"Hey you're awake." Alonzo grinned when he saw Julia stirring beside him in the Dune Rail.

"How long have I been asleep?" Julia asked trying to straighten in her seat.

"About two hours."

"Why didn't you wake me?"

"You needed the sleep. I have spoken to Devon, everything is fine, she is fine, no need to worry. So you ok?"

"Fine." Julia replied looking out of the Dune Rail at the passing scenery. Not impressed by her answer Alonzo stopped the rail.

"Why have we stopped?" Julia asked, still feeling foggy.

"You need to talk to me. It is just the two of us and we aren't going anywhere until you tell me what's wrong." Alonzo said.

"Don't be ridiculous, we are on a scout, we need to find the new route." Julia dismissed him.

"No we don't, the next few days' routes have already been planned." Alonzo said.

"Then why I'm I out here? I have better things to do."

"You're here because everyone is worried about you. They wanted to give you a break."

"By they you mean you and Devon?" Julia questioned shaking her head.

"Well...yeah. But only because we care. Julia it is obvious something is wrong why won't you talk to me?"

"I'm fine."

"Don't lie, not to me. I mean it we are not going anywhere until you let me in." He said causing Julia to climb out of the rail. "Julia." Alonzo called clambering out of the rail. "You can't walk back to the others it's too far." Before the pilot had caught up with Julia it looked like the young doctor was staggering before she finally came to a stop and leaned against a tree. Rushing to her side Alonzo asked.

"What's wrong?"

"Just a bit dizzy."

"Why?"

"Don't know." Julia said her eyes scrunched shut.

"Is it stims?" Alonzo finally blurted out.

"You too?" Julia asked opening her eyes allowing Alonzo to see the hurt and resignation pouring from them.

"The others said your pulse was racing and he suggested it could be stims." Alonzo confessed.

"I'm not taking stims. I took a few when I was trying to figure out what was wrong with Devon, but only a few."

Alonzo opened his mouth to speak but there was enough hesitation before the words came for Julia to speak first.

"Why won't anyone believe me?" She partially cried out before sliding down the tree trunk. When she was sitting on the ground she pulled her knees to her chest. "I guess I know. It is not like I have the best track record after I experimented on Uly and injected myself with the strand of Terrian DNA."

"Julia no one is holding that against you." Alonzo said dropping down beside her.

"No? Then why does everyone assume I am addicted to stims?"

"Because there is obviously something wrong and you won't tell us what."

"I'm fine."

"You can say it as much as you like but it won't make it true. Look at yourself Julia, you look terrible, you are being more elusive than normal, more bad tempered, you have shut me out."

"If I am that bad why force me onto a scout with you?"

"Because I want to help. I love you Julia and I am not giving up."

"What do you want me to say?"

"Tell me what's wrong with you? If you say it is not stims I believe you, but if isn't stims what is it?"

"I don't know, it could just be down to the fact I haven't got much sleep recently."

"Why?"

"What do you mean why?"

"Why haven't you got much sleep?"

"There has been too much to do. Healing us, healing Devon, finding edible food, monitoring us, monitoring Devon-" She began to reel off.

"Why are you pushing yourself so hard?" Alonzo asked.

"I have to."

"Why?"

"I missed that Devon was sick from something different to the rest of us. I should have spotted it. Then it took me ten days to diagnose her. It was so simple and I didn't see it. My failure caused us to loose ten days travelling. Then because of yesterday I made us loose another half day. I am a hindrance to the group. What's the point of me being there if I can't be a doctor?"

"Why wouldn't you be a doctor anymore? Julia, you cured Devon. She is with us again because of you." Alonzo asked, struggling to follow Julia's words.

"No one trusts me."

"Who?"

"Devon, Danziger, everyone."

"What are you talking about?"

"Devon won't let me run the tests I need to run to check she is ok."

"When has Devon ever patiently let you run tests?"

"John, he cut his hand and won't let me look at it. It obviously needs attention but he won't let me anywhere near him." Julia continued ignoring Alonzo's objection.

"That may be my fault. I asked him to make sure you were resting." Alonzo confessed.

"And now the group thinks I am addicted to stims. Would you let an addict treat you?"

"But you said yourself you are not addicted."

"What does that matter. They have made up their minds already. I'm no longer trusted to be a doctor."

"That is not true. The only reason people don't want you to treat them right now is because they are concerned about you and want to give you a break. Once you are rested it will all go back to how it was before."

"What if it doesn't?"

"You're worried that if you are not a doctor the group would what? Abandon you? That's nuts Julia, we are more than a group we are a family."

"I've already betrayed everyone here. I nearly operated and possibly killed Uly because a hologram told me to. I spied on and betrayed the group to a glorified computer."

"Everyone forgave you." Alonzo argued. "Besides you chose to turn your back on the council. You chose us like we chose you." He added gripping Julia's hand.

"How can they have? Deep down they are right to be weary. I betrayed them." She said, her voice barely above a whisper.

"You don't have to prove yourself Julia. You've done enough."

"No I haven't. Eben is dead because I failed. Devon could have been lost forever."

"You saved Devon." Alonzo reiterated. "Why are you being so hard on yourself?"

"The only thing I have is being a doctor. I was created for that purpose. To fail like I have is....it feels like something has been ripped from me. All my life I could trust me, trust my skills. But now I have nothing."

"That's not true. You have me and I trust you with my life." Alonzo said, causing Julia's face to flash with an empty smile.

"Since I got here, to this planet, perhaps even since I was born you were the only one to believe in me as a person." Julia started. "I grew dependent on that faith, when it was taken away I felt so lost and empty."

"I never took it away." Alonzo said confused.

"Yes you did. Devon, Danziger, the others not trusting me I can cope with, but you I just..."

"Julia, I have always and will always believe in you." Alonzo said.

"You said there was no cure for Devon, that science didn't have the answer. That I couldn't help her."

"Julia I said that because I was worried and angry. I didn't want you to forget yourself, to cure Devon at the expense of you." Alonzo tried to explain, holding Julia's face in his hands, forcing her to look in her eyes. "I have never lost faith in you. Even when you were putting me and my leg through hell I trusted you. Whatever happens I trust you you. Julia I love you. For all I care you could give up being a doctor and I would still love you." With those words he pulled Julia into his chest and held her in a tight embrace.