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Chapter 9

JacPOV

Just as I was just coming to terms with the prospect of Lady Byrne impromtue visit, I had Joseph turn up on my door step. Why is it that the days you want to end the quickest always turn out the longest. I pulled open my door and there he stood in all his gorgeous masculine glory.

"Hi..." He said it with a sad smile and all I wanted to do was crawl into bed beside him and not wake up until all the bad things went away.

"Hi...what are you doing here?" He shrugged his shoulders and walked on into my apartment like he owned the place. "I wanted to see if you were ok after your friends visit?" Oh yeah as if last night wasn't enough soul baring for one day I had to tell him about Tasha aswell.

"I'm fine Joseph...Tasha has been sick before so according to her it has been inevitable for this to happen...she seems as close to fine with it as she is going to get. What I am not fine about is your mother showing up at my flat for a 'chat', that is not good Joseph. Apparently she was looking into my past she probably knows more about me than you do at the moment." He just pinched the bridge of his nose and let out a breath I didn't even realise he was holding.

"Look Jac...when everything happened with my father she gave me a file, it turns out she wanted to know the woman who had her husband smitten and willing to throw away a lifetime of memories and family for. She gave me a thick file containing information on you..." What the fuck? Is what he saying true? Why did he want me to tell him everything last night if he already knew? He must have noticed the look of outrage on my face as he held up his hand and grabbed hold of my arms.

"But I never read it. It is gathering dust in my Study. I would never ever betray your trust Jac no matter how pissed off I was at you." He pulled me in for a hug that seemed more for his benefit than mine. I want him to know about me...everything...no secrets.

"I want you to read it Joseph...and if you still want to be with me afterward then so be it. If not I will hand my resignation into Michael first thing." He was shocked to say the least and was looking at me in a way that made me self-conscious. Placing his palm on my cheek he lowered his lips and pressed them against me gently but full of passion, it was a kiss I could feel from the tips of my fingers to the bottoms of my toes.

Next thing I know he was lifting me up as I wrapped my legs around his waist his fingertips searing into my hipbones the passion that was flowing between us was electrifying. As I was pressed against the wall he held my wrists above my head against the wall, this was like a scene from a movie and oh god is his performance OSCAR worthy. His teeth nibbled away at my neck and chest as I run my nails through his hair making it stand on end.

"Oh my god...yes...Joseph...don't stop."He grasped my lips again within his and somehow multi-tasked pulling my top off, kissing my senseless and tipping my closer and closer towards the edge. His breathing was just as laboured as mine was and in that moment the whole world disappeared and all in existance was him, me, us joined together. I know we are meant to be together.

It was three weeks, three weeks since that night with his mother and Tasha sudden reappearance in my life, I was happy and content. Joseph was currently sound asleep beside me in the on-call room of the hospital. We were both fully clothed but I could feel the heat eminating from his body into mine. He read the file with a lot of grumbling I might add, he didn't want to read it but through sheer force I made him, and yet after learning about all the horrible things after me filling in the blanks he was still here with me.

He has made me more happy than I thought I could ever be. All I needed was a miracle for Tasha to get better but if the past few weeks had anything to say about it then it didn't look like that was going to happen anytime soon. She had been admitted to Holby after she had a seizure. According to Joseph judging by her test results it's basically a waiting game.

I have never been a religious person but the past few weeks have seriously messed me up in the head...my best friend is dying I mean she is actually dying and there is nothing I can do. How the hell am I supposed to look after a five year old girl? Tasha made it look so easy. Now she was here in a bed waiting to die...where the hell was the fucking Justice in that?

"Stop it...Jac." His eyes were closed so was he sleep talking? "Stop thinking so hard you are giving me a headache." He peeked open his eyes and gave me a huge smile which in turn caused me to smile. He wrapped his arms around me and nuzzled against my neck. "You are thinking too much." He began kissing the back of my neck and pulling me in as tight as he could into him.

"I can't help it Joseph."His fingertips were gently caressing along my hipbone. "She is my best friend Joseph...how am I supposed to do this, raise her daughter?" He seemed to pull me tighter into him which I didn't think was even possible.

"Sweetheart come on why are you doubting yourself?" In all honesty I had no Idea. Tasha trusted me to do this. I can do this in theory but when it comes down to it what if I panic.

"Look you are not going to be by yourself. I can help you...not that I know anymore about kids than you do but seriously try not to stress too much ok." I just nodded against him as he pressed his lips against the side ok my neck.

About ten minutes later a heard a small knock on the door as Penny Valentine poked her head around the corner, seeing as she walked in on Joseph and I in a rather compromising position a few weeks ago seeing us wrapped around each other wasn't a huge shock but she was the only one who knew about us. Too say she was shocked was an understatement, she just quietly assured us our secret was safe and closed the door behind her. Joseph was fast asleep beside me so I untangled myself from him and walked over to her, it was 2.30am...great.

"I'm sorry Miss Naylor I wouldn't have came to get you but your friend was asking where you were." I only nodded and thanked her before she walked out. Putting on my shoes I walked out towards her room and she looked so small in that bed with Rachel lying sleeping in the bed beside her despite the bed they brought in for her as she refused to leave Tasha's side. Rachel was a very smart little girl she knew what was happening with Natasha and said she wanted to spent as much time with her mummy as she can her words exactly.

"Hey girl I thought you went home." I smiled and shook my head.

"No. I was with Joseph and I'm on call, do you want me to..." I pointed at Rachel, she nodded and I lifted her and placed her into her bed. "How are you feeling?" As I took in her appearance her hair was back from her face which emphasised the dark circles under her eyes.

"I'm as well as can be expected. Come lie down with me please." She sounded so breathless as I ,took off my shoes and lay beside her she scooted over so as I could fit onto the small bed and my back was facing the door behind me. "Do you remember Spain? We tried to get that free ride on the bus by hiding in the bathroom." I laughed as she retold the story.

"Then you fell and we both tumbled out onto the aisle right before we got kicked off two hours before we got to Barcelona and we hitchhiked the whole way there." She smiled at me in a way I hadn't seen in a while. "God I missed you these past few years Tash." We were so comfortable with one another she was more like a sister as well as my best friend. I trusted her with my life and vise versa.

"I don't know how to do this without you Tasha." She was shocked without a doubt.

"Come on Jacqueline Rachel Naylor. I know that without a doubt you can do this." She has more faith in me that I did in me. "She likes it when you rub your fingers through her hair when she's falling asleep. She will always ask you to watch T.V before doing her homework but of course all Homework should be done before any T.V." I could only nod as tears were falling from both of our eyes.

"Ok what else I am gonna need all the help I can get." Again with that damn smile.

"Jackie...all you can do is make sure she knows you love her, you just put her to bed like a natural Jac...I have no doubt you will nail it. She is a smart child like scary smart so I want you to make sure she doesn't grow up like us make sure she follows her dreams ok. She told me not to be scared...earlier on, I wasn't allowed to be scared because she knows how sick I am and that she loves me, but that everything will be ok because she has you to look after her." I put my arms around her as she cried so hard that it was hard to watch. Tasha has always been the strong one out of both of us.

"Sshh I got you...I promise I will not let anything happen to your little girl ok...I promise you." Now we were both crying in each other arms which was rather uncharacteristic of me to be perfectly honest. I wasn't sure how long we were lying there just talking about the biggest pile of crap but we both fell asleep. When I woke up it was 5.00am. I looked over at Rachel she looked so content. I shook Tasha but I wasn't getting any response.

"Tasha...Tasha!" Oh my god! No it wasn't supposed to happen this early.I was literally frozen in Shock for I don't know how long until Penny pulled me into a hug...when did it start raining? I have to get out of here. "Dr Valentine...please take Rachel into the Staff Room and keep an eye on her"

I didn't even wait for an answer before walking like a zombie toward the lift. I could hear Joseph, Elliot and Michael call me in the distance...this is all too much. I can't handle this I wasn't sure why I started to run down the stairs and outside into the rain... but I am sure I was crying, between the tears and the rain on my face I crumbled to the ground.

As I fell my knees buckle in front of the hospital in the grass in the rain I felt Josephs arms wrap around me and pull me into him.

"I can't...how am I...I didn't want her to...I can't..." I probably sound like an idiot but she was my best friend who I loved. "I didn't want her to die alone!" He pulled me in closer and kissed me on the forehead, I could see Linden, Faye, Connie, Elliot and Michael standing at the door of the hospital. Great the Ice Queen has finally cracked. The last thing I want was to cause a scene.

"She wasn't alone Jac you were with her." Technically he was right but I was asleep there was so many things I need to ask her. Next thing I know Joseph was picking me up and carrying passed everybody. "Alright everybody this is not reality T.V. Her misfortune is not for your bloody amusement ok." They all seemed to disperse I wasn't sure what was happening around me as I was being a wuss and hiding my face in Joseph soaked shirt. How the Hell am I supposed to tell a five year old her mother is dead?

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