Chapter Ten
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After the whole fight situation had gone bad Lindsey looked for Jake. She had gotten to know him and she knew that he would be beating himself for everything. For treating Haley bad, for not trusting her with Nathan, for thinking Nathan just wanted something out of his sister, but mostly for believing Peyton all along. He loved her so much that he was willing to believe her. It took Nathan yelling the truth at him for him to understand that Peyton wasn't who he though she was. He wanted to believe that she had changed, and that she cared about him, but she didn't. Hurting Haley was just one more of the things she had done in the past and he was never going to put his sister second, not anymore.
He walked passed the cottage and towards the place were they did the bond fires. He wanted to be alone, and he knew no one would come looking for him there. He took his phone from his pocket and turned it to silent, the vibration was driving him insane.
There he sat. He sat all alone thinking, just wondering what life would have been if he had been there for Haley. Maybe if he didn't waste all his time with Peyton she would have never been attacked by Damian. Or maybe just listening to her would have been good, he could have picked up the clues about Peyton lying all the time.
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"How is she?" he asked Brooke.
Brooke looked at her friend who was on the bed behind her sleeping. She didn't know how Haley fell asleep so fast, but maybe it was all the yelling and fighting with Peyton. Whatever it was the girl was out. Maybe the crying and sobbing added to the equation.
"Not so good" Brooke admitted to her brother, "she's really hurt, it took a while for me to make her stop crying, but once she did she went right to sleep."
"I'll take it from here" he told her.
Brooke nodded and walked towards the door.
"Where are you going?" he asked her.
Brooke turned to look at her brother who was now sitting on the bed right next to Haley. "Out, I though you wanted to be with her alone."
"I do" he admitted, "but there is no way in hell I'm letting you go out. It's dark, and I'm sure Peyton and her hoes are out there just waiting for you to go out. So… You are staying in."
"Nate, I'm a big girl, I can take care of myself."
"That's what Haley always says" he told her, and tucked hair behind Haley's ear. "Now go to bed" he said firmly.
"Nate" she whined.
"Brooke, I'm serious, I don't know what I'd do if something happened to you."
"Fine." She understood that her brother was just trying to protect her, and she was going to allow him to do that. Besides, is not like she could go out and talk to Lucas he was probably with his slutty sister.
She walked over to her bed and laid on it. It wasn't all that late and she really didn't know what to do. Then she pulled her phone out and began to surf the net, it was the only thing to keep her from dying of boredom at the moment. It wasn't that she didn't like to see Nathan and Haley having their cute little couple moments, but when one of them was just sitting there and staring at the other sleep it was kind of creepy. Pulling out her headphones she turned the music on her phone and listen to it quietly as she looked for stuff to buy online.
Nathan would look at his sister then turn his attention back to the girl sleeping next to him. The two girls he loved where right there and he was not going to let anything happen to them, ever.
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"What the hell were you thinking." He grabbed her by the wrist to turn her around, since she wasn't really paying attention to him and kept walking. "Answer me" he yelled when she was facing him. Seen his sister's eyes full of tears and blood shot read broke his heart, but he couldn't help but to think that she brought all of this upon herself. He had always protected her just like every brother would, but Peyton was the last person on earth that needed protection.
The girl was strong all on his own. He remembered when they were little and a boy was teasing her at school. He wanted to kill the boy for making fun of his sister, but she settled it by simply punching the boy and walking away, Lucas had been impressed ever since.
Without any words to say she hugged her brother. She needed to feel that at least someone was there for her. She knew that everything she had done was wrong, but all she wanted right now was to let out all her pain. She was hating herself for doing what she did but there was no way to take it back, she had ruined a perfectly good evening just because she wanted to destroy Haley's relationship. Jealousy was eating her inside ever since the whole Damian thing, all she wanted was for Jake to notice her more than Haley.
She didn't know what more to do than to hold on to her brother tightly and let out sobs of pain and regret. As much as Lucas hated what she had done she was his sister and he couldn't leave her like that. She was broken and he would never put his sister behind, to him she would always be first. He patted her back and held her close letting her cry. He didn't understand why she had been crying, but he did know that she needed him and he would be there for her. He wanted answers from her but understood that maybe now wasn't the time, he was going to let her talk when she was ready.
"You know I really am sorry" she whispered through her tears and sobs.
"I know."
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"I've been looking for you."
Jake turned to the voice of the girl who had just walked up behind him. He quickly turned to look the direction he had previously. He threw a rock to the big circle full of rocks in the middle and responded. "I didn't want to be found."
Lindsey felt so bad that he was hurting. She had been getting to know him, and the more she knew the more she liked him. She liked the way he was with his friends, and the way he cared for his sister, and it also helped that she got along with most of his friends.
"I'm sorry about…" she needed now words to let him know, he knew.
"I know" he told her, "it's not your fault." He felt her sit next to him and he turned to face her.
Not understanding why he had been so blinded by Peyton he took a good look at Lindsey. The girl was gorgeous. Her eyes illuminated the night, and her smile was always bright and genuine, something he never really got with Peyton anymore, but then he couldn't help but think about Peyton. The girl had been part of his life since he could remember, and forgetting about her and what he felt or better yet still feels about her would be hard.
"I knew" she admitted. At her confessions he turned so fast that Lindsey felt a little breeze push her hair back. The speed at what his head turned scared her a bit, more so seen the hurt in his eyes.
"And you didn't tell me?" he asked, hurt to know that Lindsey had been keeping his sister's relationship from him. "I thought we were friends."
"We are" she assured him, "but so am I and Haley. You have to understand that I can't betray her turst."
"But you had no problem lying to me" he shot angrily.
"It's not like that" she said, getting nervous at the way he shot words at her. "I just… Haley asked me not to say anything. She said she wanted to tell you, so I let her. I wanted to tell you, it just wasn't my secret to tell." After not receiving anything from him for a few seconds she grew uncomfortable. "I'm sorry" she apologized, once more.
Jake shook his head, "it's not your fault. You're right. I should go talk to her" he said standing up, "she needs to know a few things."
"Jake" Lindsey called. Seen him turned to face him she stood up, "don't do anything stupid, she really loves him."
Jake gave her a nod and continued walking. He was determined to talk to his sister. He needed her to know a few things and he was going to tell her tonight.
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Bored out of her mind Brooke had finally drifted of to sleep. There really wasn't much to do since Nathan didn't let her out of the cabin, her only choice was to sleep. Which she did just that. Right now she was covered all the way up sleeping like a baby. On the other bed was Nathan laying next to Haley who was still sleeping. Every now and then he would feel her toss but he would just rub her back or something of the sort and she would right back to sleep.
He held her close and rubbed her arm up and down as he just stared into space thinking, thinking about the events that had brought the here. Him to lay next to the girl he had fallen for, and his sister to sleep all alone on the bed not far from him. Nathan couldn't believe that Peyton had gone so low as to hurt his boyfriends sister, which actually probably cause Jake more pain than it did to Haley. He was glad that Haley had gone to sleep, because he knew that she would probably have another one of her panic attacks if she was awake.
She felt a hand go up and down her arm and fluttered her eyes slowly. It actually all felt really good. The hand rubbing her, the strong shaped frame next to her, everything. She didn't want to make any movement to disturb him. By the tilt of his head looking up she could tell that he was lost at thoughts, she just whished she knew what was that had him so thoughtful.
"What's on your mind?" she asked, not been able to take it any longer. He had been staring at the ceiling for a long time and hadn't even notice her wake up.
A smile appear on his face when he heard her voice and he notice that she wasn't going all crazy. He looked down at her and pulled her closer to him. Kissing the top of her head, "you" he responded.
"What about me?"
Nathan looked down at her and he loved the way her brown eyes looked right back at him. "Today was a big day" he told her. He saw her nod and the small frown that took over her smile. "I wish I could change it."
"Have you seen him?"
He could see the worry in her eyes and he could hear it in her voice. He shook his head and hated to not have any news for her. "I came here after you ran."
Haley snuggled closer to him and wrapped her arm around his torso. "I should've told him."
As much as he hated to see her hurt he knew that she was right, but it was more of a we than and I. They should both have told Jake, it was a mistake and everyone makes them. He felt a few of her tears soak his shirt and he spoke to get her attention. "Haley."
She looked up at him and quickly wiped the tears from her eyes. Haley hated that every time Nathan saw her she was crying, or running or having one of her episodes. "I'm sorry."
"Don't apologize." He hated hearing her apologize for everything she did. She didn't do anything wrong.
She nodded and snuggled again, "thanks for being here."
"There is nowhere else I'd rather be."
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As morning came to be Nathan opened his eyes when he felt the sun hit his face. He looked around the room, still a little sleepy and notice that everyone was there. Shock came to his face as he saw them all there. Brooke was on her bed and somehow last night they had separated the beds and Jake was sleeping on the one next to Brooke. Lucas was across from them with Peyton snuggled close. Nathan didn't understand how he didn't hear them come in, he must have been really tired for that. It was an option since he had been trying to keep an eye on Haley till as late as he could, eventually his sleep won the battle.
He slowly removed Haley from him and made sure she was still sleeping, then he covered her and walked to the bathroom to get ready. It would be a long day and he knew it. They had many things to discuss and god knows it was going to get ugly.
After finishing his shower and getting dressed he walked out to the room once more. He looked around and couldn't believe that they were all still sleeping, well all but his sister who was just staring at him. He saw her get out of bed and grabbing a bag next to her bed and walking towards him.
"My turn" she said walking passed him to the bathroom.
Nathan smiled and shook his head, his sister was never going to change. Letting go of that he walked over to the bed he had been occupying earlier and squatted down. "Hales, get up" he said softly. He rubbed her head a bit to make sure she would do it, but no reaction came from her. "Haley" he said again, "come on, there is lots to do today, get up." He smiled when he saw her eyes fluttered and gave her a quick, soft, and sweet kiss on the forehead. "Good morning, sunshine."
"Morning" she responded.
"You better get up" he said nodding to the rest of the beds.
Haley shut her eyes and let out a sigh, then she opened them back up and smiled at him. "Is Brooke in there?" she asked hearing the singing in the shower.
"Yeah."
Both Haley and Nathan quietly laughed at the bad singing coming from the bathroom.
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After getting ready Haley had dragged Nathan out of the room to get breakfast. Nathan knew that the only reason she was dragging him out was because she didn't want to deal with Jake, or Peyton for that matter. It was something that she would have to do eventually but he wasn't going to push her into doing it.
They were both sitting in the cafeteria eating their breakfast, both getting a few looks from the rest of the campers. Nathan was use to all the attention, but Haley had been more reserved about her life since the Damian incident.
"Don't let them get to you" he told her, noticing that Haley kept looking around.
She put her drink down, "I just can't. They're talking about me and you, and… I hate this."
"Hey" he warned, "you're strong, now show them you don't care that they talk about you."
"He love birds."
"Thank god" Haley said, giving her friend a hug.
Lindsey looked at her weird then eyed Nathan for a response. She had known Haley for a bit now, but sometimes she couldn't really understand what the girl was doing.
"She hates the whole gossip thing."
"It's not gossip" Lindsey said, "you two are dating, so who the hell cares what everyone else has to say."
"That's what I said" Nathan pointed her with his fork.
"Easy there cowboy" she said raising her hands.
The three had been so lost with their own conversation that never realized the rest of the teens entering the cafeteria, or the whispering for that matter. Right now it was all about them and how much fun they were going to have during their last two weeks. Also a few things about how sad it would be to say goodbye and how much they would miss each other, but Nathan had told them to just stick to the happiness of it all.
That's what he was doing. He was going to remember every good memory form this trip. He was going to remember meeting Haley and having all the amazing times with her. The day they had met and her having her little episode, that's where it all started. He was going to remember the mornings and nights they spent at their little spot just looking at the sunrise or the stars. Everything about this year's camping trip was going to be part of his great memories, the kind he would tell his children about.
"Hey kids" Brooke said, taking the seat next to her brother and kissing his cheek. She turned to Haley and began to talk, "so, don't be mad at me but Jake's coming. We were talking this morning and he's really sorry hales. He says he wants to talk to you, maybe you should give him a chance."
Haley simply nodded. She never said she wasn't going to listen to her brother's reasons, she understood that he was in love. But she didn't get why everyone thought that she was so mad that she wouldn't listen to her brother. Haley loves her brother, and she would always give him a chance to explain himself.
"So… I think Peyton's feeling really bad" she added. Brooke had been friends with Peyton for a long time, and even though everything Peyton had done over the summer was horrible, it was hard to just drop your friends. She knew that behind all her evil crap Peyton was a good person, she just hated that Peyton never showed it.
"Please don't talk about her" Nathan said, getting defensive.
"Hey" he said shyly. He didn't know how to act anymore.
"Sit here" Haley offered patting the spot next to her.
Jake took the seat and hugged his sister. He held her tightly and kept whispering sorry to her ear. He felt horrible for it all, and he hated that he couldn't be himself around her anymore.
"I love you" Haley said to her brother, "just remember that."
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Breakfast had gone smoothly, all without Peyton or Lucas showing up for that matter.
Brooke had been worried, she thought that something could've happened to Lucas, but noticing that Peyton wasn't there either told her that the Sawyer siblings where out on their own for the day.
Now back in their cottage they all sat around the room looking at each other, no one had anything to say. Correction, they all had plenty to say, just none of them knew how to say it.
Peyton sat next to her brother with plenty on her mind. She had so much to say, like sorry to her boyfriend for hurting him. And Haley for being such a bitch to her, she really didn't know where all the hate came from.
"I'm sorry" she finally said. Standing up Peyton walked to the middle of the small room where all eyes were on her. She turned to Jake, "I'm sorry I hurt you. I really wasn't thinking straight. I wanted you to know about Haley, and I wanted to hurt her but ended up hurting you and losing you." Tears were coming down her eyes, "I don't know why I did it, and I'm really sorry."
"You're sorry" Brooke said, a little disappointed at Peyton's apology. "Peyton, you hurt them" she yelled. "Haley never did anything but be nice to you and you chose to hurt her. Jake took your side over his sister and all you can say is sorry." Anger was beating her, she couldn't hold her words. It had been a short time that she had gotten to know the James kids, but she had grown to love them as friends.
"Brooke" Haley said, hoping that would calm her friend down. "It's okay."
"It's not okay!" she yelled, "it's sure as hell not okay, Haley. The bitch treats you like crap and you say it's okay. How the hell is this all okay!"
"Brooke" Nathan said, pulling his sister to sit next to him.
"No!" she yelled. She had plenty to say and she was going to let it all out. She walked over to Jake first, "you don't have an option. Haley's your sister and you have to be there for her. I get that you love Peyton and all but you have to think of your sister. Also you don't get to judge my brother. Nathan has been nothing but nice to her since we met, he was there when you were with Peyton. You don't get to judge him."
Her anger was really bubbling up inside her as she walked to Haley, she took a few breaths to cool down. "Haley, I love you" she said, "I really do, but you really gotta stand up for yourself. I don't know what happened to you before you came and I understand you not wanting to talk about it, but you really have to let people know what you're feeling."
"Brooke, I think you should let them talk" Nathan said.
"Shut up" she yelled at her brother.
Then all at once they all began to argue. You could hear all different voices and tones all talking at once.
"I love you, and all I want is for you to notice me!" Peyton yelled to Jake.
"She's hurting, and you don't get that" Nathan yelled to Brooke.
"She's being weak" Brooke yelled back.
"You're a liar" Jake yelled to Peyton.
"Don't talk to her like that" yelled Lucas.
All the voices at once, all with different emotions were driving her crazy. "STOP!" Haley yelled, "ALL OF YOU JUST STOP IT!"
The room became quiet as she stood in the middle. Everyone glanced at each other not believing that she was yelling in the middle of the room.
"Why can't we just talk about it" Haley asked, shaking her head. She walked to Peyton, "why did you do it? Do you hate me that much?" a few tears fell from her eyes as she asked.
Peyton felt horrible to be the one that was causing her all this pain. She shook her head. "I don't hate you" she said, softly. She looked at Jake then back to Haley, "you were just taking all of his attention. You were all he talked about, and all he thought about. I couldn't take it anymore, I just wanted him to see that you weren't perfect."
"You could've told me!" Jake yelled, "why find such an evil way to do it?"
"Because I wanted to hurt Haley, but it wasn't until it was all done that I realized that it would only hurt you."
Everyone was shocked by Peyton's confession, but they all stayed seated. They were there to talk this out, and that's what they were going to do.
"I love you, Peyton" Jake confessed, "but I don't think I can stay with you after what you did. You've always known that Haley comes first, and you found a way to hurt her."
"I love you" Peyton said. She had no more words, she had apologized and recognized that what she'd done was wrong. There was nothing else to say now.
"I think we've solved this" Brooke said, walking towards the middle to stand next to Haley. "Peyton wanted to hurt Haley and failed, she hurt Jake and now she's alone. Haley did something wrong by lying to her brother about Nathan, so maybe we should talk about that."
Haley nodded and looked at her brother. "I'm sorry" she said, "I should've told you. I just… I know you and I knew that you would react all crazy. I know you don't like Nathan and that you don't approve, but I don't need your approval. You dated girls without asking me and I never said anything… Jake you have to let me be my own person."
"I just don't want you to get hurt" he admitted.
"I won't" she said, "Nate's a good guy. I promise."
"I know" Jake said, giving Nathan a nod and hugging his sister.
Interrupting the moment Brooke once a gain walked to the middle and began to speak, "what else is there to talk about?" she asked, "we have Jake and Peyton's relationship. Haley and Jake's problems…. What else?"
When she realized that no one else had anything to say she walked over to Lucas and kissed him, not caring that everyone else was in the room.
Seen the little show Peyton ran out the room and slammed the door on her way out.
Everyone looked at each other wondering what had caused that, but they were all pretty sure of what had caused her to run out.
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A/N- Okay so I think that is a really long chapter. Maybe not really long, but longer than what I've done for this story so far. I really hope you like it and I am sorry for updating so late, and for such a crappy ending.
I really want to know if you guys want me to let Jake be with Peyton or for him to have a little two week fling with Lindsey. Please tell me.
Thanks to all the reviews guys. Also to those of you who read Learning to Live, I've actually started working on the sequel, I just don't have much done since I've had so much work, but I try to do a little each day. I'll try to have the chapter up soon.
Mazzy- thanks for the review. And I see you like Jake and Lindsey, just make sure to vote for them on this chapter if you want to see them together.
Smile please10- thanks so much!
Naley12- Thanks for the review. And I know there wasn't much Jake and Nathan talk this chapter but we can see that Jake is accepting Nathan. Maybe next chapter he'll have the brotherly talk with Nathan.
KTxx- thanks so much. I love your stories too. The new one is really good can't wait for the update.
Crazy4jacksonrathbone- Thanks so much, and as you can see in this chapter Haley kinda takes a step back, but then she comes back to take over the whole situation.
TeamPapaya- hahahah I love how you used the song you had stuck in your head on your comment, cute. Thanks so much, I hope you liked this one.
Shaun- you're very welcome. I kinda feel bad for Peyton so I took it down a little on this chapter, but if people want Jake and Lindsey to have their little romance than I'll have her have one as well.
Haley Elizabeth james- hahah everyone is happy about her slap. Thanks.
