A/N: Okay… I'm going to try and make this one good for you guys… not like last chapter… that was… YOH!
NOTE: ooooo time pass
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"anyone talking on the other end of the line"
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Is My Love Not Enough: Yours
Jacob's POV
To say I was tired would be an understatement. I was freaken exhausted! Cullen just did that to me. He drained me of my energy… like a freaken succubus or whatever those things are.
And Frankie… honestly. You'd think as a boss he'd be uptight and no nonsense type, but he's not. He's the most chilled guy I've ever met, but seriously? He seriously thought Cullen and I have 'a thing… a secret thing'? I'd rather have my nails plucked out one by one then have 'a thing' with Edward Cullen. You know, I'd rather die alone then be with Cullen. He's just so… Ugh! I hate him. He's an asshole really. Like gum under my shoe on a hot day! I just want to shoot him, yeah… bite his damn head off for him… Too bad I'm not phasing. If I phase then probably the whole pack will know that Edward Cullen kissed me… and I kissed back.
FUCK!
Why did I have to kiss back? Things would've been so much easier if I hadn't kissed back. If I'd just pushed him away, punched him, anything but kiss back. I can't stop obsessing over that stupid kiss. Why did I kiss back? Why am I even thinking about it now? I shouldn't care damn it! I hate him; he hates me; that's how it works.
I want to tell someone about this, tell them how I feel about it then have them scream 'it was just a kiss' at me. That would make things so much better. It would make me feel so much better. I wouldn't feel like I betrayed my best friend, the same girl I was in love with… who am I kidding, I'm still in love with Bella, I always will be.
Life is so unfair! Why do I get all the shitty bits while everyone else are living La Vida Loca? I wish I could just die sometimes you know, have it all end peacefully, and now, now I don't even have to worry about Billy coz I know Rebecca will be with him, he'll be fine.
Yeah… then he dies from a heart attack and it'll all be because of me…
Life is so fucken unfair!
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Jacob dragged himself out of bed as he heard the house phone ringing. Billy wasn't home; he was at Sue's house with the rest of the elders, discussing his upcoming departure and who the next Chief was going to be.
Jacob pulled on a pair of cut-offs (he'd been sleeping in absolutely nothing because of the unbearable heat) and walked out to the kitchen where the phone was kept. He looked at the clock, it was past midnight.
"Hello?" he answered grouchily.
"Hello Mac-Grouchy pants,"Rosalie's sweet voice said. Jacob faked an annoyed grumbled.
"She-Demon, how can I help you?"
"I wanted to thank you for the unofficial comment."
"What unofficial comment?"
"The one where you told my brother that I knew my stuff."
"Oh… that… Yeah, you're not too bad She-Witch."
"You aren't too bad yourself dog."
"Was that all? Or maybe you wanted to spread more of your leechiness around."
"So you aren't leaving?"
"Apparently not. I'm just taking a 'vacation' and I will be back."
"Good."
"Why? You'd miss me calling you She-Demon of the Bitch Dimension then kiss me again? Or maybe you'd miss our little talks about the fertile and infertile beings."
"No… I'd miss all the little comments I could make about slobbery dog kisses… but what do I know about that, only Edward would know right." Jacob was quiet for a second.
"Go make a baby Blondie."
"Go kiss an Edward mutt."
"I'm hanging up now."
"Before you do Jake…"
"What?"
"Would you like me to give Eddie a kiss just for you?"
"Demon!" Jacob hung up then, not wanting to hear any more. Just as he was about to leave the phone rang again. "She-devil if you're going to make any more snide remarks about me kissing-."
"It's Sam!" Jacob felt his stomach drop and his whole body just go cold.
"Oh… Sam…" SHIT! Jacob pulled the phone away from his ear and cringed and clutched his fists breathing in and out deeply before putting the phone back to his ear. "Um… Dad isn't home."
"I know. He's here at Sue's."
"Oh? Then what did you want?"
"Are you coming to patrol today?"
"No." Sam sighed.
"You're phasing tonight and that's an order." Jacob felt complied to follow his alpha's order, but then his own true nature (as the real alpha of his pack) fought the urge to obey the order.
"No," Jacob said calmly, adrenaline flowing through his body as he deliberately refused his alpha's order. It was exhilarating but exciting, like cliff-diving for the first time.
"What?" Sam sounded more than shocked by the refusal.
"No Sam. I am not phasing tonight. I have work tomorrow."
"Are… are you refusing a direct order Jacob?"
"Yes Sam, I am refusing a direct order… I'm leaving the pack Sam, I'm stopping." This surprised even Jacob himself because he hadn't even decided this before hand; it was a spur of the moment thing.
"WHAT?"
"I'm going to stop phasing Sam."
"You can't do that Jacob. You can't stop phasing."
"It's my choice. I didn't even want to be a wolf in the first place."
"None of us wanted this Jacob, but we sucked it up and continued to do what we were destined to do… its fate Jacob."
"Yeah well screw fate. I'm over all of this Sam."
"Jacob, think about what you're doing. You can't stop phasing. You're young… you… you're our real alpha."
"Doesn't matter. Listen Sam, I gotta go, I got work tomorrow."
"Jake-."
"Bye Sam." Jacob hung up. He didn't feel like going to bed anymore. He sighed then decided to have a shower. He showered quickly then got dressed. Since he wasn't going to sleep anymore, he decided to go work on Lizzie till it was time to get to work.
At five Jacob stopped working on Lizzie and went to the house and made breakfast for him and Billy – who still hadn't returned. After finishing his breakfast he had another shower then got dressed for work. The house phone rang again. Jacob sighed and went to answer it.
"Hello?"
"Dog!" Jacob sighed. It was Rosalie.
"What She-Bitch?"
"I need a favour."
"Listening."
"I'm half bored to death; I want to come work with you." Jacob faked a laugh.
"Why ice-princess?"
"Are you deaf or just stupid? I told you, I'm half bored to death AND I'm awesome at fixing cars."
"You gotta come ask my boss."
"No problem-o. What time do you leave?"
"Um… now."
"Right, meet me at the border in ten minutes."
"Sure…"
"Ciao Niño."
"What…? …Ever." Jacob hung up then left the house and ran to the boarder. When he got there Rosalie was already waiting for him her sparkly red Ferrari Enzo.
"Morning mutt."
"Her leechiness." Jacob even bowed to add affect. Rosalie smirked.
"Ready to go?"
"Whatever." She threw the keys at him. "What's this then?"
"This is me being nice. You can drive." Jacob smiled widely.
"For real?"
"Yes. Let's go." They got into the car and Jacob – without squealing like a little girl – drove them to Frankie's in Port Angeles. As soon as Jacob got out the car his work mates were all over him.
"Damn Jakie, what'd you do, find a rich old lady or something?" Frankie asked, staring at the car.
"Nah, but I did get picked up by an evil She-Demon, literally," Jacob said. Rosalie got out the car then, looking like an over paid supermodel… if supermodel's got over paid.
"Damn," the others all said, looking at Rosalie as she walked over to the side they were standing. She was wearing designer wear from her sunglasses all the way down to five inch stiletto shoes.
"Morning," she said, smiling sweetly.
"Don't be fooled by the smile," Jacob said. "She's a devil."
"Hilarious…"
"So…" Frankie said. "How can I help you today?"
"I'm looking for a job, and I was wondering if you could give me one."
"Um… we're not looking for a receptionist or anything." Jacob laughed and Rosalie glared at him then smiled evilly before punching him, hard!
"Bitch!" Jacob growled.
"Woof-woof!" Rosalie said. "Anyway, I don't want to be a receptionist, I'd like to come help around with the cars."
"What?" Frankie asked, sort of shocked.
"Yeah… I know my stuff."
"Yeah…" Jacob said. "I'll admit – though I do feel like throwing up – she is good at this. She's the one that messed up Cullen's car."
"Really?" Frankie sounded impressed.
"Well…" Rosalie said, flicking her hair. "I am good." Jacob rolled his eyes.
"Do you really want to add air-head to your list?" Jacob asked.
"Fuck you."
"No thanks."
"Anyway!" Frankie said interrupting the two. "When would you like to start?"
"Today," Rosalie said. They looked her clothes up and down. "I've got something to wear."
"Great…" Rosalie grabbed a bag. "Bathroom's that way." Rosalie nodded then walked towards the place Frankie had pointed to. "So… she would be…?"
"Rosalie a.k.a. She-Devil, Demon, Bitch, whatever works for you, just add 'she' in the beginning. She's Cullen's older sister… well, she was adopted by Cullen's parents."
"Ah… I see." Rosalie came out the bathroom.
"Wow… you're so…" Jacob tilted his head as he thought of a proper word for the outfit. "…pink!" Rosalie was wearing a pink mechanic's coverall with pink Chuck Taylors, pink work gloves and a pink cap. She looked more like she was getting ready for a mechanic photo shoot more than the actual mechanizing.
"I noticed. Anyway… let's get to work."
"Right, Jake, you and Rosalie can work together," Frankie said.
"Ah…" Jacob said. "Whatever."
"Let's get to work." Everyone moved about and they all started work. At around one o'clock Rosalie declared her hunger and demanded that Jacob go get everyone lunch. Jacob had tried to get out of it – going so far as whispering insults at Rosalie about blood not being in any food menu – but in the end he had to when everyone was calling out their orders. Rosalie casually walked over to where the other guys were all sitting around, taking a break and waiting for Jacob to return.
"Hey Frankie," she said, smiling sweetly.
"Heya Rosa," Frankie said, looking at her strangely. She smiled at the nickname she'd acquired from the Mexican man. Her father used to call her that when she was younger, and no one else had ever called her that, except Emmett when he was trying to apologise for something.
"I know it's probably too early to ask for favours but…"
"But…?"
"I need your help. It's about Jake."
"We're listening." Rosalie smiled broadly, they cared too.
"Right… so… I'm like the only one in both mine and Jacob's family that seems to see how perfect Jacob and Edward would be together…"
"Aha…"
"And well, I'm trying to work a way to get them together."
"And how are you planning on doing that?"
"That's the problem. Unlike my sweet sister Alice who's just blowing with brilliant ideas for everything, I'm… in a word… clueless."
"Wow…"
"You're probably thinking it's because I'm blonde aren't you."
"A little… Yeah…"
"Well it's not that. It's just… I've never really had to do this. I usually just punch a few people and that gets it all done. So… yeah…"
"So what exactly are we supposed to do?"
"I don't know! That's why I'm asking you."
"Wow…"
"Look Frankie, I just need help to make Jacob and Edward see the light, okay?"
"How do you know that they even want this?" Rosalie smiled and moved closer to them. She looked around the place making sure no one was listening.
"Coz… Edward kissed Jacob…" she moved even closer for her next statement. "…and Jacob kissed back!"
"Wait… WHAT?"
"Oh yeah…!"
"I thought Cullen was getting married."
"Oh yeah… he is… but that's the crazy bit, he's getting married but he kissed another guy… and they liked it."
"How do you know they liked it?" Rosalie smiled sneakily.
"If they didn't they wouldn't be freaking out about it. I know they liked it. So I was thinking… it's probably a horrible plan, but it could word."
"I'm listening."
"We gotta find a way to get Jacob and Edward together in a room… preferably small… preferably with camera's… and mike's… preferably two way… and… and that's about all I have."
"Rosa… your plan is crazy… but I like it. I saw the way those two moved around each other when your brother came in to get his car fixed. It could totally work."
"Problem one, I don't have a small enough room with that kind of equipment."
"Joey's apartment could do. They do need a good place right."
"See… I need a place that isn't easily breakable."
"Right… what exactly does that mean?"
"It means… It means I'm clueless. We need a solid plan and the one we're making right now… it's a sinking ship." Just then, Jacob walked. Rosalie sighed. "Ah well… till next time boys." She walked over to Jacob. "What's up dog?"
"Evil," Jacob said, faking a shudder. Rosalie rolled her eyes then grabbed the food and gave it to the right people.
"Well anyway… let's eat and get back to work." Jacob looked at everyone and noticed how they were all glancing towards him every once in a while.
"What?" Jacob finally asked when he couldn't take all the looks anymore.
"Nothing," Frankie said.
"Mm!" Jacob glared at Rosalie, who smiled sneakily.
"Oh but Jacob…" she said she said to herself, then walked back to the car that she and Jacob had been working on. "This is gonna be fun…" Rosalie chuckled to herself as she continued to work on the car.
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At nine Rosalie and Jacob finally got out of work. Rosalie forced Jacob to go to a diner for a late dinner then she drove him to the boarder. After dropping him off she drove home to find that the only person there was Alice.
"Where have you been?" Alice asked, looking through wedding magazines. Rosalie scrunched her nose up at the magazines but said nothing, sitting beside her sister. "Rose?"
"I got a job at an auto shop," Rosalie finally answered.
"What?" Alice put the magazine she had down and looked at Rosalie who shrugged. "You are working at an auto shop?"
"Yep."
"When did this happen and why wasn't I told?"
"It happened this morning; it was a spur of the moment thing."
"Why didn't you tell me then?"
"You weren't here."
"Right… so which auto shop are you working at?"
"Frankie's Auto Shop… Jake helped me get the job." Alice raised an eyebrow at her sister.
"Jacob?"
"Yes Jacob." Rosalie rolled her eyes at her sister.
"I see…" They were quiet for a moment. Alice let out a sigh. "Rosalie… what exactly are you trying to do?"
"Excuse me?"
"You and Jacob are getting pretty close…"
"Are you suggesting that I'm having an affair with Jacob or something?"
"NO! Of course not Rose. It's just… well, you were happy when you found that Edward kissed… Jacob… What are you planning Rosalie?"
"What makes you think I'm planning anything? Did you happen to see something?"
"No."
"Then?"
"Rose, Edward loves Bella."
"Sure…"
"He does!"
"I didn't say he didn't."
"Yes, but… you're trying to break him apart with Bella and trying to get him with Jacob. It's not right. Rosalie… I know you don't like Bella…" Alice waited for Rosalie to say something, but nothing was said so she continued, "She isn't your favourite person in the world, but… But please don't try to ruin her and Edward's happiness just because you don't like her."
"Sure, sure," Rosalie replied with the wave of her hand. Alice frowned.
"Rosalie…"
"What?"
"He loves her."
"If you believe he does…" they were quiet again.
"Please don't do anything to ruin their relationship. They've come so far. They deserve to be happy… with each other."
"Whatever Alice. If you think that Edward and Bella will be happy together then I'll let it be okay? Whatever."
"Thank you."
"But let me tell you now Alice… whatever fantasy world you and Bella are living in is going to end and you will realise who exactly has Edward's heart… who always had Edward's heart." Rosalie got up and left the room before her sister could reply.
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Alice sat on the couch for a moment, biting her lip, deep in thought. Rosalie was just being Rosalie. Everyone knew who had Edward's heart; there was no doubt that it was Bella. Bella was the one Edward loved, she was his mate… Right?
Why would Edward want a dog? Why would he want Jacob Black? Jacob was… he was the enemy and on top of that, a man! Edward wasn't gay, he was straight. He was attracted to women… to Bella… Right?
Of course he wasn't gay! Then he would never have fallen in love with Bella if he was gay. He most definitely wasn't gay! He might have kissed Jacob, but that was out of impulse, it was to shut Jacob up… Right?
Edward couldn't be in love with Jacob? What would suddenly change his thoughts about the wolf? They hated each other. Jacob was trying to take Bella away from Edward, why, when Jacob was finally giving up the fight, did Edward suddenly have feeling? It couldn't be because Edward always loved Jacob. It couldn't be because Jacob wasn't paying attention to him now that he'd given up the fight… Right?
Could it be true? Could it be true that Jacob always had Edward's heart? But… it couldn't right? It just couldn't be true… Right?
Alice thought back to the days were Jacob and Edward couldn't stand each other. She thought about the way Edward would react as soon as he smelt Jacob's scent on Bella. She thought about how he didn't want Bella near Jacob, how he would seethed with jealousy every time Jacob touched Bella. Could it be that he was jealous of her, not of him? Could it be that all this time he wasn't 'protecting' Bella like he'd claimed, but actually trying to keep the girl away from Jacob so she wouldn't be able to tempt the wolf, to make the wolf love her instead of him?
"No…" Alice said to herself, laughing at her own ridiculousness. Rosalie was just getting to her, that's all. She wasn't going to let Rosalie get to her about this. "They love each other," she assured herself. "Right…?"
Alice was pulled out of her musing by the scent of her mate. Jasper walked in smiling at her sweetly. She smiled back.
"What is bothering you?" he asked, sitting beside her, wrapping his arms around her and pulling her close.
"Rosalie."
"Oh… What did she do?"
"Ugh! It doesn't matter Jazz, I'm over it." He looked at her sceptically. "Well I will get over it once this wedding is over."
"Right…" Alice kissed her mate gently then untangled herself from her love's arms.
"I have to get some stuff done. I love you Jazz."
"And I, you." Alice smiled then left the room, magazine's in hand.
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Jasper sighed, wondering about the emotions he'd felt radiating from his mate.
"Confusion, anger, fear, confliction…" he muttered. He sighed wondering where they'd come from. He was certain they had nothing to do with wedding dresses and decorations… maybe it had to do with the wedding itself. Maybe it had to do with the Edward-Bella-Jacob love triangle that somehow took an unexpected turn when Edward kissed Jacob. Where suddenly, Bella wasn't the one in demand, but Jacob.
Jasper bit his lip as he thought about that day. He had been in the living room along with Emmett, Esmé and Carlisle, having just stepped in from a hunt, when the encounter between Jacob and Edward had taken place.
He remembered Jacob's emotions, anger and betray. He also remembered Edward's. Edward had felt helpless, hurt, confused. The emotions were so intense that they were getting to him but he'd stayed, figuring that if anyone needed to be calmed down he'd be there to help. The four of them had sat in the living room, listening to Jacob pouring his heart out to Edward, telling him how he felt about everything… about 'Edwella'.
Jasper remembered when the emotions had heightened, Jacob had been about to say that Edward hated him but had been stopped by Edward… by Edward's lips. He'd felt Edward's emotions at that very moment, passion, fear, confusion, confliction and the most powerful one, love.
He'd been shocked at much as his family, he hadn't expected Edward to kiss Jacob. And when Jacob kissed back… In that second, that one second where Jacob had returned the kissed… it had felt like an explosion of feelings. In that one second he had felt the emotions he normally felt when with Alice, the way any vampire would feel with his mate… But when comparing the feelings, when comparing the passion, love, hunger and so much more that a vampire felt for his mate, he couldn't deny that with Edward and Jacob it was heightened, he couldn't deny that with them it was… it was just out of this world.
Jasper didn't even know how to explain the way those emotions had felt. He knew that the three other people that had been with him had felt it too. The emotions coming from the boys outside had been so strong that he couldn't keep them in, he couldn't control them and they'd been projected around the room, it had felt… it had just felt, there was no other way to put it. It just felt…
Then Jacob had finally pulled away – well it was only a second, but the second was long enough to make it feel like forever, the emotions had made that second feel like forever. Jacob had pulled away and he'd been angry, but it wasn't anger that dominated him like people would've expected. It was confusion. He was confused about why Edward had done that, about why he'd kissed back, why he'd liked it. Jacob had reacted badly, he'd punched Edward. They'd both been confused, they'd both been somewhat angry, but deep down they'd both had love and passion.
Jasper shook his head and let out a sigh remembering how the family had reacted. They'd all been shocked, that was an emotion he'd been expecting, but what he hadn't been expecting where the underlying emotions that the family felt.
He remembered feeling Carlisle's coolness at the situation, his lack of anger at his son for kissing another man, a wolf, their natural enemy. Carlisle was always a level-headed man, but his emotions for this were unexpected. Carlisle had almost been proud. It was confusing for Jasper, how his father felt proud, but it was understandable. Though Edward had acted on impulse, he'd finally acted on his true feelings.
Esmé and Emmett's emotions had been quite a surprise, though maybe it had been Emmett's more than Esmé's emotions that had surprised him more. Esmé and Emmett had been… happy… and excited. Though they hid they're smiles they were happy.
Rosalie – who'd joined the family at some point – had been the only one to voice her opinion with an 'It was about time'. The whole family – aside from Alice – felt the same but nobody said anything, nobody had the nerve, they didn't have Rosalie's devil-make-care attitude when it came to Alice's wrath.
He remembered how angry Alice had been, how betrayed she'd felt. He couldn't even get to her, every time he'd sent waves of calm she'd shout at him to stop. The only person she'd wanted to talk to was Edward. He knew that she'd wanted to speak to him about the kiss. They rest of the family had been shut out; Alice only wanted to speak to Edward.
Now though, in present time, things still hadn't been completely normal within the family. Alice still had doubts, she was still confused and scared. But Jasper could swear on his life that it wasn't because she was afraid that Edward would leave Bella, but more because Alice was afraid something bad would come of Edward and Jacob's relationship… if they actually ended up having a relationship.
"Must've seen something," he said to himself.
"What was that?" jasper looked up and saw Rosalie looking at him.
"What?"
"You said what now? 'Must've seen something'?"
"Oh… I was just thinking out loud."
"Hey Jazz, can I ask you something?"
"Yes."
"You know… you know how you can feel emotions."
"Yes… we all know that." She smiled.
"Yeah, yeah, yeah. When you're around Emmett and Edward, what do you feel?" Jasper looked at his 'twin' weirdly. "NO! I don't mean it in the sense that I think they're in a sexual relationship or something. Just… well… after the kiss between Edward and Jacob… yeah…" Jasper smiled.
"You need not worry about the family's feelings Rosalie. We still love Edward." Rosalie nodded.
"I see… Well thanks bro." Jasper smiled back then nodded. He got up from the couch and went to find Alice. Oh how he wished life was simpler for him and his family.
TBC
Um… yeah… I hope this was good coz I think its crack! To me it's just some random nothingness that suddenly popped into my had and WANTED to be written. So yeah… sorry if you think it's crack…
Anywho…
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