Strengthen Me
Chapter 9
Eren's POV
I have always hated hospitals and doctors. The smell, the commotion, the pain, the suffering. I hated it all. Being in a hospital and hearing the sounds of people crying out in pain gnawed at my insides. I always wondered how my father was able to deal with being in a place so depressing and still be as sane as he was.
Of course even though I hate the very thought of hospitals I always, somehow, found myself in one. It was like I attracted them. Of course right now there wasn't anything wrong with me. As far as I was concerned I was fit and healthy. Well, not completely fit, but still in good enough shape.
Even though I was healthy and not at all sick Levi kept on insisting that I see the doctor for my heart. He has also become more obstinate when it comes to me taking my immunosuppressant medication. I tell him all the time that there's nothing to worry about and that my heart was fine and wouldn't be rejected by my body any time soon.
Despite the fact that I've been telling him this he still won't stop telling me to see the doctor. Every single day its "Eren, we should book an appointment for you" or "Eren, maybe it would be best if you got a check-up by a doctor". He was almost like a broken record, repeating itself until someone actually did something about it.
"Okay fine… I'll go… what's your problem anyway? I told you that there's nothing wrong with me so stop worrying like this, it's not very becoming of you" I remember myself saying to Levi after being pestered one too many times by him. Levi had just simply replied with "I have my reasons" and that was that.
I chose not to push the matter any further and pester him for an answer like he pestered me to see a doctor. I just allowed him to book me the appointment even though I really didn't want to go. Like I said, there was really nothing wrong with me. I felt perfectly fine. But Levi obviously doubted that.
"Mr. Yeager, Dr. Fuan will see you now." I hear someone call out, pulling me out from my thoughts. I look up at the female nurse who had called my name and nod my head, standing up in the process and walking into the office I had been waiting to go in since I got here almost half an hour ago. I really hated hospitals.
"Eren, how are you doing today?" Doctor Fuan asked immediately once I was in the room and seated. The door was closed by the nurse and then our appointment was finally starting. "I'm fine, Fuan-sensei. Actually, I don't know why I'm here. Levi keeps pestering me to see the doctor and I just couldn't take it anymore so I just got him to book the appointment"
"Was he worried about something?" the doctor asks, making notes in his patient report file. "Well I think he's worried about my body rejecting my heart but I told him that there was nothing to worry about. Could you just give me a check-up and make sure everything is alright so I can go home and shut him up about it"
"I can do that." the doctor says, "move over to the bed, please" he instructs. I nod my head and get up from my seat and move over to the examination bed. "Tell me, Eren, have you given Levi any impression to worry about you?" Fuan asks and I shake my head. Of course I haven't. "No I have not. I do everything I'm instructed to do by my doctors. I take my medication, I eat the correct foods and I exercise regularly."
"I see" he says. Conversation pretty much ended there while he examined me. I always felt awkward while doctors-or anyone really- poked and probed at me. It felt weird and unnatural. Usually whenever I got sick my father would be the one to diagnose me and give me medication- which is to be expected considering he was a doctor himself. Now that he was gone I have no choice but to go to other doctors when I get sick. It's not something you can get used to. Being touched by other people-obviously in no-sexual ways.
"Well, there isn't anything wrong with you. You do have a little bit of a fever but I'll prescribe you medicine to bring that down." The doctor says once he was done examining me. I nod my head and get off the bed, moving back over to the chair I had been sitting in. "See, I knew there was nothing wrong with me."
"Yes" the doctor hums out. "Tell me, what is your relationship with Levi?" Fuan-sensei asks me. I choked on my own spit thanks to that sudden question. "What does our relationship with one another have to do with this, sensei?" I ask and he chuckles. "Don't get defensive, Eren. It's just a question. I'm your doctor so I need to know this."
A short silence passed between us. "We're… we're seeing each other… romantically" I say. My cheeks felt hot. I didn't doubt that they were probably red with embarrassment. "I see. Then that would explain the source of Levi's worry" Fuan-sensei says. "What do you mean?" I ask, confused by his comment.
"Well, Levi obviously loves you. Right?" I nod my head at the question. "Now isn't it only natural to worry about the person you love? If you think about it, Levi just lost his father. On top of that there's a possibility of him losing you every single day as well. Despite the fact that you're healthy and take your medication you're still at risk. He's afraid of those risks"
"Obviously I know that. I just wish he would actually speak to me about it instead of just forcing me to see the doctor each time he gets worried" I say. "But it's a good idea for you to see the doctor, Eren. Like I said despite being healthy you're still at risk. There's no guarantee of what will happen in the near future."
"I know. But for now I'm choosing to live in the present. The future can come later" I say. The doctor smiles at me. "Well, I suppose if you think like that you'll be fine for now but you got to realize at some point in your life that you have to start thinking about living in the future and not about living in the present moment"
I stay silent. Of course I knew that. "I think there comes a point in everyones life where they have to start thinking about living in the future. But those thoughts shouldn't stop you from living in the present, right? After all you can't be certain of what the future holds so it's best to just let it plan out and move along with it" I say.
"You're quite right, I suppose. Your wisdom is astonishing for someone of your age" Docto Fuan comments. "I get told that a lot lately... I think it has something to do with the fact that I "lived in the future" already. Maybe my mind is still stuck there." I say and the man chuckles. "I don't think so. Your life experiences is what makes you who you are. I think with all you've experienced your mind is at it's perfect state of maturity. Which is good. That means you won't always make bad choices"
"Yeah... Well enough with the chatter. I have school work to catch up with so could you please write me the script so I can scurry off?" I ask. I didn't want to be there any longer. This conversation was tiring. "Yes, of course." The man says, pulling out medicine scrpt paper and scribbling down in that horrible doctors writing every doctor I knew had. "Here we go" he says handing the page over to me.
"Thank you, Fuan-sensei" I say, taking the sheet of paper and getting up from my seat and start walking towards the door. "Tell Levi I say hi and not to worry too much when it comes to your health" he says. I turn and nod my head. I was about to turn back around and take my leave but the man called me again.
"Oh, and Eren, if you want-as your doctor and health advisor- I could suggest some 'cleansing' medications for you" he says, smiling at me. "Cleansing? Why would I need medication for cleansing?" I ask, giving him a confused look. "Well, in homosexual relationships it's very important to keep clean down there. I would suggest an anal douchebag-"
"Ah, that's o-okay... I-I already know about that, you don't have to tell me or suggest anything..." I say nervously. "Well, that's good. I don't have anything against youngsters like you engaging in sexual activity. You can do it as long as you're doing it correctly. As in using condoms, flushing your system, preparing correctly and so-on" the doctor says.
"W-well, no need to worry about that. W-we're pretty safe" I say, "well, I b-better g-go. Bye sensei!" I add in, leaving before the man could even answer me. My face felt extremely hot.
I really did hate hospitals. But I think I hate the doctors more.
Normal POV
When Eren left the hospital his new doctor worked at he went straight to the grocers to buy a few things for the house. Eren realized that now that his father was gone and Levi was actually working he was the one that needed to take responsibility for the house. Lately he had been doing all the cleaning, the laundry and he even cooked.
He feared that by the end of the year he would be a housewife. He did not want that. He wanted to keep his male pride intact and with the way things were going he would be losing some of it. But it wasn't like he would really complain. Levi was giving up a lot for him even though he didn't need to.
Eren told him all the time that he didn't need to work because they had money but the man would not budge. He kept saying that it wasn't right using money they didn't earn for themselves and that they should stop depending on their parents because they were gone and the money they left wouldn't last forever.
Eren knew that, of course. He knew that at some point the money would drained and they would have nothing. But it wouldn't hurt Levi to use some of it and lesson his work, would it? Eren was also thinking about getting a job as well but he knew Levi would flip if he did. He would probably say "You need to focus on school, not work. Leave that for me"
Eren let out a sigh. "Sometimes you need to let people help out as well…" he mutters out to himself. He was already done doing his shopping and was on his way over to Armin's house. He needed to fetch some things to study from. Since he had been in a coma for half of the school year and then rehabilitation a month after waking up it was far too inconvenient for him to go back to school.
He did not, however, want to repeat the tenth grade. A few months ago he started a make-up program with his ex-school. The work was grueling considering he had to basically self-study everything. Of course with all the free time he had, what with being at home and everything, he was able to go through things until he understood them fully.
Of course when he didn't understand something, even though he tried his hardest to, that was where Armin and Jean came in. Since they had been through the work-with an actual teacher- they understood it much more and were able to help him. It was an added plus that they took the same subjects as he did as well so things just went in his favor. He felt blessed to have such good friends like them that actually helped him out. Then again if it were them in the position he was in he would have helped them out to the best of his ability as well.
Of course on the off chance that Armin and Jean weren't able to help him he still had Levi. Then again he would actually need to actually see Levi first to be able to ask him for help. It wasn't like he never saw Levi or anything because he always did. It's just that whenever he did see Levi he didn't have time to ask him for help with school work because usually they were too preoccupied with other things.
Well, for the last month they hadn't really done anything more than makeout and that was about it with their physical encounters. Eren suspected that Levi was still trying to recover from his fathers funeral. It had been quite an emotional experience for him and things like that weren't easy to overcome. Of course Eren didn't think that Levi would pospone any sexual activity between the two of them for this long. The last time they had actually had sex was almost two months back.
Eren wasn't really needy or anything. He just found it odd. A part of him felt like they were losing their sexual drive for one another. Of course he didn't think that was true. He knew that he still wanted Levi in any way possible and Levi as well. But lately-ever since Eric's funeral- when it came down to actually having sex Levi would postpone it, saying "I'm tired" or "I just don't feel like it" or some other lame excuse. Eren knew that he was definitely feeling it though. But something was holding him back.
"Maybe he's starting to think we shouldn't do anything because of my age..." Eren thought aloud. He shook his head at that thought. "No, that's ridiculous... After everything we've done already it's too late to be thinking about my age" Eren says to himself. He knew it was a bit of an absurd thought but Eren felt like Levi was treating him like some precious virgin princess that couldn't be touched.
Again it wasn't like he was needy. Okay, maybe he was a little needy, but it was controllable at least. He didn't care if Levi and him didn't have sex. All he wanted was for the blackette to actually speak to him. He was tired of being the open person in their relationship. And it wasn't like Levi was the most readable person. He never knew what the man was thinking. Sometimes he managed to figure him out but other times he wasn't so lucky.
Eren let out a sigh. "No point in thinking about this now" he says softly to himself. He guessed he would just have to speak to Levi tonight when he got home from work.
After Eren had gotten the stuff he needed from Armin's he went straight home. The ride hadn't been long at all since they didn't live far from one another. By the time he had gotten home it was already 4 o'clock. Levi had work until 8 so that left him with 4 hours to clean up and cook food.
Of course decided to only start chores at least an hour before Levi got home-mainly because the house was basically clean already and food didn't take that long to make. So, instead of cleaning he opted to plan out his studying. He started exams in a month and he had a lot of things he needed to go through. He wanted to plan out his time and go through things at a steady pace.
Once he had finished his study plan he had been left with 3 more hours to kill. He wanted to watch TV but he knew that there would be boring programs playing. He thought it would be a good idea to use his free time productively and maybe get a head start with studying but he didn't really feel like it.
He just sat there at his desk, his chin resting in the palm of his hands and a bored expression masking his face. "I wish it was 8 o'clock already..." He said quietly to himself, a small sigh escaping his throat. He heard the sound of his dog bark next to him. He looked down to see the animal on it's back legs, it's front paws on the edge of Eren's seat, begging for the brunette to let him up.
"You're too big to sit on my lap, boy. You might crush me" he says, moving to pet the dogs head. DL (Dog-Levi) gave him a sad look. It would be what others called puppy eyes, just the adult version. Eren let out another sigh. "You seriously won't fit, boy. Don't give me that look..." He mutters out. DL tilted his head to the side and gave the brunette a small little whine.
"Fine. You can sit by me." He says, "but rather on the bed where you'll have space and won't crush me" he adds in, getting up from his chair and moving over to his bed. He laid down, kicking his shoes off somewhere, and patted the empty spot next to him. DL didn't waste any time in jumping up on the bed and laying besides Eren, almost laying halfway on him if it weren't for the brunette moving the dog so that he didn't crush him.
"You're almost like Levi, boy. You always get your way" Eren comments. "I always thought it was you that got your way"
Eren let out a very unmanly scream at the sudden voice that entered his room, jumping up too quickly and falling on his butt. "Ouch..." He grumbled out as he got back up, looking over at his door and screaming yet again. "Oh my god! There's a bear in my room! There's a talking bear in my room!" He screamed, jumping back up on his bed.
"Eren, I knew you weren't that smart, but I think it's pretty obvious that this isn't a real bear. I mean, it looks too childlike, don't you think. And it has a bow around its neck so that should have also been a good giveaway" the "bear" spoke. Eren looked down at his dog, surprised the animal wasn't doing anything. All it did was lay there, staring at the bear with its tail wagging. "No Levi-boy! Don't look so happy! There's a talking teddy bear in my room! A smart, talking teddy bear!"
"Eren, please stop being stupid. You're making me regret doing this" and finally the person who was holding the bear finally walked deeper into the room and placed the plush creature down on the floor and stepped to the side. "Oh, it's you, Levi. You were so short I didn't see you holding the teddy bear that's bigger than you"
"You little shit. You knew I was holding that thing the whole time." Levi says, his eyebrow twitching in annoyance. "I did not" Eren says but a glare from Levi made him sigh out. "Okay, fine. I did" he grumbles as he jumps back down and walks over to the blackette. "Although the first time you spoke I didn't know it was you. Your voice was muffled behind that thing and plus you just came out of nowhere...aren't you supposed to be at work now?"
"I took off" Levi says plainly. Eren gives him an "Are-You-Kidding-Me?" look. "Well that's surprising. All you've been doing is work and you've barely given me the time of day. What happened? Did you finally realize that there is someone at home waiting for you?" Eren grumbles out. He didn't mean for it to sound so rude but for some reason he felt a little peeved.
"I haven't been working all the time. And I don't ignore you. You know that if I'm not working I'm spending my time with you. Stop being a shitty brat. I thought you would actually be happy that I came home earlier" Levi says, glaring at the brunette. Eren sighs out, shaking his head. "I am happy…" he says, moving forward and wrapping his hands around the blackettes shoulders. "Did you get shorter?"
"Shut up, shitty brat" he playfully growls out, encasing his arms around Eren's slim waist. "Please stop growing. You're starting to look like a skyscraper" Levi says and Eren chuckles. "I'll stop eating my vegetables and sleep less just for you*" the brunette says and Levi shakes his head. "That's not very funny"
"Yeah it is. What's up with the big ass teddy bear? Are you trying to match your age with your height or something?" Eren jokes and Levi decided to not reply to the brunettes comment. He pulled away from the younger and picked up the teddy bear he had brought in with him. "This," he holds the toy that was bigger than him out to Eren, "Is for you"
"And why is it that you've bought this for me?" Eren questions, taking the big plush toy from Levi. "My birthday has past and Christmas is only in two months" he says and Levi shook his head. "It's not for that" he says. "Then what is it for?" Eren questions. "Valentine's day" Levi replies calmly as if it were the most natural thing.
"Valentine's day? Levi, that was really way back. I would understand if it was a very belated birthday present or even an early Christmas gift but valentine's? that was way, way back" Eren says, "and I thought you didn't like stuff like that anyway? What's the deal?"
"The thought just came to me. I realize that we hadn't spent valentine's together. Well we were together but you were unconscious. I thought you might actually appreciate this. I know you like these sappy-romantic holidays more than you'd like to admit to other people so I went out and bought this. Stop questioning me and accept the fact that I went out of my way for you"
"Levi… you…" Eren trails off. "You're adorable~" Eren coos, placing the teddy back down and jumping into the arms of the unsuspecting blackette who had no choice but to catch Eren. "Why can't you always be like this?~ I love a cute-Levi!" he says, bestowing streams of small pecks on the blackettes cheek. "Stop it you shitty brat. A man does not want to be called cute."
"You call me cute all the time!~" Eren playfully whines. "I change my mind. You're a little demon." Levi says, trying to pry the brunette off of him. "Aw, Levi. You know you think I'm the most cutest, most sexiest thing on earth. You can't deny it. Even now I know you want me" Eren whispers into the blackettes ear, his voice low and sultry. Shivers raked up and down Levi's spine as a small rush of blood was sent down south.
"Are you trying to seduce me?" Levi asks. Eren makes a small little sound that would have been a giggle if it weren't for the small little moan it ended in. "That depends" Eren says, looking into the blackettes eyes with his ocean green ones. "On what?" Levi questions. "On if it's working or not"
"It might be" Levi replies. "Then I'm definitely trying to seduce you" Eren says as he presses himself closer to the blackette. Levi was about to tighten his grip around the brunette but a gruesome image flashed past his eyes, making him pull away from Eren. "No, we can't do this" he says and Eren glares at him.
"Why not?" He growls out,"What's your excuse this time? Not up for it? Too tired? Not feeling well? You've been like this ever since we got back from your fathers funeral. I understand that you were going through some serious grieving but I know for a fact that you want this just as bad as I do." He adds in.
Levi shook his head. "I just don't want to, okay. Don't force me, Eren" he says and the brunette's glare deepened. "I'm not forcing you to do anything! Seriously! What's your problem? Are you just not attracted to me anymore? Is my age bothering you... Is there someone else..."
A short silence passed between them.
"I had a dream that I raped you" Levi says once the silence passed. "And in that same dream you died, because of me." He says, "so excuse me if I'm not feeling as enthusiastic about having sex as you are" he added in. Eren didn't know how to reply. Is that what has been bothering him? "Levi... I don't know what or why you dreamed what you did but reality is far different from a simple dream. Believe me, I know"
Silence.
Eren sighed out. "Levi... It didn't happen... And I'm sure that if it really did happen I would be able to stop you. I'm not as weak as everyone puts me out to be. And even if I can't stop it then I'll just run away. But this is all "if's", Levi. You're not going to do that to me. I know you. If you really do love me like you claim you do then I know that you wouldn't do something like that."
Levi still didn't reply to the brunette. Eren let out yet another sigh. He took Levi's hands into his and looked straight into the man's eyes." Look. I'm here. I'm alive. You haven't done anything. Don't push me away like this, Levi. You know I can't take this. It's worse than anything else you could have ever done to me... Please... I'm right here. I'm alive and I'm going to stay that way for a very long time" Eren says.
"It's not easy Eren. Recovering from something like that is hard. Even though it was all in my head it was still traumatic" Levi says, looking away from the brunette. Eren smiled. He kissed the male on the cheek, earning a slightly confused look from Levi. "I know how traumatic a simple dream can be. But a dream is still a dream. It's nothing but a fantasy created in our minds"
"That was no fantasy" Levi comments. "I know. But still. It was all in your head. The ache you feel from that is curable. I would know. You cured me from all my pain. And that's what I'm supposed to be doing now. It's about time you stop pampering me and let me pamper you" he ends off. "So stop pushing me away, okay?"
Silence fell between them for the umpteenth time since they had started speaking. Eventually Levi just nodded his head and let his tense shoulders relax. "Fine" he says and Eren sighs out in relief. "Good. I thought I was going to have to strap you to the bed and shove feces in your face..."
"That would make my dick shrivel up and die" Levi said blankly. "Ah! There's my Levi!~" Eren exclaims as he pulls the-let's be nice and say "slightly"(1)- shorter male in for a hug. At first Levi didn't return it but after a while he decided that he would pull out the stick that was up his ass and actually bask in the fact that he had his sexy, needy lover pressing himself against him.
Suddenly Levi became very aware of just how much he had been craving sex. Actually he wasn't really craving the sex and rather Eren. The fact that he'd forced himself each time not to do it with the brunette only made matters worse and his sex drive even higher than what it had been before. "Screw it" he said as he pulled the brunette closer to him in a tight, protective hold.
Eren grinned, knowing he had won. He returned the males embrace-well to be honest Levi was actually returning his embrace since he'd been the one to hug him first. His hands were loosely wrapped around the blackettes neck while Levi's held him by his lower back. Their gazes met. Two pairs of eyes, staring each other down. One a radiant ocean green, flilled with lust and assertiveness while the other, a strikingly blue-silver color, filled with lust and resolve.
Not even seconds later and lips were meshed together. The kiss was soft at first, just the gentle press of each others mouths, taking in the feel of the others smooth flesh. Levi was the first to make a move-much like he always did- and parted his lips slightly to trail his tongue against the brunette's bottom lip.
Eren didn't hesitate to part his lips and allow the blackette to slip his tongue into his hot, wet crevice, the smooth muscle rubbing against his in a fluid motion. Eren nearly groaned out at the feeling. Even though he and Levi had been kissing-at least- he felt a rush of excitement pulse through him, making his blood boil. Each time he and Levi kissed it was almost as if he were experiencing it for the first time. It was almost like the feeling a child would get when his or her parents gave them a new toy.
He loved it. He knew that he would never get tired of doing things like this with Levi. Actually, he knew he wouldn't get tired of doing anything with Levi. He would always be whole-heartedly interested in the blackette and whatever he did or said. He loved Levi, which is probably why he knew he could never in a million years become bored or tired of him. Though he didn't quite know how Levi himself felt.
"Do you think you'll ever get bored or tired of me?" Eren asks, breaking the kiss in the process and pulling away so that he could look at the blackette more clearly. Levi's eyebrows knit together in a frown. "Where did that come from?" He asks, his frown dropping and a "are-you-serious?" Look replacing it. Eren shrugged his shoulders. "I don't know. It's just... I was thinking to myself-"
"That's never a good thing" Levi interjects, earning a playful hit from the brunette. "Shut up. Even I can think about serious things" he says, pouting. Levi just shook his head, a small smile at his lips. "Continue then" he says, urging the younger to finish his sentence. "Well. I just thought that getting bored or tired of you would probably never happen. Each day is a new experience and I'm happy that I get to experience it with you." Eren says, "but I don't know how you feel about something like this"
"You're far too young to be thinking like this" Levi says, shaking his head at the brunette. Eren glares at him. "I am not. When my father was alive he used to tell me all the time that it didn't matter how old you were when you fall in-love because in the end what really matters is if you yourself know what you really feel and if you yourself believe that it's real despite others telling you it's not and I'm pretty sure that what I feel is 110 % real. Even if people tell me I'm too young to know what love is I won't listen to them. I'm right and they are also probably right (2)"
"Well that's some paradox... And contradictory on your part" Levi comments. Eren just growls playfully at the blackette. "You know what I mean. Now. Answer my question, jackass" he commands. Levi sighs out. I don't know how to answer that question. He thinks to himself. He had never really thought about that before. Now that the subject was being brought to life it was hard giving the brunette a thought out answer. Well, here goes nothing.
"I think I'm already tired of you" the blackette says honestly. A hurt expression befalls Erens face as he lets out a soft little "oh". He bowed his head and looked at the floor, tears welling up in his eyes. His chest suddenly felt like it was being crushed by a heavy boulder. So he's tired of me... He thought to himself.
"I mean that in a good way, Eren" Levi says, "Just because something sounds bad it doesn't mean it really is" he adds in, extending a hand to cup the brunettes rosy cheeks. Eren looked up again, laying his tearful gaze on the blackette. "How is that a good thing, Levi?" he asked, his voice breaking slightly towards the end.
Levi felt something in his chest squeeze uncomfortably at the look Eren gave him and at the way he trembled over his own words. Maybe I shouldn't have said it like that… Levi thought to himself (3). He sighed out. "It's a good type of tired. It's like when you're reading a book late at night. You're tired and it's hard to keep your eyes open but you can't help it because you want to get to the next part and stay up despite being exhausted"
"So in other words you just want to see what happens next?" Eren asked, his voice shaky. "Not really" he says, "It's not just about getting to the next part. It really depends on what you're reading. I only put the effort into a book that's really captured my attention. So even when the book's done I'll still have it on my mind"
"What if that book starts fading from your memory?" Eren asked, his eyes puffy and red from holding in his tears. "Then I'll just read it over again and again" Levi replied, his thumb gently caressing the brunettes cheek. "But if you read that book again and again you'll get bored of it." Eren says.
"I'll never get bored of you, Eren. But getting tired is inevitable. After all, you are a handful. But you're definitely one I don't mind" Levi says, a soft smile at his lips. "Stop bringing up these weird topics when we're doing something like this. It's awkward" he adds in. Eren smiles sheepishly. "Sorry... Sometimes my mind wanders too far"
"Stop letting it wander. You're going to lose it" the blackette says. Eren just smiles goofily at him. "It's fine, you'll help me find it again" he says, winking at the blackette. "And if it's damaged in any way I'll trust you to put it back together" he adds in, wrapping his arms around the blackettes neck yet again and pulling him close.
"But you know, you also need to stop letting your mind drift to such negative things. And stop worrying about hurting me. I don't think you'll really get it right in any case. And even if you do I will always forgive you." He says, smiling gently at the male. "What if it's something unforgivable?"
"I'll still forgive you" the brunette replies. Levi shakes his head at him. "You're one stubborn brat, you know?" he says and Eren grins. "I know. But that's fine. You seem to like my brattiness anyway so there's no real issue. Unless you don't like it well then I thi-" before Eren could finish his sentence he was rudely-or not rudely- interrupted by Levi pressing their lips together.
"Stop speaking. You're going to ruin the moment" he says and Eren nods his head sheepishly. "R-right" he says. "Hey, if we're going to be having sex can we do it in your room? I just cleaned my sheets" the brunette says. Levi tilts his head questioningly at the brunette. "Since when have you cared about your sheets getting dirty?"
"Since I always have to clean and re-clean them. It's irritating you know" he says and Levi smirks. "Now you know my pain of cleaning up after you" he says, "and what about my sheets?" he questions. Eren shrugs. "I don't know. I was going to clean them tomorrow anyway. Besides. You can sleep by me tonight… I don't know why you haven't been anyway…"
"Because I was trying to not jump you" the blackette says blankly. "And besides. If you were going to wash my sheets tomorrow then there's no point in doing it there because you can still just wash your bedding as well. It's no big deal" he adds in. Eren groans out. "This is too troublesome."
"Well, deal with it" the blackette says. "And I told you to stop speaking. Do you want me to punish you?" he questions, making the brunette blush. Well, I don't think the type of punishment he gives me will be as torturous as the Dream Levi's was. He thinks to himself. Still, torture is torture.
"And what if I do?" he questions. "Then you won't get any. It's no fun punishing someone who actually wants to be tortured." Levi says and Eren pouts. "No fair. I was hoping you'd bend me over and spank me each time I did something wrong" he says, "not that I'll get anything wrong in any case"
"Getting a little too confident there, Brat" Levi says, "We'll have to knock some of that out of you" he adds in as he picks the brunette, wrapping the youngers legs around his waist and walking forward. Eren had to hold onto the mails shoulders to stop him from falling over and hurting his back-because heavens knows he was already going to have Levi do that for him so he didn't need to add to it.
"You know. Your dog has been watching us the whole time… staring at us with those creepy eyes of his…" Levi comments, stopping in front of the brunette's bed. Eren turns around slightly-trying not to break his spine in the process- and looks over at the spot DL had been laying on moments ago.
Eren's eyes widened in pure horror. There the dog was, staring at the both of them, while he stood with the brunettes pillow beneath him, mouth open, tongue out and his breathing coming out ragged. His tail was swatting the air-and the bed- and his hips were moving back and forth. "Is… is he humping my pillow…?"
"It seems like it" Levi says, "Well, my room it is then" he adds in as he turns around and starts walking out the room. Eren was too flabbergasted to even express his happiness at not having to mess his sheets up-though he guessed that now he would need to clean them anyway. I think it's time we get DL neutered…
"Levi… I think I just turned into a woman looking at that…" the brunette says as Levi walks down the flight of stairs that led to the main passage. "Whoever said having an audience watch you would be more exciting must have been smoking crack" he adds in and Levi shakes his head at the brunette.
"I'm pretty sure they meant a human audience." Levi says and Eren just shivers. "Well that doesn't sound very pleasant either. I'd be too fucking embarrassed to feel excitement" he says. "Well, it's not like we've had an audience before so you won't be able to tell. Well, it's not like I want someone watching us anyway. Only I'm allowed to see you while in a state of pure pleasure"
"W-whatever. It's not like I'll let other people see me anyway. You're the only one I want doing stuff like that to me" Eren says. By now they were already in Levi's room. The blackette placed the brunette down on the bed; pressing Eren's back flat against the soft surface while he hovered over him, one leg between the brunette's legs while the other was placed next to Eren's one side, keeping him captive.
"You talk too much" Levi says as he lowers his head so that their lips were just inches apart. Their breaths mingled, causing both males eyes to gloss over with anticipation. Eren waited for the blackette to press his lips against his but he never did. Instead he pulled away and sat up.
"Le…vi…" Eren trails off, his words dying out in his throat as he watches the blackette loosen his tie-yes he was wearing a tie- and unbutton the first few buttons on his shirt. "Let's try something else" he says and Eren didn't know what he was more surprised about; the fact that Levi was actually wanting to do something different-though it wasn't like they never spiced things up anyway- or the fact that he was actually blushing. Like blushing to the point where even his ears were covered in a rosy-red shade.
Who knew he could look so… cute… Eren thinks to himself as he gets up into a sitting position. "W-what do you have in mind?" he questions, suddenly feeling very nervous. Levi didn't answer. Instead he looked away, his cheeks darkening. I've never seen him like this…? Is he embarrassed or is he just being shy… which is it" Levi, we can't exactly move to the next point if you don't tell me what you want? And I swear if it's anything creepy-"
"I want you to top today"
Silence.
"W-w-w-w-what!?" Eren exclaims, his face suddenly the same color as Levi's. "W-why?" he questions. At first Levi stayed silent but eventually opened his mouth to speak. "Because I'm feeling audacious for some reason" he says bluntly, "And don't complain. I know you've been having dirty thoughts about being the dominant one."
"I-I'm not complaining… it's just weird… I've always been the one on the bottom and you've said before that you didn't want to be the one receiving… so this is a little bit of a shock…" he says. Levi shrugs. "Even I've thought about this… it won't hurt to try just once…" he says, "And it's not like you won't like it."
"B-but what about you?" Eren questions. "What about me?" Levi replies, staring blankly at the brunette. "Will you like it?" he asks, giving the brunette a worried look. Levi just shrugs-again. "We'll have to find out. You seem to enjoy bottoming so why should I be any different. And besides, we're only doing this once"
"What if you like it so much you want to try it again" Eren questions, raising a brow at him. "We're doing this once, Eren. I'm not going to inflate my male pride any more than I already am about to" he says as he pulls his shirt and tie off, throwing the garments down on the floor. "You don't have to, you know. I'm fine with bottoming… in fact I prefer it…" mainly because I don't know the first thing about doing that.
"Eren, you should know by now that when I give you the opportunity to dominate me, you should take it without questions" Levi growls, "So shut up and rule me" he adds in. Eren wasn't going to deny the fact that the thought of him dominating Levi didn't send blood rushing down south.
He didn't mind topping, but he did prefer being the one on the bottom. Of course Levi was right. When he gave you the chance to make him all wet and sticky you take it. And Eren didn't mind seeing a flushed, drooling Levi, begging for him to go deeper, faster, to fill him up. okay… maybe I have been wanting to top him just once…
"F-fine…" he says awkwardly. How do I even initiate something like this? He questions himself mentally. He knew what he was supposed to do, but he just didn't know how to get from this point to that one. It was like writing an English essay in class. You knew what you wanted to write but you just didn't know how to go about writing it.
Think about what Levi does during situations like this. He thinks to himself, remembering all the times they've done it while Levi topped. Well… everything always starts with a kiss… let's try that then… wait… maybe we should switch out current positions… oh my gosh I don't know what I'm doing…
Luckily Levi could see the brunettes inner turmoil and decided he would start things off. "Can't even trust a brat like you to know how to do something like this" he growls out playfully before pushing the brunette back down and pressing their lips together in a soft, passionate kiss. He figured Eren would be able to take the lead from there.
At first the brunette had been pretty hesitant but after a while he relaxed. He wrapped his arms around the blackettes waist and pulls him closer. He took the initiative and parted his lips, letting his tongue slip out to trail the blackettes bottom lip. Levi didn't hesitate to part his lips and allow Eren's wet muscle slither into his hot, wet mouth.
There wasn't anything different about the kiss. Eren had taken the lead while kissing many times. But for some reason he felt more in control. It was as if he was the one with all the power while Levi surrendered to him. It was a new, odd feeling but one he certainly didn't mind. It was quite pleasant despite being odd.
Eren and Levi's tongues rolled over each other, massaging their smooth muscles together, creating a slow, salacious rhythm. Slowly the brunette let himself become more comfortable with having all the reins. His hands slowly creeped from around Levi's waist and started gently trailing against Levi's upper body, his fingers grazing the skin gently, making the older male shiver as his pale skin filled with goose bumps.
Levi couldn't believe he was allowing Eren to top him. Well, it's not like I haven't ever thought about it… He thinks to himself. He had never thought that he would even really bring up the subject of Eren topping but now that he had and now that it was really happening he was suddenly feeling a series of different things.
He was excited, anxious, scared-yes, scared. His ass was about to be penetrated for the first time so he was allowed to be scared-, eager and somehow even more aroused. He wouldn't admit it out loud but being topped by Eren, and only Eren, really turned him on. Of course he would only do this once. Even if he liked it. He preferred taking rather than being taken much more. He was sure Eren felt the same.
Levi had been so immersed in his thoughts he failed to realize that Eren had broken their kiss and was slowly getting up into a sitting position, making the blackette sit on his laps, his knees on either side of him. He did however realize the change when he felt something warm and wet travel from the base of his neck right up to the lobe of his ear.
"You're going to have to pay attention if you want this to be pleasant, Levi" he whispers into Levi's ear, his voice low and somehow enticing, making the blackette shiver. Levi just had a feeling that today they would see completely different sides of each other, sides they would like to keep hidden from anyone other than themselves.
"I try my best as long as you do too" Levi says and Eren chuckles, his warm breath tickling the blackettes ear and making him shiver yet again. "Of course." he says and the next thing Levi knew was that his back was being pressed against the mattress and Eren was the one on top of him.
He was about to question the brunette but was interrupted by Eren pressing their lips together. The brunette didn't waste any time and quickly rolled his tongue across Levi's bottom lip. Levi didn't deny him access and opened his mouth. Eren's tongue slipped in, exploring the blackettes wet cavern before rolling his and Levi's tongues together.
Their tongues massaged each other. It wasn't as slow and passionate as it had been earlier. Now it was rough, a bout of lust and anticipation. While they kissed, slowing making the other short of breath and dizzy for more, Eren's wondrous hands explored the spans of open skin below him, gently rubbing the soft surface with the tips of his fingers.
His fingers lightly brushed an exposed nipple, the action making Levi shiver under him. Eren broke their kiss and smirked down at the blackette. "You know, Levi. I never thought you would be the one to submit but I'm not going to give it any more thought and for now…" he trails off. "For now?" Levi questions.
"Well… you've always been the cool one. You never make mistakes, you never get embarrassed and you're always firm in tough situations. I know there's no such thing as perfect but if there were I'm sure you'd be it… but right now while I have the upper hand I'm going to make all of that crumble. Just this once I want you to let yourself go, just for me"
Levi didn't reply to the brunette. He didn't know how to. So instead of verbally reply he instead decided to answer through physical means by pulling the brunette down for a soft kiss. He felt odd. He felt… like a female. "Is it normal to feel so…"
"Vulnerable? Yes. It's completely normal" Eren husks out, pressing his lips against the blackettes neck and kissing it softly. "It's inevitable" he says against the males neck. "What is?" Levi questions as he turns his head to give the brunette better access without out even thinking of doing so. He could feel Eren smiling against his skin.
"Feeling completely powerless" he says before sucking in some of Levi's soft, milky skin into his mouth. Well, at least it's always like that with me… but I think you'll pretty much be the same. You may keep it all in at first but I know you'll break somewhere along the line. He thought to himself.
"You're going to have to prove that true then" Levi says, "You should know. I'm not easy to break" he adds in. Of course I know that. But even you have a breaking point. You're human, after all. Eren thinks mentally, too preoccupied with sucking the blackettes soft flesh to actually answer.
Levi had to admit that Eren always had his ways with words. He knew how to get someone's blood pumping in pure anticipation. He knew that Eren would probably manage to break him, make him grovel. They hadn't started doing anything and he was already feeling an immense pressure building up in his lower abdomen. He didn't know if it was because they hadn't had sex for two months or if it was because his body was just far too sensitive. He had a feeling it was the latter.
He never thought his body would be so sensitive. Of course he'd never really had the opportunity to find out. He was always the one making Eren's body tremble with need but now it seemed that Eren was going to be doing that to him instead. He didn't even think he was capable of simply begging for someone but hey, you learn something new each day.
Levi's train of thought had been interrupted by something wet and warm engulfing one of his suddenly oversensitive nipples. He had to stop himself from gasping out at the new sensation. He looked down to see Eren had latched his mouth onto the sensitive bud. He couldn't stop himself from groaning out.
He didn't know how to describe the new feeling. It wasn't bad. But it still made him feel odd. He couldn't stop his body from stiffening. Eren had noticed as well. He let the bud out his mouth and moved back up to place a kiss on the male's cheek. "I told you to let yourself go. Stop being so wooden"
Levi didn't reply. That was fine. Eren knew that it must have been difficult really expressing yourself through such a change. When you're used to being one thing-which in Levi's case is dominant- being another thing-submissive- was a little difficult. Levi must have been feeling pretty embarrassed being so exposed-well he wasn't really "exposed" but you get what I mean.
Eren could understand. He too was feeling overcome. He was excited, nervous and somewhat scared. He was used to having Levi take the reins but now that it was him taking them he didn't really know how to comprehend the feelings he felt. Well, he could comprehend them. He just didn't know how to respond to them.
Which was why he was choosing not to. This time he would just let things be. He would allow time to flow, along with his actions. Today was about making Levi feel just as good as he normally did. He would not be overcome with any silly emotions such as fear and nervousness. Ah… well that's easier said than done I suppose… I still know absolutely nothing about doing this…
This time it was Eren who had his thoughts interrupted by Levi suddenly wrapping his arms loosely around his neck and pulling him closer. "Just so you know, once we've finished this we're having a round two so I can claim back my male-pride" he whispers into the brunettes ear, "and I promise you that I won't be very gentle"
Eren chuckled out. "I don't doubt that you won't be" he says, "But really, why am I the one that's going to get punished? You're the one that wanted to do this" Eren points out, breaking from the male's hold and sitting up. Levi propped himself up on his elbows, giving the male a somewhat bored look. "I feel like you're somewhat to blame for this"
"And why is that?" Eren questions. Levi smirks. Well, if you want me to let myself go then I will. Verbally and physically. Levi thought to himself before answering the male. "You've just grown so much in the past year and a half… it's kinda hard not wanting you to take the reins for once" he says and Eren blushes. He knew exactly what the blackette was hinting at.
"You're going to have to learn the extent of your own words" Eren says and Levi smiles. "In that case, please teach me, Eren-sensei." Levi hums out and Eren gulped. Well, at least he's not being so stiff. Still… he's becoming a little… audacious… not that I'm complaining. Eren thinks to himself. Well, better get on with it then.
Eren pressed his lips against Levi's lightly before trailing back down to the nipple he had previously been sucking on. Levi's hands were in his hair, gently pulling the strands in both anticipation and nervousness. Eren stared down at Levi's taut buds. They were flushed, contrasting greatly with the blackettes milky skin. Now that Eren thought about it he had alway though Levi wouldn't like having his nipples played with. Dream Levi had liked it but he couldn't be too sure about real Levi.
Of course he now knew that Levi indeed liked his nipples being teased. He tried to hide it, Eren could tell. But Eren also knew him. His body language gave it away. The brunette smiled before taking one of the buds between his teeth, grinding them slightly, while the free nip was twisted and turned by his free hand. Levi's immediate reaction was very subtle. All he did was tighten his grip around Eren's hair slightly and his body tensed up slightly.
Eren fought back a smirk-knowing that Levi was enjoying the treatment- and instead took the bud into his mouth completely. He sucked on it, imitating what he had done in his dream. The only way he would really get this right was if he did what Levi would do to him or what his dream self had done to Levi. Well, both were pretty much the same- apart from the fact that even in his dreams he was receiving rather than giving.
Saking his thoughts from his head he focused on what he was supposed to be doing-which was basically make Levi feel the same amount of pleasure, if not maybe more, that Levi normally made him feel. Of course he knew that since this would be technically Levi's first time he would have to be a little bit gentle. He knew the blackette wasn't one for pain-much like he had been when he lost his virginity to Levi. (Or is it more appropriate to say when Levi lost his virginity to Eren?)
He found it funny. In a way they were losing both their virginities to each other (4). It was kinda romantic in a sense. "You know, Eren. By now I would have already have you begging for me to fuck you senseless." Levi comments, pulling Eren from his train of thought. "Well sorry, I just don't have the skill you do" Eren jokes.
"Stop speaking and get to making me feel good. If you keep getting distracted like this I'm going to have to drop this whole thing and fuck you into next week" Levi says and Eren shakes his head. "You're impossible."
"Just shut up and continue, shitty brat" the blackette growls out. Eren chuckles but obligues. He goes back to sucking on the males nipple while his one hand played with the other. He still found it odd being the one to do this but he wasn't about to question it. He was just going to focus on the male beneath him and making him feel pleasure.
With this thought another came to mind. Well, time to kill two birds with one stone. He thought to himsel as he let the blackettes nipple slip out his mouth yet again. He got up into a sitting position. He looked down at the blackette with thoughtful eyes. I think we'll be needing some lube... Don't want to make this too unpleasant for him. Eren thought to himself.
He got off the blackette and moved over to one of the bedside tables. He opened the drawer and fished through it's contents. He pulled out a condom, blushing because he knew this time he would be putting it on. "Damnit... We're out of lube..." He cursed as he closed the drawer and looked over at Levi. "Why didn't you buy more?" He questions.
"Because we weren't having sex?" He replies. "And whose fault was that?" Eren retorts, groaning out. "I think there might be some in my room. I'll go get it quickly..." The brunette says as he gets up and quickly runs out the room, leaving Levi alone momentarily.
Levi couldn't help but think things were going far too slowly. He knew that they probably weren't really but he just felt like time was being an utter bitch to him. The short moments it took for Eren to actually come back into the room felt like a lifetime to him. He was so on edge about what they were about to do he almost felt sick to his stomach. But he knew it was a good type of sickness. It was like when you have a project to hand in and you've done jack-shit but end up being sick to go to school the day you need to give it to your teacher and get away scott free.
Of course he was going to ignore his unease. Mainly because, despite Eren being Eren, he knew he was in good hands.
"Levi, you seriously need to restock your things when they're done" the brunette says once he enters the room, a smallish bottle in hand. "What do you eve use to masterbate? Spit and cream?" He questions and Levi gives him a blank look. "Masterbating is for perverted teens" he says and this time it was Eren who gave him a blank look. "You're still nineteen"
"And your point is?" Levi questions. "You're still a perverted teenager." Eren retorts. "Yes, but I don't need to masterbate" Levi smirks, "I have you to fulfil all my sexual needs" he says and Eren rolls his eyes. "I swear you're not human. I think even married men masterbate... Though... That thought is quite scary... Just think about it... Our fathers masterbated..."
"Eren... You make it sound like they did it together..." Levi says. "Well they were good friends... Wouldn't surprise me if they "experimented" with each other when they were young and fresh" Eren comments. "You're killing the mood, Eren... Stop talking about that now... It's really disturbing." Levi says and Eren chuckles. "Sure thing, boss" he says as he walks back over to the bed, climbing on top of it.
"Well... Let's do this then" he says as he slowly starts taking the blackettes pants off. Once the pants were discarded Eren then took off Levi's underpants, letting his erect member free from it's contraints. Levi shivered at the cool air that touched his naked flesh. Despite the cool breeze he could still feel his body heat up with anticipation. He guessed that if he really wanted to feel nervous now would probably be the best time.
"Yeah. Let's do this" he says as he let's his head fall back on the pillow. He knew that with what was about to come next it would be best if he stayed calm and relaxed. Now, he wasn't exactly calm but he wasn't rigid either. He would be able to stay calm- for now at least.
Eren was also trying his hardest to stay calm. He wanted this to be as pleasant for Levi as it normally is for him. But he knew that, since it's Levi's first time, pain would be inevitable. There probably won't be that much of it, but still. It always hurt the first time. He would know. Well, he enjoyed the pain he got during his first time far too much so using his as an example was maybe not a bright idea.
Sighing out, Eren spread the blackettes legs apart and placed himself between them. He looked down at Levi's flushed erection. It was already leaking with precum. "You seem to be liking this more than you put on" he comments. Levi doesn't say anything. Of course I'm enjoying this, idiot. I wouldn't have suggested we do this if I knew I wouldn't enjoy it… "Stop pointing out the obvious and get done with it"
Eren pouted at the blackette. "You make it sound so troublesome to do this but look at you" as he says this his hands wrapped around Levi's erection, the act making the blackettes breathe hitch in his throat. Eren grinned at the reaction before pushing himself back slightly an bending over, his face right in front of Levi's junk.
He blew hot air onto the tip of Levi's member, the action making the blackette shiver as goose bumps formed on his skin. Eren took that as a good sign- well; it never was a bad sign with Levi anyway. He took the tip of the blackettes erection into his mouth, giving it a harsh suck, before taking in the rest of the hard member.
When Levi felt his manhood engulfed in a wet heat his eyes clenched shut as the pulsating feeling he previously felt down in is crotch area seemed to intensify, along with the warmth he felt in the pit of his stomach. He felt somewhat ashamed to be reacting so quickly to such stimulus. Now he knew why Eren was always so embarrassed during foreplay. Well, it wasn't like he never got affected during it anyway. But now he was maybe a little too affected by it.
Sighing out, his hands instinctively nested themselves in Eren messy mop of brown hair, pulling on the strands slightly in reply to what the brunette was doing to his manhood with his mouth. While Eren sucked on the blackette's erection his hands worked on doing something completely different. Which was opening the small bottle of lube and letting some of the liquid out onto his fingers, making them nice and slick.
Before he got to actually using his perfectly slicked fingers, he first hollowed his cheeks around Levi's member before sucking them back down on it again, causing perfect friction. He did this one more time before slowly pulling the member out of his mouth. He stopped right by the head, sucking on it while his lube slicked fingers rubbed the male's perineum. (5)
Levi's hips bucked up into the wet heat, trying to get more of it around his pulsating member. Of course Eren quickly held the males hips down with his free hand so that he would not choke on the man's dick. Well, he didn't have much of a gag reflex but he still didn't want the man fucking his mouth.
His slicked fingers moved from Levi's perineum and down to the male's twitching hole. He suddenly felt extremely curious. He finally let Levi's erection out of his mouth and looked at the male. Levi's face was somewhat flushed and his body was covered in a thin sheen of sweat. His lips were parted, breathing ragged and his eyes were clenched shut. His hands were still in Eren's hair, gripping onto the strands painfully tight.
The brunette sighed out. Curiosity killed the cat or in my case, curiosity will kill me. He thought to himself as he did what he never thought he would ever be able to- which was turn Levi around and make him stand on all fours. He suddenly had a "Now who's the bitch?" moment as he spread the males ass cheeks.
"Wh…what are you doing, shitty brat?" Levi questioned, turning his head slightly to look at the brunette. "I guess telling you would be somewhat stupid. You'll find out anyway" he sighs out. Levi gives him a very skeptic look. "I don't trust you" he says and Eren pouts. "That's a hurtful thing to say, Levi. You can trust me. I swear I won't do anything you won't like"
Before Levi could even reply the brunette had grabbed a hold of Levi's erection and started pumping it in his hand, rendering the blackette speechless- well he wasn't speechless. There were still sounds coming out his mouth, they just weren't very understandable or nice.
Eren looked down at the males spread cheeks, his face heating up. Levi's hole was twitching and all wet. Eren found it somewhat cute, but only because it was Levi's butt. If it were anyone else's he might have puked and then kicked their ass away from him. Or kick their ass away and then puke. Either worked.
Shaking that thought from his head he let his slicked fingers trace the males entrance. Levi's hold clenched up, making Eren cringe. "Levi… you're going to have to relax… my fingers will never go in if you clench so much…" he says and Levi doesn't say anything. He didn't trust his voice.
It wasn't like having his dick stroked by Eren was anything new to him but he felt extremely overwhelmed. Maybe it had to do with the position he was in and the fact that he felt all his power and control slipping through his fingers. His mind was starting to become hazy. He could barely focus on anything other than what Eren's fingers and hand was doing to him.
The brunette could tell that Levi probably would last. He probably would either. Of course he was going to hold it until he couldn't anymore.
Now to actually get rid of that curiosity… he thought to himself as he took in a deep breath and then expelled it before bent forward to place a kiss against the soft milky skin just above the blackette's butt. He kissed it once more, this time more soft and gently, almost lovingly, before he travelled his lips lower. (We all know what this bugger is about to do)
Levi was far too out of it to even comprehend what the brunette was doing but when he felt something wet and warm rub against his hole he was quick to grasp just what Eren was doing. "E-E-Eren! That's dirty!" he exclaimed as he twisted his neck around slightly to glare at the brunette. His glare lost its effect. His face was far too flushed. It made him look like he was pouting rather than glaring.
Eren hummed out against the male's twitching hole. "You seem to like it though. And besides, I know you're clean so it's fine." He replies before going back to pressing his wet muscle against the male's entrance. He was surprised that it didn't taste weird like he thought it would. It was somewhat sweet in a sense (6). That could have been from the lube his fingers rubbed against it before as well. Either way it was quite pleasant.
Levi seemed to like it as well. He was gripping onto the bed sheets beneath him, his head down while vulgar sounds came out his mouth. Eren wondered if he ever acted like this. If he did then he could understand why Levi was always so impatient with him. Seeing your lover all sweaty and moaning with need just pushed you more than anything else.
Knowing that you were the reason that your lover was acting this way pushed you even more. Which is probably why Eren was starting to become impatient. He didn't want to rush things, but if they went anymore slower he felt he was going to explode.
Eren couldn't really wait any longer and he was sure Levi felt the same. And it was because of this reason he felt it necessary to start prepping Levi. His lubed up fingers poked and prodded at the males hole before a lone finger pushed passed the ring of muscles and slipped inside of Levi's virgin hole. The saliva from his tongue only added to the lubrication and made things a lot more easier-on him and Levi.
The blackettes grip on the sheets tighten. Eren was sure he heard the sound of them ripping. Of course he ignored it in favor of preparing Levi. It was odd doing this. It wasn't bad but it certainly wasn't something he could get used to.
Eren lifted his head up and looked over at the back of Levi's head-because it was all he could really see to be honest. Levi's hair was damp with sweat and his upper body was almost all the way down -meaning he pretty much looked like he was propping his ass up at Eren. Eren wondered what was going through Levi's head at this point.
Probably something along the lines of-
"E-eren, if you don't hurry u-up, I'm g-going to kill you" Levi interrupts him before he could finish that train of thought. Eren sighed out. "I don't doubt that you will" he says before he pushes in a second finger. This time it wasn't as easy as the first had been. Levi's inner walls clenched down on his finger violently, trying to push them out, while his body stiffened.
"If it hurts, tell me" Eren says and Levi scoffs. "Just shut up and get on with it" he growls out- or at least tried to. It came out sounding more like a whimper than a growl. Eren wondered if he would be able to see this side of Levi again. Probably not. He thought to himself, smiling. Not that I mind.
When Eren could feel the blackette relaxing and loosening up a bit he added in a third finger, trying to get the male used to the intrusion as quick as possible but also trying not to rush it. He thought their pace was good, but it still felt like things were taking too long. Does Levi normally feel like this? If so I should probably give him more credit when it comes to sex…
After a few more moments of prepping Levi Eren eventually pulled his fingers out. He quickly pulled his pants off along with his underwear and pulled up the condom, taking it out it's wrapper and then pulling it on his engorged member. "I'm sorry, Levi. I can't wait any longer" he says as he turns the male over and slides between his legs. Levi just shook his head at the brunette. "It's fine. Just hurry up" he says as he loosely wraps his arms around Eren's neck for support.
"This is such a woman position" he commented and Eren chuckled. "Now you know how I feel each time we have sex" Eren replies, having already lined his member up with Levi's stretched-well somewhat stretched- hole, "Being bottom is extremely embarrassing." He says. Levi gives a very sarcastic look. "You don't say" he says crudely, trying to hide the fact that he was actually quite nervous. Eren just chuckles before leaning his head down and kissing the blackettes forehead. "Well, the sooner we get this done the sooner you can claim back some of your male pride"
"You would like that, wouldn't you?" Levi questions. "I actually would. Being top is too troublesome. I don't know how you can do this all the time" Eren replies. Levi smiles. "It takes pure patience and control to be able to do this. Well, you've actually done a pretty good job up unti-" before Levi could even finish his sentence the brunette had started pushing his erect member-without warning- into the blackette's hole.
Levi's eyes widened as his nails dug into the back of Eren's neck, drawing blood. "A-asshole! Warn me next time you idiot!" he exclaims, his eyes clenching shut as he deals with the sudden pain of being stretched on a different level. Eren was barely even all the way in and he was already panting. At least now I can say I know what a virgin feels like. I think.
"Sorry" he apologizes, "We probably would have gotten nowhere if we carried on speaking. Just bear with it. It will feel good, I promise" he adds in. Levi grinds his teeth. "You still could have warned me. Not even I'm this cruel" he almost whines out. "I beg to differ. You've gone in without any warning many times"
"Well you like the pain so shut up" he says, looking away from the brunette. Eren smiles down at the blackette. He's really cute like this. He thought to himself as he finally buried himself completely into the blackettes wet heat. He didn't move, knowing that he should probably give Levi some time to adjust to the intrusion. He wasn't that cruel.
A silence fell between them as they waited for the blackette to adjust. Eren wanted nothing more than to buck up into that tight, wet heat, but he also didn't want to hurt Levi. He knew that their first time was somewhat messed up- yet still romantic in a sense- but he wanted this time-and yes, this definitely counted as a first time- to be even better than that.
Eren was pulled from his thoughts by Levi wiggling his hips, the action making both males moan out. "I suppose you can move now" the blackette says breathlessly. Eren nods his head before doing as instructed to and pulling his hips backward before rocking them forwards again. Although Levi seemed pretty relaxed Eren found it pretty difficult to move. Of course he wasn't going to complain. The tightness just made better friction, which obviously stimulated him more.
Levi seemed to be liking it as well. His head was pulled back while his lips were parted, his breathing ragged. "I-is it good?" Eren asks. Levi's eyes flutter open-you know, like a woman's will in anime when she hears her name being called and then there are all these sparkles around her? Like that, cuz Levi is just majestic.
"J-just… s-top being so fucking gently. You're making me seem like a woman" he says and Eren smiles. "II was just trying to make this pleasant for you" he says and Levi scoffs. "It is pleasant. Now do what I say or else I won't prepare you when I fuck you into oblivion (7)"
"Somehow that doesn't scare me as much as it probably should have… maybe it's because you're far too adorable right now to take seriously…" the brunette says and Levi gives him one of those Mikasa-es-sucasa death glares. "I'm fucking serious, prick" he glowers out.
"Alright, fine. Please go back to being adorable" Eren says as he speeds up his pace, first adjusting his angle so that he could go in much easier. He was actually surprised at how natural this was to him. Must be instinct. He thought to himself.
They stayed like that for a while with Levi telling Eren to go faster, or whatever, every now and then and the brunette obeying him each time. One particular thrust Eren made hit against a certain bundle of nerves one would think didn't exist since it was the ever-uptight Levi. The blackette of course reacted immediately to having his prostate pressed against.
His toes curled and his head fell backwards while a very lewd sounding moan escaped his parted lips. "Oh god" he cried out, "Please… pleas do that again" he pleads and Eren happily oblique's. Soon Eren had the blackette mewling for more. Eren didn't know if he was supposed to be turned on or slightly scared with the blackettes reaction.
So this is what happens when Levi let's himself go? I think I like it. He thinks to himself. His thrusts were starting to become sloppy and misdirected. He knew he probably wouldn't last longer. Levi too.
He let one of his hands slither between their bodies to grab a hold of Levi's long forgotten erection and started pumping it in time with each thrust he made. Not even minutes later and did both males release their built up loads, Levi's on their stomachs and Eren's obviously in the condom.
Eren's pulled out of the blackette and collapsed onto the him as both males tried to catch their breathes and recover from their totally amazing orgasms.
When they had finally recovered Levi's arms wrapped around Eren's waist and pulled him closer. Eren returned the embrace- well kinda. They stayed like that for a few short moments before Levi finally spoke up. "Well, that was great and all but I think it's my turn now" he says as he flipped them over.
"W-what? You were serious! Aren't you sore from just doing that for the first time?!" Eren exclaims. Levi smirked at him. "Don't underestimate me, Eren. I could even fuck you with both my legs broken if I tried" he said and Eren sweat-dropped.
The demon's back… someone please help me.
1: To be honest Levi isn't that short. Sure he is ten centimetres shorter than Eren but that doesn't mean that Eren needs to break his back bending just to kiss-or do anything really- Levi. The same goes for when Levi want's to kiss Eren. He probably will need to give himself a bit of a height boost but I don't think he needs a chair.
2: what he means here could either be: they are right and that there is a small-very small- possibility that he might not really know what love is. It could also mean : "Yes, they are right. About my age. I'm young but that doesn't mean I don't know what love is because age doesn't determine that"- personally that's how I feel. Just because we're you doesn't mean we don't know the true meaning of love.
3: I bet everyone was like "No shit, hey" when Levi thought this. \
4: well. Technically they have two virginities. Actual virginity (where they actually penetrate something I suppose haven't penetrated something) and then their ass virginity. (I don't need to explain this.
5: In males it's the spans of skin between the balls and anus. Pretty sensitive. Or so I've heard.
6: well… this can only be in fiction… in real life… nope. Your ass will not smell or taste like rainbows in real life. Unless you are permanently spraying it with air freshener.
7: Even I choked at writing this. I didn't know if it was supposed to be sexy or threatening. Or both.
Well this chapter was interesting. Let me just say that I really do prefer it when Levi tops… but let's be honest here… Eren would make one sexy Seme and Levi would just be so freaking adorably sexy as an Uke. So that is probably why I made him bottom in the chapter. Hope it was okay. If you didn't like it well, sorry, not sorry. Besides I'll only write Levi bottoming once. Although I have been thinking about writing a fic where Levi is the uncontrollable criminal and Eren's a cop and then Eren obviously controls him and it would be called something like "Dictation" or "Make me Weep" or "Take Over Me". Who want's that?
Well you know I got to a point in this chapter where I just started writing complete crap. Literally. I think I nearly turned this into a crack fic with all the shit I wrote. Obviously it's fixed. Can't torture you guys like that. thought I have a question for you guys. Should I write a crack fic/oneshot? I want to channel my inner comedian.
So, I'm sorry for the long wait. School started up for the year and I've been stumped. I do hope to have a chapter up for you guys in the week still. Chances are that it'll probably be the last for this part of the series. It'll also probably have a year or two time-skip. Well, then again it might not be the last anyway.
So… hope you liked this… sorry if it was crappy. I did try. Lol.
Ciao~