We walk in the Training Center. I walk through the dressing room, straight to the Training hall.

I don't want to see other girls like Noa. I just sit on a bench.

I see Hanna searching for Marcus. I look down, he's dead because of me. Just like Alyssa.

Well, I don't hope that the Peacekeepers are coming again. Lisa walks in the training hall and sits next to me.

'What happened?' she asks me.

'nothing?' I try to sound innocent.

'Don't lie to me'

'Does she really know what happened? I've told it to no one except Cato and his mom. No one else. She can't know this.' I think.

'Clove I feel such things.' She admits.

'Things like what?!..' I ask her.

Lisa looks me straight in my eyes. 'Tell me'.

I shake my head, I don't want to explain. The hall fills with children.

'Listen up everyone! Today is the last training of the season. Tomorrow is the Reaping.' Hanna shouts 'Does anyone know where Marcus is? I don't have seen him today.' I look to Cato, probably he thought the same as me, and looks at me. He nods, and whispers 'say it'.

'He.. He is dead.' I say to Hanna.

I look to the ground, I feel the eyes of the people who are watching me, it's like they're burning me. Hanna is shocked.

'Oh poor you! You've killed another? Shouldn't the peacekeepers do something about that..' Noa laughs.

'Maybe they first have to fix your f*cking face' Cato says to Noa.

'There's nothing wrong with me' she says.

'You are still breathing, that is wrong.'

'Noa! Cato! that is enough!' Hanna screams.

'Clove I'll talk to you after the training.' Hanna says. I nod. I look down to avoid any eye contact.

'Okay everyone, warming up! Run 20 times to the opposite wall and back.' Hanna tells us.

I stand up. Life is complicated, running is simple. I run to the wall and back, and repeat that 20 times.

When everyone is done Hanna says 'Okay, whole training is in the Indoor Practice Arena. We are going to play the Practice Games again. Same rules as yesterday! Go stand by your group,' Everyone stands with their groups. Me and Marc-'

I see the disappointment in her face, she has to do everything alone now.

She corrects herself 'I meant I* will make the teams... you know, f*ck the teams. Everyone does it his or herself! In the Hunger Games you have to fight alone sometime, you can't stick together with district 1 and 4 forever.. You can injury others, only the best are going to volunteer tomorrow. Just don't kill each other.'

All 30 children of group 3 are walking to their platforms and wait for the countdown.

10…9…8…7…

I was too tired to look around me, so much has happened today and yesterday.

Before I know it the gong goes off. I run slowly to the cornucopia and see there are no knifes left.

I roll my eyes and grab a thin sword. I can work with that too I guess.

I run after a boy, when I'm closer to him I swing the sword and give him a huge scar on his leg, knowing I can't kill him. But I can hurt him.

I see a girl, she is going to be next.

I stumble, and fall on the ground. My ankle can't take this anymore. I have to sit down. But where? I see the cornucopia. I hop to the cornucopia and try to climb on it. It's harder than I thought it would be. But I can do this. I do a run up and pull myself on the cornucopia.

I sit on the highest point, and have a nice view on everyone fighting. This is pretty funny to see.

'Where's Cato?' I think, and look over the field to find him.

'In a week he is going to be in the Hunger Games, it is weird to see him fighting on TV. I don't want him to leave. His mom was so nice to me, why would she want to put him in the games. I would never to that to my children.'

I look down, I don't see Cato anywhere.

'OKAY STOP!' Hanna screams. 'PUT DOWN YOUR WEAPONS'

Everyone puts down their weapons.

'I want everyone to be fit tomorrow, so you better can go home and sleep.' Hanna says

, I'm sure she didn't want that, but she is just too tired herself, what I understand, she has lost someone too. She and Marcus knew each other so long.

Everyone walks to their dressing room, but I want to tell Hanna what happened yesterday.

I slide off the cornucopia and walk to Hanna. I hear Cato yelling 'Clove I'll wait outside for you'.

I look at him and nod.

'Hanna I am so sorry..if.. if I wasn't like that yesterday, the Peacekeepers wouldn't kill him.' I say to her.

'Clove it isn't your fault.' She says to calm me down. I am shaking..

' Cato and I walked back home from training, and at once I stumbled over a body. First I didn't recognize it was Marcus, Cato said he was dead. I'm sure the Peacekeepers killed him!' I say regrettable.

Hanna tries to look strong, but I see she is not at all. I give her a hug.

'I didn't get the chance to say him goodbye, but I wanted to thank you, for all you've done for me.'

Hanna smiles a little. 'Bye' she tells me. And I go outside, Cato still stands there.

We walk through the streets, to his house. We walk past an old man on the corner of a street. He is around 80 years.

'Will I ever be that old? I don't think so.. I have no idea what I am going to do with my life. But I want to spend it with the boy who walks next to me, Cato. If he is going to win the games. If he dies too, I have nothing left.'

'Why are you going to volunteer?' I say quietly. '

Why shouldn't I?'Cato replies

'Once upon a time I am going to die, you are going to die. We all die Clove! It is going to happen. What difference does It makes if it's in a week, or in 80 years? There's no way out. I am going to die once, but till then I want to fight for my life. If I can choose to live this life, or take the risk to die, and win the Games so I live in the Victor Village with you. I am ready to take that risk. I want to live while I'm alive.'

I am shocked by his words. I didn't knew he thought like that. But still, he was right.

'Is there life after death? Where is Alyssa now? She has to be somewhere..' I think.

We arrive at Cato's house. He opens the door and we walk inside. I see his little brother and sister.

'Want some tea?' Selene asks us.

'No thanks' we reply.

Cato and I walk upstairs. We're both very tired.

There's happened so much today. Earlier this day I was sitting in my house, Alyssa was still alive. Then the fire came, and ruined everything.

I would do anything to turn back the time, but I can't.

I lay down on a bed, tomorrow is the reaping. Time flies by, but I'm still awake.

I look at Cato, he looks so innocent when he's sleeping instead of someone who wants to be in the Hunger Games.

I try to escape of my thoughts, and fall into a light sleep.