A/N: I'M FREAKING OUT. I've found "Love The Way You Lie Part 2" and I've nearly had a nervous breakdown because the lyrics are just PERFECT for this story!

I wrote this whole chapter during one night (!) because I was in the right mood to write depressing stuff.

PLEASE READ THE LYRICS.

Chapter 10

"...because I like the way it hurts."

On the first page of our story

the future seems so bright

Then this thing turned out so evil

I don't know why I am still surprised.

"No!", yelled Astoria when Draco came towards her, ready to beat her again; she ignored her trembling legs. "If you'll hurt me again I swear I'm going to leave you for real, I'm serious!"

Draco stopped right in front of her. "Oh, you will?", he said with an arrogant smirk. "Guess you forgot who's the superior here."

"I can't believe how much you've changed!", yelled Astoria shocked. "There were times when you were nice to me and now you've turned into the same asshole you've always been!"

"Watch it", hissed Draco.

Astoria bit her lower lip. "You know, everyone kept telling me that I should leave you and that you'd never change. Especially Amelia, I thought she just didn't know you – but I guess she has been right all the time."

She ignored that he rolled his eyes when she mentioned her best friend and went on: "Don't you remember? You held me all night long after I've received the Dark Mark, we used to talk, damn it we used to be happy!"
"Things change", hissed Draco. "Deal with it."

"Deal with it? That's all you have to say?"

"Oh shut up. You're annoying."

Astoria ignored what he said. "I don't want us to end up like our parents did! An awkward couple who's just together because they have to! If – if I'm so annoying, why don't you just break up with me?"

He came closer. "Do you realize what you've just said?"

"I do."

"I don't think so. You realize that you'd lose your kid if I left you? You should think about what you say to me in the future, otherwise -"

Astoria interrupted him. "Oh, come on. You wouldn't want our kid to grow up without a mother."

"Who says that he wouldn't have one?"

Astoria faltered. "Well, without his mother."
"Do you really think he'd remember you? He's not even three years old."

"You wouldn't do that", whispered Astoria.

He smirked. "You think?"

"Fuck, Draco why are you so mean?", whispered Astoria.

xxx

Even angels have their wicked schemes

and you take death to new extremes

But you'll always be my hero

even though you've lost your mind

xxx

Their fight had ended by Draco storming out of the room and slamming the door shut.

A few hours later, when it was already dark outside and Scorpius was asleep, Astoria was in the kitchen and made the dishes which hadn't been made in a few days because Draco had fired their house elf in a blind rage a few days ago.

She winced when he suddenly touched her hips; she hadn't heard him coming.

"Hey", said Draco and kissed her neck softly.

Astoria closed her eyes and took a deep breath. "What do you want?"

"You", whispered Draco and came closer, still holding her hips.

Astoria escaped his touch by stepping aside from the sink.

"Come on", smirked Draco. "I don't know how long I'll be here and we haven't done it yet."

"Maybe you should've thought about your needs before you treated me like crap again."

Draco sighted. "Look, let's stop the fighting. Except you want to fight to have make-up sex afterward."

"Stop it!", said Astoria in disbelief.

"You stop bitching", said Draco, came towards her and placed his hands onto the pantry so that his wife was cornered.

When he leant forward to kiss her, Astoria felt nauseous. "I can't do this", she said then and turned her head away.

Because Draco didn't make any move, she pushed him away and before he even realized what was happening she ran out of the kitchen, grabbed her handbag and a jacket in the hallway and disappeared in front of the apartment.

xxx

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn

but that's alright because I like the way it hurts

Just gonna stand there and hear me cry

but that's alright because I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie

xxx

She came home in the middle of the night. "Uh", she sighted when she closed the door behind her. She felt dizzy.

"Where have you been?", she heard a cold voice out of the dark.

Astoria blinked. "Out."

"Oh, really." His voice had been calm but now Draco started yelling. "You're such an irresponsible fool!"

"I can't do this now", said Astoria and leaned back against the wall. "I'm drunk."

"Pathetic", hissed Draco. "You should take care of our son, not go out and get fucking drunk!"

"Oh come on", sighted Astoria, "I've only been gone for a few hours. What about all the times when you are away for weeks?"

Now there's gravel in our voices,

glass is shattered from the fight.

In this tug of war you'll always win

even when I'm right.

"That's my job", hissed Draco. "And yours is to raise the baby! What if I told them that you're an irresponsible fool and not able to raise Scorpius? You're freaking lucky that I don't. Because I should!"
"You're telling me that I'm a bad mother?", yelled Astoria back. "You know exactly that I never wanted this! I didn't want to have a baby at the age of seventeen, but who cared? You forced me into this!"

"Because it's your fucking duty! Do I really need to remind you of your -"

Astoria interrupted him. "Shut it! I can't hear this crap about duties anymore! You may be supposed to be the superior here but here's the news, I'm a human being, I've got freaking feelings!"

"Yeah well, who cares."

"You should care! Because I'm pretty sure that contrary to me, you've had a choice! I'm sure that they asked you whether it was okay for you to marry me and you could've said no! I haven't been asked, I was forced into this!"

"What's your point?", asked Draco and crossed his arms in front of his chest.

"My point is that if you think I'm irresponsible and a fool, you shouldn't have agreed to marry me! You shouldn't have forced me into getting your baby and, fuck, the Death Eater crap! My life is screwed and it's your fault!"

'cause you feed me fables from your hand

with violent words and empty threats

and it's sick that all these battles

are what keeps me satisfied

At first, Draco just looked at her, stunned by her statement. Then he made a few angry steps forward and his hand hit her cheek hard. Again.

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn

but that's alright because I like the way it hurts

Just gonna stand there and hear me cry

but that's alright because I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie

Astoria's head flew to the side and she touched her hurting cheek with her hand instantly. She remained like that for a while. No, she thought then, looked up, brushed the hair out of her face and shoved Draco hard; he hadn't expected her to fight back, so he trembled back against the other wall of the hallway in surprise.

"How dare you", hissed Draco angry and grabbed her by her shoulders. If gazes could kill, Astoria would've been dead instantly.

So maybe I'm a masochist

I try to run but I don't wanna ever leave

'til the walls are going up in smoke with all our memories.

xxx

This morning, you wake, a sunray hits your face

smeared makeup as we lay in the wake of destruction

When Astoria woke up, she felt pain – basically on her whole body. She turned around and saw Draco next to her, his head resting on his arm; he was watching her.

tell me I'll be sorry that you pushed me

into the coffee table last night

so I can push you off me

try and touch me

so I can scream at you not to touch me

"Get your fucking hands off me!", yelled Astoria, got up and ran out of the room. She ran into Scorpius' bedroom; her yelling at her husband had made her kid wake up.

"It's okay, baby", she whispered, lifted him up in her arms and disappeared with him.

Amelia's jaw dropped when she saw Astoria and Scorpius in front of her apartment. "What the hell happened to you?", she asked then.

"Don't ask", said Astoria. "Can – can you please take him for a few hours?"

Amelia took Scorpius in her arms. "He hit you again, didn't he?"

"Please. Don't ask", repeated Astoria and disappeared.

baby, without you I'm nothing

I'm so lost, hug me

then tell me how ugly I am, but that you'll always love me

When she returned into her apartment, she found Draco standing in the kitchen. When he looked at her, he was shocked.

He hadn't noticed before that she had lost weight, but now he saw how skinny she really was. Well, she had always been skinny but not that thin...

He could see the bruises on her cheek and neck and legs which he had caused last night; there were also some old ones. His wife was wearing a pair of boxer shorts and a hoodie; her hair was kind of a mess.

And her eyes...when he looked into her eyes, he could see how hurt she was. There was something empty in her gaze that scared the hell out of him.

I did this to her. He frowned at that thought, went straight towards her and hugged her.

then after that, shove me

in the aftermath of the destructive path we're on

"Don't touch me", whispered Astoria and pushed him off her.

"Baby", said Draco and looked deep into her eyes.

Astoria shivered; he hadn't called her that in ages.

"I'm sorry you're hurting", he said then.

"You're sorry I'm hurting or you're sorry you hurt me?", snapped Astoria.

two psychopaths, but we know that

She knew exactly that she wouldn't get an appropriate apology from her husband but she tried anyway.

When he looked at her, she knew that she wouldn't get more than what he had already said. Pathetic.

They tried to stare each other down but it didn't work out and finally, after an eternity, Draco leaned forward to kiss her roughly.

no matter how many knives we put into each other's backs

that we'll have each other's backs

'cause we're that lucky

She didn't push him away like she wanted to; Astoria returned the kiss as passionately. When they broke the kiss because they needed air, she looked down on the floor until he lifted her chin with his hand and made her look at him.

She did, but then she rolled her eyes and stepped away from him to lean against the kitchen pantry. "I can't do this anymore", she said without looking at him.

"It's what we do", replied Draco.

you hit me twice, yeah but who's countin'

I may have hit you three times,

I'm staring to lose count

"This is just crazy! You hurt me, then I fail at hurting you because you're too fucking strong and then we make up after while just to start another fight the next day!"

"Maybe you should stop being fucking bitchy all the time."

"You're blaming me for our fights?", said Astoria in disbelief. "You're the one that gets angry because of every crappy little thing you don't like and you're the one who got used to hit me!"

our love is crazy, we're nuts

but I refused counselin'

"They say", continued Astoria, "that once your husband started hurting you, he'll never stop."

"Fuck what they say!", replied Draco annoyed. "They don't know us. And by the way, if you hadn't shoved me I wouldn't have needed to hurt you more than I already had."

"Oh, so this is my fault?", yelled Astoria and pointed at her bruises.

Draco shrugged. "Baby", he said then in a voice that scared her, "you know what happens if you leave."

this house is too huge, if you move I'll burn

all two thousand square feet of it to the ground

ain't shit you can do about it

with you I'm in my fucking mind, without you, I'm out it!

She swallowed hard. "Screw you", she whispered then but her voice showed that she wasn't that serious.

And when he came closer and looked into her eyes, he reminded her once more of all the reasons why she could never leave him no matter how hard she wished she could. He didn't even need to say something, just by looking in each other's eyes they were locked, stuck together; forever.

And when he kissed her again, they both felt the familiar desire for each other which never got old, which they felt every time they were close and which would never fade away.

Because they loved each other.

Astoria let him lift her onto the pantry and wrapped her legs around him. Everything was familiar; the anger was gone for now and they made up with sex like they always did...just to start a new fight soon. But she didn't care anymore.

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn

but that's alright because I like the way it hurts

Just gonna stand there and hear me cry

but that's alright because I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie