Disclaimer I do not own Spooks. Oh just wanted to say that I know exactly when the Berlin Wall was taken down. I was wondering when that was going to be picked up on. It was intended to be a sarcastic comment from Juliet Shaw to Harry Pearce suggesting he was 'behind the times.

Bad Memories

Ruth struggled against the much larger man as he threw her, kicking and biting into the back of the blue transit van in the corner of the Thames House car park. She felt sick as she thought of one of Fitzgerald's men waiting for her to leave the Grid. Laying on the cold, metal floor of the van she tried not to think about how she had been taken to use against Harry. She had a feeling she was bait rather than the intended catch. Too angry to be frightened she closed her eyes and pretended to fall unconscious.

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"You never mentioned any of this." Alec stated as he watched Juliet. She rolled her eyes as he drove towards a safe house in Clapham.

"I didn't think it would be relevant." Juliet snapped before staring out of the car window. "At the risk o f sounding like an impatient three year old. Are we nearly there yet?"

"No." Alec stated. "And why was it not relevant?"

"I didn't know you then. I was seeing Mike in 6. "

"But you were ok? Looking at Henry's report you were injured."

"I was." Juliet agreed. "Harry more so. If it wasn't for him I would have been killed." She kept her eyes on the road. "I don't remember details. But I woke up in a blue van. A transit I assume. There are holes in my memory."

Alec paused as they reached red traffic lights. He watched her for a moment, believing for a moment he had a glimpse of the Juliet Harry would have known so many years earlier.

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June 1941

Henry looked up at the star lit sky and frowned. He wasn't tired, despite how late it was. He wondered if he should even bother going to sleep again - not when the Luftwaffe wanted to make sure he never slept a night in his own bed.

"Penny for them." He turned as he saw Kate in the doorway of the kitchen. "What are you doing out here?"

"Couldn't sleep." He explained, knowing Margaret was sleeping peacefully. "My Da was killed by them. By the Nazi army."

"Yes, my love." Kate sighed..

"It's not right." Henry decided. "It shouldn't have happened."

"I know Pet." Kate smiled sadly. "David was a good man. He'd be so proud of you. The way you are coping here, away from your Ma and looking after little Margaret."

"The bairn needs me." Henry sighed heavily. The weight of the world seemed to sit on the little boy's shoulders. "There was a man here today, when I came home from school. Who was he?"

"Henry?" Kate felt her pulse quicken.

"Oh, I saw him our Kate. He was in the parlor with you when I got home. I heard you talking. Saying my Da was in Occupied France when he died. That he was working for the SOE. What is the SOE?"

"Because the German's are in France. They're occupying it."

"Ok." Henry frowned. "But what is the SOE? Can I be in it?"

"No." Kate snapped. "No you cannot. Not now, not ever. You must never ever tell anyone you know about the SOE. It is something you have no need to worry about.

"I promise." Henry frowned as she ushered him back into the house. "But when I'm big I'm going to be just like my Da."

"Aye lad." Kate sighed. "That's what I'm afraid of."

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June 2013

Zaf looked along the sun baked street as he waited for the door to open.

"In. Now." Ros practically dragged Zaf into the hallway of the safe house flat. "What are you doing here?"

"Where's Harry?"

"Stop stalling." Ros glared at him. She could sense something had happened. Something had gone seriously wrong. Zaf looked at the floor for a moment as he tried to order his thoughts.

"Ruth has been taken."

"What?" Ros' blood ran cold. "When and how?"

"From the car park below Thames House." Zaf paused. "Approximately ninety minutes ago."

"Shit." Ros began pacing the hallway. "Does Harry know?"

"He does now." Both turned to see Harry stood next to his former mentor. The old man shook his head sadly as he scratched his beard. Harry visibly paled but Zaf couldn't tell if it was due to anger or shock.

"Tariq is searching the databases but it looks like she was taken by Terry O Callaghan. Calum is activating all the CCTV footage from Thames House outwards in a twenty mile radius. Hopefully we can follow their direction."

"Good." Harry nodded once.

"Malcolm is working on the data Ruth found when she looked around 6's files. They're encrypted and we know Fitzgerald is involved." Zaf fell silent as he saw the look in Harry's eye.

"I knew it." Harry glared. The knot of fear in his guts twisted. He refused to think of any other possibility than finding Ruth safe. He had no idea how he would tell Nick and Gracie if anything else happened to Ruth.

"We will find her." Ros stated. "And that treacherous bastard."

"Aye lass, we will." Henry nodded. "But these bastards make the Redbacks look like school yard bullies. Even Boscard never did the things these men have been known to do."

"We find her." Zaf looked Harry in the eyes. "She's coming home, Harry. And we will stop Fitzgerald and O Callaghan. It's what we do." Harry nodded, unable to speak for a moment before digging his mobile phone out of his pocket and walking into the now abandoned kitchen. Seconds later his son answered the call.

"Dad?"

"Graham, are you ok?"

"Yeah." Graham asked as he jogged up the steps to Harry and Ruth's front door. "Dad? What's wrong?"

"I won't be home for a while. I need you to look after the pets and the kids. Stay with them. Don't let Nick or the girls out of your sight."

"Catherine."

"Including Catherine."

"Dad, do I need to be worried? Terri is here with me."

"Yes." Harry answered honestly. "Keep her with you. I don't know what is happening yet. Look after Nick and your sisters. Ruth is missing. At the moment, that really is all I know."

"Bloody Hell."

"I'll call when I know more. Please son, I need to know I can rely on you." Graham swallowed hard before nodding. Then realising his father couldn't see him he cleared his throat.

"I wont let you down. I'll look after them."

"Thank you." Harry answered, relieved that he didn't have to worry about his children as much as he thought. "I'll call when I know more." He ended the call as Henry walked into the kitchen.

"What now?"

"Now." Harry stated. "We get you to Thames House. Ros. Get hold of Tariq. Tell him to put an alert out on all old blue transit vans. See if any have been bought from Northern Ireland recently."

"OK." Ros nodded.

"I want Lucas and Adam to ..." He paused as his phone began ringing. He froze for a moment before answering the call.

"Harry Pearce." The voice on the other end of the line laughed. "You married well this time. Congratulations."

"You touch her. I will find you and I will kill you." Harry spoke calmly. His voice deadly low. Ros narrowed her eyes, inwardly cursing that they weren't at Thames House so Tariq coudl trace the call. She slipped into the living room to call Beth. She had a feeling the younger woman's time in the private sector was going to be useful.

"Now now Harry." The voice on the other end of the line scalded him. Harry narrowed his eyes. A million memories running through his mind. None of them pleasant.

"What do you want?"

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