"I don't even know what to say to you right now." I said and stood up a little bit taller.
"Babe listen-" he said and started to walk towards me. I took a step forward and slapped him. He hung his head down for a minute then looked up at me. "I know I made a mistake but you have to hear me out."
"I don't have to hear anything you say." I spat at him. "How are you even here right now? How can you even look at me? Do you even understand what you put me through? Every day for the last three weeks I've been going over everything I could have ever said to you that might have pushed you away; but I still can't find anything. There is no reason you should have left me." I said and took a deep breath and got a little quieter. "And the worst part is, I still love you but I know that if I stay I'm just going to get hurt again. " I said as I realized that I had moved closer to him and was about to jump into his arms. I moved back and looked at him. He just stared at me.
"Liz, I love you so much and I am so sorry for everything I've done to you. I am an asshole and a douche bag and I know I fucked up real bad; but please, please give me another chance." He pleaded.
"I can't, I need time. I want to so badly but I can't trust you now." I said and moved close enough to touch him. I put my hand on his chin and made him look up at me. His eyes were red and I knew what I just said crushed him. I gave in and hugged him. I wrapped my arms around him and put my cheek against his chest. He put his chin on the top of my head and we just stood there like that. I didn't want to go but I heard the bus start outside and I knew I had to go.
I pulled away and gave him a quick kiss. "Just give me some time." I said and grabbed my suitcase and started walking out. When I was at my door I looked back at him. "See you soon." I said and walked out. I wiped the tears off my face as I walked outside and realized there was no point I was still crying so I took a deep breath and walked to the bus where everyone was waiting. They all looked at me and I shook my head. I gave everyone hugs and kisses before I got on the bus. The last people I hugged were Lisa and Alex.
"Take care of her and if you don't I will know and personally cut your balls off." I said as I hugged Alex.
"I know." He said and I moved on to Lisa. "Let me know when it's a boy or a girl so I can start shopping." I said. She smiled and looked at me.
"What did you tell him?" she asked.
"That I need time and that I love him." I said and wiped away a tear. She nodded and I got on the bus. I looked out the window and waved at everyone as I pulled out of the venue and on to the next sow. When they were out of sight I changed into my pajamas and crawled into my bunk. I breathed and realized I could still give him a chance.