We've made it to the 10th chapter. I'm so sorry. Life got in the way but be ready for more updates :)

Spencer blinked his tears away, sighing as he laid in the hospital bed.

"You're going to give me high blood pressure one day," he heard but didn't pay all that much attention to. "All these hospital visits will put me off. I want another kid, you know!"

Morgan chuckled at something he read in the magazine he was reading. He glanced over to Spencer who didn't say all that much but had tears falling down his cheeks. Why had he called him, instead of JJ?

"Sav and I are trying for a girl this-"

"Please... don't... talking about children. Not now. Not ever." Spencer whispered, closing his eyes as more tears leaked down his cheeks.

Derek frowned. "Kid, did something happen to the kids?"

"No."

"JJ?"

"She doesn't want any more kids with me."

Morgan sighed. "Oh. But isn't three enough?"

"Yes, but how she told me. She took pregnancy tests today and she was so relieved that they were negative and told me that she didn't want to have any more of my kids in case I died before they were born. Who says that?"

Morgan placed a hand on Spencer's shoulder. "Someone who loves you dearly, Spencer. Could you honestly see JJ as a widow with four or five kids? All alone? If you were to die, I'm saying because right now, you're living to a hundred with me, if you like it or not. We will die together with our women and our kids surrounded by us and we'll have baseball bats and beers in our hands."

"I get where she's coming from but it seems as if she's drifting away from me. That she doesn't love me any more. When we're in bed, it seems forced not loving. It's just to relieve tension, we're not enjoying it anymore. It's an outlet."

Derek nodded, not fazed of the fact that his best friend, his brother, was talking about his sex life. If this were ten years ago, they definitely wouldn't be in this position.

"Spencer, maybe both of you just need time. You've just been given news that the tumour's back so that has put a dent in plans. Future holidays, kids growing up... they seem like an unattainable goal right now and you know what? They are attainable because you're going to get through this again."

"I'm tired. When they release me, can I stay at yours?"

"Reid... my house is your house."

...

JJ closed her eyes. The hospital was thirty-five minutes away and she had no idea how he ended up there and instead of the one closer to home. She figured that she ought to get a little sleep as she knew the night would be long.

"William? I'm just taking a quick nap. Wake me when we get there."

"Of course," her father-in-law replied, making her nod and readjust so she was comfortable.

She frowned when images plagued her mind of their argument. Maybe she was the bad guy in this argument.

"God, Spence! You're so inconsiderate right now! We've just been on a case where two innocent children died and all you want to do is sleep with me?"

Spencer sighed. "Sorry but forget that-"

"I can't because those poor children's parents are suffering right now and-"

"JJ... I found... Well, I found pregnancy tests. Are we...?"

Red flashed in her eyes. "Why have you been going through my things?!"

"I... I wasn't. You had a phone call so I was-"

"You can't go through my things, Spence... And no. We aren't and I'm grateful for that." She mumbled.

"Wait, what?"

She scoffed. "Do you think you're fit to be a father, Spence? Right, now? You can barely pick our children up." She shook her head. "How can we have another baby if you won't be there to witness their birth?"

She saw the hurt flash in his eyes as he looked away from her, swallowing deeply. "Why are we even married then, Jennifer? Why did you marry me in the first place? Why did we have James and Alexandria?" He continued, "Even after the tumour, why did you stay with me during all of that? Why did you say 'yes' when I proposed? Why did you when you knew that there was a high chance that it could return?"

"Spence..."

"You know what? We... This," he pointed between them. "Should never have happened. If Will hadn't died, you'd never have the courage to leave him and move on. You'd be stuck in a loveless marriage just like this one is turning into."

JJ stood there. Unable to reply to all that he had just said. So, she walked away.

"Jennifer?"

"I'm up."

"We're here."

JJ sighed, opening her eyes as the bright lights made her eyes squint in the darkness. "I'm ready."

...

"Dad? What are you doing here?"

William rushed over to his son, enveloping him in a tight hug as he drew a sharp intake of breath. "God, Spencer! Don't you ever... I thought I'd lost you, son."

Spencer patted his father's back, inhaling his warm musky scent. "What are you doing here?"

"Oh, Jennifer came all in tears and fretting all over the place. I have Jasmine and Sandy looking after the kids. Jennifer will be in soon, she just had to get something."

"She's here?"

"Yeah. God, she was so worried, she looked like a mess! Hello, Derek, it's nice seeing you again." William smiled, finally noticing there was another person in the room.

Morgan gave his own warm smile, leaning over to shake the older man's hand firmly. "Hello, sir."

"Right, as soon as you get home I'll hunt down whoever did this to you-"

"Dad, it was my fault. The other driver-"

"Won't stand a chance against me when I take them to court. I have never failed a case in my life, you're in good hands."

Spencer sighed, shaking his head. "Dad, it was my fault. I... I deliberately stopped even though it was a green light."

"No, maybe the car was faulty-"

"Sir,"

William turned to Morgan. "Are you saying that you tried to get yourself killed?"

"I don't know, my marriage has failed so why not?"

William stared back in shock before shaking his head. "I'm going to ignore the fact that you've just said that. That may contradict things in your defense-"

"You are not listening, dad."

"I have heard. And right now, seeing that you're fine, I'm going to go back home and hug your children and tell them that you will be home tomorrow."

Before he left, JJ stumbled in, her coat astray as she held a teddy bear with words of apology written on its shirt.

"Oh, Spence..."

Spencer looked up, JJ finally getting a good look at his bruised eye and cheek from probably hitting the steering wheel.

"Spence..."

"I want a divorce."