Bee

"No." I whispered as Courtney collapsed on the ground.

I dropped to my knees and cried into my hands.

I should have just taken out the drive, I could have saved her.

I'm an idiot!

I no longer cared if I had to stay in Washington DC forever, I just wanted Courtney.

Cassidie kneeled beside me and rubbed my back while barking orders to the boys.

The two guys knocked out the four guards single handedly.

Why hadn't they done that EARLIER?

Don't ask me how they made it passed everyone, cause I couldn't tell you.

I was a shell filled with sadness, loss, and grief.

The next thing I knew, I was flying through the forest.

It would have been a successful looking mission, had Courtney's body been sitting up and tall, chatting and laughing with everyone.

It wasn't though, it laid draped across a wolf, limp and lifeless.

We neared the clearing, and Layna, Cassidie, and I got off the wolves.

I walked into the clearing, Embry wouldn't let me within ten feet of Courtney's body.

Stupid wolf.

Dad and mom came out happily.

"Oh, thank the lord your all safe!" Mom exclaimed.

"Aunt Leah." Cassidie said sadly.

"Oh, no. Is she…?" Mom couldn't finish the horrible thought.

"I'm sorry." Layna said choking back a sob.

"And its all her fault." Embry yelled angrily.

"What?" Dad asked.

"Its all Bee's fault." Embry advanced on me. "If you had just taken out the drive, Courtney would be alive."

I stayed silent, but that only enraged Embry further.

He grabbed my shoulders and shook me hard, he probably didn't mean it to be that hard but his own tremendous trembling didn't help.

"DO YOU EVEN HEAR ME? YOU KILLED COURTNEY!" Embry screamed.

"Embry…" Someone said.

"No." I said to whoever it was. "Embry, I did kill Courtney. I didn't mean to. I didn't want to. Believe me when I say I wish it was me. I really, really do. But they didn't get me first. And if things had been any different, if I had been the one to have gone into the security room, I would be dead. I can't change the past, and neither can you. I'm sorry."

Embry calmed down enough so he could let me go.

"Excuse me." I murmured.

I turned towards the forest and walked, no one stopped me.

I heard screaming and recognized it as Seth.

He was probably trying to follow me, but dad was probably holding him back.

I walked to the beach and let the waves lap at my ankles, staring at nothing.

I couldn't get the sound of gun shot out of my mind,

God, why didn't I just take out the drive?

Stupid, stupid, stupid!

"Stupid." I muttered to myself.

Dang, now I'm talking to myself?

I've officially lost it.

I walked up the beach a little and sat down, still looking at the ocean.

I hated my life.

I hated my parents, my real ones, not Sam and Leah.

I hated the military.

I hated the orphanage.

I hated the world.

But most of all, I hated myself.

I killed the closest thing to a sister I had, besides Cassidie and Layna.

I did destroy them though.

It was a dumb idea in the first place.

I heard Seth come up and he sat down next to me.

Not saying anything, he pulled me on to his lap.

I put my arms around his neck and cried into his shoulder.

The sun soon set, and I cried myself to sleep.

Seth

I felt completely and utterly helpless as I watched Bee walk into the forest alone; shaken, broken, devastated, and alone.

I tried to go after her, but Sam kept me where I was.

"How the HELL does she have the right to be upset? COURTNEY JUST DIED, she was MY imprint!" Embry yelled.

"Dude, Bee has just a right to be upset as you do." Brady said.

"Cassidie, do you think Courtney was able to see the future or something?" Layna asked.

"What? Of course not, that would've been given to Bee." Cassidie said.

"Yeah, but that comment she made. And you and I both know how Courtney actually acts when she has a gun pointed to her head, if she doesn't know the outcome. She goes nuts. This time she was…too calm, like she knew she was going to die." Layna said.

"What is with you chicks? Do you always have to be in some sort of trouble?" Paul asked.

The two girls looked at each other.

"Pretty much." Layna said at the same time Cassidie said "Yeah."

"Oh, god." Brady sighed.

"When did Courtney ever have a gun pointed to her head besides earlier?" I asked.

"You don't want to know." Cassidie said.

"Will Bee tell me?" I asked.

"Um…you could ask her, but given the recent events she would probably kill you." Layna said.

"How could Bee kill him?" Sam asked laughing.

"Layna, you idiot. And I thought I was supposed to be the idiot." Cassidie sighed.

"Has she killed someone before?" Leah asked in awe.

"Killed, no. Does she possess the ability to kill? Totally." Layna said.

If we were in a cartoon, all of our jaws would have been on the floor.

"Yeah, yeah, she doesn't look like she could cause she doesn't do it often. She has telekinesis! She could literally stop your heart or brain or anything." Cassidie said.

"I never thought about that." Leah said.

"She doesn't like talking about it. It actually makes her the most dangerous out of all of us, why do you think she tries to be as mellow as possible? She used to be a nut." Layna laughed.

"A nut?" Brady asked.

"When we first met Bee, god did she have anger management issues. Jesus Christ, she couldn't go like ten seconds without yelling about something." Cassidie said.

"Of course, that was after being literally ripped from the three people who you solely provide for. She probably wasn't that bad usually." Layna corrected glaring at Cassidie.

"Well, I'm going to go…try to find Bee." I said.

"Yeah, try would imply actually having a chance." Paul scoffed.

"Bee's reasonable, she's not going to go and hide, but Embry, I suggest you try to keep together as much as you can. Bee's going to feel horrible for almost the rest of her life. If she's anything like me when something like this happens, possibly a little suicidal. I know it hurts. We all feel that way. Talking to Bee will help though." Layna suggested.

"Yeah, talking to my imprints killer. Great idea." Embry said sarcastically.

The skies got majorly darker.

"Shut up before you get electrocuted. NOT FUN." Cassidie admonished.

"Bee will understand at least partly how you feel, she's known her since she was two." Layna said forcing to keep her voice steady.

I walked away before I could hear Embry, I needed to find Bee.

I found her on the beach.

I plopped her onto my lap and she sobbed her little heart out.

The sun set, she doze off, and I took her home.

Have you ever been in a dead girl's room?

Particularly a dead girl you knew?

Its a kind of disturbing, but mostly depressing.

All of the pictures of her being happy, all of her things.

I felt like an intruder into a happy life cut short.

I wondered what they were going to do with her stuff.

Embry would probably keep something.

Poor Embry.

I loved Bee with every fiber in my body, and I knew Embry felt the same way.

I would die if Bee did.

When that thought crossed my mind, a feeling of dread filled my heart.

Embry was stupid and impulsive in a crisis.

Oh snap.

A/N:

Yeah, I know you probably hate me now for two reasons:

A- I killed Courtney

B- Another stinking cliffie

I usually always write a happy ending though, so I needed a little unhappiness. I also just finished Mockingjay, so blame Courtney's death on Suzanne Collins. Seriously, like everyone dies in the end!

OK, well, adiós but first a thanks to one special reviewer who is reading this all the way in Belgium, Soultosqueeze you rock!

BYE