. Chad starred at me blankly, not knowing if he should speak or just sit there. He did nothing. Just what I thought he would do. After a little while of doing homework I got bored, and Chad walked in my room.
"What the hell! I knew you weren't replying after what 15 minutes of it not coming back! I didn't give a fuck! Seriously I would rather you not reply to a message like that because I wouldn't want to just find out that a girl likes me over a freaking note! That is not how I would want to find out!" Chad yelled.
"Whatever! Ok? Like really I don't care! But that note, it got to me, I didn't stop reading it for 10 freaking minutes! And, just so you know, I feel the same way! I like you, a lot. But we cant date, I am sorry. Your dating Naomi and I am dating Jeremy. I guess….." I stopped in mid sentence.
"Why did you stop in mid sentence like that? Did something happen between you and Jeremy? Did he hurt you?" And here comes the worried side of Chad.. Great just what this little conversation needed.
"Nothing happened, Chad. Cant you have a conversation with me and not be worried about me? I am 16 freaking years old, I can look after myself!" I yelled, officially getting angry. Also just what this conversation needed.
"Ok, I am sorry. I don't want to fight again, I think we should like do something so we don't fight anymore. And, we would still have to be friends." Chad said, stopping the argument before it even started.
"Ya your right, I don't wanna fight either. I am sorry for all the fighting we have done, but I have an idea how we can still be friends but not fight as much…" I paused.
He nodded, signalling for me to keep talking. "We just when we start to feel that a fight is coming on, we can just change the topic or something. I think that would work."
He nodded in agreement. "You know this is probably the best conversation we have ever had without fighting or something. I really enjoyed it!" I smiled, nodding.
"Dinner!" Michelle yelled from the bottom of the steps. We and Chad had been talking a little bit more. We both piled out of my room, like we did when we were younger, and raced down the stairs. Michelle was amazed when she saw us. It almost looked as if she was proud or something. "So you guys are friends again! And racing down the stairs like you used too. What miracle made this happen?" She asked, walking normally over to the dinning table, while me and Chad ran over to it, goofing around, and just being like we were before everything went wrong! Or downhill, Ect!
"Umm, we had a normal talk. And we discovered feelings that we never knew we had, nothing much though. Oh and Michelle, I am going out with Jeremy my boyfriend tonight is that alright?" I asked, trying to be the person I was before, not the bitch I am now. Michelle looked confused, and horrified.
"Did you ask me? I thought you would have just told me, not ask me! What is going on with you girl today? Your acting weird like your old self, not the bitch everyone thought you were." Michelle said.
"Well….." I began. "When me and Chad have been fighting, and not spending as much time together I changed. Because I didn't have my best friend there to tell me what not and what to do, but now I think I am going to start making my own decisions, and making them the right ones." I smiled at Chad and at Michelle.
"Ok… I will pretend to know what is going on, anyways. How was school? Did you do anything interesting, or exciting?" She asked like totally changing the subject! I looked at her bewildered.
"Hey but I wasn't done talking about how I am not a bitch, and how I will be my normal self again! I like to finish talking before someone changes the topic on me!" I smiled, not really getting mad but just acting like I was mad. They all smiled before me. Which is how I wanted it to be like for a long time to come.
"Ya, ya. We get it your turning into the mature adult we all know you can be. I don't give a crap anymore, I was happy before, but now I don't really care. Just don't turn back into the bitch and we will be fine. Ok? Awesome." She said, turning back to Chad. "So, how was school today?"