I AM SO SO SORRY I HAVEN'T UPDATED IN FOREVER! But I have my reasons! The internet has been gone for sooo long and my dog has been really sick and I was seeing my girlfriend (we're in a long distance relationship so we don't see each an awful lot) and everything has just been crazy! SORRY!

Thank you to everyone who reviewed, you all seemed pretty excited about finding out who the admirer is but dont worry about poor little Carlitos, I have plaaaaaaans!

Anyway, on with the chapter...

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Carlos woke up with a soft smile, his eyes still closed, he rolled over, wanting to snuggle Kendall but when he hit the ground, he remembered. He remembered meeting his secret admirer -Drew. Remembered running away. Remembered feeling torn and conflicted. Remembered his father taking him back to his room, sitting him on his bed and listened to him talk, holding him while he cried until he fell asleep.

Carlos sighed, running a hand through his hair. What was he supposed to do?

There was Kendall, who Carlos has known his whole life, who he knows everything about and has spent most of his life with. How could he not love Kendall? But, he also loved James and Logan, they were his brothers. What if he was just confusing what he felt for Kendall because he just wanted someone to be his, because he wanted to belong to someone? And then there was Drew, who Carlos never met before yesterday but has been doing all these wonderful things for him in the last few days, making him feel special, loved and wanted. How could he not have these feelings for Drew?

Carlos huffed as he stood up and sat himself back on his bed. He always did hate love triangles.

There was a knock on the door before it opened, Logan sticking his head in with a sad smile.

"Hey, bud." He said before walking in completely, closing the door behind him. "How you doing?"

"Remember that time when we were watching one of the Twilight movies and I said I would love to have a hot werewolf and vampire fight over me?" Carlos said and Logan nodded. "I changed my mind. This sucks. I have a new respect for Bella."

Logan sighed, sitting down next to him and patted him on the back. "I know, man. Well, I really don't know. Honestly, this whole situation is kind of bizarre for me." Carlos chuckled in response, shaking his head.

"I don't know what to do, Logan." He said, after a short moment's silence.

"I know, but you'll figure it out. You're smarter than you look." Carlos smiled a little at that and Logan took pride that he could make a miserable and confused Carlos smile. "I'm always here if you want to talk about it if you need to."

"Really?" Carlos asked with a sceptical look, Logan nodded in response. "But you always get really awkward when I talk about boys."

"I know," Logan sighed. "But I think you could really use a friend right now and I'd rather listen to you talk than hear Kendall complain about Drew forever, so James is stuck with him."

Carlos laughed, he honestly did have the best friends in the world. There was a knock on the door again, this time, James sticking his head in.

"There's someone at the door for you, Carlos."

Getting off the bed and leaving the room, down the hall with Logan and James following, Carlos' stomach was in knots. He really didn't want to see Kendall, not now at least. But looking around the living room and kitchen, he saw everyone -giving him sympathetic looks- but not Kendall. With a sigh of relief, he opened the front door, eyes widening when he saw Drew holding a bouquet of daisies.

Taking a deep breath, Drew said "Hi."

"Hi."

"I, erm, got you these." He said, holding the flowers out for Carlos to take, which he did. "Because er, remember on Day 3? They mean cheerfulness. I thought you might need a bit of cheering up."

Carlos smiled, though he really didn't want to.

"I'm sorry.." Drew said.

Twisting his face in confusion, Carlos asked, "What're you sorry for?"

"I can't imagine how you must be feeling." He said with a sigh. "I really didn't want you to find out that way and I had no idea about Kendall liking you and if I did, I would have backed off and this whole thing just turned into a big mess and I'm sorry."

"You don't have to be sorry." Carlos told him kindly.

Drew smiled. "Would you like to maybe get breakfast with me?"

He thought about it for a moment before deciding, "Yeah, I'd love to. Let me just go get dressed. You can come in if you want." Drew stepped inside, closing the door behind him as Carlos put the flowers on the table before disappearing down the hall. Carlos quickly changed into a pair of jeans and shirt before brushing his teeth and throwing on a jacket and slipping his shoes on.

"Okay, I'm ready." He said as he walked back towards Drew. Carlos was slightly surprised, he was expecting James and Logan to be glaring at him for trying to take Carlos from Kendall, or his father giving him a disapproving look or at the very least, he expected Drew to look uncomfortable because that would have been a bit normal. But James and Carlos just sat and ate their breakfast, his dad was drinking his coffee and Mrs Knight was having a friendly

conversation with Drew.

When Carlos walked in, Drew looked over at him and smiled. "Great, let's go." He said. It wasn't until the door to 2J was firmly closed behind them until Drew said "You look nice by the way."

"Thanks, you too." Carlos said with a smile.

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Drew took Carlos to a little café around the corner. It looked like Christmas threw up in here, with at least four different sized Christmas trees around and fake presents underneath, wreaths were scattered around, fake snow was stuck to the windows with snowflakes and angel stickers. The tables had red or green covers with cinnamon scented candles in the middle and the chairs had red bows stuck to the back. The room was dimly with the candle lit tables, a few walls lamps scattered around and a fake fire crackling in the corner.

It was all very cosy in Carlos' opinion.

Drew took them to a table in the corner and smiled at Carlos across the table.

"It's nice here." Carlos said as he took another look around. "Kind of cosy."

"I thought so too."

There was a moment of awkward silence for a few minutes until the waitress came over to take their drink order. "I'll just have coffee." Drew said with a polite smile.

"Erm, hot chocolate." Carlos said at last. She gave them a smile before walking away. Not wanting to sit in another awkward silence, he asked, "So er, you said you moved to the PalmWoods two weeks ago, where did you come from?"

"This really small town in Oklahoma." Drew answered.

"Wow, LA must be a real change, huh?"

"Oh yeah, it's insane here. But I love it. I'd never even left Oklahoma before now."

"So like, what do you do?"

"I'm a dancer."

"That's so cool." Carlos said enthusiastically.

Drew laughed, "Yeah, it's great. And you're in boy band Big Time Rush."

"Yeah and it's so fun-" Carlos went on to tell Drew about life in BTR, the conversation often changing to whatever popped into their minds. They learned about each other, Drew found out about Carlos' love for hockey and about his strong beliefs in ghosts and Carlos found out that Drew was the biggest Harry Potter fan there was and that he practically lived on sugar cookies. It was safe to say that Carlos had fun and that he really liked Drew, a lot. But that didn't make things any easier for him because secretly, he really hoped Drew would have turned out to be an asshole that he just wanted to slap. But he wasn't. He was perfect. He was funny, he was cute, he was charming, he was silly and he made Carlos feel good inside.

When they had finished eating and was just finishing their refilled drinks, Carlos finally asked the question that had been bugging him since he got here. "Do you mind if I ask about how you're feeling about all of this?"

Drew sighed, like he was anticipating this question. "I've been in better situations." He said with a fake chuckle. Carlos gave him a sad smile as he reached across the table and held his hand, encouraging him to continue. "I don't like it, that's for sure. But I feel like I'm interfering. You and Kendall have been friends for years and you guys probably feel like you have a lot of feelings for each other and I'm just stepping in on all that. But, I think I might have a chance, you know. And if there's even just a bit of hope that I could make you mine, well -I'm not going down without a fight."

Carlos nodded, not really sure how to respond but understanding what he meant.

"What about you? Surely, this must be getting to you. Especially how you ran away last night." Drew said, giving his hand a squeeze.

"It sucks. I don't even know what I'm feeling, what I'm going to do and I just, hate this whole thing. I don't want to hurt anybody which I know I'm going to have to do sooner or later because I can't keep leading you both on so I have to make a decision and it's not fair to you two. It's just... Not fair."

Drew squeezed his hand again, "It's okay. I understand. But I'll wait for you."

"I can't ask you to do that."

"You don't have to ask." He said with a soft side smile. "You're special Carlos, I'll wait forever and a day for you and you wouldn't even have to ask."

Carlos' heart was beating rapidly and he felt like a million butterflies were in his stomach and trying to break free. How could someone say such perfect things and make Carlos feel like this? And how could he be real? He didn't know what to say so instead said, "Should we get going?"

Drew nodded, pulling out his wallet and put some money down, leaving a good tip for the waitress. They walked back to the PalmWoods in silence, their hands brushing against each other as they went. When they reached the lobby, Carlos stopped when he saw Kendall sitting by the pool with James.

"I'll just go up to my room," Drew said, noticing the look on Carlos' face. "I'll see you later, yeah?"

Carlos nodded, turning to face him. "Thanks for breakfast."

"No problem." Drew grinned before Carlos pulled him into a tight hug. He hugged back, of course and held on tight for a few seconds, until Carlos stepped back.

"See you, Drew." Carlos said with a smile.

"See you." And with that, Drew left. Carlos turned to face Kendall and saw bottle green eyes on him. With a sigh and his heart pounding in his chest, Carlos walked towards him.

Kendall sat up and pulled his sunglasses off. "Hey." He said with a sort of sad smile.

Carlos smiled back, sitting at the foot of the lounger. "Hey."

"I'm gonna go get a smoothie." James said before getting up and walking away.

After a moment, both boys yelled, "I'm sorry."

"Wait, what are you sorry for?" Kendall asked, furrowing his bushy eyebrows in confusion.

"None of this is fair to you." Carlos said. "And when I met Drew, I was supposed to tell him that it was sweet of him but I still love you. I shouldn't have to think about it and I'm sorry."

"Carlos," Kendall said with a sigh, taking Carlos' hand and holding it in his lap. "You have nothing to be sorry for. I understand why you're confused and you can think about it for as long as you need to. I'll wait."

"That's still not fair to you, though." Carlos said and Kendall kissed the back of his hand.

"I don't care. I love you and I'll wait for you. I'll always wait for you." Kendall said softly, making Carlos' heart stutter in his chest.

"I love you, too." Carlos said, smiling slightly.

Kendall smiled and kissed Carlos' temple, whispering "I know" before he got up and walked away.

After a moment -when his heart had settled down and James had returned with a blue smoothie- Carlos groaned, running his hands over his face as he fell back on the lounger.

"You okay there, buddy?" James asked.

"These boys are gonna kill me."

Sorry it's so short and not the best chapter, but the next one will be much better, I can't wait!

Obviously my question is: Who do you think Carlos will choose?