Forbidden Emotions
By: SoulSister
Rated: PG-13
Disclaimer: Check chapters 1-8B if you really want to read it. I can't be bothered to write it anymore.
First off, I'd like to say thank you to a reviewer called Lexis, who made me realize how far I've gotten behind in writing this fic and I apologize to anyone else who was waiting. I should've written a note or something, but at one point I thought nobody would care anyway. I guess I was wrong.
So, here's the next chapter and dedicating it to Lexis who helped put me back on track. Enjoy ^^.
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Chapter Nine - Not Gonna Happen
~ Tomoyo's POV ~
" And then he did what?! " Needless to say, I was at the moment, quite shocked at what I was hearing." No way! You must be kidding me! " At this Sakura shook her head and grinned.
" Iie Tomoyo-chan, I'm not. I know it doesn't seem that believable at the moment but he actually did apologize to me. And he was being so nice too; like a completely different person " she told me, practically gushing and I did my best not to groan.
Syaoran Li, acting nice? Ha! That was something I'd only ever believe if I saw it for myself and I seriously doubted that I ever would.
" Are you sure you weren't imagining things or something Sakura-chan? That doesn't sound like something Li, of all people, would do ". I'd come to the conclusion that because I couldn't go around calling him 'that jerk' and I absolutely refused to use his first name, I'd simply call him Li.
" Oh, come on Tomoyo-chan! We barely even know him. At least get the chance to know him better before you judge him " Sakura told me.
' Been there, done that ' I was tempted to say, but remembered I wasn't going to tell Sakura that and stayed quiet.' God, why can't Sakura just get over this guy? She barely even knows him and already she's mooning over him ' I thought disgustedly.
But as long as Syaoran never found out, Sakura could go on having her little fantasies about him without getting hurt, then he'd leave and everything would hopefully go back to normal.
" So are you going to give him a chance or what? " Sakura asked, breaking me out of my reverie and I realized she was still waiting for an answer.
I considered my answer carefully for a moment, before nodding my head with a sigh. " Alright Sakura-chan, fine. I give up. I'll give him one more chance, but *only* one. And if he blows it, then it's too damn bad for him " I added, with a hint of contempt in my voice.
Whether Sakura noticed or not, she didn't seem to care as she reached over and pulled me into a huge bear hug." Arigatou gozaimasu, Tomoyo-chan! You have no idea how much this means to me! " She exclaimed happily.
" Do itashimashite, Sakura-chan. But breathing is becoming a slight problem " I gasped out, trying to get her to loosen her grip. Noticing this, Sakura blushed and immediately released me saying, " Gomen nasai Tomoyo-chan. I didn't realize I was squeezing so hard ".
" Obviously not " I teased her." But it's all right, no harm done. Just remember; he only gets one chance. And if he blows it, he's a dead man ". At this, Sakura giggled and rolled her eyes.
" Oh Tomoyo-chan, stop being so dramatic. He can't be all that bad underneath. We just need to get to know him a little better, you'll see " she said with such conviction, I nearly believed her.
But then again, she wasn't the one who had to live with this guy for two straight months. If anyone was going to get to know him better, it was, unfortunately, going to be me.
Well, by now we'd reached Sakura's street and it was now time for us to part ways. Walking up towards her house, Sakura turned to me and smiled." Once again Tomoyo-chan, arigatou for being so understanding. You're a really great friend ".
' Yeah, so great that I've been lying to you every since Li got here ' I thought to myself and shrugged." Yeah, well, it's no problem Sakura-chan. If anyone deserves some happiness, it's you " I told her honestly.
At this her smile grew wider." Arigatou Tomoyo-chan. I'll call you later, daijoubu? "
" Sure. Ja ne Sakura-chan ".
" Ja ne ". And then Sakura skipped up the walkway towards her home; looking like she'd just been granted a million yen. Watching her go, I sighed and shook my head.' I suddenly have a feeling it just won't be Li's grave I'll be digging when this is over '.
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I arrived at home about twelve minutes later. My frustration and my urgency to talk to Syaoran seemed to propel me forward and I didn't stop walking until I had reached my house and was standing directly in front of him.
After searching around for him for about ten minutes, I spotted him sitting out in the garden, reading, and ran out to confront him. By all the noise I'd made when coming out, I knew he'd heard. But being the arrogant bastard he was, he chose to ignore me for several minutes before I reached down and snatched the book out of his hands.
Finally looking up at me, Syaoran glared and tried to grab the book back from me." Hey, do you mind? I was trying to read that, so could buzz off? "
Angrily, I raised an eyebrow at him." Excuse me? This is *my* house and you're telling *me* to buzz off? " I demanded.
" I can't go wherever I damn well please, thank you very much ". Syaoran just rolled his eyes at me. " Sure, fine. I don't really care. Just give me my book back and don't talk to me, " he said, grabbing it back out of my hands.
Crossing my arms in front of me, I walked determinedly over to a seat across from him and sat down in it." Okay, fine. I'll do that, " I said stubbornly.
Syaoran just shrugged, looking down at the book again." Fine ".
" Fine " I replied immaturely and we sat there for about ten minutes, neither of us saying a word. After a few more minutes, I couldn't take it anymore and I turned to look at Syaoran.
Whatever book he was reading, it had to be really interesting. He hadn't changed his position for almost fifteen minutes. He was just sitting there; staring at those pages like the world would disappear if he looked up. Feeling mildly curious, I leaned over and tried to read the name on the cover.
" What are you doing? " Syaoran asked suddenly and I jerked back. He hadn't even looked up from the book.
" I… I was trying to see what you're reading " I answered, trying to not let him know he'd surprised me.
" Why not just ask me? "
I narrowed my eyes at him." You were the one who said not to talk to you, dumb ass ". My maturity had, once again, taken a leave on me.
Syaoran chuckled lightly and turned the page." Now, now Daidouji. No need to get insulting, " he said, with a small smirk. I glared at him harder and resisted the urge to stick out my tongue at him.
After a few more moments of silence, I broke it again." So, what are you reading anyway? " Sitting out here was getting really boring, but I was going to prove to Syaoran that being out here with him wasn't going to bother me.
" Interview with the Vampire, " he answered at last. I thought back to all the books I'd ever read but this one wasn't ringing a bell.
" Mmm, never heard of it before " I replied.
" It's a vampire novel by a woman named Anne Rice, " Syaoran told me." But I'm not surprised you've never heard of it; supernatural stuff doesn't seem like it'd be your thing ".
(A.N.: I picked this book out my own collection since my bookcase is right next to my computer. Anne Rice rocks!)
Thinking back to all the stuff with the Sakura cards, I shrugged." No, not usually anyway ". Then, suddenly, my eyes widened in abrupt realization.
" Whoa " I said before I could stop myself.
" Whoa, what? " Syaoran asked, this time actually looking at me as he talked. Turning to him, I looked at him as if I'd never seen him before.
" I just realized something. Almost the whole time we've been out here, we've actually been… civil to one another, " I said in disbelief. Syaoran blinked, clearly surprised also for a moment and then nodded." Hai, I suppose you're right. We have been, haven't we? Scary, isn't it? "
I nodded in agreement." Most definitely ".
Taking out a bookmark from his pocket, Syaoran slipped it in the book and then stood up. We stared at each other for a moment before he looked away towards the house.
" Look, don't expect this to ever happen again. Just because I can stand to be around you, doesn't mean I like you. So don't get any ideas " he said stiffly.
For a moment, I felt liked I'd been slapped across the face. Just when I actually thought I might be able to get along with this guy, he goes and says something like that. Jumping up to my feet, I glared at him heatedly before stomping off.
" Don't worry, I won't " I called over my shoulder angrily, as I pushed the doors opened that led to the house with a bang. I suddenly realized that I hadn't even asked him why he'd decided to make peace with Sakura but right now, I didn't care.
As I left, I shot one last loathing glance back at him before continuing my leave. ' Gomen nasai, Sakura-chan but he had his chance '.
~ Syaoran's POV ~
I winced as the door slammed shut again and I sighed, flopping back down into the chair. I had planned to be the one that was going to leave but since Tomoyo was in there now, no way was I leaving until she'd cooled off.
' You *really* now how to make things easier on yourself, Li ' I thought to myself and sighed again. Maybe I shouldn't have said anything and had left us at a truce. Or maybe I should've just walked away.
' But, oh no. Instead I had to go and open my big mouth ' I thought in frustration. My okaa-san always told me that my mouth got me into trouble and boy, was she right.
' It's not my fault it seems to run in the family ' I thought, in an attempt to make myself feel better. Everyone in my family talked too much, my older sisters especially. It's not my fault I grew up in a house of loud-mouthed women. (A.N.: I say the same thing all the time, hehe.)
' Oh well, I might as well get comfortable again ' I thought, opening my book back up and getting comfortable again. I had a feeling I'd be sitting out here for quite a while.
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Well, there it is. This actually took less time than I expected; I'd forgotten that I'd started half of this chapter back in the summer. I hope that'll satisfy everyone for now, and once again I apologize for taking so long. Hopefully the next chapter will come along easier but I won't make any promises.
Also, I'm going to try and make up a new contact list for anybody who wants to be notified when I update or post any new CCS fics. If you want to be on the list, say so in your review and leave an email address if you're not a registered author. Thanks.
Until next time, ja ne and have a happy new year ^^.