-10-

If I asked anyone if it was possible for my boyfriend to be avoiding me they would probably say no way. However I knew otherwise. After Edward pretty much high tailed it out of my room for his phone call I haven't seen him. We've talked on the phone during this week but other then that, not even a peck on the lips. I was sitting on my bed looking at my calendar. Tomorrow was the day that I faced James and I wasn't looking forward to it. I had knots in my stomach that wouldn't go away to the point that I have thrown up on numerous occasions this week and lets not discuss the minor panic attacks. Alice was worried about me but I told her I would be fine. Edward doesn't know that I have been panicking, then again he doesn't know anything about me since I refuse to tell him how I really am over the phone. Especially since his dorm is just a block away and he has yet to come see me and is never there when I go to see him. I sighed and laid back as I looked at my ceiling.

"Tomorrow is the day Bells." I turned to look at Alice and nodded. Tomorrow was the day and hopefully, after this, James would leave me alone for good.

"Yea it is Al." I said. Alice sighed.

"Bells, what's going on between you and Edward?" I shrugged.

"Beats the hell out of me. I know he's dodging me and I don't know why." Alice shrugged.

"Neither does Jasper, the only one that seems to know is Emmett and you know he won't say anything." Alice said. I rolled my eyes because it was the truth. Whatever is going on, Emmett will not give up his brother and that's probably why he's been dodging me too. I knew that Emmett has been here because I've heard him and Sydney together too many times to count. Who I really felt sorry for was Kate who constantly resided in my room until an hour after they were finished. We heard a few knocks on our door and I smiled. It was probably Kate.

"Come in" I said and I was surprised to see Rosalie. Haven't really seen her since she started to hang out with Tanya more. My smirk dropped when I saw Tanya entering behind her.

"Why the fuck are you in here!" Alice said through clenched teeth. She stood up with her fists clenched and once she calmed down enough she sat beside me. Tanya closed the door when they entered fully and I watched Tanya as I kept a vacant expression on my face. She continued to look at me until she finally spoke.

"Look Bella. Rose told me what happened to you today and I wanted to apologize for what I put you through. I didn't know that James abused you, I guess I assumed that he treated you how he treated everybody else. Honestly I don't know what else to say other then hoping you never have to deal with that again." she said as she shrugged. I continued to stare at her until I felt she was getting uncomfortable. I didn't believe that half assed apology, she's worse then Jake. Tanya was just apologizing to pacify Rosalie and we all knew it.

"It's fine Tanya. Thanks for being the bigger person for once even though I'm pretty sure that apology was half assed. However if it's the best you can do I'll take it for the time being." Tanya's eyes narrowed and then she smirked.

"No problem Isabella." she said as my eyes narrowed. Her smirk stayed as she walked out of our room.

"I'll see you tomorrow Bells." Rosalie told me as I nodded and gave her a small smile. She winked at me and closed the door behind her when she left. Something was bothering me and I knew it had to do with the smirk Tanya had on her face. Almost like she knew something that I didn't.

"Why was she smirking Alice?"

"My question exactly Bella." Alice and I looked at each other, shrugged and then continued to finish our papers so we could turn them into our teachers mailbox. We couldn't make it to History tomorrow so we had to turn our papers in early.

After I was finished I looked at Alice and shook my head. She was still typing but Alice always got good grades on her papers so I knew this one would be just as good. I stretched, connected my laptop to the printer and printed my paper. After I stapled it, I put it in a folder and then put on my chucks.

"Al call me when you get to the library." she nodded and kept typing as I shook my head and exited our room. I walked towards the library and noticed that it was getting dark, there were shadows in between the buildings. I looked to my right and at the side of the law building I saw Edward kissing Tanya. I froze and stared at them for a while longer. He had her pinned against the wall with her arms above her head as well as her legs around his waist. Tanya had on a skirt and I saw that Edward's belt was loosened and his zipper was already down. I was pissed beyond words and I started walking to the library so I could get away from them. I couldn't tell Alice and I sure as hell couldn't tell Jake about what I just saw. Now her smirk made sense! She's been having sex with MY boyfriend. He probably fucked her at that party hence why he came to my room so fast the next morning, out of guilt. I got to the library, put my paper in my history teachers mailbox and walked out. I didn't want to walk back to my dorm because I didn't want to pass them again if they were still there. I walked in the opposite direction and sat on one of the picnic benches in the courtyard.

"Bells?" I turned and saw Mike Newton again. I smirked.

"We really do need to stop meeting up like this or people are going to think this is planned." I said as Mike laughed and sat beside me. He stopped laughing and looked at me intently.

"What's the matter Bells you look down." I sighed and put my hair behind my ears.

"If you saw your girlfriend kissing another guy, how would you react?" I asked as I looked at him. Mike stared at me for awhile and then moved a piece of hair, that fell in my face, off my forehead. He grazed my chin and smiled as I assumed he could feel my blush.

"I would be pissed and I would break it off. However if I really cared about the girl I would forgive her even though I would let her sweat for a day or two." I smirked.

"Thanks Mike." I felt my blush resurface as he continued to stare at me. It wasn't even the fact that he was staring at me, it was the intensity in his stare that made me blush. He smiled again.

"No problem Bells. Now let me take you to get something to eat since I'm pretty sure it's Cullen you saw kissing someone." I got up and looked at Mike skeptically.

"How did you know about Edward and I?" Mike turned and raised his eyebrow.

"Are you kidding Bells. I saw the death glare Cullen gave you when he saw us together as well as the rib cracking hug he gave me. And if I wasn't sure then, I heard the emphasis he used on the we when I said to call me. I'm not dumb by any means however I really do enjoy pissing Cullen off, TREMENDOUSLY." I smirked. It seemed that everyone enjoyed pissing him off, myself included. Mike and I interlocked arms, talked some more and walked to Potbelly's for dinner. I stayed with Mike longer, even after our sandwiches were done, because I needed someone to talk to. Once finished we walked back to my dorm and we continued our conversation. I told him about James, not everything but enough. I could see that Mike was connecting a lot of dots in his head that he never mentioned because he knew it made me uncomfortable. I even told him that I was going to court tomorrow regarding James but never told him the reason why, that was NNI and far to personal.

"Shit Bells, you went through all that and still found time to have good grades?" I laughed.

"It really wasn't that much Mike but I'm a survivor by nature" he laughed and nodded.

"I guess so." Our laughter died out and then Mike smiled softly.

"If you need me Bells you know I'm always here for you." I smiled and then I stiffened. I didn't need to look around to know Edward was close. It's like I could feel his anger before I even saw it.

"Thanks Mike, I really do appreciate that." Mike smiled and moved closer as he brought me to him. His arm was behind my back as he brought his lips to my ear.

"Cullen is around isn't he?" he asked as I nodded.

"Want to make him mad?" he asked again as he moved his lips from my ear. I smirked and nodded again. Mike smirked back, grabbed my chin and brought our faces closer together until our lips met. It was a soft kiss, nothing too demanding and nothing too romantic. It was sweet with no tongue involved but it wouldn't matter to Edward, I knew as much. Mike moved away and then my eyes opened as he looked at me.

"I would be lying if I said I didn't always want to do that." he said with a smile as I laughed.

"Oh yeah? And did I live up to the hype?" I asked as Mike's smile grew.

"Damn straight, even without tongue!" Mike let me go and waved to me as he walked down the steps and towards his dorm. He turned back and waved to me again as I waved back. I smiled and then turned to enter. Edward was at the door to the stair case waiting for me and I knew he didn't hear anything between Mike and I, he just saw. I rolled my eyes as I walked past him and went up the stairs. The door slammed shut behind him as he followed me up. I got to my floor and went to my room. I knocked to see if I had to take out my key and I was happy I didn't have to. I heard Alice's voice and once again as I entered Edward followed me in. He slammed the door behind us as I walked to my bed and saw Alice jump. I took off my chucks and the hoody I had on. After putting my hair in a ponytail I finally looked at him. His green eyes were burning, his face was red and his fists were clenched. I crossed my legs and glared at him just as hard as he was glaring at me.

"GET THE FUCK OUT ALICE!" Edward yelled as Alice stood up. Alice walked over and stood beside me as she looked at her brother. Edward closed his eyes and moved closer.

"Alice this is the last time I'm going to ask…Get…the… FUCK…out." Edward said through clenched teeth. I felt Alice's eyes on me and I looked up and gave her a smile. A true friend through and through.

"I'll be fine Aly. Your brother loves me too much to hurt me physically, emotionally however…well…we'll see." My smile dropped as I looked back at Edward and continued to glare. I heard Alice walk to the door and the door close behind her.

"You kissed him Isabella? After I told you he still wants you, you fucking kissed him" I laughed snidely, put on my uggs and tried to walk past him but he pulled me back.

"Save that anger for someone who gives a fuck." I told him. His grip tightened and I glared at him as I pulled my arm out of his hold. I needed to definitely make sure of something before I lost it on him. I walked towards Rosalie's room and knocked. Tanya answered the door and my eyes narrowed as I backed away.

"Come here Tanya." I said as she walked towards me. I watched her walk, nodded and walked back towards Edward who happened to be in front of my door. I slapped him hard before he could grab me again. I walked past him and then towards the staircase so I could leave. I walked to his dorm, waved at the security guard who recognized me and then walked to Edwards floor. I knocked on his room door and waited for someone to answer. Jasper opened the door but I saw that Emmett was actually in his room tonight. Go figure? I walked passed Jasper and over to Emmett. Emmett looked at me and then I punched him. Not enough to cause any damage but his jaw would hurt for a day or two.

"What the Fuck Bella?" he asked angrily.

"How long have you known that he's been fucking Tanya?" Emmett grew quiet and my eyes narrowed.

"I thought so. Don't you or Edward show up tomorrow because I now know I can't trust either one of you." I walked out as fast as I walked in and didn't look back. I waved at the security guard again and gave him a genuine smile. He nodded with a smile and just like that I walked out of their dorm. My cell phone was ringing and I looked at the name. I pressed ignore as I saw Edwards name. I opened my phone and called Esme. I couldn't be here tonight and I knew my parents wouldn't be here until early tomorrow morning so I had to call Esme. Her phone kept ringing until she finally answered.

"Hello"

"Esme…can you come get me?"

"Sure I can dear. What's the matter?" I cleared my throat.

"I'll tell you when you get here. I'm going to be at the library ok."

"Alright Isabella. I'll be right there" I nodded as we hung up from each other. I walked to the library and turned my phone off. Couldn't really deal with any of them right now.

Once I got to the library I sat on the bench at the side of the door and waited. After about 10 minutes if not shorter I saw the Jag. She pulled up in front of the library and smiled at me as I smiled back and walked towards the car. Carlisle wasn't there which could mean two things, one he was at the hotel or two he was with his sons. I got in, buckled my seatbelt and then we drove off. My mouth dropped as we got to the Sorrento Hotel. It was gorgeous! Esme stopped at the gift shop, grabbed a pint of cheesecake brownie, and then I followed her to the elevators. We got to the fifth floor and entered a room that Esme claimed was a junior suite. I nodded and smiled as I followed her in. She grabbed a spoon and handed it, as well as the ice cream, to me.

"Edward said it's your favorite dearest. Now sit on the couch so you can tell me what my son or sons did." I took off my uggs and followed Esme to the couch. I sat criss cross and faced Esme as she crossed her legs and faced me. I sighed and then looked at her.

"I caught him kissing Tanya when I was walking towards the library earlier. I won't tell you details but I know exactly what they did. To get him back I kissed Mike Newton, just a peck, because I knew he was watching me and that would piss him off the most. Once I confirmed what I already suspected I slapped him and then went to their dorm and punched Emmett." I bit my lip and Esme's eyes widened as I finally took a breath. Lets be real shall we, wouldn't you stop talking if you told the mother of your boyfriend and his twin brother that you assaulted them?

"Are you sure he had relations with Tanya?" she asked as I nodded.

"At least twice." I said. Esme shook her head and then sighed.

"What else happened dearest?" I bit my lip as a tear slid down my face.

"I told Emmett that I didn't want him or Edward to show up tomorrow and that I knew I couldn't trust them." Esme raised my chin and looked at me. She wiped my tears away and continued to look at me intently.

"Do you want that to happen Isabella? Do you truly believe that?" I shook my head as another couple of tears slid down my face.

"No but I honestly don't know if I want them there. Edward must have feelings for Tanya to continue sleeping with her even now that he has me and frankly, deep down inside, I don't think I deserve him. I'm damaged Esme, I may not show it but I am and maybe he would be better off with Tanya, a girl who doesn't have as many issues as I do…" Esme put her finger on my lips to shut me up.

"Isabella Swan you stop this now. You are not damaged because damaged people don't fight anywhere near as hard as you do. You have a strength in you that makes people gravitate towards you and even with all that you have dealt with you are extremely strong willed, hard working, perceptive, talented, exquisite and benevolent my dear . Edward will not be better off with Tanya and all of us, including him, know it."

"Then why?"

"Simple dearest, because she's easy and he knows that your still not ready. Or, possibly, the dummy slipped up one night and to prevent her from telling you he continued. Honestly dearest I have no idea what his inclination was but when you're ready ask him." I smiled at Esme as she hugged me. I hugged her back and closed my eyes as she rubbed my back. She let me go as we heard her cell phone ring. She sighed and took it out of her pocket. She smiled and answered.

"What can I do for you Aislinn?…Yes, she's with me…she had to get away sweetheart and staying there would mean she would have to deal with your brother….Yes I'm aware Alice and your father is already talking to them….Alice give her time to sort it out….Sweetheart this is not your fight…..Fine, I'll come and get you, please pack a bag for Isabella also. Love you too baby girl." Esme hung up and then sighed.

"Sorry dearest but I have to go pick up your best friend and I might as well get you ladies a room also." I smiled at Esme.

"It's ok Esme. I knew Alice wouldn't be able to stay away." Esme winked and stood up.

"You're welcome to stay here dear. We won' be too long." I nodded as I turned on the TV with the remote control. She smiled at me, grabbed her purse, and then walked out of the room. I sighed and opened my pint of ice cream. I smiled as I grabbed the spoon. I never told Edward that this is my favorite ice cream and I don't eat it often for him to know. I wonder how he knew?

Esme was right, she wasn't gone any longer then 15 minutes, which in all actuality was pretty fast since she's dealing with Alice. However Carlisle and their sons were with her when she returned. Alice sighed loudly, dropped the bags by the door and walked over to me.

"PLEASE! Do not do that me again." I smirked.

"Aww Aly, were you worried about me." she grinned and rolled her eyes as she grabbed another spoon and ate some of my ice cream.

"This is sooo good. What flavor is this?" Well I guess Alice didn't tell him and I know for a fact Jake doesn't know, he still thinks it's chocolate.

"Why don't you look on the outside of the container Alice?" She tilted it and then she nodded.

"Pretty Tasty." I smiled and rolled my eyes as I grabbed the container. I still hadn't acknowledged or even looked at Emmett and Edward.

"Girls we have a room for you." Carlisle said as I smiled and got up. Carlisle opened the door and as I walked past Edward he grabbed my arm. I still didn't look at him as I pulled my arm from his grasp and kept walking. I felt him behind me as Alice and I walked behind Carlisle. We got into the elevator and went up another floor and then we reached room 610. I gave Carlisle a hug as he hugged me back, he kissed my cheek and then let me go. I didn't expect them to follow Alice and I in but they did. Carlisle sat on the chair and looked at me as Emmett and Edward leaned against the desk.

"Isabella, Alice has told me you have had minor panic attacks and have been throwing up, are you feeling alright." Carlisle said. I glared at Alice who refused to look at me and then sighed.

"I'm fine, really, it's just the anxiety of seeing him."

"Why didn't you tell me?" Edward asked as I looked at him in disbelief.

"Maybe if you and your brother weren't dodging me for the last couple of days you would have known and frankly why do you even give a shit! The only person you should care about is Tanya since you were occupied with her for most of this week. Hopefully you didn't slip up and get her pregnant since we all know that's what she wants more then anything as well as becoming your wife of course. Look on the bright side, you two would have some really cute kids." I looked away from him and turned to take off my socks. I walked to the bed that I assumed was mine and sat criss cross. I saw that Alice was smirking and I also saw a stunned Carlisle. His face was morphing into a smile by the second until he laughed and got up.

"You really fucked up didn't you son! Esme never went this far when we were in college, she just stopped talking to me for a week but I see Isabella here hits you with low blows and silence. You got your work cut out for you kid." Carlisle said as he put his arms around Emmett and Edwards shoulders. He looked at Emmett and became serious.

"You also son. You treated her like she was just some other girl Edward messes around with when you know exactly who she will end up being if Edward has his way. I understand you wouldn't give up your brother for anyone Em but this is Isabella. You know she didn't deserve how you treated her, both of you, especially knowing what she's about to face tomorrow. I'll see you kids tomorrow, when Isabella kicks you out come down to get your room key." Carlisle said in amusement again as he let them go, winked at Alice and I and then walked out. Emmett and Edward were staring at me as I rolled my eyes and got up. I turned away from them and smirked as I took off my clothes so I could put on a t-shirt and shorts. I heard Edward move.

"If you want to touch something Cullen go back to UW and call Tanya, you should know her body perfectly by now right." I turned and glared at him. My anger resurfaced too quickly for me to reign it in. Alice handed me what I needed and I put them on over the red lacy panty set I had on. That's the whole reason I undressed in front of him, so he could see what I had planned for him today.

"Don't act like your innocent in all this Isabella. I saw you kissing Newton and whose to say you didn't do a hell of a lot more then that." Edward said angrily as I rolled my eyes. Emmett glared at me as I glared back and then I glared at Edward. Fine! If this is the direction he wants this to go, it can. I was about to take it to another level and I knew it but at this point I really didn't care. I would probably regret it tomorrow but tomorrow would speak for itself.

"Are you really that fucking stupid Edward! Didn't it occur to you that I kissed Mike because I already knew you were near me? Did it ever get through your thick skull that the ONLY reason I kissed Mike was because I saw you and Tanya in the shadows beside the law building about to do a hell of a lot more then the make out session you were already involved in? And you're fully aware that I'm not the type of female to do a hell of a lot more when I know a simple kiss, with no tongue, would get you just as mad as I was." I looked at Emmett again and continued to glare.

"Emmett, frankly, you have no fucking right to even glare at me when not even a few days earlier you told me how insensitive Rose was for talking to Tanya after all that has happened. Didn't it occur to you how fucking insensitive it was for Edward to have sex with the girl that caused me to get raped and also caused me to deal with more bullshit! Like my life wasn't messed up enough right." I said as my voice cracked and tears began to fall down my face. I wiped them away quickly, cleared my throat and sat down with my legs crossed.

"Look I'm giving you two a way out. I'm damaged and sometimes I feel like I'm beyond repair. Edward I'm giving you the opportunity to be with Tanya or whoever the hell else you want to be with, why, because you won't have to deal with my problems. The same goes for you Emmett, that way you're not torn between doing what's right and protecting your brother. You can let me know what you have decided later but for right now you two can get the fuck out so I can get some sleep for tomorrow and if it wasn't made clear I still don't want either one of you there." I got off my bed and walked to the window as I held myself. I looked at other buildings and waited for them to leave. I heard footsteps and then the door slam shut. I flinched as I heard it and then let out the breath I was holding. Alice looked at me and smiled sadly.

"You don't honestly believe that you're damaged do you Bells?" I sat on my bed again and Alice sat beside me. I looked at her sadly as another tear fell down my face.

"Sometimes I do but I know better. It's just how I feel right now Alice. My feelings are hurt, even worse then they were with Jake and I saw much more that day." Alice wiped my face as I looked at the ceiling.

"I wasn't sure before but I'm positive now that I really love Edward, so much in fact that seeing him with Tanya like he was made me think that maybe I wasn't good enough for him. Maybe Tanya could give him more then I was giving him and less problems to deal with. I'm so mad to the point that I want him to hurt as much as I'm hurting and it crossed my mind to have sex with whoever just to get him back. However I can't do that, not to him." Alice put her arm around my shoulders and rested her head against mine.

"Bells you're not the type of girl to sleep with someone else to piss off the person who hurt you. When you slept with Edward in high school, that was different because you two were fighting the attraction you had with one another for months and it was bound to happen. My brothers know how much they fucked up, it was written all over their faces when they left. You're hurting them by not giving them the opportunity to be there for you tomorrow as well as telling them if they don't want to deal with you they don't have to and frankly it serves them right. Oh and by the way, Tanya will never be good enough to be a Cullen." I laughed as Alice squeezed my shoulder and then let me go.

"Thanks Aly." she smiled at me.

"That's what best friends are for Bells." she winked at me and I winked back. We talked about tomorrow and what would possibly happen. I was nervous, beyond nervous but this was something that I had to deal with. If I couldn't face this I couldn't face anything.