Simon sighed as he stood outside Clary's bedroom in the institute.
They never talked like they used to and he had this odd feeling Clary was avoiding him but he'd assured himself that was not the case, why would his best friend do that?
It was ridicules but he still had to talk to her, just to make sure she was alright.
It had been 5 months since Alec's death and only Simon seemed to be showing signs of improvement, Issebelle had told him delighted that Clary had smiled two days ago for the first time.
Issebelle was improving but only when Simon was with her, he was the only one that made her smile and laugh again but when he'd leave she'd go back to being depressed and stressed.
Simon knocked on the door, no one answered.
Simon called "Clary?"
No one answered.
Simon opened the door slowly and peaked inside.
His eyes widened as he saw Clary on her bed, looking tearful as she stared into nothing.
Simon gave a gentle cough and Clary jumped to her feet looking startled, she saw him then Simon felt suprise as she saw fear? Go through her eyes as she looked at him?
Then she looked angry.
Clary snapped "What are you doing here?!"
Simon felt a stab of hurt but he reminded himself, she doesn't realise what she's doing, she's to upset, you can't be angry or disappointed in her for that.
Simon said weakly "I thought you might need a friend?"
Clary then looked pained as she stepped backwards and said sadly "You can't be here, you can't talk to me, no, please, please go"
Simon asked softly "Why?"
Clary stared to tear up as she said her voice trembling and stammering, she sounded verging on hysterical "You remind me, you remind me what happened to him, I tried to stop thinking like this Simon! I really did! but since...since what's happened every time I look at you...it reminds me w-what y-you are, what your k-kind did a-and what happened to Alec...because...because of y-your K-kind"
Simon stepped backwards as a sick disbelieving feeling overwhelmed him, he shook his head replaying her words in his mind, did she really just say that?
He said his voice of pure shock and denial "I...remind you of that Vampire Killer?"
Clary said, her voice shook "I can't help it! I tried to stop! You dont Know whats its like...! Every time I see you, I see the vampire sucking Alec of his blood!"
Simon said moving to comfort her "But Clary, you know I'd never-"
Clary shrank back from him and started to sob "Please just go, I can't look at you! Please..please, spare me of this torment"
Simon gulped down tears and said knowing maybe this was the end of their friendship, how could he be friends with someone who says you remind them of a murder?"
"I'm sorry you feel that way" And with that Simon left feeling like someone had crushed his heart and stabbed a knife in his back.
He went to the kitchen to get some blood that he'd restocked for himself but instead of finding his snack he found a furious looking Jace.
Something told him this encounter would not end well...