A/N: Sorry I made you wait, you guys! Had sooooo many exams this week. lyrics are: sweet goodbyes- krezip. Wanted to do: everybody's changing but the song was too short. So… I hope you like it.

She knew today was going to be hard for him, it had to be. But she had the feeling he was going to put on a brave face, when she wished he didn't. He wasn't dealing with it, not at all. But she'd have to let him do his own thing. Right?

She arrived at the hospital and had a case with Wilson, they were delivering a baby.

"Hey, Dr. Grey. You excited for the wedding?"

"Do I look excited?"

"No."

"Well, there's your answer!"

"So I really like uteruses…" Jo started, then Ali gave her a look. "I mean… they're so productive. But I don't like my period."

"Wilson… No."

"Okay, okay… just trying to start some conversation."

"Sorry, I'm just in a bit of a mood."

"Why? There's a wedding today!"

"I know."

"Weddings are awesome!"

"Not this one."

They saved the uterus, because she was awesome. But Jo kept talking and talking which was just disturbing. Once she even started about Karev's sex moves. It was too much.

Can't sleep 'cause everything's changing

You don't want to leave things behind

Can't breathe cause to many things going on

going wrong in your life

After that, she had to get ready for April's wedding, which was disastrous, but she managed. Deb decided that it would be best to help her, so she looked okay. Though Deb had called her 'gorgeous'.

She found a ride with Karev and Jo, which Jo had offered very kindly this morning. She was waiting for them just now.

"So you know what happened to me yesterday?" She said.

"What?" Jo asked.

"I got stuck on the toilet without any toilet paper." Jo frowned. "So I texted Marlene for help. And she said 'use the stuff from the garbage'."

"That's disgusting!"

"I know! That's what I told her but she thought I was being unreasonable so I texted Deb who helped me out."

"Why would she even suggest that?"

"I don't know, she's mean Marlene for a good reason."

"You call her that?"

"Yeah."

"To her face?"

"Of course."

Tears in your eyes

Sweet goodbyes

I know how you feel right now

Losing dreams you've come to care about

I know what you need right now

You need to come on home so I can hold you tight

They arrived at the wedding, but they were an hour early. Alex was pretty quiet the whole time, like he had something on his mind. But then again, a lot of people acted that way around her for some reason. It was probably because she talked too much. Seriously, she didn't know how Jackson put up with it.

"So Dr. Grey, how are you liking Seattle?" Jo asked with a smile.

"You can just call me Lexie now." She said with a smile "God, I mean Ali. Why do I keep doing that?" Her smile turned into a frown. "But Seattle's great."

"And the people?"

"They're okay, I guess."

"And Dr. Kepner?"

"I don't really know her. So how'd you and Karev get together?"

"You don't have to talk about me in the third person when I'm standing right here." Alex said with a growl.

"Sorry, didn't think you were listening." She explained.

"Don't be an ass!" Jo said to him. "Well, we got together after a long period of being friends. But I think we both felt that it could be something more. You know?"

"Actually, I don't. Jackson and I are nothing but platonic."

"That's what I thought too, but then…"

"Um… Right. Well, it's not like that this time."

"I'm just saying, you never know."

"Isn't he dating your friend?"

Jo looked away, trying to think of something to say.

"You don't think it's going to last!" Ali concluded. "Oh. My. God."

"Please don't… say anything."

"I won't, but… why?"

"Well, I just think they're not right for each other. He keeps ignoring her to spend time with you and it makes her miserable. All they do is have sex, they don't talk or laugh… So, I don't know. I don't think they love each other."

"Tell me about it. Besides, he's still hung up on A-"

"Who?"

"A dog."

"He's hung up on a dog."

"You've gotta be shitting me." Alex said to Ali. He knew she meant to say April. "Are you serious?"

"No." She squeaked.

"But today! And no way! HE- what?"

"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said anything! It's just I'm terrible at keeping secrets." She sighed. "God, I'm such a terrible friend!"

Guide you through the night

I'll guide you through the night

Everyone sat as they watched April down the aisle. She sat next to Alex and Jo, in front of her sat Stephanie and Jackson.

The wedding march was playing and then they watched as April and Matthew said their vows. The priest said some words about eternal love and everybody looked pretty happy. "Speak now or forever hold your peace."

"Sorry." Jackson said to Stephanie, who frowned.

Ali hoped, no prayed, that he would just sit down when Jackson stood up. "Don't marry him, April." He said, shocking everyone, and everyone turned to him. Ali rolled her eyes. Why did the people in Seattle always felt the need to turn their lives into a bad soap opera? "I love you, always have, and you should be with me, not him."

April, the poor girl, looked as if she might faint.

"And I think that you love me too. Just say something."

Ali looked around. Cristina was grinning, Meredith was almost hyperventilating, Alex rolled his eyes, Jo just smiled, Stephanie was not happy, of course, Bailey seemed confused, Owen didn't know what to feel and Ali, Ali wanted to smack Jackson.

If April said no to Jackson, it would be disastrous. But if she said yes, it'd also be disastrous. She didn't know what to want. She never liked April, but she didn't want to see Jackson hurt. Either way, someone would be leaving with a broken heart.

"Jackson…" April whispered, but loud enough for everyone to hear in the quiet barn. "I'm sorry."

Jackson looked down, this was a definite no. He got money out of his pocket, walked up to Ali and gave it to her and walked out of the barn. Ali stood up and ran after him.

Wake up the sun's shining bright lets go out of bed into the light

Shape up we won't forget still there's lots of love left to hold tight

"Jackson! Jackson!" She called out over the hill where Jackson was walking away.

"Leave me alone!" He yelled.

"Please just wait!"

He stopped, no matter how angry he was, he stopped. "What? Are you here to lecture me?"

"Actually, you only gave me 20 bucks… not 50." He glared at her. "Sorry. Not a good moment. We'll discuss this later." He glared at her again. "Uhm… What the hell were you thinking?"

"I was thinking I love her, and I can't let her marry him."

"Well! Wrong timing!"

"I couldn't just hold it in, she needed to know this!"

"But the minute she was about to get married?!"

"I said everything I could, so… I- Why didn't she- want me?"

"I don't know."

"This is not easy."

"I know."

Ali closed her eyes.

Flashback.

"Hey, are you okay?" She asked George, who was still sitting in the back of the church after everybody had left. Alex had just married Izzie.

"I'm fine."

"No, you're not." Ali said to him.

"You're right… I'm not. What tipped you off? I thought I was acting fine." He said with a sigh.

"Come on, George, we were best friends."

"What changed that?" He seemed genuinely hurt.

"I don't know, I had a stupid crush on you, that changed things."

"I am pretty great."

"Yes, you are. But I'm with-"

"Yeah, I know… I'm sorry, Lex."

"No, I'm sorry."

"Thank you… For knowing I'm not fine. When they said, speak now or forever hold you peace, I wanted to scream at her not to marry him. But to marry me."

"I know. Because of your 'someday'. Izzie and you would have been together someday."

"Well, I'd rather see her happy and with Alex, than not happy."

"I know, but that doesn't make it any easier."

"It doesn't. This is not easy."

"I know."

She opened her eyes again.

"Are you okay?" Jackson asked her.

"Yeah, I'm fine. It was just a memory. And are you seriously asking if I'm okay?"

"I'll be fine."

"Yes, you will."

"But not just yet."

"It's okay to get hurt, Jackson."

"I'm not crying in front of you."

"Oh, God no."

They looked around in silence. "It's really beautiful out here." Ali said.

"Yeah, that's April for you." You could just hear the heartbreak in his voice, and Ali wished she could do something to make it better for him. But she couldn't. He just had his heart broken.

Tears in your eyes

Sweet goodbyes

I know how you feel right now

Losing dreams you've come to care about

I know what you need right now

You need to come on home so I can hold you tight

Guide you through the night

Ali walked into the hospital later that day to discharge Carter. She hadn't wanted to leave Jackson alone, but Carter had to leave and he couldn't without her discharging him.

When she walked into his hallway she heard screaming. She hurried into his room where Stephanie was screaming at him, while also crying uncontrollably.

"You filthy disgusting pig! You treat women like property, like they're nothing! And in your book you teach others to the same thing! You are terrible. You're everything that's wrong with this world!" She screamed.

"Edwards." Ali yelled. Stephanie stopped and looked at her. "Conference room. Now."

"What the hell were you thinking yelling at a patient?"

Stephanie just cried.

"Look Stephanie, you've got to get yourself together. Stop crying."

Stephanie stopped sobbing. "Do you make it a habit to be friends with jerks?"

"Yes." Ali said with a kind smile. "All your relationship with Jackson, you were the other woman to April." Stephanie dropped her shoulders. "And you shouldn't be the other woman, you should be the only woman. So find a man who can give you that."

Stephanie sighed. "I just feel so stupid."

"I know. But you can't break down at work. And you can't be mad at April for it or any other woman that Jackson loves next because it's not your fault that he didn't love you."

"You're right."

"And don't yell at patients! Next time I find you acting out of line, you're fired!" She was back to being the tough attending.

"Thank you, Dr. Grey." Stephanie said.

"Any time."

Everything I love between us will guide us through the night

All the things we lost will teach us see the pretty things in life

All the places that we've been to

The people we relate to

All the love that we give in to

Back at Jackson's apartment, he wasn't doing anything when she came in.

"How'd you get in?" He asked when he saw her.

"I stole your key a while back. I sometimes secretly use your shower because mine sucks." She admitted.

"Is that why my water bill was so high this month?"

"Probably."

"I really thought she loved me. And that I was over her, but then she was about to marry whatshisface and it hit me that I wasn't."

"She probably did love you, but then she loved Matthew."

"Right. How was Carter?"

"He was fine." She thought back to the goodbye. Carter had not been happy to leave her.

"Good."

"I should probably go home."

"Can you stay?" He asked her, his voice sounding weak.

"Sure. I'll stay."

"This is not easy." He said again. "Can I ask you something?"

"No."

"It's get easier, right?"

"Sure."

He sighed. "Well, at least I'll have you."

"Always." She smiled. "You said you've always loved her, but you didn't say you always will. You'll be fine."

Blow the tears from our eyes

Sweet goodbyes

I know how you feel right now

Losing dreams you've come to care about

I know what you need right now

You need to come on home so I can hold you tight

I know how you feel right now

Losing dreams you've come to care about

I know what you need right now

You need to come on home so I can hold you tight

I'll get you through the night

A/N: I know that many of you are disappointed that Mark wasn't the one she remembered, but I want him to have the goodbye he deserves, so it'll take some time and I felt like George always gets left out. So… let me know what you want to happen next. 92Dil gave me a good idea to include a flashback! I really appreciated it so thanks.

I hope you like this chapter, don't know when the next one will be posted, might be a while, as always.

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