June 11. It was another gloomy day, both because of the weather and because of Takumi's feelings. Long gone are the times when the sound of the raindrops distressed him; years ago, before Gii made it all better, he couldn't sleep during the raining nights of June, since the sound of the rain continuously falling reminded him without mercy of painful days. All of that is a faraway memory but right now his insomnia returned and not for the same reason that caused it that time. He missed Gii just too much and he needed him now more than ever to chase away the pain of those long gone days the way he always did, a pain that was still lingering because of the situation with his parents, and he needed him to fulfil their eternal promise of love like they did until now. After all those years he feels like going alone would only be painful. And it made him afraid. Was the break of their promise the break of their relationship..? Would their bond dissolve if it wouldn't be kept? But would it be because it was forgotten that it wouldn't be kept? 'Gii you still remember don't you? You didn't forget right? It doesn't matter if we can't talk to each other, it doesn't matter if we can't see the other, even when doubts pervade my mind, deep inside I know our love didn't falter, that distance won't destroy it, I know that we are in each other's thoughts, deep in me I know I still hold your heart, you gave it to me to treasure and protect the same way you always did with mine. But Gii it hurts. Am I really loosing you? My heart tells me that I must not lose faith but at the same time it's bleeding.. I need you...'
He tried to call Gii but he was answered by his secretary instead.
"I'm sorry, but I'm afraid Saki-sama won't be able to take your call" and that was after a whole week of barely being able to say hi to his lover.
The same thing happened the next day but this time he could talk with Gii's dad's secretary at least.
"Shimaoka-san can you tell me why it's impossible to talk with Gii?"
"Sorry but he's really busy. From now on he has to work on the new project and can't leave it until it's done, it's said to be of the greatest importance"
"I understand"
It was the middle of the day but it was dark outside, it was chilly and it wouldn't stop raining, Takumi felt miserable, irritated and so lonely. He'd go out of his mind if it continued like that, the only thing he could do was to take comfort from his violin. He could practice undisturbed in a place provided by his manager so he went there. He played and let his music help him, his violin was the best friend that helped him get through this harsh time, the lonely wait before June 15th. While playing time passed in a blur for Takumi. He spent June 12 and 13 playing. He didn't bother to take his phone with him and he made sure that no one would disturb him while playing, unfortunately it was on June 13 that Gii tried to call him, Gii had some stress-free time after weeks, but still he could not relax yet for he had a very serious appointment to go to and he had to call Takumi before he left. But no matter how much he tried he couldn't reach him, so he had no choice left but to let it go for now. He frenetically reached his house to take what he needed and left in a hurry.
It was June 14th, Takumi was in his room lying on the bed and facing the ceiling or anywhere that was not the window, the weather didn't brighten up at all and he was already suffocating with the feeling of loss he didn't really need the gloom of that rainy day to make it worst.
'While you're not here I get scared of losing you forever'
He called Gii again but his phone was still out of reach, 'I guess he won't come..' his chest tightened and a solitary pained tear accompanied that thought.
'I'll keep waiting for you always, even if we'll have to part, however long it may be, I'll always wait for you; I'll be strong I know I can do it, I won't let go to waste the strength your love gives me. I'll go alone until the time you'll come back to me and we'll fulfil our promise again'
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It came June 15, his onii-san's death anniversary. Takumi woke up with a heavy heart but without duelling on sad thoughts he started to get ready. The weather cleared up a little bit, just that much that won't make you sadder.
It was around 12 o'clock when Takumi reached the station for Tachikawa hospital. He was a bit discouraged but the weather cleared up at that point and it was nice and sunny. When he walked out the station he could see someone who was standing a few metres ahead of him. Takumi's heart skipped a beat, but he didn't even realize why; his body was telling him something which he was too afraid to perceive for fear that it wasn't true after all. He stopped and stared at that person, he blinked his eyes in stupor a few times, he thought he was hallucinating but he wasn't mistaken, it was Gii!
"Yo!" Gii greeted him like he wanted to do since the last time they met and a huge and gorgeous smile lit up his face. Takumi was unable to utter a single world, but his mind was shouting, 'Gii! Gii, it's really Gii!' His heart bursting, he broke into a run towards him, as soon as he was close Gii let his bag fall to the ground as did Takumi and opened his arms wide ready and more than glad to finally hold his lover close. Takumi flung his arms round his lover's neck and they were locked in a fierce embrace, it hurt how tightly they enclosed their arms around each other but they couldn't care less, instead they welcomed that pain for it made it all the more real. They were there together, they could touch and feel the warmth of their lover, smell their familiar and reassuring scent, no words could describe such sweet pleasure of being finally reunited with your destined lover, your soul mate.
They then moved at the same time, their bodies still remaining locked they kissed with all the passion they had. All the emotions they had to set aside while they were apart were unleashed and overflowed without restrain in their desperate kiss. Their sense of holding back completely forgotten, it wasn't like they didn't care who could see them, that kind of concern just never even entered their minds for it was completely filled only with the feel of their lover.
Although they never wished to stop they had to part to at least get some oxygen back, and yet they parted a bit their mouths just enough for that purpose. Safe in their intense embrace, breathing hard with their mouths millimetres apart, their noses and foreheads lovely touching, they never wished to move. Gii opened his eyes and saw that his lover was crying, so he raised his hand to Takumi's cheek to wipe away his tears "Please don't cry my love" his voice was hoarse with emotion, it sounded like he was the one crying.
"Gii" but Takumi couldn't stop, what he was feeling was really too much and was impossible for him to stop even if he wanted to. He sank further in the warmth that his lover's body was while Gii moved his hand to the back of his sweetheart's head and they were again locked in a strong embrace.
