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LOTR is mine but Twilight belongs to SM

Chapter 10

It was the beginning of my week. Following the amazing and sexy weekend I had spent with Edward, I found myself ready for my routine. College, college and more college, but the good thing was knowing that somebody was waiting for me, in his house, in my house when the day was over.

My new house had a wonderful blessing upon it. I mean, having sex with Mr Pouty lips, what else could I ask for? Our relationship didn´t have a name, but who cares when you wake up with a beautiful man beside you?

Since the bus stop was very close to my place, I walked there to wait. Minutes later, in front of me, was a yellow car. I had heard the horn from at least two blocks away. The window rolled down and, of course, who else could it be? No one other than Alice could have that kind of car.

"Hey friend! Come on, I'll drive you," Alice said.

"I can´t say no, right?" She nodded. "Okay, but do you have class today?"

"Of course, I had some changes in my hours. By the way, Edward gave me something for you. Check the back," she said while starting to drive.

Turning back to see, I found a bouquet of flowers.

"My brother is a such a romantic sometimes." Alice kept driving as I read his note.

I can´t wait to see you. I feel you, I smell you, even, I can taste you - Edward

Romantic, she said?

"Wow, Bells. Stop blushing." She giggled.

"Shut up and drive." I giggled while I took my phone to answer his note. A dirty card deserves a dirty text.

I can feel you inside me - B

I think a gave a patient a wrong medicine. Bad girl, brownie eyes - E

Thanks for the flowers, miss you - B

You're welcome. Miss you too - E

See you tonight? - B

I hope, the hospital is crazy today - E

"Well, I guess you and my brother are more than just fine." Alice giggled.

"Oh , Alice, he is amazing," I sighed.

"No details, please." I laughed.

"Edward is amazing. He´s perfect and it´s really scary."

"First, Eddie is not perfect, and second, what are you afraid of?"

"I feel...I can´t explain it, it´s beyond words. It´s scary feel how I feel. Does that make any sense?"

"Aww. Bells. I think he feels exactly the same. Edward is in love with you, too." I froze. In love? "Bella, stop thinking. Relax. Enjoy. Everything in the right time."

Like Monday, the next days were all the same. Alice picked me up, we traveled together to the college, and Edward sent me something new. Every time I tried to ask about this situtation, Alice changed the conversation. Weird. But enough is enough. Almost four days without seeing Edward. Just phone calls and text messages - the hospital had kept him busy. And Alice was the designated driver for the week. A week that ended today. I needed some answers now.

"Alice, you want some coffee?"

"Sure, I want to see your house, too."

Once we got it in the house, and with a coffee in our hands, it was the moment to intervine.

"Now, tell me what is going on."

"I don´t know what are you talking about," she answered pretending not to know the topic.

"Alice, I´m not stupid. What is this 'taking Bella to college' all of a sudden? And don´t say you changed your hours because that´s not true. You're driving, just to drive me."

She played with her coffee cup. "Bells, I can´t."

"Yes, you can. And you will tell me now what this stupid situation is. I don´t need a babysitter. I've been using the bus, and that was working out just fine. Edward asked you to take care of me?"

I saw hesitation on her face.

"Alice...all this has to do with Edward´s fear? The driving? He told something about his music but not much. What happened to him?"

She sighed. "I can´t speak about it. It´s not my story to tell."

"I know, but this is driving me crazy. Just tell me something, a hint, a clue, something."

Alice looked at her cup of coffee and sighed. "He had a car accident...well, not him, but there was a car accident."

"I´m confused. It was, but it wasn´t?"

"He didn´t crash the car, but he was in an accident..."

"She died?"

"She?"

"Alice, Edward stopped driving and writing music. It was a woman?"

"Yeah, but not in the way you think, it was more complicated. Since that day, Edward freaks out every time he is on the road. He doesn´t drive, but he is writing again and I think it's because of you."

"He told me that. Who was the girl?"

"Just a bitch."

"Oh, great answer, but I need details."

"Ask him, I can´t say anything more. I just did what Edward asked. I love driving you and traveling with you, but let him explain."

"I´m tired of this. I´m tired of this 'let's distract Bella' games. Why the mystery? It was an accident. Stuff happens."

"I said it was karma, and my brother took the responsibility," I heard her say.

"What? How?"

"Speak with Edward, push him, give him a limit, maybe that will help. Now if you will excuse me, I have a date." She winked.

"Sure, sorry Alice. I didn´t mean to be an ass."

"You love my brother. You don´t have to apolozige." I stared at her. "I guess you know what to do."

I sighed. I was resigned. I felt that I had to push him for answers, even if that meant hurting both of us. Walking to my room, I reached for my phone. I had to do something, right?

Xxxxxx

I always had problems with hospitals, the smell alone made me sick, but now it was a different situation. I reached the door of the office and the nurse let me in.

"Doctor Cullen will be here in a minute, Miss."

"Thank you." I sat down and as I waited for him, I looked around. The office suited Edward; it was simple, his laptop on the desk, books around, and some pictures of his family. I heard the door open and I tried to be calm. I didn´t want to jump him on the first thing.

"Good afternoon, Miss. What I can do for you? It says here that you are suffering from some kind of anxiety. What are your concerns?" He asked without looking at me.

"Well, I have some, hmm, problems, but I´m sure we can figure it out," I said while crossing my arms.

"Bella?" He immediately lifted up his face, smiling. "What are you doing here? I´m not complaining, but I have a patient."

"I know. You are waiting for Marie."

"How do you know?"

"Marie is my middle name. I asked for an appoinment with Doctor Edward Cullen." I winked.

"This is not a good idea Bella. And there are people out there."

"I know, I´m sorry, but it was the only way to get to you. We need to talk, Edward, and now."

"We don´t have time..." I waved my hand and stopped him.

"We do. Now, tell me, what the hell is going on with you, Cullen? Can you tell me why I had a babysitter this week?"

Edward took a seat, running his fingers in his hair.

"Alice was doing me a favor. Actually, she had some changes in her classes, so I asked her. I couldn´t be with you, but I needed someone with you. I wanted to be sure you will be safe."

I was confused. "Are you listening to yourself? Edward, I have been using the bus since I was ten years old. I've been driving since I was sixteen. I´m careful. I don´t need someone with me." Edward went to speak, but I cut him off. "Alice didnt´change her classes, she just drove me as a favor to you. You see this, don't you?"

"Bella..." he sighed.

"You need to stop this. You need to drive again."

"What does this have to do with driving?" He asked, raising the voice, and sounding exasperated.

"Everything. It´s the only way to lose your fear." I stood up, closing the distance between us.

"I´m not afraid," he muttered.

"Yeah, right. Tell that story to somebody else. It´s all about practice. You just need a new start."

"Bella, stop it."

I touched his back, rubbing it, and I could feel how tense he was. "You can do it. I will help you. Just think, for example, what could happen if Rosalie needs somebody to drive her when she is in labor. Emmet can´t, nor Alice, Jasper or me. Or what if something happens to me and I need your help?"

"Bella." His voice was cold and I knew I was pushing him too much.

"You need to defeat that fear. You can´t live like this."

"Stop it," he said, taking a step away from me. "It´s not fear, and it´s none of your damn business."

"I just want to help."

"Help me? Why? Because you want to feel good about yourself? Because I´m a freak, and I´m not worth it?" His words crushed my chest, broke my heart. That bitch made him believe he wasn´t worth it?

"Edward, it is nothing like that -"

"Don´t." He cut me off. He was definetly angry. I had pushed him too much. I took a deep breath. I needed to explain, make him understand.

"Look, I want to help you. Not because you are a 'freak' or I want to feel good. You're worth it. You're worth it to me. Don´t you understand? I´m here for you Edward." I breathed out. Edward wouldn't look at me.

"You think I´m doing this for me? Fine! You're right." He turned around. "I´m selfish, because I want you, because I love you, Edward".

Oh, I was shaking from having said that. Edward was standing in front of me, frozen.

"You shouldn´t have said that."

"I know. It's scary being out of your comfort zone, isn´t it? I won´t take it back though, because it´s true." I took my bag and was walking to the door when I heard him.

"Bella, please, let me..." I turned around to look at him, but my vision was couldy with tears.

"Edward, I don´t know what happened. I don´t know what that bitch did to you, but I´m not her, we are not the same. This isn't about the driving, I don´t care if you don´t have a car, it´s about what she did and what she is still doing to you." I turned without expecting an answer and opened the door.

"Bella, let me call a cab or something. It´s raining."

"I´m driving. Don´t worry, I can take care of myself." The nurse came to the door, with a patient and I started to walk away faster. I needed to get out of there before I jumped in his arms. I knew he was in pain, his look had said it.

"Bella!" I heard him yell, but I didn´t turn around.

Edward was right, it was raining, but I didn´t care about the rain. I started my truck, just out of habit. I was still crying. It hurts that Edward thought that way. It hurts me that he did not trust my feelings. The rain was heavy and I slowed down the pace. My phone rang and I immediately recognized the tone for Edward and decided to ignore it. I needed to get home, get a shower, sleep and forget all that happened today. My phone rang again. I was frustrated.

"Edward, you can stop now!" I yelled.

"I see that things didn´t go well with my brother," I heard Alice say.

I sighed. "I pushed him too much, Alice. I lost him." I said between sobs.

"Where are you?"

"Driving home."

"And talking on the phone?"

"I´m not stupid. You're on speaker."

Suddenly there was something in the road, but I couldn´t see clearly. The rain was heavy and making it hard to see.

"Damn it!" I yelled.

A deer was in the middle of the road. I did some maneuvers to avoid the deer, but ended up losing control of the truck.

"Bella, what`s going on?"

I couldn´t answer. I tried to stop the truck or to slow it down, but the road was very slippery. I slid off the road, and crashed into some bushes. Alice, still on the phone, was screaming my name. When everything stopped, I felt my scalp where I had gotten a strong blow to the head. I lowered my hand. Blood. I hate blood, the smell even worse.

"Bella!" I heard Alice yell, right before I passed out.

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Ohhh Bella! *shakes head* What do you think is going to do Edward now? Too soon for an "I love you"?

See you soon!