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Dear Tam,
Today was a mixed kinda day. I finally saw Nico, but he was acting really weird. He was with Master Gi and a few other Healers (Not Uncle Kay or Toa or even Gra-mere) and when I said 'Hi' he acted like he didn't see me.
At first I thought he hadn't heard me, but then Master Gi saw me, and although she smiled, I know she was unhappy. She said that Uncle Kay was looking for me and they had to go, and finally Nico smiled at me when he thought Master Gi wasn't looking.
I knew because of the Force that it wasn't a good time to try to talk to him, but it still made me mad, and when I found Uncle Kay and Uncle Toa, they knew it.
I told them what had happened and Kay said it's because Gi thinks that Jedi shouldn't form any attachments at all, even friendly ones. I told him that I thought Nico was more than just a friend, that he was my boyfriend and that Gi was just a mean old (bad word which I don't want to write even though I said it). Uncle Toa was shocked, but Uncle Kay just laughed, and said that everything was going to be OK, and then he asked if I wanted to go out and practice my 'special' lessons.
Toa got a funny look on his face and asked Kay if he thought it was right to start doing these lessons so early, and maybe he should leave them to Pay-pa, but Kay only laughed again. He said that my gifts needed to be directed early, and that Pay-pa was too busy with the rest of the Jedi to give me a proper education, so he was only filling in the gaps.
Toa didn't have anything to say about that, so we went to another part of the Temple where a Kay gives me my special lessons.
It's a small room near a side entrance of Temple where a couple people sat waiting for us. It's never the same people, and they are always so calm and happy when we arrive (Uncle Kay says it's because they are paid well but I'm not sure). And then for about an hour, I have to practice making them do or repeat what I say to them. At first it was hard, and Uncle Kay had to help, but as we practiced, I got better at it. (Uncle Kay says it used to be called a 'Jedi Mind Trick' but that's just a term only 'stupid, uneducated people' use.) Sometimes I think it's mean, but today I was feeling mean so… it was like that. The problem is, I think I may have accidentally over done it today. I wanted the lady to squawk like a harpy-bird, but I couldn't make her stop! I'm glad that Kay put her to sleep by waving his hand over her eyes and said he could help her, (and he said soon he'll teach me that too) but it scared me a little.
We had some ardees after my lesson (and the lady was back to normal, thank the goddess!) and Kay made it so they thought that they all had only delivered some stuff and they went away really happy, and well paid, and I went back 'home'.
When I walked in the door, Ma-mere and Pay-pa were sitting on the couch (really close together and kissing,) Ma-mere's shirt was open even though Ben was asleep in his cot in the other room – I think she must had just finished feeding him – but as soon as they saw me, Ma-mere began to quickly close up her shirt and Pay-pa came and scooped me up in his arms, asking how my day went.
I told him that I had seen Gi and the other Healers (but not about Nico) and had drank ardees with Uncle Kay, and had been practicing some things, and that seemed to make him happy. He also said that Gra-mere is going to going to come watch Ben and I while he and Ma-mere go for a little walk, after last meal, if that was all right with me. I like it that they ask, because if I said I wanted them around they would stay, but I know that it'll be good for them, and I want my Ma-mere and Pay-Pa to be happy!
Pay-pa sent me to wash up then, and over last meal, Pay-pa and Ma-mere kept touching hands and looking at each other all sloppy eyed, so I was really glad when Gra-mare showed up so Ma-mere and Pay-pa could go for their walk.
Love,
Pem