(Alrighty! Writing this chapter sort of tired me out, heh. Just want to say thanks to everyone who has favorite/followed/reviewed/looked at the title and rolled their eyes/or just visited my account. I do have a one-shot tumbr which is goodgollymissmoxley tumblr com. Just add the dots, ya know? If you're ever waiting on me to upload another chapter and you want to read more of my writings; that's where to find them! The song (bold and italicized) is "It's All Tears", by HIM. Have fun! Don't forget to review. Mwuah.)

I'm waiting for you to drown in
my love
So open your arms
I'm waiting for you to open your arms
And drown in this love
I'm waiting for you to drown in my love
So open your arms
I'm waiting for you to open your arms
And drown in this love

Lily hugged Jake goodbye as he stood at the bottom of the staircase leading to the apartment. Lily had a great time with Jake, he was always great company. He pushed for more sometimes but he knew that Lily wasn't interested.
She walked into the darkened living room quietly fearing that Jon would be asleep, the apartment was now a lot warmed. She could barely see anything as she closed the door. The stereo was playing some sort of alternate song, Lily knew a few words of it. She took another step into the living room when she heard the soft whimpers. Soft whimpers turned into moans; moans of pleasure. The car's headlights coming in from the highway just outside their apartment shown on the couch as it revealed two bodies grinding together. Lily instantly knew who it was; as much as she fought against the feeling to go over and rip Macy off of Jon's body she didn't.

"Fuck Mace, that feels so good." Jon groaned, watching as Lily walked away from them
"Mmmm," Macy moaned, "You like that baby?"
"You know I do." Jon's husky voice came back.

Lily shut her door and turned the stereo up even louder in her room trying to block the sounds out of the two just a few feet away from her. She collapsed into her bed, tears streaming down her face as she did. She was hurt and she didn't know why; Jon was just a friend, right? She didn't have any more feelings for Jon more than friendship. She had to convince herself and she would be fine.
She couldn't imagine laying beside of him at night, using him as her pillow while rubbing her fingers through his hair anymore. She couldn't imagine being more than just friends with him anymore; all that had to stop. She would cry her tears out of hurt at the moment and in the morning when she woke up she wouldn't let it show that it ever hurt or bothered her anymore after tonight.

Jon closed the door after Macy left, leaving him with one soft kiss on the cheek. After he locked the door, he walked into the kitchen and lit a cigarette. He took a long drag off of the Newport and held it in his chest, letting the nicotine rush to his brain to calm his cravings. The after-sex cigarette was always his favorite. He leaned against the kitchen counter as he watched his shadow move with his body. He knew what he done was mean, playing on his innocent roommate's feelings like he did after kissing her. Maybe that's all Lily would ever be to him; just a roommate. He had to admit, he had his eyes closed all through his late-night fuck session with Macy and he tried his hardest to imagine it was Lily instead.
He couldn't kiss Macy; he didn't want to ruin the feeling of Lily's lips on his. Her plump soft lips felt good against his, he liked the smoothness of her mouth. In all honesty, he just liked her mouth.
He butted out his cigarette as it neared the filter and made his way to this room. He opened the bathroom door to see Lily brushing her teeth feverishly, like she was trying to get something out of her mouth.

"You're going to break your teeth." Jon sighed, walking over to the toilet and flipping the lid up.
"At least they will be clean." She shrugged, wiping her makeup off of her face.

Jon stared down at the toilet as he emptied his bladder; the sound of his piss hitting the water was the only sound in the bathroom. Lily stared at his bare back in the mirror as he did, still brushing her teeth harshly. She had been brushing them for almost two minutes now.

"Seriously, Lily." Jon said as he looked down at her, "You're going to ruin your enamel."
"I like my mouth clean unlike some other people." She snapped at him, spitting the built up toothpaste out, "Some people just like putting their mouths all over anything that will allow them too; whether it be a rat or a human or something between the two."

Jon looked over her much smaller body. He knew she was mad at him. He sighed and picked his own toothbrush up as she was rinsing hers off. She moved out of the way so he could brush his teeth and moved to turn the shower on. Jon watched over his shoulder in the mirror as she took her clothes off, her back turned to him. Lily felt his blue eyes upon her as she stepped into the warm shower. Her milky white skin left a deep impression on his mind as he washed his toothbrush off.

Open your arms and let me show you what love can be like
It's all tears and it will be 'til the end of your time
Come closer my love
Will you let me tear your heart apart?
Now all hope is gone so drown in this love

Lily let the warm water wash down over her body, rinsing off what felt like ten tons of dirt. She felt dirty, maybe it was just stress. Maybe It was because of period, she didn't know. She rinsed her long black hair out and washed her body but she was far from ready to get out. She crouched down and sat underneath the running water as it cascaded down her back. She hadn't felt this sad in a long time, ever since her mom left her. She pulled her knees up to her chest and rested her head against them as she sobbed; she didn't care if Jon heard her anymore. She was tired of hiding her sadness from him when he was the one who caused it. Her loud sobs filled the bathroom, echoing all around her. The water turned cold. She let it all out as her body convulsed softly. She wrapped her arms underneath her thighs and held herself. It felt like it was all just going to end soon, like it was all going even further downhill for her and Jon. She never thought that he would have been the one to save her from the streets but she was lucky that he did; who knew what or where she would be right now if he hadn't. Jon had walked into her life when she was at her lowest; she looked up to him for that. She cherished him for it, he saved her from the harsh streets.
Blinded by her tears, she felt Jon's pair of strong arms and a towel wrap around her and pull her from the cold water as he once again violated her mind, pulling her from her thoughts and into his warm arms.

So my love your laughter is finally turning into tears
And you're begging for more though the end is getting near
come closer my love
I'll violate you in the most sensual way... until you drown in this
love

"Stop crying," Jon whispered as he held her tightly, "Please stop crying."
"You said you'd never let anyone hurt me," She shivered in his arms, "You're the one who is hurting me the most."
"I know I am." He whispered, "I know, Lily and I'm sorry. But seeing you walk away from something that was important to me; that I desperately wanted you to be a part of hurt me. You hurt me just as much."
"I didn't go and fuck someone." Lily cried, wiping her tears off on the towel; "I didn't go and have someone all over me right after we kissed."
"You walked out with Jake, what the fuck was I supposed to think Lily? You didn't tell me where you were going, you just left." Jon's voice was a whisper but it was still powerful.
"Maybe we shouldn't have feelings for each other anymore," Lily whispered, "We just seem to hurt each other. I'll get a job and I'll find my own place; we can just be friends."
"Lily stop," Jon sighed; he knew the girl was used to being thrown out, "You won't do either of that. I won't let you. You still have a home here, there's no need to rush. As for the feelings part, Lily I'm not going to force you into something you don't want to do. If you want to just be friends, we can just be friends."
"As much as it hurts me to say this," Lily swallowed hard, "Maybe that's just what we need to do."

Jon dropped his forehead down against hers and sighed; his blue eyes scorching hers. Jon was a intense man, he always had been even when they were joking around.

"I didn't have plans to fall for you." Jon whispered, "But I think that's whats happening."
"I didn't have those plans either." She shook her head, "But goddamnit you're intoxicating."

After a few more minutes of conversation, Lily watched Jon walk out of the bathroom as just her friend. She felt like she just made a huge mistake yet once again in her life.