"What's wrong buddy?" Shawn asked closing the door behind me,

"Jamie rang me at about 2 this morning, she wasn't happy"

"She finally received the article did she?"

"Yea, did you send it?" I asked feeling anger slowly rise,

"No it's not my business"

"Do you know who did?"

"I can't tell you that, it's not my business. Anyway you said you needed my help"

"Yea, anyway as I said Jamie rang and she wasn't happy. She broke up with me"

"And you want me to help you get her back? You know I can't do that"

"No, she said that I need to find myself within myself..."

"Yea?"

"Well you're like the only Christian guy I know..."

"What about..."

"OK only Christian guy I know and can trust and well I guess I thought you'd be able to tell me what she meant"

"You don't need to be a Christian to know what she means. Come on stop pacing and sit down I'll try and explain it for you." He said causing me to sit down.

"Ok Shane what makes you, you?"

"What?"

"What makes you, you? What makes you special, different from somebody walking down the street?"

"I'm a wrestler?"

"No that's just a physical attribute. Take me for example, I am a happily married man with wonderful children to whom I devote my life too but there are millions of men who do the same..."

"So what makes you different?"

"Because I'm me, everything that I do, everything that I am a mixture of my past, present and future. There is no one else in the world the same as me, there is no other Michael Shawn Hickenbottom in the world they may have the same name but it doesn't make them the same."

"So what makes me, me is my past, present and future? Everything that makes up who I am"

"Yea, basically."

"But that's still not finding myself within myself"

"No its not, you have to find who you really are. You are a wrestler and to put it bluntly a whore but they are just physical attributes"

"Tell me about God" I said suddenly getting an idea in my head,

"Shane knowing about God isn't necessarily going to help you find who you are and its not going to get Jamie back"

"Shawn how do I know that, maybe that's what I need to find me. I didn't grow up in a Christian environment"

"Alright, but you can't make this into a joke"

"No way Shawn" Shawn sighed shaking his head slightly before heading over to his bag and pulling out a leather bound book,

"This is called a Bible" He spoke slowly and clearly.

"Read Genesis, there are about 50 chapters but it's not a big book. If you don't have time to read them all then just read up to chapter 10. Come see me next week once you've read it and I'll discuss any of your questions."

"But this is your bible. Well aren't you observant? I've got another one; you can borrow this but please be careful. Look Shane stay here, go back to your room, do whatever you like but I've got to go. Enjoy the book" Shawn sighed before grabbing his bag and leaving the room. Moments later I followed the older man out and closed the door behind me, still trying to work out where my thirst for religion came from.

It wasn't until I was sitting in my rental car driving towards the hotel after the house show was over that I realised why I wanted to know about God. I look at Jaimie's life and it seems so peaceful, so perfect, she just seems so happy and forgiving. When I looked at Shawn's life I once again saw the same thing.

I pulled into the garage of the hotel, planning to return to my room and sleep for an hour before having to check out and start driving to the next town. Unfortunately for me, while I walked through the lobby I ran into Adam and Amy. Amy said hi and I gave a slight nod in response. Now this wasn't meant to be rude but I was tired and besides it was difficult to see Amy with someone other than Matt, after they'd been happy and together for so long. However Adam didn't see it as that, nor did he see my slight acknowledgment.

"Amy spoke to you" He said stepping in front of me.

"Yea and I acknowledged her" I replied trying to step around him,

"Do you have a problem with me?"

"Do I have a problem with you? Nah, no problem" I shrugged once again trying to step around the taller man,

"Well why do you seem so eager to get away from me?" Because though I don't have a problem with you, I have a problem with what you did to my best friend and besides ever since you came back from injury you've been a royal jackass. Naturally they weren't the words that came out of my mouth, despite having to bite tongue to stop them emerging from my lips,

"I'm not; I'm just tired and have to head to the next town in a couple of hours. You're just cutting into my sleeping time"

"You know what Shane? You think you're all high and mighty, you think you are so much better than me. But you know what? You're no better you're just the same." That bastard

"I'm nothing like you Adam,"

"Oh yea? Does your little girlfriend agree to that?"

"What I did and what you did are two totally different things"

"Really? Well you want to know what I've been wondering Shaney?" I stared daggers at him, he'd mentioned Jaimie and that was not a good move,

"What I've been wondering is what your little girlfriends reaction was when she received that newspaper article and tape that I sent her way" That bastard! I'm going to… No Shane just walk away, if you hit him now you're a dead man. You're already in Vince's bad books if you hit one of his top heels you're a goner. Eventually I just turned and walked away from the couple. I went upstairs into my hotel room and lay on the bed, I was exhausted but I just couldn't get to sleep, Adam had really stirred me up but there was no way in hell I was going to risk my job for that bastard. Eventually I gave up trying to sleep and decided to take a look at the bible Shawn had given me that morning.

An hour later I had finished reading Genesis and was a chapter into Exodus and I was hooked. Everything I was reading was totally blowing my mind and more often than not I'd stop and re-read a passage over making sure I wrote down any notes or questions I had. Finally there was a knock on the room door and I instructed my visitor to enter my room and only looked up when I heard the door shut once again,

"Hey Jay has taken his rental back do you want to organise yours to be returned so that we can get going? It's just after 3am and we need to be at the next town by morning"

"Huh? Oh yea sure" I muttered still not turning my attention away from the book,

"Shane lets move it now!" The man fondly known as Coach urged grabbing hold of my book,

"The Holy Bible? You know a little bit of biblical knowledge isn't going to impress that girl of yours"

"I'm not trying to impress her. That is Shawn's book so give it back" I replied letting out a slight yawn,

"Did you sleep?" Coach asked all I could do was shake my head slightly, I was finally ready for sleep despite the fact that I was meant to be driving the first leg,

"I'll drive then, Jay's tired but he's at least had some sleep so you can crash in the back seat" Coach replied as he picked up my bad and headed out of the room. I picked up my jacket and other small bag and followed him towards the lift.

10 minutes later the three of us climbed into Coach's car and I had fallen asleep before we were even out of the garage. I dreamt that I was Adam and Jaimie was Eve but instead of her eating the apple it was me and Eve was allowed to stay in the Garden while I was cast out into the wilderness.

"Hey Adam wake up" Jay said shaking my shoulders,

"What?" I asked opening my eyes slightly,

"You know you mumble in your sleep?"

"Huh?"

"Don't worry, its breakfast time. Plus you can drive for a while" Jay said before heading towards the entrance to the Mc Donald's we had parked outside of.

The next week I knocked on Shawn's hotel room door and waited until the older man answered,

"So how much did you get to read?" Shawn asked me as he opened the door.

"Oh I'm about half way through" I replied with a slight smirk that Shawn clearly didn't pick up on,

"What Genesis?"

"No, the whole thing"

"What?"

"I just finished reading the Old Testament"

"You read the entire Old Testament in a week?"

"Yep"

"How much did you skip?"

"None of it… I even have notes" I replied pulling out 2 full notebooks and handing it to him. I couldn't help but smirk as Shawn's jaw hit the ground as he slowly realised that I was telling the truth. He sat down in a spare seat as I started a conversation on the different things that had caught my attention.

Even I knew that simply reading a book, even though it was the bible, was not the best way of learning about a religion or belief system that I had no previous knowledge of. However being in the profession that I was time was not something I had a lot of so bible studies etc. were not very practical. I wanted to learn about a religion hoping to find peace and harmony but I found so much more.

A/N: Ahh, yes my darlings you are seeing correctly, it is I, the mysterious and ever so wonderful Kaz… I haft returnth but alas my faithful and loyal subjects this is only one story. I fear that your hopes may rise and that other frightfully discontinued stories may be filled with my wonderous skill. However dear pheasants thus is the only one that shall cometh out of retirement and be continuthed (ok well I might also work on Love Always). I find it somewhat humorous how when one is so desperately busy, the solitude of a fiction always will distracth them.