A/N: This chapter will be longer. I also changed the spacing after a suggestion.
I don't own Harry Potter. Anyway enjoy
Padfoot woke to see Remus back to normal. Sirius let out a sigh and a soft hissing noise when he saw Remus. "Oh, Merlin. Don't worry Rem. You'll be just fine," Sirius said as he pulled out his wand and put a healing spell on him before he shook him gently. Remus opened his eyes with a groan. Sirius smiled. "Good morning Remus," Sirius said as he helps Remus to his feet. Once Remus was on his feet Sirius helped Remus up to his room. Remus doesn't really speak after the full moon. Sirius did not care though he liked the silence. It calms him and it might calm Remus as well. Sirius led Remus to his bed where he closed his eyes once again. "Well, I'll see you later Moony sleep well," Sirius said sadly as he walked out of the room closing the door behind him.
Hermione was the first to wake. However, she woke from a nightmare. The nightmare was about Remus. Hermione shook it off. However, a few minutes later Harry also woke with a nightmare. Only his seems to be more haunting then hers. she knew that hers was not real because she knew that Remus was ok. She could not say that for Harry. For he looked like his was real, just like Remus when he was having his nightmares. Harry was breathing heavy and he closed his eyes. However, when he woke from the nightmare, he put his face in the pillow like he was trying to muffle his screams. Hermione did not know why he did that, nor did she want to. "Harry?" She asked as she got out of her bed and walked over to him. Harry though did not seem to notice her when she sat on his bed. "Harry," she said again as she gently put a hand on his arm. Harry looked at her. Hermione's little heart broke when she saw tears in her friend's eyes.
"'Mione?" Harry said with tears in his voice. Hermione nodded and looked at him. "I want Sirius," he cried. Hermione nodded unsure what to say. Hermione took a breath and asked:
"Can I hug you?" Harry nodded and wrapped his little arms around his friend. Hermione hugged him back for a while.
It was around mid-afternoon when Remus opened his eyes. Remus let out a groan of pain as he looks around. "Well, last night went better than I…. wait I was wrong. Oh, Merlin," Remus said under his breath as Sirius walked in.
"Hello," Sirius said as he walked over to him. However, Remus only nodded. "How are you feeling?" Sirius asked as he sat down next to Remus's bed. Remus sighed and looked at him.
"Everything is on fire. Last night was well, one of the worse. How did it go?" Remus asked as he closed his eyes in pain. Sirius nodded as he thought.
"Well, I think I went well. You did bite yourself and hurt yourself but not too bad. You always feel this way after every full moon. The wolf was crying and howling a lot," Remus nodded.
"Hermione. I think he misses Hermione. Maybe James and Lily as well. I'm not sure," Remus sighed and put a hand on his eyes and ran them down his scarred face. "What do I do for the next full moon?" Remus asked after a while. Sirius, however, did not answer all he did was let out a sigh. Remus sighed also. "What are you going to do for Harry's birthday?" Remus asked changing the subject. Sirius had a big. 'I can't wait to tell you smile' on his face.
"Oh, I'm going to spoil the pup. He deserves it after everything he went through and, and everything I… I went through," Sirius said tripping over his words and pausing a lot. Remus smiled a little at his friend who did not deserve to go through all of that in five years. Sirius smiled back as the two friends fell quiet.
Harry was happy when Dumbledore told them that Sirius was coming over to pick up Harry and Hermione. When Sirius appeared in Dumbledore's office. Harry ran right to him. "Padfoot!" He cried as he ran up to him and Sirius took him into his arms.
"Hello, cub. Have a nice day yesterday?" Sirius asked as he hugged his Godson. Harry told him everything with a smile. However, Sirius saw fear in his eyes once again. "Did you have another nightmare?" Sirius asked once Harry was done telling him everything. Harry simply nodded as he buried his head in Sirius's shoulder. Hermione watched this and looks at Sirius.
"Hello," she said in a shy, scared, tired voice. Sirius looked at her and smiled a little.
"Hello," he said back. He then saw the fear in her eyes. He knew that it was for Remus. So, he added: "Remus is fine. He's a little sick, but he's just fine," Hermione let out a breath and smiled a little. "Ready to go home?" Hermione nodded as she took Sirius's hand. Sirius then walked over to the fireplace. Before he left, he nodded to Dumbledore. Dumbledore nodded back with a smile. Hermione waved and walked with Sirius to the fireplace.
"Thank you, sir," Hermione said as she waved. This made Sirius smile as he stepped into the fireplace and said:
"Lupin Cabin," soon Harry, Sirius, and Hermione were all gone in green fire.
Remus was asleep by the time that the others got there. Sirius looked down at his Godson who was sleeping also. He looked down at Hermione who was tired also. "Alright. You two had a big morning. Let's put you down for a nap," Sirius said to Hermione who nodded and ran up the stairs. This made Sirius laugh. The dog animagus then rolled his eyes and followed Hermione. "Ok, Hermione have a nice nap. I'm going to leave for a while. Don't worry," he said when he saw fear in Hermione's eyes. "I will be back around dinner time. Remus will be awake by then," Hermione nodded as she crawled into bed. Sirius smiled and tucked her in.
"Sirius," Sirius turned around for he was almost out the door.
"Yes, Hermione?" Sirius said as he shifted Harry in his arms.
"Thank you for looking after Remus," Hermione said as she closed her eyes. Sirius smiled nodding then he left the room with a pop.
Remus was dreaming again. It was not a nightmare. Thank Merlin for that. However, this dream was a memory. This never happens to the werewolf, but it was. Remus was on the train for the first time. He was nervous. However, he was glad that he gets to go. The eleven-year-old let out a tired sigh. the full moon was the night before, but he did not care. He was going to Hogwarts. Remus was reading his favorite muggle book that his mom gave him for his birthday when the door opened. In the doorway stood two boys. They both had black hair. However, the shorter one had gray eyes. While the other had hazel. They were the same age as Remus. However, Remus was reading and did not look at them. "Can we sit here. The compartment that we were in was full of my family?" Remus heard some disgust in his voice. Remus put the book down to reveal the scars on his face. However, he did not hear them ask why he has scars. "I'm Sirius Black and that's James Potter," Sirius said as Remus nodded. James and Sirius walked in and sat down across from the young werewolf. He wanted to speak to them, but his voice was ruff and full of pain at the moment.
"What's your name?" James asked. Remus let out a sigh and cleared his throat as best he could and said:
"Remus Lupin. I'm a first year. You guys?" Remus asked. He wished that he could slap himself for how stupid that question was.
"Were first years too," Sirius said. As he said this Remus could see a big smile on his face. "I'm a pure-blood. What are you?" Both James and Remus could hear the disgust in his voice once again, but they paid no attention to it.
"Half-Blood, Mum's a muggle dad's a wizard," Remus said voice hoarse. Unlike Sirius's voice, both James and Sirius paid attention to Remus's.
"Are you ok?" James asked face full of worry. This shocked the werewolf. He only just met him, and he's worried about him. Remus let out a sigh and nodded. "Ok then. I'm a Pure-blood," James said with a smile.
Remus woke with not a start or a scream but a smile. However, it was a sad smile. "James, Lily. I hope you can see what a fine young boy Harry is now," Remus let out a sigh and got out of bed. He looked at his cane that was by his bed. He smiled and took it into his hands. He then slowly made his way to the stares where he heard Sirius talking to Hermione and Harry. He heard Harry talking as well. It warmed his old wolf heart to know that the son of his best friend was being well cared for. Well now anyway.
"Really, I get a birthday?" Remus heard Harry ask. Although it was cute to hear Harry asked this its broke Remus's heart because this is going to be the first birthday Harry had ever had since James and Lily were alive.
"Yes, pup," He heard Sirius say as he made his way down the stairs. Sirius had a smile on his face when Remus walked in. "Hello, Remus. Sleep well and do you still feel like you're on fire?" Remus sighed and shook his head.
"No, and yes I did sleep well. I did not have a nightmare. It was a memory about the first time we met on the train," Remus said with a smile as he looks at Hermione who was drinking and reading while Harry was looking at his hot cocoa. The friends were in the living room spending time with one another. Remus wished that they could have done this in the past or with James and Lily. Remus got lost in thoughts and the sound of Harry beating Sirius in wizard's chess. Hermione was watching them with Intrigue. 'She just loves to learn.' Remus thought with a smile. Remus was reading the same book that he was reading on the train that day. Hermione saw it and walked over to the werewolf.
"Jekyll and Hyde?" She questioned. Remus looked at her and nodded. "What is it about?" She asked as she sat down next to him. Remus smiled and nodded.
"Well the book is a little dark for your young age cub," Remus said as he put the book into his lap. Hermione let out a sigh and shook her head.
"Ok, I'll make sure to read it when I get older. When will that be?" She asked making Remus laugh. Sirius looked up from the chess board and smiled.
Fifteen minutes later Sirius stood with Harry in his arms. "Right we have to go. Harry and I have an appointment. Right, Harry?" Harry nodded as Remus let out a sigh.
"You're still going to those?" Remus asked with another sigh. Sirius nodded.
"Well, Harry was abused and I…. I still have a hard time with things. Azkaban does things, Moon," Sirius said sadly. Remus nodded.
"I hope this will be the last one," Remus said as he pulled Hermione into his arms with a children's book in his hands. Hermione smiled.
"I wish it was Moon, but it's not," Sirius said sadly. "We been through a lot Remus," Sirius said before he nodded to Hermione. "Harry, are you going to say good-bye to Hermione?" Harry smiled and said:
"Good-bye 'Mione," Harry waved with a shy smile. Sirius smiles and waved to Hermione.
"Bye Remus wish us luck. I…I hope that they can…...help with my speaking. Azkaban really did the…. the damage on my….my voice. I…. I hope that I can…get my voice back," Sirius said. Remus and Hermione nodded sadly as they heard Sirius trip over his words. "Well, I will see…. you at Harry's birthday," Sirius added as he and Harry left with a pop.
It was dinner time now and Remus and Hermione ate in their usual silence. They both were lost in their own thoughts. Remus could not stop thinking about Sirius. He was worried about him. Sirius has never told him about his voice and what Azkaban did to him. Remus let out a sigh as he looks at his cub who was eating. She, herself looks like she is lost in her own thoughts as well. Remus wished that he knew what she was thinking about but again he does not. "Well Hermione," Remus said after a while. Hermione looked up at him. He still looked sick and tired, but he looks better than before.
"Yes, Moony?" She asked as she went back to eating.
"What else do you want to do for the rest of the night?" Remus asked as he ran a hand over his graying hair. Hermione thought for a moment and then she shrugged.
"I don't know Remus she said with a shy smile. Remus waved it off.
"That's ok cub," Remus hummed. "We can play chess," Hermione smiled and nodded.
July 31st Harry Potter's birthday. Hermione and Remus were getting ready to go. Well, it was mostly Remus that was getting ready. That does not matter though. "Ready to go cub?" Remus said once he had Harry's present in his hand. Hermione nodded and she stood up and ran over to Remus. Remus smiled and picked her up. He then walked over to the Floo and he said: "Number 12 Grimmauld place," soon the werewolf and his cub arrived in the living room right as the party started. They were right on time.
"Hello…...Remus, Hermione," Sirius said with a smile. Remus looked at him sadly.
'He still has trouble speaking.' Remus thought as he put Hermione down. Hermione giggled and ran over to were Harry was playing. Remus looked around once he sat down next to some staff from Hogwarts. Remus was glad that it was a small party. He knew that Harry would have been overwhelmed by all the people. Remus smiled at Sirius. "Where's the birthday boy?" Remus asked with a smile. However, Sirius saw sadness in his eyes. Sirius smiled ignoring the sad look in his werewolf friend's eyes.
"Well, I think he and Hermione are running…. around somewhere…. I'll go get him," Sirius got off his chair leaving the werewolf alone with Hagrid. The half-giant smiled at the werewolf. Remus smiled back. Remus liked Hagrid he's not sure why though.
"Hello Remus," Remus looked at Hagrid who was looking at his birthday present that he got for Harry.
"Hello, Hagrid. It's been a while," Remus said as Sirius, Harry, and Hermione came running in. Dumbledore followed them.
"I found them…... they were playing….in Harry's room," Sirius said as he cleared his throat. Remus smiled at Harry.
"Happy birthday Harry," Remus said as he ruffled Harry's black hair. Harry giggled making everyone in the room smile.
"Who wants cake?" Sirius said with a smile. Harry's eyes grew wide.
"I get cake?" Harry said jumping up and down. Harry was being cute but everyone in the room had a mix of anger and sadness for 'The-Boy-Who-Lived.' Sirius nodded and brought out the most beautiful Gryffindor-quidditch cake everyone has ever seen. Sirius started to sing. Soon the whole house started to. Harry had tears in his eyes once the song was over. "Thank you," he muttered as Sirius lit the candles with his wand.
"Make a wish Harry," Harry closed his eyes and blew out the fire. "What…. What did you wish for?" Sirius asked as Remus cut the cake. Harry smiled at him and shook his head.
"He can't tell you right?" Hermione said with a smile. Harry smiled back.
"She's right Padfoot," Harry said laughing. Remus laughed as he handed out the cake.
After cake, it was present time. Harry could not believe it. He was getting presents. The first one he got he carefully unwrapped the paper. This was the first present that he remembers getting so he wanted to be careful. Sirius watched with a smile. However, it hid the anger and sadness that he felt inside. When Harry opened it, he had a smile on his face. "Wow," the now six-year-old said. The present was from Hagrid. Harry giggled again as he hugged the plush dragon. Sirius smiled at Harry.
"What do we say, Harry?" Sirius said as he cleared his throat once more.
"Thank you. I love it." Harry said as he hugged the plush. Remus smiled as the presents were opened. Harry got some new toys from Sirius. A new book from Hermione. However, the present from Dumbledore, Sirius and Remus were the best things Harry has ever gotten. The first gift was a picture of him as a baby with his parents. Harry hugged the thing as if it was going to disappear. The next thing was a plush stag. He loved the story of Moony, Padfoot, and Progs. So, Sirius and Remus both got him both a plush stag, wolf and dog. "Thank you," jumped off his chair and ran around the dining room hugging everyone.
When the party was over everyone left leaving only Remus, Sirius, Harry and Hermione alone in the house. However, Harry and Hermione were asleep. Remus and Sirius were drinking and laughing over something. "That went well. I…. I was so…. nervous about…. today Moon," Sirius said before he took a sip. Remus nodded and took a sip himself.
"Harry seems happy and Hermione had a good time," Remus said as he put his mug down with a sigh. "Sirius, can I be blunt?" Sirius nodded as he took a sip from his mug. Remus let out a sigh and said: "Why did you not tell me about your speaking problem and when did it start?" Remus looked away from his friend for a while. Sirius saw this and sighed.
"Not long. It's…It's better than before. When I got out of Azkaban I could not speak at all. I was in the hospital for a week. I…...I don't want to talk about it," Remus nodded in understanding.
"Thank you for telling me, Siri. I think it's time for Hermione and me to go home now," Sirius smiled a little and nodded.
"Ok. Thank you for understanding…...Moon," Sirius said as he took a long swing of his drink. Remus stood up from his chair. Before he left the room, he walked over to Sirius and put a hand on his shoulder.
"It will be fine Sirius. I know it," Sirius looked up at him and nodded. However, he did not say anything. Remus sighed and left the room to pick up his sleeping cub and then back home.
A/N: Wow that was a fun chapter to write. Tell me what you think. I'm wiring a story that will explain what is going on with Sirius and Harry. However, I do not know when I will post it. I'm still working on it. That story will tell Sirius's side to this story. Anyway, see you next time. -Captain Voxland