Missing

A/N - So, this is it. There will be dialogue from the s4 finale 'Lucifer Rising' and a few changes to fit with my story. Feedback is much appreiciated!

Warning - Angst. Lots of angst.

Chapter Ten

St Mary's Convent, Ilchester - Night

Lilith walked into the sanctuary, a goblet of blood cradled in her hands. This day had been long foretold, everything she did, everything Azazel did was to lead them to this moment. Finally her father would be free. She placed the goblet on top of the altar and smiled, sensing his presence.

"Sam."

He walked around the corner and stood at the end of the corridor, his head low as he looked at her, a small smirk playing on his lips. "Lilith." He began to stalk towards her, his hands clenching into fists by his sides. It was time for her to die and he was going to enjoy hearing her screams. "You sent my brother to hell. You killed Ava."

She turned to face him. "I guess I did, Didn't I?" She shrugged and raised her hand, the door between them slamming shut. "That was a shame. I did like her." She murmured to herself, stepping down from the altar and fully facing the door, waiting for Sam to enter.

Castiel and Dean appeared suddenly in Chuck's living room, making him look up in surprise.

"Dean? Cas? W...what are you doing here? T...t...this isn't supposed to happen..."

Dean shrugged. "Yeah, well, we're making it up as we go along," he glanced at the computer screen behind him. "Is that..."

Chuck nodded, grabbing a glass and a bottle of whiskey, pouring himself a very large drink. "It is,"

"Did you know?" he asked quietly, pain evident in his voice, the image of her decomposed corpse flashing through his mind. He knew that image would never go away.

Chuck knocked back his drink and poured another. "Not until after...after you..."

Dean nodded and looked away, trying to get a hold on his emotions, taking a shaky breath and cleared his throat before looking back at Chuck. "Where?"

"St Mary's Convent, Ilchester, Maryland."

He frowned. "A convent."

Chuck forgoed the glass and drank straight from the bottle. "Yeah, but you guys aren't supposed to..."

The computer screen started to flicker and the whole house began to shake, bright light appearing through the slats. Chuck stood up. "Aw man! Not again!"

Cas looked around as the entire house shook around them them. "It's the archangel!" He turned to Dean. "I'll hold him off, I'll hold them all off! Just stop Sam!" He touched Dean's forehead and he disappeared.

Chuck stood next to Cas and looked up at him. "You think he can stop him?"

"I hope so."

Dean suddenly appeared outside the convent. "What the..."

He brushed himself off and looked around. "Abandoned convent. Not creepy at all," he mumbled to himself, spotting the car Sam must have stolen to get here. He walked over to it, noticing the trunk had been left open, the demon's body hanging halfway out of it. He sighed when he saw the demon's blood soaked neck. He knew why Sam had taken the demon, his misguided belief that he was meant to kill Lilith. His revenge for sending him to hell, and now, for Ava's death.

"Damn it Sammy," he mumbled, walking over to the convent's entrance. The angels had played them both, encouraging them to save the seals from being broken, knowing that it was making no difference. They wanted Lucifer free. They wanted to bring on the apocalypse.

Hearing raised voices, he kicked the door open and ran into the building, following the voices echoing through the empty corridors.

The doors to the sanctuary flew open and Sam raised his hand, flinging Lilith across the room, and slamming her into the altar. She fell to the ground and looked up at him. He walked closer to her, Ruby staying behind him as he squeezed his hand closed again, smiling at the sound of her cries. "This is for Ava, you bitch."

Dean rushed around the corner, seeing Lilith on the floor against the altar, Sam standing in front of her with his hand raised.

"Damn it," he sighed, rushing towards them. "Sam!"

Ruby turned at the sound of his voice and smirked, raising her own hand to slam shut the doors to the sanctuary.

"Son of a bitch!" He ran up the doors and pounded his fists on them. "Sam!" He knew Ruby was a manipulative bitch and she had Sam right where she wanted him. She had planned this. He had warned Sam over and over again. He should have killed her when he had the chance. He continued to pound his fists on the door, he needed to get in there before his brother did something stupid. "Sam! Sammy!"

Sam walked slowly towards Lilith and smiled. This was it. This was what he had been waiting for since she had sent Dean to hell. "I've been waiting for this for a very long time. Sending Dean to hell, killing Ava...I'm going to make sure you suffer for what you've done."

She smiled up at him. "Then give me your best shot."

He reached out his hand, concentrating all his power solely on Lilith. The power within him was intense, growing with his need to make her pay for everything she did. He could hear his heart beating in his chest...bubump...bubump...bubump...

Lilith convulsed in front of him, trying to catch her breath after every squeeze of his hand, crying out in pain as white light flashed through her. He was enjoying this, being in control, knowing her life was in his hands. Nobody could stop him from killing her.

He lowered his hand slowly, sure he could hear a faint call of his name over the the sound of his beating heart...bubump...bubump...bubump...

He turned to look at the door, a distinct sound of banging and shouting distracting him. "Dean?"

His heartbeat quickened, the thumping in his ears growing even louder, making the sound of shouting even fainter. He frowned. Was it Dean shouting his name? "Dean?" He turned to Ruby, his hand dropping to his side. "Something's wrong..."

Ruby started to scream at him and grabbed his arm, pulling him around towards Lilith. "What are you waiting for?! Now! Sam! Now!"

Lilith started to laugh. "This is all you've got? You turned yourself into a freak for what? Revenge? I'm sorry, but that's honestly adorable."

He turned back to Lilith and raised his arm again. "Shut. Your. Mouth." He put put all his concentration into his power, hurling it at Lilith, watching her convulse as her body glowed and flickered with white light. She gasped one last time, her eyes wide, before falling to the floor.

Sam lowered his hand, the sound of his heartbeat slowing and fading to nothing. She was dead. Finally, she was dead. He turned to look at Ruby, his smile dropping when he saw blood beginning to flow from Lilith's body in a steady stream, forming into what looked like a deliberate pattern. "What the hell?"

Ruby watched the blood in awe, her mouth open. "I can't believe it,"

Sam frowned, confusion clouding his thoughts. "Ruby, what's going on?"

She looked up at him with wide eyes, her mouth curling up into a smile. "You did it. It was a little touch and go there for a while, but...you did it."

His stomach dropped. "What? What...what did I do?"

She looked back at the blood still flowing from Lilith's body, a clear pattern forming on the ground. "You opened the door." She breathed, looking up at him. "And now he's free at last."

Sam took a step back and shook his head in denial. This can't be happening, he thought, refusing to believe it. Killing her was supposed to stop it. to stop Lucifer from getting out of the cage. "No, no, no, he...Lilith...Ava...I stopped her. I killed her!"

"And it is written that the first demon shall be the last seal." She looked back at Lilith's corpse. "And you just bust her open."

Sam's hands flew to his head. No, no, no, no, no, this can't be happening. The last year...drinking demon blood...Ava missing then finding her body... "Oh my god."

Ruby let out a laugh. "Guess again."

Dean stepped away from the door and looked around the corridor for something big enough and heavy enough to break through the heavy door. He spotted a large candleabra and grabbed it, using it to pound on the door. He needed to stop Sam before he did something he was going to regret.

What had he done? This wasn't supposed to happen! He thought in a panic. Killing Lilith was supposed to stop this! He looked over at Ruby. She was watching the blood flow into a deliberate pattern, a wide smile plastered on her face. "You bitch. You lying bitch." He thrust out his hand at her in an attempt to use his power, but he fell to the floor clutching his head in pain.

Ruby's grin widened. "Don't hurt yourself Sammy. You shot your payload on the boss."

"The blood...you poisoned me..." He though he had been helping people. That he could use these powers that were intended for evil, for something good, but it had all been a lie.

Ruby knelt down in front of him. "No. IT wasn't the blood. It was you and your choices. I just gave you the options, and when you found Ava...well, Lilith always did have a flair for the dramatics. She knew you would lose faith and she made sure you would get back on track. I know it's hard to see it now...but this is a miracle. Everything Azazel did, and Lilith did...just to get you here. And you were the only one who could do it."

Sam shook his head. "Why? W...why me?"

She touched his arm and smiled. "Because...because it had to be you Sammy. It always had to be you. You saved us. You set him free. And he's gonna repay you in ways that you can't even imagine."

Dean burst through the door, dropping the candelabra on the ground and pulling the demon knife out of the back of his jeans. He glanced at the pattern forming on the floor before rushing towards his brother.

Ruby stood up and smirked. "You're too late. He's coming."

"I don't care." He advanced toward her, watching her eyes widen as Sam quickly stood and grabbed her arms from behind, holding her as Dean stabbed her before throwing her body to the floor.

Dean looked at his brother. He looked broken, scared, tears filling his eyes as he grabbed Dean's arm. "I'm..I'm sorry..."

The blood pouring out of Lilith's body stopped as the symbol on the floor completed, a bright light emanating from within it and filling the room. They both covered their eyes as they looked at each other in horror.

"Dean, I'm sorry...I..."

The entire convent began to tremble, and Dean grabbed Sam's arm. "Sammy lets go,"

Sam grabbed his shirt as Dean tried to pull him away, both of them staring at the light. "Dean...he's coming..."

They ran to the door, but it slammed shut before they could get out. They were stuck in the room as the light got brighter, squinting and shielding their eyes with their arms. This was not the outcome either of them wanted, and soon, Lucifer would be free.

I huddled up in the corner of the room I'd been thrown in, trembling in fear and trying not to look at him. I could feel the sheer power of him filling the room around me. His eyes, they gave off kindness, of hope, nut I knew there was nothing but evil behind them...I knew who he was...

Black smoke circled me, and I scrambled back further into the wall, panic flooding through me. "Please...no...please...aarrgghh!" The smoke forced itself into me, pushing me back into the furthest corner of my mind...

Smiling, she stood up and looked in the broken mirror hanging on the wall, Ava's reflection staring back at her. Turning, her smile widened. "Father."

Lucifer held out his hand and cupped her cheek. "Ruby. You did well my child."