NOT MINE!

~Edward's POV~

"You know man I've never been more disappointed in you before but this is just getting out of hand Edward. I can't believe you would hurt Bella, you care about this girl, you love her so much, why are you doing this? Why are you torturing yourself instead of working to win her over?" Jasper asked me as we sat in our living room. My head was in my hands, I couldn't look at him, couldn't face him.

"I-I-I don't know how man, I just don't know what to do. Every time I want to do something sweet or something to show her I'm boyfriend material I freak out and think with my dick instead because I know she won't deny me. I'm scared of losing her though, she's my best fucking friend, I love her more than life. Bella has never let me down, yet that's exactly what I'm doing to her." I explained.

"You can only fix this yourself man, none of us can tell you what to do. You're very fortunate Emmett hasn't found out yet, if he did your balls would have been ripped off." I nodded and there was a knock at the door. I get up to answer it since I'm the closest to the door. As soon as I do a hand comes into contact with my cheek. My head swings to the side.

"Ow what the fuck Alice!" I yelled. She was glaring at me and did it again.

"What the fuck!" I repeated. She pushed past me and I shut the door rubbing my now very sore cheek.

"You fucking deserve that and more Cullen, what the hell is your problem? Why are you treating your best friend like such shit? Why are your tormenting the poor girl who has stuck with you through thick and thin? Do I need to remind you all the times she was there for you: when you and Tanya first broke up, when your first dog died, and oh yeah when your brother killed himself! She was there for you that whole night, holding you and comforting you, letting you cry! She even stayed with you when you were angry at all of us, frustrated and building up your walls not letting us in. How could you do this to her!" Alice shouted. She shoved me backwards harshly, my back coming into contact with the wall. I groaned rubbing my head.

"Alice calm down, leave the ass kicking to Bella." Jasper grabbed her and kept her back from me. I thought about what Alice said, the one that really got to me was the part about my brother. She's right. The night my brother committed suicide she stayed up with me. Held me while I cried. Even when I started pushing her in she stayed. Even when I was a fucking douche to her and told her to fuck off she was still there. Even when I stopped smiling, stopped acting goofy, she did everything she could to cheer me up. She somehow always got me to smile. That's when I really realized how in love I was with her. I looked at Alice who was breathing raggedly and glaring daggers at me.

"You're right. She's right Jasper, you're both right. But what do I do? Bella won't speak to me, she doesn't answer my calls or texts. Whenever we all hang out she doesn't talk to me or even bother looking at me. How do I win her over?" I questioned. They looked at each other.

"Try harder." They said in unison and left it at that. Fucking thanks...that sure helps a whole lot.

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My stomach twisted in knots and my palms sweated as we approached Emmett's house. Football game today, tradition for us all to hang out. Girls included. I'm nervous about seeing Bella, she hasn't talked to me in almost a week and a half. It's getting unbearable. Each night with the knowledge that she's so angry at me causes me to cry until I fall asleep. I know, I sound like a fucking girl, but I'm just as hurt. My heart's just as broken, even though I'm responsible for it though.

"Come on Edward we're here." Jasper said from the front seat. Alice winked at me, she's been giving me advice all week. Time to start the effort. The three of us walk up Emmett's driveway and ring his doorbell. He answered it in his Raven's jersey and dark skinny jeans, brown locks messy as usual. He pushed his bangs back and smiles excitedly.

"Hey lovers get your sexy asses in here!" He greeted happily and pulled us each into a hug as we walked inside. Emmett's house is actually clean and very decent looking, it's also quite large for once person but he has company over on a daily basis so it's not that big of a deal I suppose. I heard Bella's contagious laughter coming from the kitchen and I heard James laughing with her. What are they doing?

"Yo Bella the rest are here!" Emmett yelled to her. I heard her footsteps and my heart started racing as I saw her. She's beautiful, even in casual attire she always manages to look gorgeous. I bit my bottom lip as she smiled at all of us.

"Hey guys!" She went and hugged Alice, they rocked back and forth and laughed at each other before she embraced Jasper. She laughed as he picked her off the ground and kissed her cheek.

"How ya doing sweets?" He asked.

"I'm good I'm good." She replied. He set her down and she looked at me. My heart dropped to my stomach, butterflies flapped wildly. Fuck, what do I do?

"Hi Edward." Her voice was soft and calm. She doesn't sound angry, then again only Alice and Jasper know what's gone down between us. I waved nervously. Emmett and James went into the living room with Jasper and Alice. She moved towards me and nervous pushed her bangs behind her ear, her feet going pigeon toed, I notice she does that when she's nervous. she stares at me with sad brown eyes.

"How have you been?" She asked softly. My throat went dry but I managed to clear it enough.

"Terrible." I muttered. She nodded.

"You?" She gave me a sad smile and crossed her over over her chest.

"Same." She was making me so nervous I nearly shit my pants. I stuffed my hands into my pockets.

"Could we talk?" I questioned. She nodded and led me into the kitchen and she sat on the counter top, feet dangling. I stood in front of her but not in-between her legs like I wanted.

"I um...I'm really sorry about where we left off. I've missed you a lot Bella. You're my best friend, always have bee. After Alice beat me up, I started thinking. Each night I think more and more about you. I want to give us a shot, a real shot. Like the kind where I take you on dates until you realize how perfect we are for each other and officially become my girlfriend. Please?" I begged. She was frowning.

"I thought I told you we could only be friends. To forget there ever was an us Edward." She whispered. I sighed and scratched the back of my neck.

"Please don't do this Bella, I can make you happy, I know I can. You just have to let me show you, please, just one chance. That's all I'm asking for." I grabbed her hands in mine, connecting our fingers. My head pounded. My eyes burned with hot tears. Please don't cry in front of her. She was biting her bottom lip.

"Not now Edward, don't ruin tonight for the both of us." She pushed me away and hopped off the counter. Ouch, that hurt real bad. I sighed softly and Jasper came into the kitchen and patted my back trying to comfort me.

"It'll get better man, they never said love was an easy thing." He stated softly. I nodded and blinked my tears away and wiped my nose.

"Yeah I know...but why does the rejection have to hurt so bad?"