What Am I Doing?- A Vampire Knight Fanfiction.
Disclaimer: Refer to Cappie One!
Warning: This chappie has what you've all been waiting for. You should figure out what the warning's for... Hope it's good. (KanamexZero lemon in case you're dumb) X3
Author's Notes: Well, thanks for pushing the little arrow thingy to read this one! XDDD And I hope you enjoy this chappie as well, because I'm sure you're dying to know what's gonna happen! Me, too! XDDDDDDDD
Oh, and I know that this chappie is called ' What I Am Doing' and not 'What Am I Doing?'
This is the last chappie so it's got the oppposite title of the story or somethin' dramatic like that, but wait until you read the ending A/N's to whine. XD
Enjoy!
Chapter 9- What I Am Doing
Kaname (a few days later)
He hadn't been attending class and people are concerned.
And I watch Yuki get trampled by the Day Class girls, because he isn't there.
He's locked himslef in his room, I know, and Ichiru is still lurking around, but I don't care.
My grades are falling and my work is piling up.
And I'm not paying attention in school, because I'm worried about him.
I'm feeling guilty and with good reason, while Nezumi rubs against me, but I wish he'd stop.
I miss Zero and perhaps I'm being selfish, but I think he misses me, too, and that's why he's holed up in his dorm room. But he can't blame it all on me. I'm not the one letting myself get molested by my little brother. Ah, and yes I know that mine is being incestual, too. I'm not retarded. Sure he's all over me, but he's not in my pants and jamming his tongue down my throat. And if he did, he would receive a nice punch to the face.
Oh, but my Zero... I long for him much more than before we got together. I've felt him, talked to him, and owned him, and now I know what I'm missing. Whereas before, I could only imagine. But now, I'm hurting his heart, which is killing me, as well. Now I must come crawling back to him and hope he's not gonna give me what I deserve: nothing.
"Zero...?"
He didn't respond as I knocked on his door and called for him, both actions done gently. Still hearing nothing at all, I tried the knob. Lucky for me, it was actually unlocked and I opened it, stepping inside. It wasn't two seconds after I closed the door that a moist Zero came out of the bathroom holding a towel around his waist. Jesus... and he wondered why I only had physical contact when I saw him. I gulped, trying not to lose it, and averted my eyes to look around the room. It was neat and clean, but the feeling in here was solomn. It felt like the room of a person who has long since died and the people kept it dusted even though no one lives here anymore. A lifeless room. Zero was lifeless...
"Kaname. What is it?" he said- no feeling in his voice from what I could hear. Clicking the lock closed, so no one would bust in during my apology, I came farther into the room. It was night, so there most likely wasn't anyone walking around the dorms, but still. I was skipping class, too, but oh well.
"I'm here to talk to you..."
"Ok. Go ahead. I'm listening."
...He seemed angry. But I nodded and came closer to him; he didn't move at all when I got within a foot of him. I was so close I could feel his body heat pulsing out and I could see the individual droplets of water sliding down his creamy, smooth skin like it was the finest of silk. I looked down into his clear, silver eyes and wondered if the wetness pooled on the bottom lid were tears or bath water.
"I'm sorry I got mad at you, Zero. And I'm sorry I didn't trust you... I was just pissed off at that moment."
"Hm," was all he said as his eyes locked fearlessly with mine. Well, this didn't look like it was working and I really didn't plan what I had to tell him.
I put a hand behind my head nervously and looked over somewhere else. I mumbled, "You know... even married people have arguements. They call them lover's spats and I still love you. And you know what else?" I got an idea as to what to say, finally, and I turned back to him. His expression seemed interested in what I had to say and it looked like he was coming around. Thank God- I would die at this point without him.
So I continued, "So Ichiru loves you. I mean, who wouldn't? Look at that body and face..." He smiled beautifully and blushed while I kept going, "And he knows how you think. He knows those wonderful and amazing thoughts of yours, I believe. It's not fair... I don't and I want to know..."
"You want to know what I'm thinking right now?"
"...Yes."
"I think that I forgive you, but I was going to come grovel at your feet first, you know."
A grin burst onto my face and I jumped onto him, wrapping my arms around him, and pulled his wet body against me tightly. I was so sure he would've kicked me out...
I pulled back and gave him a well-needed (on my part) kiss. It was just a sweet little kiss, but when we parted he had that look in his eye and we had another kiss, which turned from sweet to dirty in a heartbeat. His tongue was poking around in my mouth for a little before I pulled away and nipped at his mouth saying, "You wanna try again?"
"Yes," he whispered lustily. He gets so horny, so fast.
Good thing all I had to do was take off my pants and remove the towel from Zero. We got to it much quicker. I had Zero on his back and was kissing down his neck while he was panting already. I smirked while I sipped at the water drops on his skin and his nails were scratching at my back frantically. Impatience... at least my shirt was protecting me from his fingernails. ;
"Kaname... come inside of me..."
"Zero, do you want foreplay or what?" I laughed quietly against his stomach. When he didn't answer I sat up and saw the pout on his face. I sighed with a smile.
"You don't. You're such a naughty boy..."
I watched the soft grin tug at his lips and leaned down to steal it with a kiss. I loved him so much... but those nails!
"Quit clawing at me! Jeez..."
I gave a false look of scorn and he whined, "But I--"
"No, I've got an idea."
I reached over him and grabbed my pure red necktie from the bed and snapped it out in front of me for emphasis. He understood and whimpered as he put his wrists out. So I tied them together and put them over his head. I sat back to take in my work.
Sexy. Provocative. Perfect.
"Ok... Oh, one more thing... Zero, do you have any--"
"Bottom drawer."
" Hahaha...Of course."
Thoroughly coating myself and my fingers I tossed the lubricant somewhere behind me and inhaled deeply.
"Now then... Zero Kiryu, are you sure? I don't want you to start crying or something..."
He smiled brightly like he wasn't tied up naked and sprawled out in front of a pureblood vampire and said, "Yes, yes. And I know you'll be careful."
"I will. I will."
I raised myself up on my knees and propped his legs on my shoulders then lowered myself again and watched his face while I readied my fingers at his entrance. I always imagined him on his back when I did this. I want to see his face while I made love with him, because that's what this was. Making love. Of course, I'll do it from behind, too. That's more fun.
"Okay..."
I gently, yet swiftly, so I didn't draw out the pain, pushed one finger into him. I felt his muscles tense and I whispered, "Relax..."
"I...I am," he growled. I tried not to laugh at him. He acts so tough...
I added another slick finger and spread it from the first to start stretching him out. When his muscles softened again I added two more fingers at once. I'm sure it would've only needed one more, but just to be safe. Zero whimpered and I wiggled my fingers around to complete the stretching process. If he thought this hurt...
I pulled all fingers out and I waited until he opened his eyes to smile and say, "Ok. Ready?"
He huffed and said, "Stop asking and come on..."
"You're painfully adorable sometimes."
I positioned myself and slowly inched into Zero. My hardened length invading him made his whole body tense and I stopped and waited for him to relax again. I heard his breathing quicken and his blood pumping wildly through him. It was silent for the most part while we both concentrated to get the less pain. He softened up once more and I pushed again going much deeper than the first time. He moaned my name making me shudder. His fingers tightened around themselves over his head and he arched his back up.
"Kaname... it's fine... It's starting to feel good."
I nodded with a reassuring, comforting smile and finished pushing in. I couldn't hit his spot at the moment, but the next time I would, because I was not going to go that slow anymore. I knew Zero could handle it. So I slid out, getting a sigh from Zero and I smirked sadistically, thrusting back in faster, not stopping until I went all the way in. He cried out, but didn't protest. Once more and I would hit it...
I came out and this time when I pumped in, harder, I hit his spot and he gasped and even I could feel the wave of pleasure that rocked through his body. Ok, well, he seems ready, and I was craving release myself, so...
I bent my head to kiss him, stealing his pants as he stole mine and I felt his legs come up to wrap around my waist. Almost no part of us didn't touch at that moment. Zero managed to raise his bound hands to loop around my neck to keep me down. He moaned into my mouth as I went in and out of him easily now, striking the spot deep inside of him. I felt my climax coming and I wondered if he would, too. I seperated from his mouth and buried my face in his sweat-glazed neck, groaning. I gritted out his name as I felt his hips move to meet my erratic thrusts. He learns quick.
With one particularly, well-timed ram, I sighed in pleasure when I came in him, and he also cried out my name in ecstasy. I felt something splash all over my stomach and realized my love had released with me.
I collapsed on top of him after his legs fell weakly from my hips.
"Oh God... Kaname. That was... just amazing... We should do that more often..." he breathed, exhausted.
"I would love to. ...Are you ok?"
He laughed tiredly, "No. My ass is killing me."
We both lay, wrapped around each other, laughing quietly.
This is what I want to do. This is what I am doing. Loving Zero.
Ichiru
"Kuran-kun was it...?"
"Yes. But I will call you Ichiru, so you may call me Nezumi."
It felt kind of weird, being on first name basis without honorifics, but I guess it was fine. This kid was kinda cute, for Kaname's brother.
"So... how are we gonna seperate our brothers?"
Author's Notes: Well! This is the last chappie of What Am I Doing?, but I am making a sequal, as you can probably tell by the last few lines. Dun, dun, duuuunnnnnn! Ichiru and Nezumi are now in cahoots! (I luff that word! ) I won't be starting right away, because I want to start on a KH ficcy.
There's the lemon! There's the lemon! It kinda sucked, I think, but you can review. Y-You will review right? It's the final chappie! You gotsta! ;-; ::whimper::
Thank you for reading everyone! Keep a lookout for the sequel!
Anata ga ichiban!! 3