As we expect, everyone is still here. They seem to enjoy their time without us, maybe more than when we are here. I greet them as I walks in
S: hello everyone
K: Hey guys! Still having fun?
Y: Kuugo-san! Sousuke-senpai! Where have you guys been?! Don't you know that this party still up until today is over?
G: yeah, why you guys just gone like that?
K: well…. We were just go home for a bit, take care some things, all that stuff…
Y: what stuff?
K: some house work and…..
*GROUUUUUURK*
S: what was that?
G: is that the giant of Harusu again? Isn't it gone already?
Y: But there is no earthquake…
R: it's really loud though, maybe it's-
K: it was me…. I haven't eaten yet hehehehe….
Thanks to my hungry stomach, I can dodge all questions regarding my disappearance, but I feel really embarrassed because it was so loud and clear. They even thought it was the giant of Harusu just now. It triggers the memory in the kitchen with naked apron…..
S: yeah….. we haven't eaten anything
G: oh….. it was just your stomach. Try not to scare everyone like that next time
Y: yeah Kuugo-san, I thought it was something dangerous; I was terrified, especially because the sound really similar to the giant of Harusu
K: enough already! I can't help it, I really am hungry
R: hahahaha
G: I'm gonna make you guys something then
K: please ^^
G: why don't you guys eat while you guys at home? You just want free food are you?
K: hey! What was that all about! Since we are partying together I think it will appropriate if we eat together too
R: Hahaha, chill out Kuugo-kun, he just messing around with you, we haven't eaten anything either
Y: yeah! We were playing some baseball when you guys gone. It was so fun that we even forget to eat….
S: you really like make Kuugo feel guilty, aren't you Gou?
G: kind of, it's what I do on daily basis in the Lounge
K: can you guys stop with the teasing already? Jeez…
After that, Gou make food that can feed the whole village, but it doesn't matter because we are starving big eaters. We just hang out and have fun. It really is nice to spending time with your closest friends, too bad Yamato-san has to open when lounge is taking a break, but it's what they agreed on so there's nothing much we can do about it. I'm gonna go to Yamato san's tomorrow just to have a little bit of chat, I think he will love it. I probably should tell Sousuke about this first hand so he wouldn't get the wrong idea, I've had enough with all misunderstanding so I just gonna be honest with him.
Everyone is having fun at the Rai-san's backyard. I just notice how big his backyard really is, maybe because yesterday we do things in the dark, so I don't get the whole picture of how big it really is. I just sit quietly at the chair near the backyard with Sousuke, just drink some tea and have a little chat.
K: Sousuke, isn't it fun to spending time with everyone? ^^
S: yeah, it really does. Back then before you and Rai-san come here, it was just me, Yuujirou, and Gou. It kind of lonely and I can't really relate to baseball at all, so they must've felt the same way about me. After you and Rai-san came around, I have a friend that I can relate to and they have a friend, even an idol, to play with together, so I really am grateful of you and Rai-san
K: just a friend?
S: huh…, a boyfriend, happy now?
K: heheheh, you even grateful of Rai-san? That's odd
S: even Rai-san, who tried to take you away from me. He makes me realize that I need to do something. Maybe I wouldn't do anything by now if he has not try to steal you from me. He makes me did something I've never done before; he gave me a courage to confess my feeling for you. Of course I really appreciate the push that he gave and I think you should appreciate him too Kuugo.
K: wow….. I never thought about it that way, he sure is a "national treasure" huh?
S: I think he is a good guy. Kuugo, please be kind to him because I think that he still loves you. I can't imagine how sad he is right now, even if he never shows it to anyone. We should visit him once in a while, I think it would make him happy
K: Sousuke….. you are a good dog you know that?^^
S: don't call me that please…
K: hahahaha, don't you forget one other friend of ours just now?
S: who?
K: Yamato-san
S: ooh….. I forgot about him, he still has to open the restaurant, even if it's new year, isn't he?
K: since the lounge is closed, another restaurant should open. Otherwise, people at Harusu don't have a place to eat. Gou personally asked him to do so because we are having this party. I think Yamato-san just go with it since it was Gou's personal request. It's sad though he can't celebrate new year with us
S: you're right, I think we should do something for him
K: I was planning to visit him tomorrow after work, what do you think about that?
S: since I took day off so often, I should make up all the work right away, so I don't think I can join you tomorrow. I don't even think I can be at home tomorrow, maybe I should do the all night shift like last time.
K: I'm sorry that you should do a hard work tomorrow, if you don't take that vacation, you probably don't have to make up all of your work…..
S: it's okay, you don't have to apologize, I was the one who take a day off in the first place, even before this party even planned. Besides, I really have a time in my life, the best one
K: Sousuke…
He held my hand just now, I think he just can't take it any longer, is he? I look at him and he looks at me. We are facing each other and I can see he is blushing. Maybe because he is aware of where we are right now, he immediately facing to the backyard and continue our conversation
S: about Yamato-san… I think you should go see him tomorrow, can you do that?
K: of course ^^
S: yeah, I think it would be best if you do it ASAP, he probably thinking that we forget about him already. I will not get jealous if that what you've been thinking, as long as you don't do anything dirty with him, okay?
Once again, he read my mind just like a book. Of course I wouldn't do anything weird with him, at least I know that Yamato-san isn't a pushy kind of person. I think he is willing to do all that thing because I was the one who insist. If it wasn't of me, he wouldn't ask me to fuck him or anything, that's for sure.
K: yeah, of course I wouldn't do that! -_-
S: … I wonder if I can trust you this time….
K: if you don't trust me, you wouldn't ask me to do that in the first place, don't you?
S: you got a point there…... But in all seriousness, don't do anything weird, okay?
K: yeah, I promised Sousuke. No more messing around with other people?
S: no more messing around ^^
After spending a great time with everyone, me and Sousuke heading home. It was 9 o'clock. We were just walking when suddenly Sousuke holding my hand. I was surprised because he really secretive about our relationship. Not that I mind it, but I just had to ask.
K: Sousuke, don't you afraid that anybody could see us holding hands?
S: it is pretty late and there are no people in here, so I think its fine, besides, we haven't had a chance to do anything special with everyone around us
K: but you were sneakily holding my hands back there….
S: I just can't help it, tomorrow I will be working all night for sure and we won't have a chance to have a time together
K: you're right… in that case why don't we have a "quality" time for the rest of the night?
S: I have a work tomorrow, remember?
K: yeah, but we can't have a time together tomorrow, so why don't we do everything now? I'm sure you can handle just one round
S: you really all about sex, do you?
K: I admit it, I am, but don't you want it too?
S: … not that I deny it…, well….. maybe
K: hehehe, I like how you still embarrassed about it, I like this side of you, I think it's cute ^^
S: c-cut it out, will you?
K: hey Sousuke, there are no one here, right?
S: I think so, why?
After that I kissed him and I caught him by surprise, it was a short kiss but I can tell that he misses it so much
S: h-hey, we have to be careful about this
K: but you are the first one to hold my hand just now, right? So what is the difference between holding hand and kissing in this circumstance?
S: it's….. touché
After that he let go of my hand, I know he doesn't upset or anything, he just aware of the danger because even though we feel like no one is watching, there may be some people here and see what we're doing.
We arrive at Sousuke's house and after that we took a bath together and then head to our room. I get up to the bed naked because we will do something dirty tonight like we planned. Sousuke joins me, naked on the bed. We kiss a couple times and then he hugged me. I don't think this is right, he just hugged me and not let go of me for a long time. I know something's bothering him
K: ummmm…. Sousuke…..? is there something in the mind of yours?
S: …. nothing….
K: you are awfully quiet just now, maybe you don't want to have sex tonight? I'm sorry if you bothered by it, we should be honest with each other, remember?
S: no! it's not that, I just….. miss you
K: why? Don't we spend time together today watching everyone?
S: mhmm, but it doesn't feel the same. I can't do everything I want while everyone is around so we have to sneakily holding hand when there's people around. I know I was the one who forbid you to tell anyone, I really am afraid of anyone noticing even just a bit, but It really sucks
K: then we don't have to hide it if you hate it so much
S: no, I just telling you my feeling just now. I never intend to let anyone found out about us. It is sucks, but we can't help it. I just want to let you know that acting like this is bothering me, as much as it's bothering you
K: Sousuke….
I kissed him and then hugged him back. I never thought that doing it in secret bothering him too. I always thought he just do this because it's convenient this way, but now I'm sure that he is really insecure about our relationship being found out by other people. To think about it, people in Harusu is pretty conventional. It has some norms and rules, being gay is not one of them. I can understand now why he is so cautious about us, but I think his closest friend wouldn't mind at all. In fact, they also kind of gay. They gay in certain level, I suppose. After all, they all already did something dirty with me. If I can just tell him without making him jealous and all sad, I would have told him right away.
K: I understand Sousuke, you don't have to worry about that anymore, I don't mind at all, as long as it makes you happy, okay?
S: thank you Kuugo, I'm sorry I-
I gently place my finger in his lips and kissed him once again. We didn't do anything dirty that night because the atmosphere is romantic and kind of sad. We just cuddle ourselves to sleep. I didn't regret any of it, spending time with Sousuke is something that I love.
The next morning, his alarm clock woke up both of us. We still hugging each other. He greets me first
S: good morning Kuugo
K: morning Sousuke
I casually kissed him
S: hey, we didn't even brush our teeth first…
K: hehehe, I don't mind at all
S: you little….
K: hehehe
S: we forgot to do that yesterday aren't we?
K: do what?
S: do you know why are we naked in bed right now?
K: oooh, you mean "that". yeah, I guess so. Do you really want to do it?
S no actually, but I thought you really looking up to it
K: I don't really mind, don't sweat it
S: thanks. I should probably prepare myself now
K: go ahead, I will make breakfast as usual
S: thank you Kuugo
As usual, he gets out of the bath, I prepare the simple breakfast and then walk him to the door
S: Kuugo, can you come here for a bit?
K: hmmm?
He then gives me the goodbye kiss
K: hmm….? you remember it
S: how can I forget it? It's our routine now
K: right, hehehe. See you later Sousuke
S: see you later Kuugo
He then drove his car out of Harusu. After that I prepare myself and go to the lounge.
to be continued