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Quick note- this story is set in 2010, not any earlier and not any later. You'll see why you need to know this.

"Destiny!" I rushed over and grabbed her arm, trying not to touch that.... cheerleaders uniform... Oh gawd. "What the hell do you think you're doing?"

She blinked. "Like, going to cheerleading practice. Duh." And in a Valley-Girl accent too!

"Yeaaah, freak." Gabriella turned around and crossed her arms. "Like, Destiny is, like, on our side now. She, like, finally, like, realized that you're, like, a bad influence and an overall, like, bitchy freak."

"Is your voicebox skipping or something?" I hissed angrily before turning to Destiny. "This is going way overboard, Destiny. I understand if you don't want to be my friend, which is probably a good idea in the long run, but DES! Open your eyes! We hate her! Remember what she did to you?"

I was grasping her arm so tight now I was probably leaving claw marks, but I didn't care. How could she do this? "HOW COULD YOU!"

"Go away, freak!" She pushed me off her and onto the ground, then started rubbing her arm. "God."

I sat there for a second, then stood up. I brushed myself off silently, my face blank, then looked at Destiny with a monotone glare, my eyes half closed, then moved my expression to Gabriella. Then I turned on my heel and walked away at a normal pace.

Who needs friends, anyway?

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I never knew I held so much anger, so much hate

I wish I could start over with a clean, new slate

I'd just try to live happier, try not to break

But I guess that's not a path I can take

I can't think these thought, even though they're all that's there

I think I would be worrying everybody, I'm sorry for it all

I'm no Angel; I had no wings, I was bound to fall

Time and time again, I tell myself there's no reason for this

Or maybe the reason is clear, what did I miss?

I think there's a reason for why I wish to die

Maybe there's a reason to why I cry

My head is a mess, the voices are louder

I left them for a minute to look in a mirror

I wiped the tears and blood from my eyes so I could see clearer

But I still don't know the woman who stared back

She was broken, and her soul was black

Is that who I've become, is that who I am?

Well, I guess I've lost my ability to even try to give a damn.

I'm here, and there are promises I don't want to break

I'm not sure how much more of this I can take

Who's it worse for, me or you?

I feel like a bitch because every word of this is true.

I want to turn away, be forgotten over time

I think I'm breaking again, I am not fine...

-Ellesandra C., 2016

Written in blood on the side of a wall

Destiny looked after Elly, a hint of fear in her eyes. She had seen Elly mad, but not like that. It was like the fires of hell were burning within her emerald green eyes.

"Destiny, like, come on!" Gabriella's voice rang through her thoughts, jerking her out quickly. "We're, like, going to be late for practice!"

"Coming!" The once-Goth girl ran after her new 'friends'.

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I went home after the encounter with Destiny. I just couldn't take it anymore. I idly wonder whether to even go to school after now, now that my parents were gone. Of course, they would be coming back, right?

Right?

I was ripped out of my thoughts when somebody knocked on the winder (I was at Devi's house). I glanced over to see Robin peering through. He mouthed, Can I come in?

I thought about just leaving him out there to freeze in the chilly March air, but somehow decided against it. I sighed, walked over and opened the window, then stepped back so he could slip in. He did, but fell over and onto the floor with a bang, making an ass of himself.

"Robin." I said, monotoned.

"Uh, hey, Elly." He stood up, his face red. "Are your parents here?"

"What do you think?"

He cursed. "Elly, I told you that it's best for your parents! And you! You'll go crazy!"

Ha. As if he knew 'crazy'. Wait... He did. Shit.

"You should leave now."

"What?"

"You. Should. Leave. Now." I took a menacing step forward,

"Elly, I'm sorry, I-"

"GET OUT!" I screamed, and he left that room faster than a Robin could fly. Hehe. Puns.

I think that boy likes you... Mayhen laughed.

"Oh, you really think so? I never knew." I said sarcastically, then went into the bathroom.

"Like, Destiny is, like, on our side now. She, like, finally, like, realized that you're, like, a bad influence and an overall, like, bitchy freak."

I growled as I stared in the mirror. My straight black hair was almost down to my chest now, and bangs were getting in my face and covering my bright green eyes.

I went down to the kitchen and grabbed a knife. All our scissors were covered in blood, but for some reason the knives weren't. Wierd.

I walked back to the bathroom and stared at myself in the mirror before grabbing my hair and bunching it into a ponytail.

Skrit

I kept doing that with the rest of my hair until it was all one length. Then, after a moment, I put the blade to my wrist.

Skrit

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The next day, I didn't go out all dressed up. What was the point? I grabbed a black shirt that said 'DO NOT TAUNT' in a white box, black jeans, and my combat boots. After a moment, I grabbed a trenchcoat that Dad had left on the couch.

I actually got to class on time for once, and no one was in my classroom but Todd, Destiny and that one girl Carmen or whatever. I walked past Todd and smiled. He almost fainted; well I did look an aweful lot like Johnny now. Then I slowly made my way to Destiny and her friend. I stopped and coughed. They turned to look at me.

I smiled a very Johnny-like smile.

"Helloooo, girls. Having fun in your perfectly pink pixie world? Destiny, have you smoked yet? Hanging out with a bad crowd can do that to you, you know. But wait..." I put a finger to my cheek, put a hand on my hip and rolled my eyes to the ceiling to stare at it in a very sarcastic pose. "This isn't the 'bad crowd' to you anymore, is it? Ah, well." I shrugged and smiled again, my eyes slits. "Have fun, darling."

I walked away and sat at the back of class and started to read, ignoring their eyes on me. I was reading a book called 'FADE'... It was very good, actually.

After class started, I didn't bother to look up from reading. Near the end, I heard Mrs. Sither walk up to me and stand next to my desk. I turned disintrested eyes to her.

"May I help you?" I asked, keeping my voice and face monotone. I was getting quite good at it, in fact.

"WHY are you reading in class, Ms. C.?" she asked me.

"Well, I'm in the middle of a very good book." I informed her, holding it up. "It's about-"
"I don't care if it's a good book, Elly." She leaned over and I smelled garlic on her breath. "DON'T READ DURING CLASS!" she screamed in my ear.

I stared at her for a moment, then got up and grabbed my bookbag. "Okay then. No problem. I'll just go read outside of class."

And with that, I left

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"Helloooooo, freak." At lunch, I was lucky enough to be visited by Gabriella and Co. And guess who was with them? Destiny, of course! Well, whoop diddly ding dong.

"Helloooooo, freak." I replied. "Or should I say, Freaks."

"Heh, like we're the freaks, you disgusting... uh... FREAK!" one girl piped up.

"Oooh, nice comeback." I shot back. "Where'd you get that? The Cheerleaders Guide to Stupidity?"

"Actually, I did." She smiled, looking proud. "Thank you for noticing!"
I could hit myself with a fish. Idiots. (Elly hates fish)

"You look, like, even more freakier than usual, freak." another girl sneered. "Didja girlfriend dump you?"
I blinked. Then blinked again. "Are you calling me gay?" I asked in astonishment.

"Yes." A smile spread across her face. "Did I hit a weak spot?"

"No, I-"

"Hey everybody!" Gabriella shouted out. "Elly's a fag!" She turned to me."Have fun, faggot." Then she turned and walked away, hips swinging exageratedly. Everyone in the lunchroom was staring at me, most laughing and the rest yelling out, "Fag!" or asking me not to ask them out- those were girls, FYI.

I put my head on the table. Could this day get any worse?

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Turns out it could. There was a pop quiz in every class in the afternoon, and I failed every one. Then I had to stay after school because I broke some seniors arm, ribs and both legs for trying to rape me. I was actually pretty lucky not to be sent to jail for that.

I left school rather late that afternoon- the sun was even starting to set. As I was walking down my street, I saw someone familiar- Gabriella. She was walking toward me-alone- to a friends house, I guessed. Or to some boys house. Apparently she had a new boyfriend- I think his name was Torque. Last week it was Damien, and the week before Kenny, and the week before- well, you get the picture.

All the rage from the beginning of my time at Jhonen V. High welled up inside me as I ducked behind a house. As I looked to my right and into a nearby trashcan and saw a half-full bottle of nail polish remover, an idea came to mind, with a bit of help from Mayhem. I slowly picked it up and doused the trench coat sleeve in it, balling it up in my fist so the wet part was facing outward. Just as she walked by me, I jumped out and stuffed it in front of her face. She struggled for a moment, and was too stupid to stop breathing. Nail Polish remover isn't that strong when it comes to making people faint, but she started to hypervenalete, making her breath more in, and she was soon limp. I smiled to myself and dragged her the rest of the twenty feet to Johnny's house. She barely ate at all, so she was pretty light- but I didn't work out, so she was still hard to carry. Just as I closed the door, she came to and started to scream, so I whapped her on the head with a vase. That shut her up pretty fast.

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After the weekend, I skipped school until the end (it was Monday). I sat outside until the students started to come out. I waited until Destiny and the others came out, then walked up to them. I was happy to hear that they were talking about Gabriella- her parents had reported her missing that morning.

"Hi, guys," I put on an innocent expression, "Have you seen my good friend Gabriella? I haven't seen her lately..."

They stared at me, and I shrugged. "Oh, well. I just hope she isn't... hurt."

And then I turned and walked home.

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Notes-

-GREEN EYES WILL BECOME IMPORTANT LATER! I'M DON'T KEEP POINTING OUT HER EYE COLOR FOR NO REASON!

-I'm advertising myself now, because I'm selfish! Go visit my Deviantart and admire my art! Hopefully, a picture of Elly will be up there... Soon...

-Where are Kenny and Damien from? Points if you can tell me!