An angel wronged
Chapter 9
Lucky stared at the ceiling, waiting for the phone to ring. Nikolas and Elizabeth had gone out to get something to eat, but he wasn't hungry so he just stayed here at the hotel room, all by himself.
This waiting for the call was starting to drive him mad. Here this was his oldest and best friend and he didn't know what was going on? They had faced everything together. He helped her through her mom's death, he ran away with her when she was indecisive about getting adopted by the Quartermaines. He even talked her into giving them a chance eventually, not that that ended up all well and good.
Then there was that brief thing in which he wasn't there and Emily got hooked on drugs and all of that Dorman mess, which he still felt extreme guilt over. But they got over that and he helped her until his "death" and in return when he returned home, alive she helped him out without question or doubt.
They faced those blackmailers together and she even got him to like Nikolas, who was now one of his closest friends and half brother. And that dead Ted mess, he was the first one she called and they made it through that as well. They fought over her relationship with Zander, sure, I mean he kidnapped her and got her into some major danger, but Emily knew he was just worried and was trying to protect her. But like all other times he did that, he got blasted because of it, well because that was Emily.
Emily was usually a good judge of character, unless you discount that Juan mess, and was very protective as well, which was probably what she was trying to do this time around. Protect them from the trouble she constantly got into and he knew Emily felt some real shame thanks to it.
She didn't mean to get into trouble, not at all. She just somehow ended up that way. No one blamed Emily at all, she couldn't control it, it just simply happened but that didn't mean she didn't feel so much guilt in dragging them into it.
That must be what's happening. Emily wouldn't hide things unless she meant well. And that was noble of her but they still wanted to help. Emily always tried getting out of it without reflecting others and getting them screwed, but she also knew when to ask for help, knowing full well it was too big for her to take care of her on her own. But that time hasn't come yet and it was driving him crazy.
He started pacing the room, agitated and worried that they came too late. He really couldn't handle it if he lost Emily. She was such a great friend to have despite her constantly collecting trouble. Overall that trouble was worth it to keep Emily as his friend.
It hadn't been the same without her since she moved away after that accident. He always had Nik and Liz, but it wasn't Emily. Emily was a very special character with a bright personality. She was never one to fail; it was as if she couldn't. Practically impossible, that's what it was.
He lay back on the bed and caught his breath and slowed down for his heart's sake. He was too active to keep up with him. He closed his eyes and found some peace, remembering the good things. The grape snow cones, the weekly Kelly's meetings, how Emily helped him unselfishly, so much he jumped up and scared his heart anyway as his cell rang.
He reached over for it and caught his breath again, putting the phone on his ear and saying "Lucky Spencer here." He said lazily, without looking at who it was.
"Spencer." A soft, warm voice spoke on the other end.
Lucky stood up and took a deep breath of relief. "Emily." He replied happily. No one could understand the relief he felt at hearing her voice, not even Nikolas and Elizabeth.
"Yeah, this is her." Emily verified on the other end.
He sat back down, cradling his phone. "So I suppose you got my call or that guard told you we came by." He guessed.
"The second option, but either begs the question what you are doing here." Emily asked, a bit rudely.
Lucky frowned. "What? Can't best friends stop by and try to visit their friend that they haven't seen in sometime?" He supposed innocently.
Silence fell as Emily probably thought on the other end of the connection. Finally she answered, "Yeah, its fine, Lucky, it'd be great to see you but everything you do always has an alternative motive. I mean you probably could have visited another time if you didn't." Emily told Lucky, a bit bitter about them not visiting her sooner. They certainly had the resources to come by.
Lucky frowned, knowing she was right. They really should have visited sooner but once again they had their personal lives. "I'm sorry Em, we got caught up in our lives and thought staying communicated through phone was just as good." He apologized to her.
"It's alright; we all have our moments in which we forget about others." Emily sighed on the other end. "So, the alternative motive is AJ I presume?" She supposed, thinking back to his brief visit. She knew he was going to snoop and tell her friends.
"He's worried about you Emily, we all are." Lucky insisted.
Emily made a small sound of doubt. "Yeah, right, AJ really cares for me." Emily felt like snorting, obviously highly doubting that. Since when has he cared, honestly, its all about him and his gains?
"He is Emily. He even talked to Jason. You have to admit that was monumental." Lucky persuaded her to believe him.
Emily was surprised at that but quickly shook it off. "Yeah, how touching." Emily was obviously being sarcastic.
Lucky quit trying to make AJ look good. He had probably thrown too much schemes and crap at her, especially that Zander lie, for her to honestly believe that. Jason, he was a good brother but he was always so busy thanks to Sonny wanting him to be the errand boy of his very busy business that he and Emily rarely spoke anymore thanks to that.
"Anyway, how are you?" Lucky asked, changing the subject.
"I'm fine Lucky, not that you want to believe me." Emily obviously knew that was happening. It happened often, she'd say she was fine and he'd accuse her of lying.
"Geez, Em. What's with the negativity?" He asked, a little held back. She usually was so happy.
Emily sighed. "I'm sorry Lucky. It's just very hard to be positive when life throws those unexpected curves at you. You kind of lose the optimism eventually if it's enough to temporarily knock you down." Emily explained.
Now Lucky was really worried. "Is everything okay?" He asked her.
"I'm not going to lie to you Lucky." She told him. "I'm fine, but everything's not okay." She exaggerated. Not okay doesn't even start to describe the bull she got into. "In fact, I'm probably heading for a mental breakdown, is that bad enough?" She asked, sitting in a plush chair in her living room.
Lucky frowned at himself. This definitely wasn't the Emily he knew. The change in Emily was monumental. The friend as he knew it was dead and gone and all that was left was an empty shell. "Can we do anything?" He asked, wanting to help.
"Lucky, the only thing you can do is to leave me alone. I'm obviously not very good company at the moment, if you haven't noticed." Emily replied bitterly.
"I don't care if your not good company or not, Emily. Were friends, the four musketeers, we help each other. So whether your bitter or rude as you have shown in this phone conversation doesn't matter, it's our friendship that matters. Together we can do anything." Lucky insisted, growing a little angry at Emily.
"Lucky, the four musketeers are dead." Emily responded, unconvinced. "When we made up that, we were teenagers, not yet mature and grown up and very naïve in ways of friendship, almost like children. Now were grown ups, adults who know better. That friendship we shared, it was great Lucky, but now its over. We all have our own lives which are very busy and that means we have no time for each other, as time has shown." Emily said about to hang up on him, knowing she had her piece said.
Lucky, very much injured by what she had said tried to make her reconsider what she said. The four musketeers weren't dead, he knew the friendship was still there, but coming from Emily who was away while they supposedly could have cared less. He never considered that they were leaving her out of the loop.
"Emily, that isn't true. I know you feel left out because the distance, but the friendship is still there, and it may be weaker but were still the four musketeers." Lucky argued, not really feeling like arguing over this but what could he do? Agreeing was out of the question.
"Our friendship is still there Lucky, no doubt, but as for that lying tramp's…I think not. As for Nikolas, he's too busy with that spoiled brat of a fiancée to care. I am able to understand and take that bull to a point, and I'm at that breaking point. Two years of this is it. I've stood for two years of it, but not anymore." Emily confessed. "Now it's my turn to be the selfish one. I've understood and been there for years, being the unselfish one and each of you has taken that for granted. I'm there for you but you're never there for me when I actually need it. And I may seem like a jerk because of it but I'm past caring anymore. You go back to your own lives and forget about me, it should be natural to you by now."
Emily slammed down the phone at this point, seething with fury and anger, meaning every thing she said. She was done with being the good, understanding, and unselfish friend and she just didn't care anymore. They were her oldest friends but she didn't want any friends that would take her for granted like that anymore. She will miss the friendship, no doubt they had something going there for a bit, but she could find friends like that here and she wasn't going to waste her breathe anymore. Whatever they had is dead, now if anybody else would actually believe her.
Lucky was visibly shocked as she hung up on him. It was worse than he thought; much worse. She had found about Liz and Zander and Gia had ruined Nikolas's and Emily's friendship. He felt much guilt and hurt over the lost friendship but he wasn't going to give up on it.
Elizabeth was on her own in trying to get back that friendship, he couldn't help there but he didn't know if Emily would ever forgive Elizabeth for her lies and deceit. Nikolas's friendship, he might work on but he didn't know if it would help any because it would complicate things. They'd be in the middle of Emily and Elizabeth.
Maybe Emily was right, maybe the four musketeers was dead. Lucky thought, but quickly shook his head.
No, Emily was just feeling betrayed and bitter after all they did, he was convinced. She couldn't mean that, she was just pushing them away because something that big was happening. Emily wouldn't give up like that, she hid until she could be open minded and then came back refreshed. It was how it always went.
But Emily was right on one account. They had taken her for granted and for that he was deeply sorry, but he would make up for it starting now.
He quickly stood up and grabbed the hotel key and his wallet and cell phone and after scribbling down a quick note to Nikolas and Elizabeth, he left heading to Emily. Emily needed him, she needed them all but Nikolas and Elizabeth had pushed it too far, especially Elizabeth.
Whether or not they would fix it wasn't his problem. His and Emily's friendship was very much alive and he wouldn't lose that. He could stand losing a lot but Emily's friendship wasn't one of them. They went way back and he counted on that to keep it strong until he could give back what Emily gave him at one point, understanding and comfort.
Author's note: okay, bad ending and very negative chapter, you have my apologies.